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the problem about the position is, it destroys the natural hirachy, gives people power they would naturally not have. if someone plays an ego game with that it takes only from the others without giving back. corrupts the heart in the end because there is no real sharing. i had enough cindarella stories, with apples and mirrors to see what exactly is looking at me. and even though i see, i don`t see a justification.

yes might be, i don`t say i`m without any part in it. are you? but are you a moderator tsuki? and what is that you are doing here? why are you not a moderator? maybe because sorcery has their own rules and can be abused in the wrong position? (could also call it psychological schemes if someone wants some more clarity of speech)

@Zigzag Idiot but i`m pointing at a blue structural problem here, not a purple problem. i can`t address it without blue as blue is responsible, if no one wants to be blue because they are all muddy green. yeah i thought the moderators should at least be green and not purple...or red. i see that you understand it well the path of the patriarchal warrior, but do you understand the path of the matriarchy? "community before ego" everything else is not green even if the heart chakra has the same colour and might be open wide. the intention is coming from somewhere else. somehow the rolls get twisted if a mother doesn`t care and only cares for herself, it`s a missunderstanding of what is a healthy female godess if a woman can not stand to her dark side. i`m not judging that a person might try to create a huge selfimmage here - i think that can happen while awakening, while letting go of everything related to oneself. but a moderator should have some controll over their ego already, understanding what exactly they project onto others. she constantly made it clear that she got her position because of personal relations. what goes against my code of conduct in the first place. should i now go on my knees or what. the illusion is so perfect that i can`t say photoshop or facebook orange fast enough.

the hardest truth is when you see, that what you love is killing you.

@mandyjw there are different ways of constructing a house, some are more environment friendly and some are aggressive with buldozers coming in destoying whole ecosystems. you can`t just say it was nature who did that as nature wouldn`t do that to itself, only a denaturalization process seperates the being from it`s creation. to use a saw naturally you need to be connected to the wood, not by nails but by nature.

@Alex bliss but don`t drink it will more likely make you an alcoholic than a playboy.

@Leo Gura well some words jesus said on the cross: "forgive them father, for they don`t know what they are doing" maybe because he was a carpenter as well.

but if chaos was creation then why do we create structure? is structure the same as chaos? then what is natural structure and what is artificial structure? where is natural chaos and where is artificial chaos? who is in power? who decides on the rules? chaos is creation, structures are as well.

@astrokeen you need to go full circle to see that. brahman and brahma are actually one but brahma is separated from brahman being part of the trinity with vishnu and shiva. brahman contains all three of them, it`s a matter of how these forces interact with karma. it`s about how not that.

it is as if you would discuss if brahma was prior to brahman or brahman prior to brahma. there are two systems competing against each other brahmans love and brahmas love. from far up the cross we sometimes don`t realize that the cross was made by a carpenter.

addressing it again, how can someone be a moderator if the person is not able to solve conflicts by herself? then should everyone do her work, she maybe even created? i don`t get it.

i got two warning points for calling her toxic, someone else had to do it whyever.

because this toppic is a reuptake from a situation we had when i had another identity she posted it the moment she realized who i was while laying out a trail so i would follow to what she was doing. before she wasn`t even posting in the forum anymore only in her diary. i think it`s less toxic to address my real emotions and the person who is playing out toxic behavior towards me, than trying to have a white west by saying i know i`m toxic but i can`t change it that´s why i go on with my white west behavior. but she`s so much in denial that she can`t even talk about why i think she`s toxic. she knows that`s why she can throw a heart. so of course i mirror her toxicity, i have emotions, too. doesn`t change that she is in denial about it. toxic masculinity is addressed here in the forum all the time, so why not address toxic femininity when it`s playing out. how is it different addressing it from my position than from her position? because i didn`t post a heart or what? she says it herself she get`s how she is doing it, then why doesn`t she change. could accept all that if she wasn`t a moderator. if no one says it out loud someone has to. she`s painting herself perfect, instead of helping people to resolve problems, she creates them. you can`t solve that by not addressing the problem.

do you really want to? and then he might get reelected if he was a king there would maybe be no other chance. therapy in oval office nice immage.

find that verry verry difficult to approach as there is a massive possibility in confusing significant size with relative size. of course understanding a situation is close to compassion seeing where a person comes from. but it`s so fast used as an excuse for all devilry he commited, he`s a grown up man who already lived the most of his life and isn`t even aware that he puts trauma on children. he probably had enough chances to develop compassion. can i understand, yes of course but if i would have the choice between one of these children and trump to treat first in a medical situation where it`s about life ans death i would exactly because of compassion safe the child first. why should one life be more relevant than another? i guess i would choose because of responsibility for the life of a person. you could say now: but trump is responsible for much more people than the child is. well yes, exactly. because i would take his responsibility on my shoulders with that.

yes, sounds true. gravity sounds also true, some buddhas have more of it than others, but the ones with the super big gravity or no gravity at all are confused for a buddha while being some chinese zen master poe-tai ho-shang or so. it`s interesting, what you describe i started to read about it in the yoga an kriya book of swami satyananda saraswati some days ago. p604-606 he recommends uddiyana bandha and manipura shuddi. manipura shuddhi is practically what you posted there. agni sara kriya is also pretty nice, but more for the fiery part of the stomach, maybe a little too much heat if the heat is already high, but for me as i`m lacking on agni a little bit it`s very good. found that through another source.

too much tension, too much focus on how you construct the world realistically even though it´s a reality that might not serve you at all. if mdma feels like it is a solution instead of a once in a while experience, it is because you might be missing out on love in general. might be that the world seems too dark and lifeless. concentrate on heart expansion or work on your visionary skills, maybe getting more creative could help to align the power center with vision. it can also be a sign that you have a sharp mind or that you are trying to figure ot something with logic that can`t be solved by pure logic especially if it is a fear based aspect of your life or personality.

yes you are right the space was not big enough to post the whole book. especially the don`ts and dos are so difficult to figure out all by oneself.

@Nadgrowing up in a green houshold i was not very fond of psychatry to begin with, and still not completely are. but with some problems in the dynamics of my parents aggregating over time to huge problems i learned that some dynamics and problems don`t go away, especially because the dynamics use to bite themselves in the tail. with my dad at one point it got better because he finally agreed to stay in psychatric care for some time. i thought psychatry was bad, but it still helped him. afterwards it was easier to change some dynamics. so i can absolutely recommend it to get a foot in the door with that. it`s very difficult to break the habits at home as the space is linked to the habits in the home aswell as memory is. she`s holding onto you because you give her security, holding her hand by leading her to more independence could be a big step. maybe changing the patterns through changing something about the flat or house while she would be away can also feel like a new start for her when she comes back. setting up new rules and habits along with that.

it`s only at the beginning where you have to push through it with the mind. if you install habits for your deepest cravings like everytime the icecream (i scream) craving appears supplementing them with a smoothie you will supplement the bad habits with good habits as your body and memory will slowly supplement the bad cravings with good ones. that is where the now, now, now and now starts to be the ever. you might have backlashes from time to time but overall also be attentive to why the craving appears, what are you really supplementing with the cravings - might be that the amount of discipline you have to bring forward during your day to day life is the reason for having attacks on discipline, try to supplement with a good feeling imagine how your body also starts to be more energized and how bananas boost your serotonin, your mood and magnesium levels. they already make you more relaxed just by the ingredients. also don`t go for all of them at the same time if you have huge backlashes, might be because you can`t hold up the intensity for too long a distance. tak on one habit at a time and be more forgiving with the others. it will change slowly. don`t forget the other habbits though - could help to make a list. make it a fun challenge! recipes please

he missed out on lucy or was it carry?

"Why does sight stop when eyes close and sound stop when ears covered?" because you don`t look deep enough and don`t listen what is silence.

yes tsuki internally and you can also work on it externally ? intraterrestrial and extraterrestrial. don`t ask me what is what it`s without gravity.

some body changes in form and experience of itself through yoga, more body power, better body posture, better flexibility. i would not do kria without training the body alongside, because you then feel an untrained body which doesn`t feel so good, it feels better if the body also does for example sun salutations - good starting point for physical yoga, i`d probably do that minimum half a year before i would start with the advanced stuff. until you step into yoga and understand its bodyspiritual background you will not understand it deeply. it`s the body mind movement where you are aiming at. what do you want to do with energy if it doesn`t move the body? it will only get stuck in the head. same with doing only the asanas without trying to understand what`s behind them, will just change your physical appearence.

very interesting, i was not so close to that case as it`s in the us, there are a lot of cases like that, they pop up once in a while and i`m always speechless how the system protects these cases. with the dark triade people it`s clear, they probably want this power and then they work themselfs towards the position where their ego gets what it craves for most. with other cases where it`s because people don`t fill their position and do harm because they are not qualified enough, it`s a different story. sometimes it might be that they didn`t have to work themselves up to the position, they just drop in there from college without developing skills. or because dady put them there (what would be purple, they will go through red to stabilize the position, very toxic). that`s what i now call blue hirarchical structures, especially when they are central organised with strict hirarchical authority structures. what happens toxically between the lines is red in the most cases supported by a blue system, while the people react orange, only thinking about themselfs. the community is like the structure then blue, what makes orange shut up instead of pointing towards the errors in the system. the only ones who go against that are green or higher up stages. there are no orange systems as orange is ego, so the next step would be a green system, what is too anarchic to work out. every individual in the system would need to be green or turquoise for a green system to work (well they exist but not in mixed forms). the problem is that blue makes a lot of people fall back into orange, especially even green people who used to build their relationships on green get sometimes comfy in it, that would be orange/green (selfish green, military or muddy green) they even would if the system was yellow structured because they can`t cope with managing their ego yet to stabilize a system for the communities sake as they confuse yellow for blue - because green transcends orange and can accept blue in a healthy way, only when they are already one step in yellow (mixture of blue and yellow, accepting yellow structure self responsible not egoic) spiral dynamics matrix.