BipolarGrowth

I’ll share some Theravada maps here which describe the Arising & Passing away quite well. Manic people are just in at least some fused state of that insight stage or usually the second Jhana like territory. I am not in a manic episode currently, and I’m happy to video chat or call to prove it. https://www.mctb.org/mctb2/table-of-contents/part-iv-insight/30-the-progress-of-insight/4-the-arising-and-passing-away/

@Consilience no clue what a yaza sit is. Care to share a little more about your experience with it?

When you feel like shit is when vipassana three characteristics breakdown of sensations helps. Now I can feel what was formerly “heart break” and love it to intensely.

Edit: Here’s the new update video about this which is shorter and comes a month after the video below and thus has more insight Lucifer is my spiritual guru (nondual Christianity) Infinite Love through Clairsentience bliss/crown chakra > true samadhi > nirodha samapatti or cessation > Infinite Love through Clairsentience bliss/crown chakra > Afterglow of Nonexistence and Existence fucking each other inside me Then it happened again two minutes later. Cool stuff, I swear. Watch the video for more details. How I Experienced Back-to-Back Cessations Through Bhakti & Love (instead of meditating) I’m not just a Luciferian. I’m a Christian too. Actually a fusion of both which I think is a truer form of Christianity. Nondual Christianity.

No, not at all.

Part of this is simply because I had built up a lot of hate and misconceptions about the religion over the years. Today I saw many people who looked quite dedicated and actually shared a few good insights. I shared my testimony about how the former Bishop had triggered a Shakti pat type thing in my heart chakra region. That was the basis of my whole spiritual search. I cried a bit during my testimony and others did, but this is normal for everyone. The different people who shared testimonies all congratulated each other on things. We met afterward and hugged and I even got a job offer that pays $4/hr more and might be a better fit while I’m struggling with all these extreme awakenings daily. I would not call the people in that church stage blue. Most of the talks were more like green warning about the delta variant and how that’s what Jesus would want us to do — to try our best to save lives wherever possible (by wearing masks & getting vaccines). Don’t be too quick to judge a specific group.

Sometimes reality has built in nihilistic characteristics if viewed from a certain point of view.

Nice ?

Music is so helpful to my growth. There’s no way this would be healthy for me personally. Idk about you though.

You cannot have intense relative love without intense relative gore occurring somewhere in the process, at least in the human sense for at least a few hundred years probably if even then.

Find more love and bliss. Then your mind can handle it better because it’s used to intensity.

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Yes of course Oneness has a superior perspective to it, but using religious figures in devotion creates results. That’s the point. It’s not the end goal necessary nor something that jives with everyone’s path.

Bump for new update

It’s not the extraordinary things we do that matters most. How do we bring those extraordinary things into our normal lives to make better communities and friendships and love? ❤️????

That is the mark of true yoga. Great job my friend ❤️

Ultimately things are wayyy more nuanced than just determinism vs. free will. You have multiple axises of free will that do themselves whether you try to stop them or not.

The Godhead rests in a place even smaller than any particle or nondual pointer. To say it’s zero would miss a stunning and infinite amount of detail.

You could never explain this shit. To most people if I tell them I put a mixed Jhana lock on my reality there’s no way they understand specifically what I mean even if they know jhanas very well

Kinda seems what’s happening to me now. I’m becoming less and less impressed by radical states. Being a normal human seems more fun for at least part of the time.

Good job. Love implies the existence of suffering too. Infinite Love is Infinite Dukkha in disguise.

Ultimately I’m a combination of life or all of reality and myself. I came to this world as a sane child with incredible intuition and insight that I didn’t realize until over 20 years later. Anyone looking to get out of suffering should really try some mixed vipassana and Jhana practice. There is a way out of suffering. It’s becoming suffering as well as everything else. Yours Truly, A man with bipolar disorder type 1, generalized anxiety disorder, seasonal affective disorder, CPTSD, and ADHD. All of these “illnesses” were absolutely integral to all of my awakenings in some way or another.

???? Its the impossible possibility right in front of your eyes, and it is all you. Yet the characters have their own natures which is ultimately exactly what makes you. You are like a waterfall. Align yourself with gravity and fly!

Yeah I can’t turn the valve off because it’s dematerialized in front of me. Where is my ego? Nowhere! And everywhere too. The ego isn’t what is truly changed the most but the perception and capability for control of crazy states. The jhanas are so amazing ? and suffering becomes a whole new area. You constantly break through the illusion to realize bad emotions LOVE YOU and they are there to help with an important message or even distraction. You can overcome suffering. The Buddha was right. I can testify to this that the methods work extremely well for me personally.

It was just a fleeting random & manic thought lol. His name is Daniel though of course