Spiral Wizard

lmfao I instantly had to think of TheUnfits (Jay Alverrez friend). Anyways, thank you @undeather I truly appreciate that you took the time to answer this in detail! Keep it up! PS.: This may be projection, but I bet you are an ENTJ or something like that.

I feel like I lost the trust in myself and the believe that I can hit my goals because I haven’t reached many goals / targets I have set for myself in the past few months. That’s why I am often discouraged when I work for my new project. How do I regain the believe? What are your thoughts on this topic or your advice?

@Nahm I love that, but for me that is easier said than done. Is it possible to do that before an enlightenment experience, just through trying and letting go?

That happened on its own a few days ago. I felt a big relive, but I also felt like there is much more to cure. Should I just dwell on the pain to provoke tears or is the emotional part fixed and now I need to find a different solution?

That’s the case.

I haven’t found such a mentor yet. That’s good on the one hand because I will grow more if I figure it out myself but on the other hand it is devastating because I haven’t found someone who is stage turquoise or nearly as developed as Leo (which is my stage yellow goal) and lives a lifestyle like Jay Alverrez (stage orange goal, I guess). Sometimes, I know it is even “worst” / low conscious, I crave the Dan Bilzerian lifestyle. Having orange and yellow motivations is tarring me apart... Any Advice?!

First thing first, I love this answer, I needed that. I also appreciate your detailed answer! Your abundance argument seems legit, I haven’t really considered that. But I personally never really had a problem with weirdness, I actually had a nice social life. But nowadays I am just not interested in low consciousness friends, I see no “value” or joy in spending time with them, I definitely prefer a podcast, working or high consciousness friends. I am trying to figure out why I am not capable of enjoying everyone’s company. Do you have an idea? What do you mean with “some mindset switch is probably the best for the next one.”? I consider myself as an individual who has orange attachments, has some healthy green parts, but isn’t hippie & loves / is passionate about yellow (is interested in turquoise) I guess I am not ready for the no expectation approach. Currently I am trying the discipline track, I think it is working for me but I don’t feel completely comfortable with it, because I associate spiral dynamics stage orange with it, which I currently resist. (I struggle with letting that resistance go, any advice?) Is there another track which fits stage yellow or a track which you can imagine is worth looking into?