Osaid

Well observed.

Self-inquiry.

Fear of getting physically injured, maybe you entertained the thought recently or saw a video You are socially anxious and feel like you are being attacked by other people perceiving you in social situations Food cravings, may have just been hungry in real life during the dream

The sensation of pain is not self or belief. Hunger is not self or belief. Neither of those create anything but hunger and pain. They are biological motivators for preserving your body. It's important not to confuse the experience of being a human as an identity. Identity has nothing to do with your experience as a human. In a video game, Mario is programmed to lose life points and flash red when he is hit by a fireball to preserve his body, but that is not creating a self, it is literally programmed into Mario. It is a indicator that tells the player "this kills Mario", but notice that the player does not need to believe that they are Mario in order to realize that they should avoid pain in the video game. There is also no need to ignore beliefs. You can't ignore pain if you want to live, which is right. But pain is not a belief. It is the biological imperative you are programmed with. As an example, your nervous system is designed to experience fear in reaction to loud unexpected sounds. It is hard to say "I fear loud sounds" because the fear was experienced before you could even say it to yourself. This type of fear happens unexpectedly, determined by something which isn't self, but rather an internal biological mechanism. It's also interesting to notice that there is not much judgment or ruminating with this type of fear, it is very quick and succinct. You don't associate yourself with this afterwards, like "I am a person who fears loud sounds" or "I hate loud sounds." It is perceived exactly as it is, a quick adrenaline rush which motivates you to neutralize and inspect your surroundings, that is exactly what fear is in this scenario. Not all motivations are motivated mentally by self. There are objective biological motivations that just take control over your body. You don't rationalize moving your hand off of a hot stove, pain does that for you.

The only thing mind can imprison is mind.

There is only one thing to realize, which is what you are. If you just realize what you are, you don't have to focus on every single thought structure, that does not work. You cannot focus in on every single thought structure because different thoughts can be generated forever. You have to "see through" the structure of thoughts as a whole, which automatically happens when you realize what you are. And it is not anything intellectual or relative, it is not detaching from anything, and it is not removing a belief, it is simply just becoming aware of what you are, like you would become aware of sound. When you remove or detach from things, you are still operating in the realm of beliefs, and so you are fighting fire with fire, so to speak. Of course you will not be affected by beliefs when you completely remove the ability to perceive a belief, but you can view yourself with perfect clarity even while viewing a belief. The reason why no one seems to realize it is because they are just adopting their psychedelic experiences back into their identity. They have not fundamentally realized what they are yet, and so they are still substituting experience with identity and knowledge. You can grasp what you are from any state. It's just that certain states make invalid beliefs about yourself more obvious. There is a "progression" which can be perceived, for example, you might improve emotionally. You might improve your habits. Stuff like that. But this is not at the root, this is simply stemming from the same medium of belief-changing. This is what therapy does. And this is what a profound psychedelic experience might do. It happens because you changed your beliefs about yourself into something that is less dysfunctional, but beliefs are still being used as a crutch. It is possible to "transcend" the belief-making forever, which is just seeing self-beliefs as what they are, and then that stops you from ever panicking in response to thoughts about yourself. Yes. "I" and "am" and any other communication following that is the basis for self-delusion. You have never in your life ever been able to describe yourself. It's impossible. When you say "I went for a walk today", that is absolutely not what you are. When you say "I am a human", that is absolutely not what you are. When you say "I am thirsty", that is absolutely not what you are. All these statements are just communications, they are not you. They are statements and conclusions generated by you. Reality doesn't exist as a statement or conclusion.

It is very obvious in hindsight. Really what is happening is that the mind is constantly trying to recontextualize everything through beliefs about itself. But there is a very strict limit to beliefs. Beliefs are identities which can never capture what you are. When you depend on identity instead of experience, it becomes maladaptive and dysfunctional. You are experience. When you think you are what you aren't, it feels bad, because it contradicts you, and so you have to fight against yourself and fear yourself.

When I say belief, I am actually referring to your identity. Your beliefs about yourself = identity. You had a change in perception, and your identity or beliefs about yourself changed to accomodate for that change in perception. Your ideas and beliefs about "who owns thoughts and sounds" were challenged. The identity/belief probably became something like "I am alone as God since I am generating everything." It's the same reason why you might feel bad about yourself because someone calls you stupid, it's because your beliefs about yourself are challenged. "Aloneness" or "loneliness" tends to operate similarly despite the content or complexity changing. Structurally it is the same. It is based on your identity and beliefs about experience. I think it's worthwhile to contemplate which beliefs about yourself made you feel lonely, and why different beliefs feel less lonely. You can probably feel your levels of loneliness fluctuating, so just contemplate what is going on there, would be my advice.

You can't be bothered by something that doesn't exist.

Bro, it's a belief. The belief "I am generating everyone I know" = fear and panic. Your reaction, which is fear, is to accomodate for this belief. In the same way that you would get up and drink a glass of water when thirsty. Or how you would become fearful when encountered with a bear. You can actually just recontextualize this belief as "I am generating knowledge" or "I am generating all my knowledge." You are adding a useless interpretation in there which is causing fear. That's why you feel fear when you "run into" that thought structure, otherwise it is not experienced. Knowledge about people has always been generated in your mind. You're just adding additional knowledge/belief on top of knowledge/belief which is making you feel bad. Knowledge and beliefs only generate knowledge and beliefs. You're adding an extra interpretation to your knowledge about people which is saying "I am creating everyone." It feels "real" because of the fearful reaction, that is the superfluous connection. In theory there is nothing to fear because it's not even experienced. You can't experience a lack of anyone, because that is not what you are. If you believe there is a serial killer hiding in your closet, a similarly real reaction happens, until you inspect the closet, and see that nothing is there. Please do the same with your direct experience. Inspect direct experience.

Yeah you just need an infinite amount of guests

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You're having trouble because you believe that you are alone, which isn't the case. You can't believe your way into awareness of yourself. The universe can't "be alone" in itself, it has no such feature. Lack of yourself is always inferred through mind and then reacted to through self-deprecating thoughts and any accompanied biological reactions, like a fast heartbeat or adrenaline for example. There's nothing to really get over. You can see that a belief was recently generated, and that this belief now creates unpleasant sensations within you. You haven't become aware of anything but belief, the belief which can be "ungenerated" or let go of. Any beliefs about yourself are a cheap and dysfunctional substitute for the real thing. Notice how the idea/belief "You aren't actually alone" creates a tinge of relief within you. You haven't changed before or after, your beliefs about yourself have. Nothing has changed in experience but belief. Experience doesn't deal with a lack of anything, beliefs do because they are based on percisely what is not experienced.

You can't "get stuff out of" conceptual mind, otherwise that is not conceptual mind anymore. Conceptual mind stays conceptual mind, as it should. Everything you just typed is still conceptual mind. Hope that helps.

I believe the microwaveable packaging has carcinogens or something, don't remember too well, wouldn't touch it either. Not hard to find healthy popcorn at the stores anymore either, with coconut oil and avocado oil and non-gmo or whatever.

Speaking of this, I don't see the stigma around potato chips. Aside from the fat it is cooked in maybe, but you can easily find avocado oil varieties now. Is it the calories people are scared of? I found a small (57g I think) bag of potato chips at Starbucks and it had like 750mg of potassium, that's insane. Double the amount in a banana. Potato chips are full of electrolytes.

Croissant diet?? Now you got my attention. Croissant + coffee is a godly combo. French knew what they were doing when they combined butter and flour. But also coffee makes the digestion of fuel like carbs and fat more efficient, and croissants in particular are equally balanced in carbs and fat, which creates a nice energy IME. In my normal diet I personally eat a sprouted organic whole wheat flatbread with ghee and coconut oil, not a croissant but close enough.

Popcorn is surprisingly nutritious. It's a whole grain, but lacks gluten. It's also one of the best sources of fiber. https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/popcorn-nutrition-and-health

People digest differently or you might have just not noticed. I tested legumes, had the same problem with galactosaccharides, or so I assume. I find them to be not worth consuming as a primary source of nutrition because of how tough it is to digest. Although nutritionally they look good on paper. I prefer cereals and grains instead, similar nutrition to legumes but much easier to digest.

Kiwi. One small kiwi (69g, 42 calories) has 60-80% of the daily RDA for vitamin C. It also has about 10g less sugar than most fruits, something like a pear for example. And it also has 215mg of potassium, approximately. The skin is also edible, and it is full of biovailable nutrients, fiber, and polyphenols. Eating the skin adds 50% more fiber, and about 30% more folate, vitamin E, and polyphenols. Gold kiwis are my favorite, they taste better, more on the sweeter side, and somehow have even more vitamin C than the green ones.

I think it ties into your existence of what you are in a very deep way. Through logic, you've kind of recontextualized time into something that isn't really conventionally seen as time. Not that this is incorrect, but it might just be pointing to the idea that time is conceptualized or perceived inaccurately, or something like that.

I remember reading about some theory like this a while ago, which was something like "everything has already happened, but your brain just has to process it first", or something like that.

I became a Buddhist non-dual cartoon wolf once. True story.

Yeah but that's not enlightenment. That's just time. That's how the dream "wraps up" enlightenment so to speak. You can travel to Hawaii, but the process of travelling to Hawaii is an abstraction of experience that is never actually experienced, and it is not equal to the experience of being at Hawaii. In the same way, the end result of enlightenment is purely experiential, and it has nothing to do with time. There is no experience in existence that contradicts what is infinite or true, ultimately, which is why you get people saying "Everyone is enlightened!", but I personally find that to be unhelpful as a pointer. It's not that the unenlightened experience is less true, they are just mistaking the human capability of intellect for something that it is not, and that occurs inside of an experience which is infinite. The idea of discerning true and untrue is itself more intellect. I never said that unenlightenment wasn't a human phenomenon, it is, but the process of going from unenlightened to enlightened has nothing to do with the actual experience of it, because that is a relative time-based process. The process happens in many ways which are different for everyone. But the experience of it is not a process at all. It's just what you are. It's what experience has always been, but now there is no human intellect misinterpreting it. If a picture was to convey it, it would be like one of those optical illusions where you can switch perspectives despite the picture itself staying the same. The "switching" of perspectives is seemingly binary but also simultaneously occuring within the exact same experience, and the nature of experience is that it never truly binary. Being infinite means ONE, and it means you only "realize yourself" ONCE. It is a materialistic idea to say that being infinite means you can realize yourself an infinite amount of times, because that is referring to time which is relative and not infinite. Being infinite doesn't mean you chase an "infinite" amount of experiences which make you realize what you are, this doesn't actually ever occur because you are referring to future events, which contradicts reality being one and infinite. Being infinite and "future events" will never fit into eachother, because future events are an abstraction of experience. That is to say, you are never going to find a truer version of yourself which exists in an experience which isn't happening right now.