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  2. Posted · Edited by TripleFly

    On 10/1/2020 at 7:53 PM, molosku said:

    I have completely exhausted the zen/concentration/self-inquiry/meditation/just-do-it path for myself, and my emotional well being is lacking behind by miles. By exhaustion I mean: I won't be able to have a break-trough continuing with these old paradigms of approaching my life and emotions, I don't want to live the foolish seekers life who posits basic happiness to somewhere behind this HUGE achievement called awakening. I want to be happy now, I want to tread this path with curiosity, sense of exploration and generally, a more light heart. I'm tired of seeking the end of my suffering, I want to feel good in the relative world, just being a human. I just want to be happy, 10 years of beating myself up starts to be.. enough. I need a teaching/teacher who can guide topics like

    • self-love
    • self acceptance
    • feeling good in the body
    • workaholism
    • shadow
    • tantra
    • childhood trauma
    • general emotional intelligence
    • dealing with fears

    Any teacher/book/course/technique recommendations are welcome. Thanks in advance.

    This is 90% of this forums commentors population in the next 3-5 years. I am surprised you lasted 10 years. Congratulations.

    Find a woman

    Raise a child

    Watch Matt kahn.

    Forget about spirituality and spiritual concepts forever. See what's actually real. See the density of modern everyday life.

    dare to live

  4. Posted · Edited by TripleFly

    Personally I would never be able to pursue any life purpose, or care about success at all.

    I think we are living in an age where nihilism is everywhere. And it's spreading.

    Without the knowledge and love that is inside my heart. Without God. I am nothing. And none of this is worth it.

    In fact I do what I do, work, study, exercise, I feel and I think, voluntarily, I even allow for suffering. To glimpse brahman 

  5. Posted

    Gaze deeply,

    Ferociously

    And with unwavering courage

    Face the horror that torments you

    That makes you squirm

    makes your heart race~ your limbs contract~ your breath become shallow;

    Breath deeply into it all

    neither pushing nor pulling

    Just witness, that which is

    The horror is you;

    as is the sublime beauty;

    take it all in

    Not as a possession

    but as a reflection

    for it is only you

  6. Posted · Edited by TripleFly

    15 minutes ago, Dazgwny said:

    @Leo Gura he’s definitely speaking shit in that book man. Energy mathematics all that shit. He’s definitely naraitive and story orientated. I’ve never had 5meo I wish I could. I’ve had a good few glimpses through lsd and no, just no, I’m convinced ball is full of shit? not totally, no way. He gets it, but he doesn’t get it like u so leo he just doesn’t Hahahaha. Hopefully one day I’ll just get this shit. But in no way would I listen to balls teachings over yours, just no way. I will get this shit leo, I’ll get it, totally at some point, then I’ll thank u, and just realise you were probably not even there to thank hahaha??

    Hey maybe this is just my protective ego since I think Martin gets it in a very deep way. Just like Bashar. Just like, idk, maybe leo. Personally I think Martin's words are more refined, and he also did THOUSANDS of weekly 5MeoDMT trips. Like seriously, Idk what you're on about. Maybe your perspective will change if you ever dare to try 5MeoDMT.

    But my point is... So you don't like his usage of the word energies? Martin's book CONTAINS stuff that will be slightly similar to the new age movement, this is stage green in spiral dynamics. And if you are stage Orange, then it WILL seem fake to you, it will seem like a story. Since your mind will still be half denial about 'SPIRITUALITY', spirituality does mean peace, and people praying, and vegans, and yoga, and ENERGY WORK like REIKI. See if any of these trigger you into this belief. Well then you're only half a foot in, and the other foot is dragging you back to your comfort zone. I am not saying, that this is the ultimate truth and there are no lies, just, openmindedness. Orange denies all of that, orange IS materialistic, orange CAN'T understand that. It doesn't need to. It's still in orange, but soon, it will move, it will change. and you will grow. Not to be something that you don't want to, but a deep understanding :)

     

    But even Martin says! look at what is REAL! If you don't have it in your experience, then it doesn't matter! He dispels a lot of the mystery and magic around shamanism and prayer! His thing about SYMMETRY, WOW! I have experienced his symmetrical movements and saw my friends have it too! I have even seen other youtubers talk about it!  So for me, I don't need any other 'proof'.

    I recommend his Entheogenic Liberation book much much more. I consider it his Magnum Opus. He talks stricly about 5MEODMT and administration and everything about entheogens(5MEO is the best one).

     

    EDIT:

    If you're not intimidated by the mandalas, I recommend listening to this, it's a collection of small fragments of his non-dual art. It's sooo cool. And it feels exactly like non-duality speak, if it could :) 

    It's beautiful. It makes me remember why, I love my heart, god. And yada yada ;) 

     

     

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    You don't need to harm yourself or to kill yourself.

    You just let it go, and moment by moment your self will come up, including all the parts of yourself that torment you and cause you to act unconsciously. You don't need to resist it coming up, because it is coming up to leave right out of you. Just continue and contain yourself, console yourself, however you can.

    This is a very important time for you. This is where things can change for you. It will be very confusing for you, and that is a good sign that you're heading in the right direction. Simply let go, and watch what is happening. Sometimes you'll suffer more and sometimes less. Breath, feel alive and do what makes you feel alive. Walking, soak yourself in water, nature, meditation.

    52 minutes ago, Shunyata said:

    Oh stop it delete this no one cares about your shit

    Everyone is going through the same thing don't think you are the only one

    At the end of the day you have to realize that you are the drama queen (we all go through that)

    It's really hard to hear your hurting. Could you try to be more direct and honest about yourself instead of others?

    It's really hard to understand you.

    Open your own thread!

  11. Posted · Edited by TripleFly

    6 hours ago, Elham said:

    I have found taking care of a plant to be feminine. 

    Well it's personal experience. I haven't heard it anywhere!

    Yeah it's weird in general taking care of your house, chores, and such, feels very feminine. I am not kidding.

    Perhaps it's the service?

  12. Posted · Edited by TripleFly

    For me it was very enlightening. 

    I saw it as opportunities to practice kindness, to practice basic social skills.

    It was one of the first books I finished, at the beginning of my journey.

    I guess this is also why people saw Marjorie, from GoT, like that. Where in fact, this stuff is just basic politeness.

    Gain friends by being polite in a rude and undeserving world. It's actually quite a skill :)  

  14. Posted

    6 hours ago, electroBeam said:

    totally agree with you

    Your back muscles are pleading for you to listen to them and give them attention. Just feel very deeply into them during the day. So much so that you start to feel bliss there. 

    Your emotions are pleading for you to listen to them and give them attention. Just feel very deeply into them during the day. So much so that you start to feel bliss there. 

    The beginning of accepting the present moment, love it!

    On 9/19/2020 at 1:00 PM, Godhead said:

    Don't see yourself as a victim of the situation, see it as hustling to reach a bigger goal!

    Also, you might want to get some sound blocking earplugs or listen to audiobooks while on the job, I can imagine it being pretty enjoyable that way actually.

    If you struggle with energy def. work out or do some running 20 mins every other day should already be enough.

    W_O_N_D_E_R_F_U_L_L

  15. Posted

    You're the second person I heard about that has done something so radical.

    I do NOT know if this is possible. I do NOT know what happens to your body after 3 and 1/2 days of not eating and drinking.

     

    Have fun! And... Remember that it's not the ONLY WAY. But it is a really good way if you know what you're doing.

     

    questions:

    1. During the day, how much does your energy fluctuate? Your emotions?

    2. Do you think you can maintain this AND maintain a worldly life?(Job, wife, kids)

    3. How long you going to go? If forever then I fully support you. Ray Maor claims to have gone to the gym and built solid muscle(he's a big guy no joke) too. 

     

    Quote

    Now we come to food. Without water, being deprived of food(nutrients) in some form would most likely kill you in two to three weeks. With water, some individuals may last a bit longer. We understand that there are people who can create a state of being that allows them to maintain a physical life without food. After all, my civilization has evolved beyond the need for physical sustenance and derives its energy directly from various forms of light. However, this list concerns your average human, not the exceptions among you or what might be relevant for other species in the cosmos.

    ~Bashar, 'The Masters of Limitation'.

  16. Posted

    3 hours ago, Nahm said:

    The stress and demands are not of the job or work. There is no job, work, stress, or demands, outside of your defining of them. 

    Indeed, that is they key...to realize that is the only ‘place’ this is transpiring. There is no causation, ‘it’, you, is one whole experience. Look for the instances where a ‘that’ caused a ‘you’ the metal/emotional exhaustion & suffering...and deconstruct that experience every time it occurs. Inspect more nuance, with more acuity, to reveal to yourself it is all emanating from you / that there is no actual causation. 

    Lovely yes, but careful to inspect that too. Would not want too much of a pattern to build there. Balance it out with the opposite. Bring time to standing still right before your eyes while ‘at work’. In many ways, that is the path to transcending the paradigm of ‘work’ vs ‘not work’, discovering ever-presence-unconditional, liberating oneself in terms of mental scope to many financial opportunities beyond the trading of time for money. One way to point to this...instead of desiring the quicker passing of time, keep a piece of paper and pen in your pocket...and dial into time, the miracle & infinite intelligence of now, and manifest your dream financial situation around you. Attract mindfully, rather than categorizing chunks of time as ‘work’ vs ‘not work’...always creating. 

    Indeed. It is manifest-retardant. 

    Not in the head, imo, in ‘reality’! In feeling ever present love, and wandering in this impossible perception. You’re never really ‘at work’, you’re in the mind of God - “at work”. The otherwise seemingly mundane, realized, can bring you to the ground anywhere.

    I realize it’s not quite fitting and aligning because I am lighthearted in truth, and laughter is the best medicine. Then I am loving and wishing well what I previously judged (took for granted / looked right past / didn’t even notice ‘who’ it really was). For the ‘overly invested’ / ‘overthinking’...more thinking won’t do, investing in anything thing won’t do. The breath, perception, feeling...letting thought and or focus upon it truly ‘go’. In true presence you might say, nothing was ever needed, and so that illustrates the ‘return’ to ‘it’. 

    Indeed. Empathy is critical and necessary on many many levels. Empathy also doesn’t exist in so far as can be thought / conceptualized. Notice the reverse of the orientation of your question...what it points to. 

    @Nahm It's about back to simply being in the present moment isn't it? Pristine clear and pure, Returning and anchoring yourself in the body. And I guess flow will simply happen from time to time as a result of being in the present. 

    This is the whole teaching???? xD  I am baffled by how simple it turned out to be.

  17. Posted

    2 hours ago, Nahm said:

    The stress and demands are not of the job or work. There is no job, work, stress, or demands, outside of your defining of them. 

    Indeed, that is they key...to realize that is the only ‘place’ this is transpiring. There is no causation, ‘it’, you, is one whole experience. Look for the instances where a ‘that’ caused a ‘you’ the metal/emotional exhaustion & suffering...and deconstruct that experience every time it occurs. Inspect more nuance, with more acuity, to reveal to yourself it is all emanating from you / that there is no actual causation. 

    Lovely yes, but careful to inspect that too. Would not want too much of a pattern to build there. Balance it out with the opposite. Bring time to standing still right before your eyes while ‘at work’. In many ways, that is the path to transcending the paradigm of ‘work’ vs ‘not work’, discovering ever-presence-unconditional, liberating oneself in terms of mental scope to many financial opportunities beyond the trading of time for money. One way to point to this...instead of desiring the quicker passing of time, keep a piece of paper and pen in your pocket...and dial into time, the miracle & infinite intelligence of now, and manifest your dream financial situation around you. Attract mindfully, rather than categorizing chunks of time as ‘work’ vs ‘not work’...always creating. 

    Indeed. It is manifest-retardant. 

    Not in the head, imo, in ‘reality’! In feeling ever present love, and wandering in this impossible perception. You’re never really ‘at work’, you’re in the mind of God - “at work”. The otherwise seemingly mundane, realized, can bring you to the ground anywhere.

    I realize it’s not quite fitting and aligning because I am lighthearted in truth, and laughter is the best medicine. Then I am loving and wishing well what I previously judged (took for granted / looked right past / didn’t even notice ‘who’ it really was). For the ‘overly invested’ / ‘overthinking’...more thinking won’t do, investing in anything thing won’t do. The breath, perception, feeling...letting thought and or focus upon it truly ‘go’. In true presence you might say, nothing was ever needed, and so that illustrates the ‘return’ to ‘it’. 

    Indeed. Empathy is critical and necessary on many many levels. Empathy also doesn’t exist in so far as can be thought / conceptualized. Notice the reverse of the orientation of your question...what it points to. 

    Thanks.

  19. Posted

    Pick the simplest and easiest one, not too cheap not too expensive. He is a good therapist.

    Then just do what is expected of you to the best of your ability and be consistent. With time the answer will become clear.

    You need to sit down and really dig up what you want. Happiness? Peace? What do those things mean to you in your personal life? 

    Then you be bold in demanding those things to yourself out of your therapist. See what comes of it.

  20. Posted

    Hi~

    During my day job I tend to forget to do 1 thing at a time, the stress and the demands of the job can quickly and easily push me over into forgetfulness and the next moment of remembrance of the present is in the midst of collective negative judgmental thoughts and anguish. Oh shit I just lost myself too deep and I am getting too invested, overthinking, judgmental and emotional. This is really inconvenient.

    I would really like to reduce the mental/emotional exhaustion and suffering.

    Another interesting element; getting in the flow allows time to pass by, and 8 hours of working can pass easily and effortlessly, how lovely! 

    But how the hell did I activate this flow while doing a job I don't like. It's a mindfuck.  Why I think it's important I don't grow the dislike anymore, as much as I can.

     

    I thought, oh mantras!~ that's a great way to bring myself back, perhaps even to build a lovely place in my headspace to which I can return to. Like going back home.

    Do you guys have any mantras or anything like that? What do you do when you find yourself in judgement, overly invested, and overthinking? :) 

    How can I deepen my connection to my heart instead of loosening it? Feeling is the answer but feeling often leads me to feel into others exhaustion and pain which 'infects' me with it too, know this issue?

     

  21. Posted

    13 hours ago, neutralempty said:

    Do Physical Exercises ( like burpees ) to be able to endure the physical stress better. Eat lots of fruits, vegetables, green-leafy vegetables, beans and legumes. Berries are also very good against stress, they are high in antioxidants!

    Do no-fap to have more sexual energy. You have something to look forward to while getting groceries, you might get to see some attractive ladies ( or men, which ever you like) in the supermarkets, that might make it easier.

    See your situation as a challenge to give up your expectations and attachments. Giving them up is freedom for you, this is some solid practice. Emerge with the service because service is selfless and selflessness is freedom.

    Look forward to the day this won't be an issue anymore! Whenever you struggle with the current situation, remind yourself of how this will be soon all over and you will be much happier and more successful in life, because you will, just long for the day! Think the suffering further don't stay in the moment of suffering, it can't be forever like this. What will happen after you have suffered through this?

    Don't worry about skipping some programming classes, you can repeat them another time. 

    I am in a very very similar situation like you right now. I have to work (20h a week) and study (50h a week) and I am making little money while swimming in a 30k ? debt pool.

    We all love you ❤️

    Thanks. You are absolutely right (:  Already doing all that you suggested, day 30 nofap, I do sun salutations in the morning, and I eat mostly fruits and veggies fasting 20 hours a day. I am going to get greens and frozen berries to blend as a daily shake from now on too.

     

    The biggest takeaway is that I am letting go of perfectly studying and putting in the time even though my goal is school > work, I have to release and favor work sometimes. 

    I think I'll be okay, I just need to let time pass.

  22. Posted

    Hi~

    Due to corona and conditions in my country I am struggling to find a job than the one I currently have, which is doing groceries for people who shop online. It doesn't sound hard but it's not easy physically shopping for 8 hours, it really gets your back and muscles hurting. Add the the mental and emotional drain from being around rude and compulsive people all day.

    I am currently taking a course in programming.

    So in 6 months I should be able to land a job and things should work better.

    The issue is, I come home exhausted and I have a few hours to sit down and study and practice. It is really hard to study after doing a job you don't like for 8 hours.

    The mental exhaustion from repelling all the obnoxious people.

    The physical exhaustion...

    And if I find myself not studying, then I feel really anxious, since I am only working this job to support me while I wait to finish my course. So if this job causes me to study less, then it scares me!

     

    I can't quit this job, because I can't find anything else right now, corona...

    So I am thinking, the only way for me here is to really double down on my breathwork practice and other spiritual practices, to gain more energy. 

    And of course, the best way to conserve and be less exhausted, is to fall in love with what I am doing.

    Anyone been in a similar situation?

  23. Posted

    write down the thoughts, worries, fears, anxieties, that you believe are blocking you, then find a way to reincorporate those very fears as the way to your goal. 

    I am afraid that no one will like me at work and I will stay all alone, as I have been in the past, and this means the future is hopeless...

    >> Even though I am afraid of many things, I still want certain things, and although I know my fear stops me, I also know that I let it do so. So instead of resisting you, my dear fear, I am ready to surrender the way I want things to be, so you can show me what's the baby steps needed for me to do first before I am ready. I shall be present with you, my dear fear, until you are ready to tell me what excites you enough to step forward and slowly join in the great flow that I Am.

  25. Posted

    This is what every woman on this planet goes through these days :) 

    Stop letting men have sex with you(and I don't mean not to physically love you or have intercourse!!!)... I mean only be open to love.

    Let them woo you, and then one day

    You will encounter a man, and he will claim to love you, you gotta be a little vigilant, because at some point he may compromise, or you may compromise, for the promise of sex.

    But the promise of sex always ends in disappointment and the oncoming on depression for the woman.

    This is wonderful talk about sex and love:

    Barry long, one of the only gurus that ever dared to talk about sex or love. He also has an incredibly powerful book about love making.