Loving Radiance

@Iblitan Good choice! There are lots of free quality resources out there for learning coding. Coding boot camps and courses at udemy are also good. Here is what I found at the forum: I'd start with Google IT Automation with Python. Great course, great instructors, a complete know-how to become a promising junior Python coder. Doesn't just deal with the code but also practical aspects about working in IT. I don't have any specific recommendations for the job hunt (I'm in Italy and I don't really know how it works outside of it :P) except making a professional looking LinkedIn profile (make sure to link your Google certification). I get about 10 job offers per month there. There's so much demand for programmers it feels like cheating when compared to the reality of finding a job as a young person in other fields. If you're looking to become a front end developer having a solid grasp of HTML and CSS is a great place to start. Yes, 2 months or less should be enough for you to become decent at Javascript, Typescript and Angular, granted you are serious and motivated. Following a structured online course is a good idea, even better if there's some sort of certification to show in your resume.

Videos are up @levani @oldhandle @Hero0 @Joshtjclark

@itsadistraction Get the book "Kriya Secrets Revealed" by J. C. Stevens and start with lesson 1.

@Someone here Sounds like Leo's Life Purpose course is perfect for you. Learn to enjoy the grind by coming into flow and making distinctions during each grind session. This is how you make it your art. Focus on your enjoyment of the medium (coding, sculpturing, writing,..). Focus on the depth and beauty of the grind. It's a subtle taste that can easily be missed especially when one isn't committed to the grind for a few months. It's normal to dislike the grindy hard work in the beginning. (That's what I know from the LP course)

@Sugarcoat Nah, it's rather something that comes up naturally when it's needed. I'm chill most of the time.

At a Green workshop about working with and processing emotions and inner parts we drank ceremonial cacao as part of the evening. The cacao got me so much in my body and flow. There was that one guy who was particularly clingy to his gf. Felt like he was in a desperate, clingy and dependent child mode where he needed feminine mother energy to feel whole. His gf wasn't liking it. I intuitively did bodywork on him. I basically commanded him to lay on a mattress and then dominantly laid myself on him, and I whispered into his ear (taunting, child-pretend, victim-pretend goblin voice, the voice-expressed version of his feeling state), "I am so small. I don't even feel myself, so small am I. I feel so much without power, I am such a small miserable victim, and life just happens to me I guess. I could feel sad but actually I am just very small, too small to feel anything. [...]" After some time his anger came and threw me around on his back and eventually I fell down. In that moment I felt that he would need to be in his power on his own and not be dependent on me. I asked for him to be the one who activates and brings me into my power to raise me up, "Please help me. I am so weak." He then helped me up and made sure that I am stable and can stand on my own.

@Moksha Beautifully put. Thank you!

I'm am still dealing with DPDR and I can confirm this.

There is no difference between meditating in a monastery and living life the achiever way. The thought that monks are dead is just that, a thought. Do that which personally suits you and gives you your highest bliss (aka flow, gratification, satisfaction...). That may be being a monk... but you won't know it till you put your ego aside and live in a monastery for some time.

Reflection on limiting beliefs and mental health challenge Man, limiting beliefs have guided me my whole life. I found many great guiding questions on the internet to uncover limiting beliefs. There were so many times I felt the subconscious impulse to just look away and not investigate into it. Especially the core wound and resulting beliefs my identity is standing on let the urge come up to distract and forget all what I have learned. Being dissociated (depersonalization-derealization) is not easy while wanting to do the LP course. Leo said that one should care for their health first and then come back to do the course. It was difficult today. Because the mind's analytical capability, to think straight and the self-perception weren't functioning right. However now I am doing better and I continue the course because it gives me purpose and is a goal that shows me that I can care for my future self. Still, it's tricky because I easily distract and dissociate when I go into serious investigation like for example with limiting beliefs.

Update Today I began to make flashcards to learn all the concepts. I notice that otherwise they would just fade away even with consistent reading over my notes. I know that the real work is building the tree house, but when I keep forgetting how to screw the wood together I feel I will spend more time looking at the instruction rather than actually working and having the map inside me. I like this process to be as fluid as possible. I want to know and navigate through these waters like I know and do at my home. In school I didn't like to use flashcards to learn because I associated it with being forced to learn something that I wasn't interested in. However, here with the LP course I am internally motivated and I can see how this will help me in the long-term. On the value of small steps I spoke with my a friend about if we do "enough" work. Apparently he wasn't satisfied with himself and judged himself for it. Yes, we are not doing enough compared to others and to our expectations, however we are already doing enough considering our position. Only because everybody else seems to run a marathon doesn't mean that those who never ran 100 meters need to run a marathon too. We can only start with 50 meters and maybe increase it by 10 meters each day. It's okay to start slow. And in the end we are doing marathons regularly because we enjoyed being consistent and dedicated to the journey.

@Michael569 Massive! Thank you. And also thanks for sharing a bit where you are. Feels good to get an insight into where you're at right now even if it's not glamorous.

When we contribute with our LP to the world, we can either a) meet our lower needs of Maslow's hierarchy first (safety and belonging) and then share our LP, or b) focus on contributing with our LP first (fulfilling self-actualization need) and then our lower needs get met automatically. I for myself have the intuition that a) is for me because otherwise the holes in my pyramid would drag me down and hinder my contribution (and even corrupt it). For those currently in the course, what do you feel will be your choice and why? And for those futher on the path, what was the case for you? Here's Maslow's pyramid of needs for reference. @Michael569 @soos_mite_ah

Just now, I was watching the creator vs. competitor video of the LP course and realized that the Law of Attraction was literally coming into being in the Deep Space Nine episode "If Wishes Were Horses" (S1E16). In the episode, the people's imagination became reality and as always there was a threat arising from that. Neat!

I agree and I also would like you aware of the value of visual story telling:

The channel was shared here before, but this is a good video:

Everybody is on their own path. One could draw inspiration from somebody else's path, but it's just nonsensical to compare. It's like comparing apples to tomatoes. There are different paths for people because they need to have different experiences. People and personalities are different, and so every person has get different experiences.

You will be an awesome writer. I am looking forward to see the powerful stories you will create.

@Spiritual Warrior This isn't explicitly Green. Even Blue Christian forums can include all of that. Even the Orange pick-up forums can have that.

Giving back to nature, the land and the community. Sustainable back to-the-roots living. Small co-op. Connection.

@Fadious It keeps showing up in these situations because life (parents and caretakers, siblings, "friends") conditioned you since childhood and teenage years to act that way. It's usually a deeply imbedded pattern which is hard to redirect even when you are conscious during these situations. it can also be anger towards yourself because you go over your own boundaries by (seemingly) allowing people to do as they please. When starting out on the journey of expressing repressed emotions, watch out for feeling overly chaotic inside and feeling that these emotions are too much for you. Perhaps even thoughts of self-harm and suicide can come up in order to avoid feeling these repressed emotions. That shows that the steps taken towards expression were too big. Make tiny steps. They will suffice for processing and you feeling free after some emotional work.

@trenton I am happy for you that this transformation started with you making this thread! Amazing to see.

@Michael569 @Jacob Morres Thank you for this advice! I am in the beginning of the course right now.

@enzyme Did you eat them? It can cause feelings of heavy nausea. I always made a mushroom tea (using powdered/cut mushrooms and not boiling water) and drank it together with a ginger tea. The only thing then left is sometimes the feeling of impending doom during the come up, but it settles. No more nausea or very little. Notice that what you believe creates your reality. Notice that the focus on nausea was used to not let go and surrender to the trip experience. It is possible to have effects from the trips remaining which don't seem functional in daily life (HPPD). If you experience any after effects its good to ground yourself and let time pass. I certainly had HPPD after my first high shroom trip which lead me to derealization-depersonalization episodes because I didn't ground myself in daily life (meaning that I took another high dose 3 months later which intensified dissociation tendencies).