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@SoonHei your speaking here as if you know this. I don’t believe you do infact I’ve absolutely no doubt you have no idea. There’s absolutely no chance that my last nights dream is ongoing with those characters in it cracking on with life as such without me in them. That’s just not happening. That dream is dead, collapsed and out of here. And I’m pretty sure this waking dream collapses in the same way at your death. I’ve had a few awakenings and this is where I’m at with this question. I could very well be wrong though I need more deeper awakenings for myself to clarify. @Mvrs Leo has a good video called ‘reality is a dream’ I think it’s called. Intriguing video

Ya know, we knock about saying we’re not real and all that, that we’re nothing. But at the end of the day, we’re here, we’re doing shit we’re fucking about. So even if we’re not real, and come the end of it all it all doesn’t matter, we’re still here doing this shit no matter if it’s imaginary or not. That’s as real as it gets. I’ve confused the fuck out of myself this past year. But even if we’re nothing, we still have to go through all this bollocks so ya know, it’s as real as real can be. I’ve had awakenings and realisations and I always find myself right back here doing this shit that’s not real, but feels real. So end of the day what difference does it actually all make???‍♂️

I’m contemplating something. As in what are other people up to? As in when they’re in my company, they are there visually to me, I can see them, I can speak to them, whatever ya know. But say for instance when they go home, they’re out of my sight out of my experience. Are they actually at home doing something? Or do they just disappear? And then the next time I see them and they tell me they’ve been up to this and that, or whatever, have they sort of been non existent type thing but then when they reappear into my experience I’ve somehow made up a story, that I’m not aware of doing m, that they have been upto these things, and it’s just like me, tricking myself bullshitting myself. Does anyone really have the answer to this or are yous just going to speculate like I am now? Would appreciate speculation anyway but if someone has hands down honest truth they know is truth that would be even more appreciated ?

@Yarco well this is it mate. What on earth is going on with a text message. I’ve just received one now. Someone quizzing me about something. So what’s going on here. Is there someone somewhere typing that or is it just words, letters appearing on my phone screen and I’m going to create a story about it. But then it seems I’ve no control at all of the story that’s going to develop because I’ve been asked a question. Which I really can not be fucked answering?. So what is happening? Is there really someone there or can I just ignore this text message question because in reality it’s an absolute load of bollocks?. ??‍♂️

@RedLine ??

One question. Is my mate at home doing something now? It’s that straightforward it’s that simple the question. I’m thinking not. @RedLine U sound like u speake sense. What do u think?

I’m so confused? thank you guys for trying to explain and give your opinions. I’m liking what @RedLine is saying I feel more inclined to understand a little what they’re saying. Seems about as confused as I’ve found myself?. Think it must be time for another psychedelic trip. I’m so intent on understanding this lot, that I think maybe my desire to understand may just be the problem. Because maybe it’s something you. can never really understand. I’m sick to death of thinking I’ve got it, then 3 weeks later questioning myself about whether I have or not. And like I say, if I’m questioning, I clearly havnt ??‍♂️

But is solipsism the case? I mean... tbh I don’t know what I mean. I I’m beginning to feel that solipsism it it. Not like there is no one else. But at the same time there is no one else. I’ve confused myself somewhere down the line. One minute I think I have it, the next I don’t. Am so confused. Fuckin hell ey. Just need to hit this nail on the head. I’m not even bothered if that is the case. If it is it is. But my need for understanding is taking over me. I just want to know. One way or another. I feel I can accept any way reality is. But then I think I clearly can’t, otherwise I would get it. I’ll keep pressing anyway am nailing this shit eventually I’m going to get it. And I’m open to whatever that may be. Just don’t want to delude myself. If there’s a doubt I know I havnt got it. And there’s doubt. So I need to work more??. Thanks by the way for all replies

When your tripping, and it just pours over you that your god! That u are everything that ever was ever is and ever will be. Just lash this on full blast. And know that it was just you, having a good time having a good time? amazing. Am literally away with it right now hahaha. I wish u could all join. But I know u can, because your all me ? enjoy people enjoy full blast haha Am no bender btw guys but fuckin hell realise that this is u having a good time? absolutely tremendous ??

@Leo Gura you fucking crack me up man? genuinely with your replies fucking humour me? short and sweet u know if someone’s got it or not? I havnt, I’ve just got bits, but fuckin hell those bits are cool hahaha??

And yea I realise also I’m full of shit?

Sounds absolutely shocking to the ego. But the more I think about what you said about your experience the more I struggle to see it as an issue or problem. Because it’s obviously where you’ve come from in the first place so once you end up back there my guess would be you’ll create and imagine the illusion all over again so in a sense would kind of feel like your never actually there as this pure void because you/I keep doing this imagining that it’s not this empty void. Every now and then in different lives you’ll realise what you really are as you seem to have maybe done. Seems like it’’d be pretty easy to avoid being this void for an infinite intelligence. Which is exactly what it seems to do, just keeps imagining that it’s not. I’ve no experience of this void so this is guess work. Good luck integrating it though ??

Would u believe it. Drunk as fuck last night. Have woke up and walked to the shop for some tobacco. Still the alcohol is a little bit in the system. Can just see it. It’s all there, it’s all already done. Everything that is possible is already there. I’ve just become so accustomed to it. My life if just a response to all the actions I take. All other people and situations are just a response to the way I filter through this life. I’ve become so accustomed to it that it seems things are happening to me. I’ve never seen so clearly that all is already there. I can’t even explain what I’ve just realised. And it’s fucking alcohol that has lead to this insight. Creating your reality. Completely and utterly. Like a computer game when u make different decisions u get different outcomes. But it’s all already there. It’s so clear. But trying to put into words here feels impossible m. Reality is inevitable. Fuckin hell. Truly amazing. What the actual fuck Hahahaha. I feel like a fool the way I’ve tricked myself this whole time ?. It’s all you

Thanks guys. Appreciate your concerns of the tobacco and alcohol but it’s not an issue usually just a weekend piss up and don’t mind a pint here and there, but yea I guess the tobacco is an addiction but I love to chill and contemplate with a cigarette in hand so that’s not gonna change. But all in all yea something clicked there earlier was like all my psychedelic trips culminated into that one realisation. But after a night on the ale which I found very surprising. It’s just there now sitting there as an absolute or something I can’t really explain but it’s like I can see it, but not see it visually, but can see it??‍♂️. Ah well ey it is what it is just crack on now and live the dream out. See what comes of it hahaha. Take care all ??

@allislove I’ve had a thought about this. No insight here just a thought. If other beings are like dream characters from a dream, and I have to go through every incarnation of these characters in so called real life, then wouldn’t it be accurate to assume that at some point on some different level type thing that you would also have to be and have the POV of each and every dream character you’ve ever dreamt up in every single dream whilst a sleep you’ve ever had? Sounds stupid in one sense but almost like it would have to be inevitable in another. Which would be absolutely ludicrous to say the least as we’ve all dreamt up no doubt millions of dream characters in our time. I’ve never heard anyone suggest this it’s just popped in my mind. That would be fucking nuts

@Leo Gura ??? fucks sake u humour me ?

@acidgoofy no mate neither did I as personally I’ve not come across any better and more in depth teachings to help me along with this work than what we get here on actualized.org. Just thought it interesting to hear a seemingly enlightened persons view. And thought was an interesting listen as a whole anyway. I’m not quite sure if yang is totally awake or not I wouldn’t have a clue I’m no expert. But he seems to think he is. I’ve no doubt Leo could probably pick some holes in to some of his claims if he wanted to

I’m not sure if this podcast has been shared before on the forum but it’s an interesting one with frank Yang who seems to be as enlightened as anyone I’ve come across the way he talks about it. It’s a good listen all the way through, a bit strange at times though mind. He gives a short but interesting view on Leo at 43.45 in. Leo crops up the odd occasion and there’s a bit more chat on Leo at some point towards the end. This Carl guy whoever he is, I’ve no idea ? wants Leo on the show though that’s for sure

@Itsokimok I don’t really see the problem in this if is truly the case. Because if you look around you, at all the people and whatever other sentient things are knocking around, it’s not a problem to them. So if that for instance is you your looking at sat on a bench on the other side of the road reading the newspaper, and your gonna experience being that, where’s the problem? Because the guy over ther road doesn’t seem to be having a problem with it he’s just cracking on with his life with likely no idea what your on about here. So in other words this issue you have isn’t really an issue, because look at yourself across the road, or as any other person or animal or whatever, it’s working perfectly. 100% perfectly in the only way that I can work

This isn’t so much of a question but more of a statement. I was tripping hard on lsd and was in no doubt at the time I was experiencing infinity. It was surrounding me 360 like spaghetti or noodles or something like that. I can’t explain I could just see it, I was it. Now when I look back I wonder was this really the case. Maybe that’s my ego, I don’t know. But I remember so clearly, in the moment, how clear this was, that I was all of it. And my amazement about it all was that this was the greatest love of all. Infinity. How could it not be. The opportunity to be anything and everything possible. To run through every possible life and go through every possible experience, just everything that could ever be. And still be there at the end of it all. Infinite lives infinite deaths, but yet you, i, the real you, is still just there. This to me felt like seems I’m the only thing that exists, then to do this was the ultimate gift of love to myself. And not the small me, the individual human I am at this time, but to the full me, the only me, the only thing in existence. Why not just be everyone and everything possible. But simultaneously it was the greatest gift to the small me, the little human I am now at present, to realise I was all, I was the lot. Just somehow presently being conscious of this one life. It was incredible. That to me, was the greatest act of love to myself, to enable myself to experience everything. But like I say looking back, I still just don’t feel I’ve got it. I havnt got this stuff sussed. It’s like I’ve had it, but I just ain’t got it. I still can’t see how I’m doing it. And that is what I want to know, or understand, or however ya want to put it. Never mind. But that’s what I felt about love

I’m walking along, walking along the promenade where I live, listening again to Leo’s what is reality video. I’ve realised I’m god on lsd, but for some reason I just still can’t get it. I feel I’ve worked it all out but then I walk along and think Jesus Christ how can I be doing thins. I thought I had it, but I clearly havnt. Leo can u please give us another reality video mate cus as much as I think I get it, I obviously don’t. I try. But I’m still imagining that shits real?.

Fuckin hell lad I’m from the UK just trying to work our reality? I have no idea what the fuck that means what you’ve just said? but I do appreciate your response haha. Bollocks to it ey. I know I’ll get this shit in the end because it’s all I’m interested in. Understanding reality. I want to know what the fuck it is I’m up to?. What I’m doing, why I’m doing it. Just what it is. I’ll get there, I will get there. Good night people haha. May as well lock this thread leo. Nothing in it I’m just chatting shite? I will get this eventually I know I will ??

I’ve tried and I’ve tried and and tried. One minute I think I’ve got it. The next, I’m like I havnt? if I did, I would know. But I obviously havnt. I don’t think I can get the whole way on lsd. Because if I could, I’d just know. And I don’t. Thank you anyway leo am trying me best haha and appreciate everything u do, all the content everything. I’ll get there in the end I know I will. Just understanding of reality mate. That’s alls I’m after. God I’ve been after that for my whole life time I know eventually I’ll get it??. One day hahahahaha ??

Beautiful place I live. But how am I actually imagining it? Ah well fuck it ey????