Grateful Dead

https://www.youtube.com/user/TaraSpringett/videos This channel was helpful for my Kundalini journey I also read her books I recommend this one for you: https://www.amazon.de/Healing-Kundalini-Symptoms-Proven-Techniques/dp/1689344970/ref=sr_1_7?crid=2M9YC09XP7B6F&keywords=tara+springett&qid=1645878736&s=books&sprefix=tara+sprin%2Cstripbooks%2C147&sr=1-7 These techniques will get you rid of your symptoms very quickly

If you're not really grounded right now then I would advise against tripping. You can always come back to it, if you push yourself unnecessarily now it may take you a long time to recover from it.

Yes, I can definitely relate to what you have wrote. I think the problem with trauma is that it works in our subconscious and is unconscious to us until we open up to a higher consciousness. I wasn't able to fully let go of my trauma until I found God.

I think it could be because you don't complete your trip during the session and therefore have an energetic imbalance afterwards. You could try breathwork at the end of the peak or smoke some weed. If this doesn't work, you may need a higher dose.

A late Happy New Year to my Sisters and Brothers Keep the Faith

wow this is really well done! thanks for sharing ?

@EmptyVase I've never been into German Rap but wtf happend with Genetikk? Raping about God? I like it

It's good for integrating difficult trips much more addictive than other "psychedelic" substances

Yeah you can have breakthroughs on 20ug if there is little resistance. Higher dose or to smoke weed on the peak is the fastest way but can also backfire quickly... other then that you could work on your contemplation/meditation/yoga skills

You could look to unconventional therapists or other spiritual healers. For example, I know that there are Reiki therapists and breathwork facilitators in Italy. I think you can also find breathwork courses online. Psychedelics can also be helpful, but in your situation I would suggest doing this with an experienced guide to start with.

You should be very gentle with yourself now. I was also traumatized by an intense LSD trip once. What really helped me is taking low doses like 50 ug of LSD in nature. I usually trip alone most of the time but it didn't fully resolve until after 2 friends and I took a small dose of LSD and talked about everything. Also Ketamine and MDMA can be very helpful with integrating difficult trips. Thanks for sharing your insights ?

Serotonin is known to trigger migraines if you are prone to it.

I think you already know that none of this is your fault and that it's okay to feel that way. Now I want you to consider the possibility of an immediate change. From your posts it seems to me that you have already done a lot of theoretical work, but I think that you miss actualizing through techniques. (I might be wrong about that) For example, you could try breathing exercises or start a meditation practice. You have to get out of your head and get active in your life. I also know that you journal a lot and that's great, but you should also be talking to someone in real life. Speaking out loud will process your problems completely differently and you can move on more quickly.

This sounds like spiritual bypassing. You have fundamental problems that you should address first. I think the best thing for you would be to forget about spirituality for a while. Talk to someone in real life about your situation, preferably a therapist. More people than you would think are going through phases like this. In 5 or 10 years everything could look very different...

The Grateful Dead did it at the end of some shows in the late 60's I don't really get it though...

Yes I have experienced it once. I faced absolute truth and couldn't accept it... so I just kept repeating "no this can't be true" and at some point I think my mind just shut off. When I came back I was in a totalay different location and I didn't know how I got there.

Just listend to the Podcast... highly recommended Incredibly great conversation that gives you a deep insight into human nature and society in general. To be honest, I had no idea how bad it really is in North Korea.

Beautiful, thank you for sharing Do you think it would have been better for you if you hadn't come to psychiatry?

@LambChop Thanks for sharing! You have taken the most important first step and you definitely have the right mindset. Now take one step at a time and don't look back I wish you all the best!

There are several methods you can try, such as breathwork, mindfulness meditation, psychedelics etc... But it is always a long process and ideally the methods are used in conjunction with therapy. That would be good to start with

@Ananta No, I am not a Doctor and maybe you are right, I don't know him well enough. But it's also obivous that I don't give medical adive here.. I only have the information shared on this thread and what I am suggesting is what I would do if I were him.

I wouldn't recommend it for every mental illness either, but they seem very effective for major depression and OP has suffered all his life. If you do a little research you will find that psychedelics are increasingly being used to treat mental illnesses. The problem is in Europe it will probably be many years before it can be legally done under medical supervision. You can reduce the risk to a minimum, even if you are alone or only have a untrained tripsitter. In general, you should always be very careful with psychedelics, I hardly recommend them to normal people these days.

It is not uncommon for people with mental disorders to have to go through Hell and experience a mental breakdown before they can begin healing. I have a friend who was depressed all his life and tried to kill himself twice (once on psychedelics) before I met him. He was in closed psychiatric treatment for almost a year and other than being sedated with medication it had no effect. I talked to him a lot about psychedelics and after a while he was ready to take mushrooms again. One experience completely changed his life so that he could start studying again, found a girlfriend and even now about 5 years later he no longer suffers from depression. It can be a miracle cure if you know what to do but it can also make things a lot worse. Oke 2-CB is already considered a mild psychedelic. How did you do it? Like how was Set and Setting?