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I am about to be certified in Qigong and breathwork to be able to teach. I am considering working with an online consultant who specializes in these niches getting teachers high paying clients for online courses. He seems legit, and if things go well 8000 isn't that much to pay in the long run. What are your thoughts? This is the website he runs: https://kevinwathey.com/

No way

I think this is an important thing to remember. I failed two exams throughout my my studying to be an accountant. It was for a Payroll Compliance Practitioner certification. Now, this was probably one of the most technical, dry, boring ass thing I've ever studied. But I was glad I was doing it because it really pushed my limits. The math wasn't that difficult, but remember all the nuances, regulations, fine points etc was challenging. I have noted that failure of exams, etc is a trigger for me. I start to think about the future, to beat myself up, to stop loving myself, to bully myself for the mistakes I made. But, I think I am now entering into a new way of looking at my life. I realize that perhaps from watching Leos' videos I built some kind of pseudo high expectation of myself. I now fear that failure on an exam means I can't live up to my expectations or dreams. But this doesn't add up. While reading a book by Russel Simmons he mentions that, even the best people in their fields today, failed many times where the first started out. Now, doing payroll is not necessarily my dream. But, I see it as an important part because the more I can understand money, understand what technical knowledge is like, use the structure of making finer distinctions in other areas of my life, and to use this skill to increase my earning potential while I set up my Qigong business. Failing is okay. In fact, if it happens it is what should happen. I am learning not to be in resistance too it. Also, I failed both of those exams largely to to fear and self doubt. I was doubting my ability to write an exam on something so technical without being able to research and remember all the nuances in the text book. I actually think administrative work is a skill and strength of mine, but exams are not. However, I can get better. I will be writing challenge exams for this certification in the coming months, and I will pass each exam. We do not fail when we fail. We fail when we quit. So keep going. Remember your self love and worthiness is not tainted by mistakes or failures, or even quitting. But, if you want to build this life you are dreaming up. Fail. It means you are learning. I used to get upset when my books would get torn or stained while reading them, on the bus, or library, or cafe and in general. But, now I celebrate it because that is a book that has been read. If it was perfect white, stiff spine etc... It's because you didn't read it. A damaged book is a good sign. Failure isn't a bad sign. But, a good one. Better than sitting around, smoking weed over thinking everything.

Yeah, I am not doing that. I don't REALLY have a preference when it comes to race. What I find beautiful physically is not something I really have control over. It really depends on the person, etc. I don't fetishize people. But, I do like what I like. I've grown up in a very multicultural area.

Looks like I might be able to get a reduced cost version of the program without the 1 on 1 support the other price gives. 1850$ for a marketing course, course creation and how to manage facebook groups. They have upgraded from Mindful Method 2.0 and Mindful Method 3.0 which is like 9k USD. These people are getting clients.. so they must be doing something right.

Do you.

I will like what I like and you will not tell me it's wrong or project your fears one me. What I find beautiful, or naturally attractive is what I find naturally attractive. Some women like tall men, are they fetishizing?

Isn't the entire show stage red nonsense ahha It is fun to watch I've seen clips

Recently I've been looking back at my spiritual journey. I realize that maybe 4 years ago after a mushroom trip my openness went through the roof. However, at this time I really didn't know how reality worked at all. So I went out searching, searching, searching. I am still searching. I think I have worked through a lot of my deeper self deceptions, and am still working through more self deceptions. I think I've learned that when opening the mind that we need to be able to give ourselves the room to make epistemological/ metaphysical errors and to be compassionate with ourselves when we make these errors. Chances are when we begin our foundation database of reality we are starting with is already so full of unquestioned errors that foundation of our world view is fragmented, largely developed unconsciously, etc. When we step out into the dark we are likely to occasionally pick up some crappy ideologies, ideas, habits, actions etc. Mistakes are bound to happen in this work. I think one of the biggest risks in open mindedness would be opening the mind only to cling on to something that is neurotic. A large part of my journey I would describe as turning over every stone, or stumbling around in the dark. Trying to light my lantern. Our ego wants reality to be a certain way. I think this has been one of my biggest challenges. My ego wanting to manipulate reality, that somehow awakening would be me REALLY awakening from the dream. As if, I was really imagining Leo, and everyone around me and somehow awakening would be a massive change internally and externally. I had to treat this as a possibility because I was being radically open minded. But, I was also 100% prepared to find whatever I found. My idea of awakening strangely is becoming more and more secular and practical. I think some important ideas or questions that I have learned when working through the open mindedness of exploring the spiritual landscape are: 1. What does it mean to have clarity? 2. How can I explore new possibilities in reality while remaining grounded in secular survival? 3. How do I weed out wishful thinking vs reality when exploring spiritual ideas like New age, manifesting, awakening, imagining others and reality etc.. 4. How do I listen to as many perspectives as possible without clinging to any particular one? 5. How do I allow myself the forgiveness and compassion to make mistakes with ideas, world views, perceptions, wishful thinking, self deception, ideology, stupid questions, false insights from psychedelics, false mystical experiences, etc 6. How do I find time to take inventory on the self deceptions I have had in the past? 7. How do I take the free spirit approach to reality. This means opening your mind to ideas, taking them in, putting them into your bag as possible but not clinging or becoming idealogical about them 8. How do I know when I have reached a point of maturity, clarity, sobriety, self honesty, and understanding of reality that I can trust my mind not to be deceiving me that I can operate in life and the world in a powerful, meaningful and healthy way? 9. How can I use the obvious self deception of others (Connor Murphy, Donald Trump, Maga Shaman, etc) to ground myself 10. Realize that mistakes, errors, wishful thinking etc will happen along your path. When you are studying accounting you will get some questions wrong. It's going to happen. Let yourself make error for sake of learning. Just keep going. Eventually you will reach the shore.

@SaltyMeatballs Snort softer, you can get technique down where it doesn't burn.. Try different head placements.

Sometimes the path to creating something amazing is just literally brute forcing it. Keep putting the hours in, keep using your artistic compass and don't let some bad art, or songs or drawing whatever stop you. It's like running the water... It is cold for bid before the warmth comes. My best songs came from 3 hours sessions of garbage. By then end the water is warm. Then soon you can build up a lot of momentum that carries day after day. Also, drop the perfectionist expectations and simply enjoy the process. Become a craftsman, let go of ideals. They will come in time. Focus on developing your craft and enjoy the process.

I rarely feel lonely I like being alone It's totally possible... Don't create limiting beliefs..

Super gentle. No deep trips yet, but it's nice.

Where do you see yourself in 10, 20, 30 years with all the work you are doing now?

Really I find it the opposite. Mushrooms are really unpredictable to me LSD has been some of the most stable beautiful experiences of my life

@Loba Building one. I feel grounded. I just rant... I have my thoughts.. Had negative ones for years. But, I don't identify with them.

I think he is just being investigated actually. He has taught for many years, has kids, is a overall good guy well respected. I don't have any details other than that. You know how so many people complain about not having a personal finance class in highschool? Well he went and created one for us and got it passed so he could teach it.

It seems everything we build in life is so fragile: Business, relationships, networks, friendships, health, routines, financial health, spiritual health, mental health, civilizations, etc It seems like we are all one bad mistake away from losing so much. Just one sexual misconduct, or just one bad twitter post, or just one wrong turn. One of my favourite teachers from my highschool just got fired from his job for sexual misconduct with female students. He was an inspiration to a lot of people and lead the student council. What is wrong with us? Something here isn't adding up. How could he be so self deceived as to act in that way? And what is sex??? I've recently lost some friends that mattered to me. How do I handle this fragility and temporality of all things? Do we just surrender and do our best? I think that is all we can do.

@Loba Hm, yeah I have plenty going. Which was why I was stressed the other few days finishing up some exams. All part of my larger vision. So is learning to handle adversity and uncertainty, and dealing with expectation vs reality. I share pretty openly my thoughts on the form because I have nothing to hide. I am processing for a long term powerful life. I just have some negative motivation aspects and fears to transcend.

Paradox

Total lack of bias

You and me we got Chemistry!

@lmfao

I guess you gotta actually let go you mean ahaha

5meodmt is the Crown. It's total victory. Namaste The Holy Grail. For awhile anyway.