BipolarGrowth

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  1. It is always referring to something new, but for most people it’s the body/mind. Spiritual practice eventually shows you more and more variance in this pattern until it can never really be caught again other than being seen as experience itself. Cessation shows, for some who interpret it in this way, that even experience/consciousness is not consistent and can be removed. So it’s nothing, but probably not what you think I mean at all when I say nothing.
  2. I is ________. Amorphous, ever changing.
  3. You might be helped by trying some other types of meditation that are not done on the cushion. You can build up your progress on different aspects of meditation doing this. You’ll probably not run into the same thing. Noting, walking meditation, vipassana mainly focused on impermanence are all things which could fit in well possibly. Worth a shot IMO.
  4. Even the process of physical death beginning is not enough to awaken people to certain deeper things if they are not ready.
  5. Experience is made up of many qualities beyond the 5 senses. Literally an infinite amount beyond the basic 5 senses. For example, thought does not come from the 5 senses. The sensation of space is not coming from just the 5 senses.
  6. When a teacher stresses something and you learn it, you can connect it to many things in your life. A lot of people have been on this spiritual journey way longer than they’ve known Leo. They were at similar or even more advanced points than him in some areas and at some times. When he teaches something well, which he certainly does, it brings it into our consideration more whether we’ve had that specific type of insight/awakening or not. It’s going to ripple out to change the forum culture a lot, but of course many people are not going to understand most facets as well as him. They still can talk about them, and it’s pretty normal to overestimate ourselves in this area at some point.
  7. I undoubtedly got to permanent levels of awakening (according to rather strict/precise Theravada Buddhist maps — https://www.mctb.org/mctb2/table-of-contents/part-iv-insight/30-the-progress-of-insight/15-fruition/) and shifts in perception/self/suffering/natural and effortless spiritual ability. I don’t call the deepest levels enlightenment. I call it Liberation because that feels more accurate, and this term has less baggage attached to it here as it’s used less. It’s a personal Liberation. I realized no awakening map really means shit compared to how it changes things authentically for you. Other people’s categories become less and less important when things get so individualized that you know no one else has likely ever experienced many aspects of your specific stuff in the combination it occurred in. Actually I discovered something for myself which I consider a completely different branch of this stuff from enlightenment, Liberation, or God-Realization. I call it Absolute Divinity. It sounds a lot closer to those other things than it is. I’ve never heard any source in my 8 year journey describe it in the way I mean. It felt 50-100x more important if we’re just to assign a number to it than any previous experience with those other branches I’ve had. Truly Astonishing.
  8. I just said fuck meditation and did other methods until 80% of my life became meditation no matter what I was doing ? But before that, I did Heartfulness meditation which uses transmission. Transmission produces much faster results usually than pretty much any other types from what I’ve started to see more and more hearing from others who use it. You’ll need to find an actual meditation trainer in that tradition to get the transmission. It’s worldwide. I had a group in my small town of 40,000. There are other types of transmission done on videos or online. Listen to this whole series on the Satipatthana Sutta if you want to become a champ relatively quickly. Also you can watch hundreds of 1-on-1 coaching from the Buddhist master Dhammarato on his YouTube channel. He does free coaching if you call him on Skype at the username Dhammaratog between 10 am and 4 pm Thai time. Here’s my first coaching I did with him.
  9. This is important. There needs to be balance of the two.
  10. I probably can’t move for roughly 2 years or so. I can’t drive to local cities which is what I would’ve done before. Going to the bars here is pretty abysmal. They are mostly comprised of people around 50 years old (I’m 26). Oftentimes you’ll enter the bar, and if there are girls my age who are attractive even to a small degree, they almost always have boyfriends. It feels a bit off to try to approach going to a bar alone. It seems to lower chances of success significantly. I’ve basically lost my entire old social circle of friends my age, so I don’t have an immediate solution to that which I can see. I’m thinking that the best thing to do for now is to get a job where there are mainly people my age working in order to build a new social circle. I think the social circle method is probably better than any sort of cold approach, but having friends to go to the bars with will probably up success a little. The main problem I face is that I’m not really concerned too much with one night stands. I actually would like to create a high-quality relationship, and the women I’ve seen and talked to in this town don’t really meet that standard except for some rare cases. A last solution which might be the best for now is that I could start taking some college classes again to try to build a social circle there. The quality of women there is higher than in the other places I’ve mentioned (bars/workplaces). I tried to connect with both women and guys my age before while I was taking classes, but it went nowhere though. Any thoughts?
  11. “Nothingness is a profound metaphysical notion. The most profound.” Not even close to the 8th or 9th Jhana and their implications. As far as things which occur in perception to those who haven’t accessed those higher jhanas, it’s quite amazing though. You wrote a lot of other good stuff here though.
  12. Your present moment is at least 3-5 seconds. Just investigate that and see if it holds up or not.
  13. It’s probably best to research elsewhere on the internet for specific information on this. Not many of us on here, if any, will be able to tell you anything definitive. Contacting a neurologist to discuss this directly would be a good idea. I’d guess something like psilocybin would be a lower impact thing to try initially if you do find that it is safe from the types of sources I mentioned. Hell, edible THC is probably an even better first try. Many people experience strong psychedelic experiences on edibles which I would think are a much safer first step.
  14. When I meditate with his method, my cat will jump on my lap, and instead of seeing it as a distraction, I turn that unwholesome judgment into something like the wholesome/joyous thought “there’s a kitty” ??
  15. You made a statement with huge moral implications, and I’d bet that you were bringing in some moral elements when you were saying this type of testing shouldn’t be done whether you’d like to admit it or not. Obviously the risk was calculated, quite low, and the procedure of testing was done in a painstaking way (at least in Shulgin’s case if you watch the video I posted) that produced a happy man with an impactful life who lived just fine doing this type of testing at a stupendous volume over decades. The need for testing on animals was eliminated by simply looking at the reality of how things occurred. If he wasn’t dosing so low at the beginning of testing, using animals would make more sense.
  16. “how can one just stop the thoughts and just feel the pain in the moment?” You’ll need some solid levels of mindfulness likely paired with sensate and practical understanding of the three characteristics (no self, dukkha, impermanence) which you have brought into actuality through applying the understanding of the three characteristics with direct vipassana practice in my experience. “If there were no thoughts there would be no pain.” This is simply not true. You can be in a rather complete and continuous state of no-mind and still experience emotional pain. “One can’t be thoughtless for a long period of time, so the moment thoughts come back, the pain comes back.” This is also not true. I’ve been in a continuous state of no-mind for two weeks on two separate occasions. I’m sure many people have been in this for much longer. Also, realize that you keep talking about pain. Make sure to be clear on the distinction between pain and suffering. Suffering is an amplification of pain by identification. You can have thoughts which are just accurate descriptions of the pain which is experienced which do not amplify it. The most direct way I’ve found to become more successful at reducing suffering is working with the three characteristics through vipassana practices.
  17. I see a lot of value and accuracy in Rupert Spira’s quote if we are considering more what is pointed to through going through cessation as the nothing. The gap of experience brought about by cessation presents itself as what a full/hard nothing would actually be like in the sense Rupert is potentially bringing up here. I’ve personally had reality shattering insight into the same type of something vs. nothing that Leo seems to describe in multiple videos and forum posts. This is fundamentally different than the type of nothing pointed to in the non-experience aspect of cessation. It seems like people commenting here are not actually refuting the quote at all but rather reinforcing it with their responses. There is not actually disagreement other than clashes in lexicon, at least how I see it. I personally would not use nothing as the word. I would use non-existence. I think this would be less vague/more precise to showcase the point he appears to be making from my perspective. Maybe Rupert is meaning something totally different. More context for that quote would be nice to see exactly what he meant.
  18. What do you mean by it? Enlightenment? Things are going really well spiritually. I’m having to work toward building up my finances, relationships, and other foundations after almost an entire year more or less focused heavily on spirituality above all things. It’s looking like I’m set up for a great yet challenging opportunity to embody and integrate what I’ve learned/become into the more mundane facets of life. I’m down to talk whenever btw.
  19. Yeah he explained it right. Keep doing crazy spiritual practices until one day they show you that nothing ever needed to be done in the first place, yet it was necessary to go through all that shit to understand it was unnecessary.
  20. And we know this because people tried it or testing on animals. You can apply all of your logic to any lifesaving chemical solutions ever used. If you think this guy testing drugs on himself is worse than taking animals out of their environments to test drugs on them is better, I question your ethics. Either way, animal tests are not a full answer anyway. What do you suggest we do? Stop all development of new chemicals?
  21. I would say what this guy and Shulgin did are both wise and intelligent. The wisdom comes in wishing to not negatively impact any other beings by first testing on yourself. The intelligence is understanding the chemistry enough to know what is safe to test in the first place this many times without ever deeply harming yourself.
  22. Oh there are definitely degrees. I agree with you. And there are plenty of things which are mind blowing possibilities to have locked in, but he wasn’t specific about that.