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Thank you all for your advice Will be trying the talking to myself technique and showing myself love, me in a corner or something.

@Grasshopper Ahh well thank you for your input

@Pinocchio ty brightened me up with some tears

@electroBeam I don't know if I know anything is where I'm at, for all thoughts are beliefs upon more beliefs.

What is time wasting if it is true we are an eternal or eternal beings. No such thing I have a feeling I'll have many many many experiences that will be coming forth.

@Lha Bho What is the meaning of the dragon eating its own tail? It looks very unhealthy

@Lucifer @Lucifer Are you a follower of Lucifer, you remind me of a double edged sword, except on one side your blows are deceptively soft but are not. The other side...boy you can be extremely blunt as if you get irritated easy off what you considered to be ignorance lmao I like you

@Lucifer Lmao Wtf Luci?

I knew about this a long time ago Check out this episode IT WILL BE A GOOD LIFE LESSON FOR YOU If I come off as cocky I make no apologies When you search for the light the darkness gets stronger I guess

@Lucifer Ouch... that was a hard hitter Shit.. you had to break my comfort zone Thank you I guess ... umm fuck...

If reincarnation is true, I'll get another one It's not like I will miss out on any experience now, that I will probably have later I'm eternal.. right?

Ignore her until she contacts you to see if she even cares to even see how you are, but don't message or pick up right away. Get back to them on YOUR TIME, not theirs If she never gets back, dump her... Tell her its over Tell her why and be honest, than say goodbye CLOSURE

Do What Thou Wilt

A human has value if you believe it does, but just because you believe it does, does not mean it is the truth, however Rooted in that just as someone believes Jesus is the one truth, you can easily fool yourself you know the truth, but truth "I believe" is never subjective, of course I'm not sure myself. I've heard this saying that says, your existence is enough for your value, than again what about the alternative of being trapped here? What's the best way to keep an immortal something that cannot be destroyed? Make them forget who they are and believe a truth that suits the abuser, of course this is just a THEORY. If it is a cop out write that question down, and list the reasons why you think it's a cop out, maybe that will help YOU SAID "I went from being dependant on my mother to idolizing my husband and becoming dependant on him. Putting him up on a pedestal for his accomplishments and ignoring myself." Please please please don't do that...You are worth it, you deserve to feel good from my POV... Address your needs for we all have them A good idea is to not put anyone on higher ground, what helps me(I KNOW IT MIGHT BE KINDA WACKY TO SOME) but I picture the person shitting or farting and it makes me laugh...heh TRULY IF ALL IS ONE, THAN NO PART IS GREATER THAN THE OTHER...FOR WITHOUT THE FEET THE LEGS COULD NOT WALK.. WE ARE ALL NECESSARY. "Nobody has ever really cared about me. Want to know the truth? Every single person only cares about what they can get from you."This might sound funny, but I care, because I know what it feels like to be abandoned.... I'm here if you need me Bullshit on nobody cares... you don't know if nobody cares, you've just grown up in a harsh environment where you THINK nobody cares. Oh and... so if BOTH OF YOU GAIN something from it, the relationships you choose to enter, I guess you both care to gain something from it hmm? Just a thought I CARE! .. one can care... one cannot, one does not know if they care, one does not know if they know they care Choose thy path =)

@Philip Reminds me of a game called Neverwinter Nights 2: Mask Of The Betrayer He has to feed, but if he feeds for too long he will die and the infection of the beast or curse that is within him will consume him Thanks for that, reminds me of myself in some form or another

My daughter

@Galahad Do you get the metaphor though? I find it hilarious that... I believe we all go through fighting through a beast that is within us all And it acts like a child! Made me crack up

My suggestion is find out what vitamins and minerals you are lacking by Getting one of those blood tests that will find out exactly what you are lacking than, Get what you are lacking for a foundation.

I have a feeling this will eventually happen

@Galahad Religion was crammed down my throat, might throw me into a frenzy from within similar to the kid who had his WoW account taken This one

@Ayla Another addiction for another.....huh.....I guess It feels real good though so what's wrong with it even if it was true?

Maybe, maybe not Depends on who you're talking too I like the insecure ones, pretty hot Building them up to be confident is an amazing feeling Laying them can be hot too, but I wouldn't know too much about it as I've only laid only one hot girl from my POV

I think honestly I think I don't know

@Ayla Your picture me scares me... lmao cracked mind comment made me laugh, like I'm some text book example rofl Okie dokie... well as soon as I'm done playing Skyrim and hiding from this pain that I don't really wanna deal with because if I do I feel like I'll die physically, I'm going to continue this mini vacation and concentrate on just meditating a half hour a day for now. Plan to get on a diet Monday and I think I'm going to do it this time like I quit cigarettes, I have the will and determination to do so now I think I quit Soda and Energy drinks so... IM GONNA DO THIS I THINK...YEAH WAY TO GET PUMPED UP... It's funny how in gyms they always tell each other YOU CAN DO THIS.. YEAH I CAN DO THIS I would be the type to pump myself up by saying I CAN DO THIS YEAH.. i think... lolol Off topic? Oh well I cracked Time to go hide this "fact" and game some more because I'm a chicken shit....MAYBE.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

@Galahad I puked fooling myself that god didn't like me, but if I used "mind" that would seem like the truth, if god doesn't like me...all this time looking for god,I don't know what I would do...but that's just another belief I guess.