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Careful not to place to much authority in him or what he has to say. Try to discover the answer yourself.

That was quite helpful. A nice extra kick, I know there are some things I've needed to let go of but I've been struggling. I'll try to take a step back and re-energize myself for a better effort. Thank you.

@Carl-Richard There are 7.8 Billion people on Earth, and 195 countries. To make the assumption that the path of development for all these people and nations should be even roughly the same is naive and too simplistic.

What the most important thing I should be focusing on right now that I'm currently missing? Cool thx Emerald!

Progress isn't always linear. To reach the next stage you sometimes need to regress - 1 step backwards, 2 steps forwards. All living creatures, with humanity at the forefront, are on hurting trajectory towards a singularity. This is eschatology. Reality is a zero sum game. Even if factually, egoic survival is the only agenda, eventually you become so successful at it that the by products simply force you advance, unconscious or otherwise. A nuclear war could happen tomorrow and set us back thousands of years, but the lessons learned will be ingrained in the survivors and will catapult us to even greater stages - 100 steps backwards, 10,000 steps forwards. It is inevitable.

While Salvia can be absolutely astonishing/terrifying/chaotic, keep in mind it only lasts a few minutes. After 10 minutes you will be your 100% sober normal self. (This is smoking Salvia, I wouldn't recommend other forms of intake.) Like Leo said people can have the experience of feeling "locked away" like you'll never come back, but this is just a temporary trick and sensation. After you are sober again in a few minutes you won't have any of those feelings residing. There is tremendous comfort in this. There is no drawn out come down or post-trip brain fog where you feel sick or on the brink of insanity for hours at a time. In this safe it's actually quite safe and low risk, in my opinion. Just make sure you have someone watching you, so you don't walk around and trip and hit your head or something. If you are looking to try your first psychedelic, it's a good starter, because it's so damn short and you are quickly sober. Just get the least potent version you can find and don't take too big a hit. The question you have to ask is are you willing to experience having your reality replaced with something completely different? Does that interest you at all? If so Salvia is the drug for you. Interesting in the very least.

No shit eh........

I'm not doing anything. That's the point.

@Prevailer Belief is = Hoping or wanting an outcome or state of reality. To realize the Absolute truth is to completely surrender to it, as it dissolves the self into the oblivion from whence it came. If this happens, belief is no long apart of the picture.

Being zealous about removing things 100% from your life can be a trap and a form of neuroticism. An enemy of true authenticity. Is having a few drinks on your birthday or Christmas going to shatter your spiritual practices? The answer to that is probably no. If it does, well you have some other problems to worry about.

I mean yea, but knowing it's gonna be a very short trip should evaporate almost all anxiety before you take it. You've subconsciously primed and communicated to your body to be calmer during the experience. It's not like LSD where you're fucked for 6+ hours and you got a long way to go to come down.... Salvia replaces your normal reality so blatantly that you can't (or hardily) even have the capacity to have thoughts or feel emotions anyways. It's like being tripped by the legs from behind, you don't even have time to get mad or react. It just happens. Unlike some other popular psychedelics where that leg tripping happens in slow motion, and you are still able to think, "FUCK this guy tripping me. Man this is gonna hurt. God damn I can't even do anything about it.............ugghhh."

Salvia isn't really dangerous, because you will be 100% sober in 10-20 minutes after you take it. It completely shatters your reality, but it reforms the way it should shortly after. You are getting spoonful of another dimension. The danger is what you do while you're on it. You lose complete bodily control. That is dangerous. DO NOT EVER TAKE Salvia if you don't have a trustworthy sitter.

@Leo Gura Interesting. My salvia trip was remarkably not that frightening. I mean I lost 100% motor and visual function, and sense of having a body, and literally became different objects in the room. But neither panic nor dread came into it. In the back of my mind I still had the feeling of knowing I was on a drug, and that I would be back in 10 minutes, even if I couldn't articulate it in English thoughts in my mind. By the way what is your sleep schedule like, isn't it like 4 am in Las Vegas lol? Do you have a regular sleep pattern or do you just sleep at your leisure?

@Bittu What is the most important thing I need to hear right now?

I don't know if you've experienced this yet, but once you're on a truly healthy diet and eating well, having trash junk food, fast food, and bad food in general will become disgusting to you. It may even make you feel sick. My advice is to force yourself to go through that initial pain, and cross that threshold. Once you do it will be almost impossible to go back.

Why does there have to be a why? Just in asking the question you are limiting answers you subconsciously don't want to hear by making assumptions like that. Seriously consider all possibilities, and be willing to surrender to whatever answer comes your way.

Don't buy into conspiracy theories, almost 100% of them always turn out to be false bullshit. People have their own beliefs and opinions on things, they then go out and seek information and "evidence", and twist it to support a conclusion they made up in their mind long ago. It's not true at all. China has been hurt badly by this, not only economically but they ironically tarnished their own image even more by trying to hide the virus from the world, killing journalists in the process. It removes even more trust from a tenuous relationship with Western powers and makes it's people even more resentful of their government. China really is an amazing case study for collective ego, and how if you try so hard to have complete control over the identity and narrative of something it will backfire in your face. They are trying to hold onto a bar of wet soap by squeezing it as hard as they can. It inevitably slips out every time and it's HILARIOUS.

@Leo Gura What does logic have to do with it? To do this kind of work or take any psychedelics is transcendent and counter-intuitive to logic. At least to the traditional logic that people use to defend and keep their ego/self from death. My point was how do you know when enough is enough for someone else, but now that I've reflected on it I realize it's a stupid question, because you can't. I apologize.

Enlightened, Awake people are not invincible. If you tie them down, torture them, threaten to kill them or their family. The whole thing will fly out the window pretty quickly..............

@Leo Gura That raises an important question. When is enough, enough? If the rabbit hole seems infinite, does that mean you should never stop? Otherwise you're not "serious" enough? Isn't that an egoic judgement? Maybe they were serious and just got more than they bargained for. Anyone's experiences on psychedelics can be so wildly unique in infinite directions. With such shifting terrain what use is it saying you need X amount of trips to get to X insights?

Want to have your mind fucking blown with a musical orgasm?

The most likely interpretation is his ego must be extremely attached to the idea of needing you. While he may be able to accept the immediate relationship as over, he cannot fully let go of the idea in his mind that you "belonged" to him. That you are some kind of monogamous proxy for him, and can never be with anybody else because you were "marked" by him. It's simply attachment. He is insecure and lacking in some area and you filled it, until you left. You are not responsible to plug the holes in his boat. You were merely a passenger on a sinking ship and you had the self respect to put on a life jacket and get off. Just remind him of the lovely things you sailed by together if you ever get the chance again, but remind him that boat ride is over.

You value Leo's opinion too much. He is just one person. Stop the idolization and start doing the work.

It is completely within all of our control. Most people simply don't experiment and therefore they never discover the potential passion hiding within something. They stick within the confines of what is comfortable, and then make judgments and projections about things that make them uncomfortable. Do not fall into that trap. You'll miss a lot of what life has to offer.

I've been some form of vegetarian for quite a few years now. Never really ate any soy products. I don't even know the health effects of it, it honestly just tastes disgusting and that's enough to keep me from eating it.