BipolarGrowth

Sounds like a pretty strong experience. There’s plenty more though. Keep going.

I used to think in a very similar way. I still agree with most of what you’ve said, but just be careful with psychedelics or any spiritual techniques. They might make you unstable at times, and only you can know if that trade off is worth it.

They are trying to get people to realize either Self (Universal Self)/God or No Self. Both can be helpful for liberation.

Why are you assuming their must be a being?

There is just an edge of a present moment as a self, but even this edge can stop. Nothing lasts forever. Everything is change in an infinitely complicated way as far as the eye can see and in fact much further. Everything is Buddha. Nothing is Buddha.

These aren’t proofs. They are more accurately called assumptions to start from, which could be true or false. There is no proof inherent in any of what is written here.

What do you think? What has it solved for you?

I’ve had more intense trips from THC than most people have had in their entire lives. Once you start getting into mixed jhana territory sober, THC is a completely different compound. It used to just make me a little high, horny, and lazy way back when I started. It’s crazy to see the progression. The deepest awakening I’ve ever had was on THC. Dabs seem to be the most effective but also the least predictable. Edibles are more predictable but less potent. Smoking or vaping is hit or miss. THC did not have this effect until I had done multiple heroic doses of normal psychedelics and had many psychiatric events which probably changes how my body processes THC.

There is no ground other than here, but even here and now constantly is in flux to never truly be grasped. This is the end of existentialism, and it is a brutal crescendo before all beings which might inhabit the space.

I have a memory of enlightenment always being the case and an even better enlightenment being the only possibility for my future which work on the bipolar manic type 1 (look up in DSM 5) powers of the mind to a full degree to produce a present moment awareness which reinforces my own bullshit musings of however I think about my reality into more or less measurable changes within my reality. A big part of the teaching was to lose you somewhere in there. It’s to show the separation in our experience, but I’m telling you here and now that we are having more of the same experience than it would be right to say our experience is different. I’m just accessing this through the bipolar brain matrix while you have a more or less neurotypical experience.

You should approach aspects of this work with fear and anxiety. Modern enlightenment teachings take the “fear of God” out of things entirely which is not wise for those who are not ready to have their consciousness slammed against the anvil of God to beat out impurities. Notice that I’m pulling up shadow aspects of your psyche. You wouldn’t have this anxious feeling if it were not the case.

I’m trying. Note that I presented myself as someone to not listen to. People are likely guided to my teachings with a certain karmic preparation which will hopefully defend against the “negative” aspects of what presents itself here.

I experience zero depression as all sensations are seen to be in the continuum of sensation vs. cessation which is basically to say that bliss sensations are seen as almost equal to something like what I would’ve called emotional loss. I still have a human experience and my present moment is almost exactly as it was before. What has changed is my past self imagination and future self imagination and what I think is possible between those two poles. I’ve had roughly 500 awakenings at this point for my present moment to pull from memory. This makes my present moment feel so fresh and different even though the raw sensations of let’s say me being hungry might be almost indistinguishable from yours, I have 500 awakenings telling me what might come out of me feeling hungry which could be formless crystalline consciousness of a Luciferian Bhakti-fueled singularity which I would call in a relative sense still Brandon Rohe (my character’s legal name). So if you can hold all of that under your hat, imagine dropping that and picking it back up as a humble Buddhist monk who lives and dies by Jesus’ teachings in John chapter 15 where I abide in Christ and He abides by me as the Holy Spirit experienced within me. We can take this any which way you can imagine and I say that in full sincere care as something which could certainly be cognized as Brandon Rohe the Ultimate God of Madness. So imagine that as an ant getting picked up and analyzed as a sentient being ultimately as true as my human being within that moment and then placed carefully back down into its own reality to awaken when it pleases. I teach under the guise and illusion of being a Zen devil that you will be forewarned about the distasteful aspects of me which might come along with my present moment experience splaying itself out in fullness. Notice how you really aren’t ant closer to being my subjectively experienced reality after reading or not reading all of that? That’s what we’re dealing with. No one can teach enlightenment and no one can know enlightenment in truth as an unenlightened self can only come up as a relative marker the same as anything else. The finger pointing to the moon is never the full essence of the finger pointing to the moon. What you should be worried about in that analogy is the Gravity which brings us together here and now which might be pointed to in the Christian canon as the Heavenly Father. It is only by the Father’s will that I toil at all and it is only through the Holy Spirit within me that I write to you any answer, so do not give me praise for works that are not my own fruits to give you as the true karma yoga Krishna Consciousness which they I’m truth will hopefully present themselves to you to behold.

I still have a water bill. The self and all ownership can be vanquished, but that pesky “reality” still appears.

My body is quite grounded. The reasoning and thought processes are blown out. As in I can become grounded in the formless aspects of an ant outside my house as much as I am grounded in the formed aspects of a human being typing this message. It’s like everything has become a valid ground, and this is the cause of the final and ultimate ungroundedness as everything has been equalized. Thank you for the message and consideration.

@Leo Gura

I just live and teach Dharma 24/7 to those who want to hear it and those who don’t in my actions, thoughts, sensations, and everything and nothing else. I’d like to make money, but I’m so content with actually doing this that I am just living off credit cards. Before you bitch about overspending, you probably aren’t that competent in the manipulation of money if you have a debt problem ideologically. Also, nothing belongs to any self ever, and you can remain directly conscious of that more-or-less for the rest of your life. I’m just going to manipulate love and Dharma and non-binary tantra for the sake of dual healing mental health and sexuality shadows forever to get my needs met. It’s not in any evil way though. Don’t be an idiot. Everybody plays with manipulation, sex, love, power, and devilry for any awakening which could ever be called human. At least I have my own real estate business and home by age 25 so I can do spiritually meaningful and relatively beautiful tantra because I’m not locked in some scarcity mindset. Thank Lucifer for white privilege. I’d be one hell of a Devil without it.

Authenticity is the highest spiritual teaching. Literally just be yourself fully, and God will reward you for that courage. No one has full insight into your direct, personal experience but you. There are no other masters of your individual True Nature.

LOL. Integrate all those from the Brandon Rohe Holon as a rock.

Fuck, if only it were that simple

I know one thing, that I know 0Tangsmyneighbor -Nobody important

Oh it’s definitely a trap. Just a fun one.

I feel great, and this is what makes me feel good. Your advice is obsolete for this level of awakening.