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Yes, I’ve messaged the company to apologize and to do the wisest more high integrity thing I can going forward. Whether it’s rejoining the program… or if they don’t accept me back allowing them to keep the money as I promised I would pay instead of demanding a refund. I’d rather have self respect looking back at myself in 5 years than see I was being a greasy coward.

Lol sorry! I never really watched it too much

@Breakingthewall I have to be a man of integrity and honour my word. I signed up for a reason. I might as well follow through all the way instead of being a fucking coward.

@Breakingthewall yes Im honestly terrified and it’s really really hard

Build your foundation and take full advantage of your education. Learn to be a great student!

Some of it sounds crazy I don't know where he gets these ideas from lol like "Spiritual history" or whatever.

I love myself even though I am petty, weak and a devil sometimes. Who else will if I don't? I have to love what is. Me an my ADHD brain.

let’s build a solid foundation before I do anything else. 1. Finances 2. Mental Health 3. Physical Health and Qi health

I have the capacity for self deception, toxicity, cowardice, double mindedness, devilry. This is very important to note. I suggest I move very slowly with all things in my life because I am not as pure as I may believe I am. Today direct experience shows this. I am still immature, doubly minded and fragmented and instead of life purpose or success or coaching others I must instead work on myself. there is no one else to teach

@Medhansh Semen retention is important and we can actually learn to masturbate without ejaculation and we can instead recycle energy and develop the ability for multiple orgasm. I don’t know about what it heals but having quality sexual energy is important.

This is a journal to record contemplations on balancing Yin and Yang and Enlightenment through psychedelics, self inquiry and Qigong. I will also be included certain yoga practices (Prana = Qi) and breathwork. Some books I am reading/ Are on my Reading List: The Secret of The Golden Flower The Way of Qigong The Way of The Five Elements Simple Chi Kung Cosmic Nutrition Total Forgiveness The Tao of Fully Feeling Qigong means to become skillful with our energy. There are three types of Qigong (Qi = Life force energy, Chit, physical body etc) (gong = To work with or be skillful with). 1. Martial (Tai Chi, Kung Fu, etc) 2. Spiritual (Three treasures, Microcosmic Orbit) 3. Medical/ Preventative care (5 Elements) These total about 3000 styles of Qigong around the world... There are some like 600 types of Qi but the three major categories are: 1. Jing (body, sexual fluids etc) 2. Qi (Bioelectricity, life force energy) 3. Shen (Mind, Consciousness, awareness) Qi is a meta-term for the overall governing happening and intelligence of the human body and of life in general.

@itachi uchiha lol

ooooooooooooo, lol got you there thats the simplest explanation instead of ending up with infinite feedback loops

One authority to another though right? Overly well thought out post. Some of it seems a bit strange. I consider Leo a nihilist and someone who loves science. Cool to read someones perspectives. I personally find that science and spirituality are both important and have enough juice to excite me for the rest of my life. I personally don't know Leo but I feel like his videos opened my up to learning about all perspectives and not defending my own. I find it interesting when people accuse Leo of this, when he teaches others to be open. And, yeah, Why would he speak to Rob (Adeptus) when he frequently makes videos about him in a negative light. It's wisest to just do your thing in those situations. I personally like Robs content. I am personally not a buddhist, but I love buddhist teachings. Lots of juicy stuff in that. I personally am not into having "Faith" in a teaching. But learning from as many as possible over the course of my life. Buddhism has a lot of great stuff in it.

I will attend one of these one day.

Maybe focus on building rapid skill acquisition instead of mastery if is just a hobby. Here is a book I enjoyed on the subject. The First 20 Hours

https://www.actualized.org/forum/forum/2-self-actualization/

Sober or high, ya can be very mislead But, sometimes you are closer to the truth.

@Sigitas You can message him on the forum in a personal message

Making a video about my contemplations of high quality decision making

"Baby you try but you can't deny... chemistry!"

Yes but, don’t make more stress than necessary. Learn to enjoy everyday as it is. Make small steps. Feel.

I personally think we have no way around work. So, it’s good we find a way to lower the suffering through whatever process that is. I personally find I suffer more from growing, and the ego backlashes associated with seeing the truth. Suffering can be good if we must go through it. Your here to become passionate about life. If your 20, decide right now to orient yourself to finding it creating work you enjoy. It’s out there. Waiting for you. Find a way to cure the depression. Find your passion so you know that when you go to school you are building a powerful life for yourself. I dealt with anxiety and depression most of my life so I can understand you. But, life can be very beautiful.