Loving Radiance

This is a warning sign for how he will be later on in the relationship. You two can work on this, and his motivated participation is all it needs. If he doesn't see this, then you can move on from him. You can't change him alone, he has to want it too.

Beautiful. Thank you.

@Vladimir Thank you so much! Love your response. Consider that (gradual) falling away of the individual identification can be said to be death. This de-identification can be lived, watched, allowed. Question: How has your perception of "I" changed (before and after the 18 months)?

@Vladimir ?

Hello there! I'm curious, what comes up in you when you read these words?

@Tahuti I'm sorry, did you want to quote someone else?

This makes me think about what other sensible things we criminalize which are in reality just no big deal.

@UpperMaster In the past I used to block all sites whose URLs contained porn keywords (even "xx"). But I don't do that anymore because the blocker software doesn't solve the underlying root cause. Yes, it's fast-acting and direct, but it's not doing the hard rewiring that is needed - you have to do it yourself and work on that daily. My suggestion is to use blocker software like "cold turkey blocker" for times when your focus is needed elsewhere. When you are relatively free, go disable it and let go of your craving only once per day (see power of letting go) and increase it incrementally over time. Or replace the routine for that cue (e.g. the cue can be the impulse to let go of or avoid feeling the sexual energy) with something healthy, like making a short work out or doing Pranayama. In my experience, cultivating that sexual energy through semen retention is bound to fail when I don't circulate that energy. Doing Pranayama breathing for sexual energy is great. When the energy remains stagnant and isn't moved around and channeled in physical activities, it then triggers old impulses... there's another option, which is to remain still and unmoved by that impulsive energy. Also notice how your mind is geared towards imagination whenever you engage with sexual energy. For me, I notice how I feed a part in me that lives on imagination & being a watcher of sexual activity. I don't have guidance for you on this, I just simply made it a meditation to focus on and do something else whenever the urge came up to go into my imagination.

@Topspin715 I use http://youtubetranscript.com/ It's also good to watch the videos along with this tool because it lets you track easily the exact sections where Leo said something just by clicking on the lines. There are also the transcripts of the first 100 or so videos on his website: actualized.org/articles Just choose a category and go to the older videos. They have transcripts.

@Illusory Self Even when you feel liberated and the depression curtain is lifted during the trip, the question remains how you integrate all of it. Tripping is the easy part in regards to getting to elevaded clear perception because your consciousness is expanded. The hard part is integrating/flowing into that perception in normal consciousness. If you trip, plan/contemplate during the high what core foundations are needed in regular life. Perhaps this or something else entirely is revealing itself to you and you don't have to do anything. But nonetheless make this intention and let go of it when the trip starts. It's a good experiment to try out this process during shamanic breathing (focussing in the core fundamentals). In my experience the depression veil lifts on the high and I can see clearly. Be sure to write the core things down. It's easy to forget in the depressive fog.

@Tyler Robinson It's literally called "poetic description of god-consciousness". The story is the poem.

@Tyler Robinson his newest video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K8AXWd6DFzU

Every thing is everything.

"Your body doesn't exist" is a pointer to the illusion of interpretation. The body exists, the world exists, yes. Recognize that a chair is not the word, and that your body is not what you understand your body to be. Fundamentally, it's pointing to the quality of not-knowing of everything in existence. To know nothing is to know everything because one is conscious in every moment of the inherent unknown mystery of everything in existence.

@talktomeaboutprog Welcome to the forum After adding shrooms to my menu I opened up to the inherent universal energies. These mystical experiences showed me exactly where to look in my usual spiritual practice which made it more powerful. Psychedelics really teach you what surrendering and spirituality means. I highly recommend contemplation via journaling about these trip insights. Be very careful with them. They can make you too open and break your sense of reality too harshly. So, always stay grounded in 3D reality. Whenever you feel unstable in daily life, drop them till you are connected to the physical and relish in the mundane reality which is already Beauty and Love. Doing 1-2g is a good region for this work, and you are already set on a good path by having this long-term outlook.

@playdoh Thank you for sharing your situation!

Process your anger first before confirming your reality (asking if they have done it) and then addressing your boundaries. Use emotional release tools for processing the anger. Then confirm your assumption, "I saw my milk is gone, which made me imagine that you drank it. Is that true?" If they say yes, say that your food is only for you. Enforce your boundaries if they overstep them, teach it if necessary.

I suggest using a youtube transcript generator like youtubetranscript.com for everyone going through videos and taking notes. You can click on the line and it will take you to the exact spot in the video. This is tremendously helpful when combined with the search tool (for me STRG+F) for finding specific passages and topics. In addition to that, I think I will use this for lectures, talks and interviews because I can read faster than most people speak.

The anger is there for you to protect your boundaries. IMO, instead of holding onto it and letting it eat you from the inside... use the cue of the anger for stating and protecting your boundaries. I assume some things here in order for you to realize your internal processes going on (no matter if you found your tires or the milk first): When you noticed the flat tires, did you already imagine that one of your flatmates may have done it? There was anger arising about somebody causing this. This came up because holes in your tire are outside your boundaries. Anger got again triggered when you noticed the missing milk bag. You have a boundary about wanting your food to be consumed only with your permission or not at all. That anger about the flat tire was then transferred to the milk thief. This transference made you believe that the same evil actor was behind the tire and the milk because the same emotion came up in such a short time and space. Is that accurate or a complete miss? Please give me feedback.

Reviving this thread! This is something I read today, which shows how deep any practice can go. Intriguing how The Work can become a way of living:

Byron Katie: "No one knows what’s good and what’s bad. No one knows what death is. Maybe it’s not a something; maybe it’s not even a nothing. It’s the pure unknown, and I love that. We imagine that death is a state of being or a state of nothingness, and we frighten ourselves with our own concepts. I’m a lover of what is: I love sickness and health, coming and going, life and death. I see life and death as equal. Reality is good; so death must be good, whatever it is, if it’s anything at all."

This is derealization. Full stop and turn around. I'm projecting here on you @michaelcycle00 for sure (even though it might be on point): Let go of everything spiritual that points towards the Absolute and focus on the relative, that which is really important for you right now in this stage of life. Maybe you avoid the relative survival by bypassing into the Absolute. Turn around and get your shit handled. Turn around and burn through that karma first. The Absolute can wait.

How and why would you sacrifice yourself for them? There is no contradiction in "all is one" and having boundaries about who you spend your time with.

@somegirl Yes, smile and feel gratitude for the aspect which brought you here. Then let go. Follow your heart's desire. Feel it.