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  1. Gaps in memory. I had a woke ass 8th grade teacher and he made the school year special and I miss him. Leo ♌️ reminded me of the teacher I once trusted. Abandonment sucks. But we are all in the hall of mirrors or In The realm of hungry ghosts.
  2. I’m confused 🤷 I don’t like vaush
  3. I’m moving and everything was done thru a rental app and I paid the rent and deposit but never got the keys yet. And it worries me that I never met with a human being. And I have a fear instilled in me with Muslim names. I’m ashamed but if I’m honest yes I’m more scared of Muslim names than I am of American names.
  4. @commie my new landlord is middle eastern. Again don’t hate me but yes I’m afraid I just got scammed.
  5. @Hardkill don’t hate me I don’t want to be paranoid or ignorant. I have trust issues. I wonder if the right wingers are right and the conspiracy theories have substance. Not Q. I’m talking about Russia and China pulling the strings. Sam Vaknin made a post in Russian and I got all freaked out. I got all freaked out when Leo mentioned he was Russian. Like I’m infected with that fear of communism. What do I do about it? Lol
  6. What about early traumatic events and lack of the perception of love? What if you got complex ptsd or something and you understand the spiral intellectually and you personally observed the people and yourself play out all the vMemes? Is it lazy? Or is it overwhelming? What if one has very high standards for their self and are their own worst enemy? Music, sounds, smells, facts, perceptions and perspectives of those facts? What if they take you back in time against your will. Intrusive thoughts. Rapid thoughts. Even music and Tibetan bowls coukdnt slow these vicious cycles of thoughts. What counts and what does not count as hard work? Cuz what is hard work to you maybe not be hard work for me. What is fun for you might be hard work for me. Cuz it’s all relative right? I’m out of my mind and I’m sober.
  7. Also I didn’t say I had a goal to be a socialist. I just agree we need socialism to balance out the inequality. And I have two jobs. One job is 17.50. The other job pays only $13. I take care of 3 dependents. At the end of each month I’m only able to save like $200. And I’m considered well off in my neighborhood. What is populism? Why don’t you just tell me what you think instead of picking a part what I have to say? I don’t want to have to work two jobs just to get by. I had a shit childhood and I don’t want my son to live in poverty so I work a lot. But then I barely have time for my family cuz I’m always exhausted after 16 hour shifts making beds and wiping wrinkled ass. Although I love my job, I just want more time with my family. I only get to come home to eat and sleep. The rest of my life is work .
  8. You answered my question with another question! What about the people above the current system decide to manipulate the oligarch manipulators? I just want to get everyone on the same page. I’m learning as much as I can. I’m doing a lot of cramming and thinking the last 3 years. The wealth inequality disgusts me. It upsets me that I paid more taxes than Donald Trump’s lousy $750 in 2016.
  9. Is it possible to have libertarian communism and authoritarian capitalism? right now Americans don’t have a real democracy. Our democracy is an illusion. We need term limits on government positions, rank choice voting, and we should get money out of politics. We need to regulate all the safety nets they deregulated starting with the Nixon era. I learned that money buys the media and the politicians. Money deregulated environmental regulations, business regulations, it’s all above my expertise. American politicians are completely out of touch with the bottom of the hierarchy. And vice versa. How is this a free market? Look at the wealth concentration! lol 😂 it’s laughable. Like Africa. China is gonna develope Africa the way we developed China and we have the audacity to demonize China for using American playbook.
  10. @commie What? It went over my head. What are your beliefs? Capitalism is a fucked up system without healthy doses of socialism. Healthy (heavy) taxation on the billionaire class and those tax dollars should be put into social programs that help build communities and lift people out of poverty. I believe it would do us all justice to try and rebuild communities in our metropolitan areas. The churches used to do that but religion is in steady decline. Family oriented values are in steady decline. Grandma gets put into expensive nursing homes because families don’t have time to take care of their parents. In China, it was a cultural norm to support your aging parents until death and in return the aging parents would raise their grandchildren while they go to work but that is also declining in China as the new generations are born into orange society in urban areas. Capitalism is an exploitive system. Laborers do the work and the investors and managers get to send jobs over seas or automize and eliminate jobs. I like Richard Wolffs ideas of democratizing the CEO positions in large companies. Or co-ops. Where the unions or workers get to vote on leaders who will keep the laborers best interest in mind. Capitalism as it is right now does not care about humans. It emphasizes profit, growth, and efficiency over people. It’s sad cuz Jeff bezos could not run his corporation alone. All the workers, even the people at the bottom helped him get to where he’s at. The least he can do is invest in his employees. Capitalism rewards exploitation. And they have all the wealth to control the “free market” and they have the wealth to buy politicians and Lobbyists. The rich class has been chipping away at the unions, regulations, and taxation on the rich for decades. The boomer generation has generational trauma or ptsd from communism and socialist ideas which is bullshit. That’s the key way to maintain a healthy capitalist social hierarchy. Please explain to me your point of view. Capitalism is on life support. I work 60 hours a week at $17.50 an hour as a CNA. My rent is $1400 a month for a two bedroom apartment 750 sq feet in Chicago Illinois. The public schools I went to were low quality. I was privileged to have experienced highschool in rural Wisconsin and it was like a whole other country. Culture shock for sure. Class sizes were 12 kids compared to 32 students in Chicago. The small school had brand new computer rooms and gyms. The quality of education was extremely different. It’s very complex.
  11. @commie I have a conservative client who listens to right wing audiobooks, gets his news from Fox, CBN Pat Robertson 700 club, and EWTTN live Catholic. I was an atheist democrat most of my life. After working there I’m more of a independent socialist agnostic. What I agree with Sam Vaknin was how civilizations osalate back and forth between Feudalism and Capitalism. Under Feudal systems the peasants become reliant on their family and religion for survival. Capitalism promotes narcissism and selfishness and concentrates wealth at the top until it collapses back into Feudalism from wage stagnation, social immobility to move up in class in the social hierarchy. Capitalism is more secular and it emphasizes individuality over family. Work more hours and have less time for family and religion. Richard Wolff is another economics Professor on YouTube who makes these claims as well. This is why it was logical in my brain. This is why I love Spiral Dynamics. I like to think of human social/wealth structures/ hierarchies. I’m family oriented and society is like the macro level family. Capitalism just goes against family values. In Feudalism, family and religion is needed to cope with the harsh reality of not being able to improve your life and move up the hierarchy. We are headed into a Neo Feudalism. I recommend this book. And I thought this little pic was cute 😆.
  12. Lmao thanks. I guess I just like to brainwash myself every once in a while . Na. I enjoy perspectives and ideas. Thanks to everyone for commenting. Whoa! I had no idea, thanks for doing the research for me .
  13. Im probably late on the Sam Vaknin band wagon. I’m curious, do you think he really had the highest IQ? Are his perspectives legit? I think I have Complex PTSD and narcissism so I been watching his psychology stuff. But I was surprised he talks about finances and government . What do you guys think of his insights? I don’t want to be mislead cuz I like what he says, it seems logical in my mind. But I understand I’m not the sharpest tool in the shed. thanks in advance for your take if you decide to share.
  14. This video of Sam Vaknin changed my mind about narcissism.