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Hell yeah man, stick to it

Yeah it is pretty sudden I gotta admit. In its entirety though, it isn't that bad. There is a sever flu outbreak every few decades, this is no surprise.

Here are some Ceramic sculptures I made back in the day. ( Please don't be offended by the swastika, I just like history ) I apologise for the shit picture quality, lol

Suffered from the same shit, man. POCD is like mental CANCER. ( FAR easier to fix, however ) I knew that a therapist wouldn't be able to help, so I just focused on learning about OCD and catching my thoughts early, before the compulsions became consistent. The hardest part is stopping yourself from "checking", and doubting if it is just OCD. ( Trust me, it is just OCD. ) If you want some more help shoot me a message, I am definitely an expert in this field.

A product of amazing effort and commitment, wow.

Just love him regardless. You're bound to develop past the people you love while on this path, and it's only natural to want to bring them with you. This rarely works, and older people tend to refuse to hear the truth when they have lived their whole lives thinking they are doing things the right way. And if you are going to try and change him anyway, do it in a subtle manner, and make a good example of how living a conscious life is far more happy and rewarding.

There is no external negativity. Something "horrible" could happen, and if you chose to view that something neutrally, or even as if it were a good thing, it would longer be horrible.

You were Mr Incredibles mask?

I try to patiently observe their behaviour, as there is much to learn from suffering. If it is a loved one, I still do this, while also being emotionally supportive and empathetic. This also enhances my own ability to feel, and to love. There is also no reason to feel someones suffering, which is especially common when you care for the person deeply. It wont help you to help them, Instead, just try to understand their suffering. And if they are taking the stress out on you, don't take it personally, Just calmly observe.

I'm pretty new to contemplating, just did about 40 mins on my first topic: "What is meaning?". Here is some of the stuff I got down ( I wouldn't want to bore you with every sentence and idea I wrote ), please let me know if I am falling into any traps or doing something wrong. I want to remove any bad habits before I get too into it. My drink bottle beside me, is MEANT to be drank out of. The word "Solar" on a poster I have means something 'of the sun' Is meaning somethings fundamental reason for existing? However, both words and drink bottles are human creations. Therefore, might meaning also be a human construct? My meaning in life is to self-actualize and integrate this into a military career. Is meaning something people use to justify the existence of things? However, dogs seem to experience meaning. If I was to yell at my dog, the yelling ( to my dog ) means aggression / danger. And, as I look around my room as an observer, without identifying or thinking about any of the things I see, they do not have any meaning to me. Possible answer: Meaning is the correlation that is made between something and its fundamental purpose. E.g: Me and my LP A drink bottle and its role as a container A word, and the reason that word exists. E.g: "Scary" exists to describe something that may induce fear. Now, replace "exists to describe" with "meaning" A man yelling at a dog, and the dog relating that to an act of aggression/danger. The meaning of yelling to a dog is danger / agression. ( I use dog as an example to debunk my idea that meaning must be a human construct ) Anyway, am I on the right track? Should I try to contemplate for longer so I can go deeper, or is this ok? Any advice or pointers would be greatly appreciated!!

Just remember that ADHD doesn't change the One that you are. You might need to put in some extra effort, but eventually you will find clarity. OCD used to make this work feel impossible, now I am going better than ever.

Come to Australia

I'm trying to actualize and I am 17, I first did LSD at 14. Age does not matter.

I agree. The better you know the drug, the deeper you can go with it.

The argument went in circles a bit, he would explain why I had to leave and I would just say: "Oh... fair enough. But why do I have to leave?" As if I immediately forgot what he just said. Compared to the fear I had faced, and profound realisations I had while meditating and walking through the forest, I kinda just felt like he was more of an annoyance than something to be afraid of.

After weeks of preparation, my girlfriend, my dog, and I went camping in the middle of a huge rainforest known as the Otways. The plan was to stay for a about 3-4 nights, completely immersed in nature, with no electricity, water or food other than the supplies we bought. Once the first night was over, I took 400-600 micrograms of LSD at 9 am. The trip was extremely intense. After about 20 mins of meditation, I tried open eye meditation. And holy SHIT, the visuals were unlike anything I had ever experienced. However, questioning who is observing / what is actually aware of those hallucinations was far more profound. Unfortunately, as I was meditating on the rocks that were in the middle of the river crossing which our tent was next to ( see picture below ), i a truck pulled up nearby on the dirt trail that led into the depths of the forest. It was a park ranger. Still tripping, I had to talk to him and explain why I had my dog in a national park ( he was barking at the park ranger ), why I was camping next to a HERITAGE LISTED RIVER ( I was not aware of this ), and why I was camping even though it was banned across Australia due to the coronavirus. I kept trying to ask why I had to leave, and he just said " Because those are the rules mate. ", which I obviously didn't understand due to the acid, and I couldn't shake the thought that rules don't actually exist! I kept asking "But why are those the rules, I don't actually HAVE to leave". I also recall ( although now I regret it ) telling him to fuck off because he wanted to interview me, which again was because I have no understanding of authority, especially while on a psychedelic. It was an extremely surreal experience. He ended up getting pissed of with me and pulling out his badge and threatening to fine me. I had no choice but to pack up and leave. This is a perfect example of the governments inability to make effective decisions to stop a virus from spreading. Shops, hairdressers, etc are still open, but TWO PEOPLE cant even go camping! Anyway, Although I didn't reach a full blown awakening, I was able to observe my own thoughts and sensations within my mind, which further developed my understanding of my psychology, and I also underwent some valuable healing. I also had an insight that led me to understand that the things we feel, believe, and do are layers of ego that essentially hide the truth from us, and meditation / psychedelics "untangle" those layers. ( Explained poorly, definitely made more sense in the moment lol ) Here are some photos my girlfriend took : Dragonfly landing on my arm My dog, Buzz A creek flowing through the forest Thanks for reading!

Those are some good realisations, especially for your first trip on such a low dose. You're going to love the big doses.

Yeah man, I thought about the stuff you told me earlier, it really gave me some clarity, as well as the ability to completely submit to the experience and understand that everything I was experiencing ALWAYS has been there, and that the only thing that was missing was the realisation ( that I was in the process of having). Even post-trip, I understand that so much more clearly.

Also here is the ranger writing up a report, lol

This is a very broad question, as I am open to ANY answers or ideas. Is anyone aware of potential limits to stoicism, in terms of self actualisation and enlightenment? Or is it a philosophy that integrates seamlessly with these?

30 minutes is a good amount of time, I think. Morning 30, night time 30. The mind is different in the morning, compared to after the day is done. Both could be very beneficial. However, 1 hour would allow for a deeper meditation, and possibly a mystical experience.

Then the "absolute" isn't really the absolute? Are the deeper degrees of awakeness just a further transcendence of ego, or is the "default" state already free of ego... and the deeper states are just something that I just don't understand?

@IJB063 Thanks for the detailed answer If I am understanding correctly, Nietzsche is essentially saying the stoics in denial of being alive...? Interesting, definitely. It also seems like he is misinterpreting some of the stoic teachings. Of course all that we are is nature, you cannot escape it, but to live in accordance with nature more so means to be in control of ones impressions and desires / impulses. Also, self tyranny I believe is a misinterpretation. To be a "tyrant" over our desires, impulses, etc... is not SELF tyranny, as those things do not make up the self! Those things are not what our true nature consists of. If I am missing your point let me know

Assuming you haven't done them - find out for yourself. It literally doesn't matter for your first trip. Just have a nice setting, meditate, take notes, create art or something, become aware of your own body, and listen to music. Do not forget to listen to music. You wont fuck yourself up long term. Caution is good, but to have the best trip possible you should give into your curiosity. Childlike curiosity.

- Leo Gura ~ 2020