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One life is just a drop in the Ocean. You have forever to experience whatever you want.

Which is why it's Good and Absolute and Eternal. It had no choice. It just was. Infinite Yes. Everything Now.

Leo definitely tolerates a lot more than you think. Take a minute to think about this thread and many others that nah say him. I've been rude to him and nay sayed his teachings... Yet I am here. Ya'll making things up in your head.

Let me know what you think.

You are all very kind to me. I don't mean to use the forum to complain. But, I know I need to use all the tools at my disposal.

Here is a pt 2 of my casual review

"@Leo Gura Yo Leo u always talk about picking up girls at a night club sober as you don't drink, but docent that imply that the girls you are picking up have been drinking/ are intoxicated?" It doesn't imply anything. You have to actually be there, or be the girl to know what is going on. Leo is saying that he doesn't sleep with drunk girls. That seems consensual and conscious. If you are out partying and want to pick up, you want to be able to enjoy the company of the person you are with. If they are shit faced it's no fun. He literally said he doesn't go for drunk girls. What are you making up in your own mind and creating a problem for? Now, If Leo said "I prefer them drunk as fuck so I can easily have my way with them" That is a totally different story. "Yup, just get her drunk as you possibliy fucking can and you are good to go" NO! Now, his wording was a little off that he used the point that "they are too sick to sleep with" instead of saying "they are too drunk to consent"... Idk, his wording could be more careful I agree with you there. I think you are over blowing that tbh. I see your point but. Humans can go out party, have sex with each other and enjoy each others company without you getting all pissy about it. You are over blowing one comment. Leo enjoyed pick up, and having fun. Adults can drink etc and enjoy themselves in their own way. Instead of attacking Leo and making him out to be evil and of ill intent, why don't you ask him for more clarity. You have no experience of how Leo or anyone else on the forums acts while doing dating, pickup or clubbing. I think it's important to realize that you are imagining all of that. I am sure people get drunk, meet each other and have sex all the time. I don't see rape culture on this forum at all and I see conversations of vary degrees of integrity and in variable contexts all over the forum. I think our minds sometimes see things that bother us and we zoom in on them and make them bigger than they actually are. Not defending anyones actions. I don't know how anyone on this forum or even Leo acts in their personal life. If Leo, myself or any other people in general aren't respecting consent then they need to check themselves and correct their behaviour. However, I don't think people are doomed or should be condemned for making mistakes. We are all imperfect.

On facebook recently I've been contacted by a Krya yogi who says I came to him in a dream. He mentions that he recognizes my spiritual potential and wants to teach me. How should I approach him? I suspect he is very knowledgeable about Krya, but potentially Dogmatic. He likely wont be able to understand my non-dogmatic approach. I can tell already that he is dogmatically attached to his own Gurus word having to ask him permission to travel etc. He beleives that that Satguru can see the past and future and he gives a major aspect of his authority to him. But, he also speaks about the importance of internal knowledge vs external knoweldge. That seems like a contradiction. I want to learn more about Krya from someone emerged in that world and compare it to the Krya books I have from the reading list. What should I ask him? What are your thoughts on how to approach him other than being open minded?

I get this... But, if I am imagining others and the entire universe this seems like a useless arbitrary limitation. I can't reconcile this idea of me imagining a physical reality and other beings simply to ground myself in reality and then being told some of these things. I have to mature and experience more insights as I do the work. The entire thing seems like an ego. I don't necessarily want infinite power. But, I do want to sing to massive crowds and experience the unity of love with others. That just seems to far away. I know my ego is going nuts tonight. Surrender, liberation and selflessness are likely the only reasonable path. That seems true to me. I know this from 5meodmt experience my state right now is based in ego, limitation and falsehood. But, I also must escape wage slavery because that is worse than death. I also don't agree that power= consciousness. Many leaders like trump have lots of relative power, but low awareness. Perhaps my current interpretation of power is very limited and selfish. I theoretically could have finite power but still be in a reality where I am 'Arcadefire'. I guess, it is really up to me to create it. They are limited just like me, but have a different life. But that is wishful thinking and not reality or actual. I have to mature and face the fucking brutal reality that I am here and no one is going to save my sorry ass. God isn't gonna come from the clouds and make everything okay. It's my own interpretations anyway that make reality what it is. I just... I want infinite love and bliss and heaven. I don't want it to stop. I want to shake the world and DO something. But, I am so limited, selfish, biased, scared, short sighted, distractible etc.. How do I reconcile ambition and surrender? How do I reconcile getting old, going bald etc... But, I also sense as I let go of needing to be successful my drive lowers and I relax more. I don't drive and practice as hard... I have much maturing to do. I still think a lot of your teachings are far too conceptual and I need more reference experiences. TLDR: Overall, my current state is one of egoic attachment and immaturity. I know from my 5meodmt experiences what you are saying is true.

I feel like I've been pushing for years... But, I haven't been perfect... I feel a lot of self resentment in this moment. Where is this coming from? I want to be successful! Thank you for your great posts... I am sure I will make it through. I started music 5 years ago... I went from being scared of singing in my room by myself to playing festivals and making my first album... It gave my tinnitus because God hates me. After that I became scared of recording and playing. God is a cruel weird motherfucker I think. I do not trust the universe. God is also love, I know that. But, there is not gauruntee in this life. I want to work so hard. I do, but I ... I don't know. I backslide sometimes. There are so many skills to develop. I feel so scared I am gonna miss out and live a life of regret. I just want to be free... Liberation is the only way out.

I recognize I am in a negative state. I could have made better choices in my youth. I didn't know better. I will journal and head to bed. I am feeling so low right now. I won't rest in the negative psychic state. I know this is self deception and ego. But, I am fucking trapped in the dream. I feel so tired of it sometimes.

Not our nervous system? Projections of God's mind.. But, here we are. I don't get it if I am dreaming them up... Then why I am stuck in this limited god damn dream I have no power over... I mean, I have some power but like, 5% of what I would like to have.

I am definitely feeling emotions... But with all my attention on school, survival, healing my body and my mind... Music gets put to the side. I fucking hate this

Thanks... I just want to make music. But, right now it feel impossible. I feel like I've lost my flame. If I am going to surrender to reality, then... there is no difference between living or dying. I have to be able to create a life I can enjoy. I just want to be life Arcadefire that is the most inspiring shit I have ever seen. But, it feels completely impossible. I've been going through this for some time now. I kind of hate myself. I am disappointed in my life. I feel trapped existentially.. I don't know what to do. It just seems mathmatically impossible at this point. God ain't gonna come down from the clouds and make things work out... God can suck my dick. Leos Teachings about me being the only bubble just doesn't add up with this struggle I am having. I can't reconcile me being the only person, or bubble that is real... and me not having an amazing life where I get what I want. What is the fucking point of that? Why do I have to make due with this shitty limitations I have.... Fuck this.

Not yet.

Men hit on me all the time.. I just let it go.

I highly recommend you read Vernon Howards book. I think they do a good job at both grounding you in reality and mysticism. Pathways To Perfect Living I found to be very grounding.

I wish you luck along your journey! I found the video a little hard to follow. But I look forward to seeing you progress along your journey! I think I would look at you as a teacher more so in a few years once you have developed greater stability. You can lead and inspire people. But, in order to really teach and be an authority I personally think you would need to ground yourself more. We are one. We are in this together. Continue along your divine journey. How do you know how to trust your awakenings? Your mind? all of this? You know by how stable you are I think. You feel grounded, balanced, unattached, rational, scientific, open minded. The journey of working through self deception etc is more what I am interested in following you for imo. We love you, good work. Keep going. You inspire me to share my journey as well.

I noice that my stomach is full and I roll around and don't sleep at well. I don't think sleeping with a full stomach is good for you. It is a habit I myself need to develop.... eating hours away from bed time.

Then, let it be music.

@Kalki Avatar "your not gonna transcend any human pettiness until you die" I think that is false. You can totally transcend parts of the ego and experience egolessness. But yeah.. You will need an ego and to work your whole life. He makes sense.

Each tool or practice has it's own practice. They help and aid each other. 1 5meodmt trip blows meditation out of the water for deep God experience. But for day to day mindfulness and training your mind meditation is better. They help eachother. Become integral

"There is more to reality than what humans can perceive, therefore reality itself is an illusion" I think is not the full picture of what Deepak and mystics are saying. They are saying the entire way you see reality is relative, and even reality is relative therefore it's an illusion of consciousness.

There no fear of being destroyed. This is the place for these conversations. I think you think you are pointing out flaws but you aren't really backing anything up. You are just saying what you think imo. Every single person has flaws. That is human.

Wrong about? To me what you are saying about authority is obvious at this point. Though, also an important reminder. Like I have already said... I am epistemologically humble. Leo does get a relative authority over others in my view simply do to the nature of his situation in life. I of course read and learn from many sources. We can all be wrong. Do you think professional basket ball players always get every shot? It is a matter of accuracy. What is he right or wrong about? You don't know. That is the point. So, we go about doing the work.