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So... all the "atrocities" of this world make none of you flinch? The intellectual realizing of all is one is maddening... as in.. I'm responsible for EVERYTHING and everyone's problems, but... everyone is equally to blame. The Holocaust, rape, murder, babies being abused by baby sitters.. how can I or we or whatever the fuck!!! U .. and u is in fuck... havery self acceptance.. it makes me nauseous I'm.. hyper ventilating... I'm gonna poplay and puke like neo from the matrix. WHAT I have done to myself is atrocious..

This might sound stupid as shit but oh well... I bought the booklist and looked under account... I looked under the tabs and couldn't find it. Help

@Natasha yeah pretty much I need to hit the nail on the head. ... If I realize who I am .. I'm gonna be the only one here... Does everyone realize who they are once I do? .. Like.. Thee god or some shit

@charlie2dogs im not just talking about me.... I'm talking about you too.....

I'm all over the god damn place, like.. seriously half of the time figuratively I don't know wtf I'm doing. But uhh... I might get it Leo is certainly helping my chances Tips on structure would be greatly appreciated.

Please look up ample meal replacement It contains many organic ingredients non gmo and gluten free HAS amazing healthy foods such as Spirulina chlorella wheat grass and a shit load of other nutritional items for your body and in my opinion beats the shit out of soylent I wont say much other than that...don't wanna sell anybody shit so go look it up It just might help you immensely Sent with logical love <3 I would love to see what Leo thinks of it It would make my mind jazz

@Consept Look Up Ample food meal replacement .. totally organic ingredients You will not regret it! Please do as I think this will help you immensely and it will satisfy me to help you. They are on indie gogo and potentially could be a life saver Think soylent but all natural kick ass ingredients

@BeckoningCat Know who your speaking too Example My grandpa is set in his ways He wouldn't hesitate to kill me if I challenged his world view to the max Blend in with the zombies the best you can!

@Friend Leos recommendation of strong determination has helped me a lot My body let's all that frustration out because I don't allow it to move.. all the anxiety and weird shit is magically vented I highly recommend you watch Leo's video about strong determination sitting and maybe couple it with do nothing.

Simply put Knowing who I am

@Leo Gura I'm very curious as to how a Samadhi experience coupled with an orgasm would go ?

Found a useful technique against my mind to battle off what it thinks it knows I learned this from Leo Why is it true? But Instead of waiting for my mind to come up with something to say to ask why is it true I repeatedly assault my mind with the why is it true question because I think now my mind recognizes with that question that nothing can be verified as truth with my thoughts or feelings, or is at the very least convinced of it being so. Even if my mind comes up with something in between the mantra of why is it true, it is almost instantly countered as non truth I suppose. I have shut my mind up pretty well with this If you do undertake this technique I recommend you first learn to counter your mind progressively by starting slow until you are convinced that there is no truth in your thoughts. Than assault it with this question non stop as it snapped me out of my delusional state for a bit.. And I'm pretty fucked up! ---- concept .. heh Hope this helps someone as it has helped me Mr. Nobody

How am I suppose to know the truth when I don't even know what's going to happen when I die? I am guessing the proposal is that I can find out empirically, which I think I have but I don't know...so that must mean I don't have true enlightenment I think what I have is an intellectual understanding of enlightenment, which is no enlightenment at all because everything I understand is a belief So am I to keep my "faith" or.....take my faith away... because myself is telling myself that I have to dispose of every belief 24/7 .. but consequently I think that will damage me because I am in a toxic environment with my family being extreme extroverts..they are constantly wanting to experience life instead of turning in..so I am in quite the pickle right now due to the situation that I'm in.. so... I think renouncing my busy stupid life would be the "proper" way to go..Leos video..until I find the truth... but if I do that..relationships within the family will possibly cease to exist... I have tried to negotiate with my wife to go to a meditation retreat, however there is a lot going on at the moment which makes it impossible..I know it's not impossible but it seems impossible..I don't want to hurt to my wife actually.. even though the hurt does theoretically not exist...but she doesn't understand that due to us having different paths in life... she is a catholic and I am .. I don't know really So I need help..... So anyone with any advice, it would be appreciated P.S. ONLY FOR PEOPLE WHO UMM WONT JUDGE TOO MUCH.. umm go ahead and read it nevermind I don't care and I get this strange feeling that my grandpa is deranged... he ..somehow is projecting that he is Yahweh I think I uhh.. get that vibe...... He is alone .. quite often.. but he does not meditate.. So... is he crazy or ... does he seriously think that? I'm not sure ..I know this sounds crazy, but I thought this was the best place to actually express this because... his vibe is .. unnatural ... I think he just has very strong anger issues....CRAZY RIGHT!?!?!?!?!?!??!? EITHER THAT OR ITS ME BEING REALLY SICK... I CANT FREAKING TELL.. BUT WHAT I DO KNOW I THINK IS THAT WHEN HE IS AROUND ITS THE ONLY WAY IT HAPPENS.. SO I THINK HES SICK... lolol ... OR I AM FUCKING OUT OF MY MIND!!!!! lolol.... Either way..advice would be appreciated and.. how do you block someones vibe if that's even possible? Because he's fucking nuts... everytime he speaks it's like.. fucking poison when he doesn't get his way.. it's..disgusting.

@Leo Gura I do not think your name was Leo on accident. Thank you for the divine advice Leo Guru

@99th_monkey thank you... i was feeling crazy but its a concept lol...need to put my child in daycare than ill have like 4 hours to meditate or whatever without disturbances.

@charlie2dogs lololol thank you, ive been wanting to take a break but... morality kicks my ass when i think of poverty around the world, but tommorrow i will just do this. at 2 minutes sounding far from nuts comment reminded me of this lol... if you would like fastforward to 2 minutes lol

Barley Grass and Spirulina can be a very effective heavy metal detox combo Heavy Metals are supposedly contained in many of the foods in America Would be wise to do a heavy metal detox and feel the major difference that I think it would produce.\ Chlorella is also called green algae and is commonly used in Japan to treat a variety of health conditions Going to do this myself

http://www.livestrong.com/article/413828-signs-symptoms-of-kelp-overdose/ A good source of iodine, which the body does not produce, but needs can come from these 2 items I personally use Dulse Powder to get my iodine needs in, although I'm not sure if its right on the target I figure if I get it in through my meals it's alright, however I have heard 2 tablespoons of dulse powder and water can fulfil the iodine needs from a source I'd rather not mention due to it sounding like I'm trying to sell something lol If you want the Dulse Powder or the source of my information about Dulse powder than just give me a message or on my journal and I'll let you know through a message, not sure about the rules about posting a website that sells stuff.

PHYSTICAL TRAITS that attract the ladies http://www.techinsider.io/women-find-men-with-these-traits-attractive-2016-5 I'm going to be working on getting that stubble lol

I need help finding a detox kit that will help cleanse my body of heavy metals and parasites...maybe even more that I'm not aware of and I'm wondering if anyone has any suggestions because I could use the help...having a kid that runs around the house like a chicken without a head is really hard to deal with, and other things not mentioned.

@zasa joey Simply...everything you're going through isn't you, and you are the most divine beautiful being to have ever existed. It may seem like you are crap and your life is, but it's all a lie... you are the most beautiful being, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY. If you need to talk message me and I will talk <3

Yeah to meet her would be awesome, she... gives me a willy And... she is awesome and cute and giggles cute That and I'm sure she could school me on quite a few things..something I wouldn't mind at all

Thank you everyone for your wonderful responses, I will be going with the Chlorella/Spirulina combo with this parasite kit from ogranic olivia Will be checking out the info on Pomegranat Giving up the junk funk hopefully, and I hope I don't see some long ass worm come out of me because it will freak me the fuck out lol

So in my head.. if my daughter is a thought... she doesn't exist... my world view I guess.. If Michael is a thought.. I don't exist.. if fred or victor is a thought or a computer screen is thought... Everything around me.. does not exist..nor do I All that left is "nothing" when my mind is silent.. so everything must be nothing. =( This is my new and current perspective... I AM NOTHING.. YET EVERYTHING AROUND ME IS NOTHING.. NOTHING EXISTS FOR ME...... now I only need to experience this nothingness for a very long time to realize it.. So if uhh.. nothing exists.. when I'm fucking... sitting here infront of my computer screen... nothing is behind it.. when my wife and daughter are out.. they don't exist..holy shit.... So if I'm part of the nothing...everything else is part of the nothing... than we're all one I think... TOO BAD I ONLY UNDERSTAND THIS INTELLECTUALLY... So from my understanding the world doesn't fucking exist until I encounter it..... it's in a nothingness state....until I'm there? Still looking for a full experience of the nothingness ..had a moment of it ..the unexplainable but I'll try concentrate

@Henri lolol right? .. but if I don't make myself aware that I'm in an illusion of the "self" "I" ... I get lost in it.. like... I say in my head Individual thoughts .... than .... to know that each thought stands by itself... but .. It's like going back and forth from realizing I don't exist to THINKING I exist.. suggestions?