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He had almost 1 million subs but nobody was watching his videos because he is so long-winded and weird. Downward spiral started 5 years ago. Almost 3 years ago he went alt right and borderline racist(because he thought that was a smart career move) and that created a bigger downward spiral. From time to time, I would peak at his channel, and from what I could see, is that his videos were never about philosophy. He used philosophy as a cloak to dish out his political videos. He got only 10-30k views although he had approx 1 million subs. He created some digital products like some documentaries and that was a major flop. Nobody bought it and he made a loss on the projects. His lousy books are not good, nobody was buying them, they got bad reviews, so he gave them away for free. He can't monetize books that he already gave away.

I agree. He needed to ebeg............ but it wasn't working for him. I'm not saying he shouldn't have ebegged. He ebegged and his channel majorly flopped regardless. His video "my brutal year" was a testament that his channel failed. He wasn't coming up with new stuff. Just rehashing the old anti-statists and anti-family stuff. Stefan was even tired of himself. It is easy to point fingers at others.

There are a lot of people who don't like him. I think he just build up that karma. If you are mean to others they will be mean to you. Also about donations. If you have almost 1 million followers and you have to ebeg to not go broke you are doing something wrong. The customer is never at fault. It is the business model. To get donations you need to provide value. If not, one has to ebeg and use passive aggressiveness. His channel was already dying. My theory is that he just put out race theory videos to get his channel band so he could leave the stage with the victim hat on.

Literally lmao ? This ban will give him more peace than suffering. He needs to do what he is good at and it is not philosophy or politics.

He told his followers to ditch their family members and isolate themselves so he would get a better grip on them and milk them for donations. That is definitely a nasty thing to tell your followers. The word cult is just a label. I dont get why people care so much about that. He was just a weird and insincere guy. Just very hypocrite to the core of his personality. His countless weird debates with people show that.

I got triggered for a second. He is always very mean to other people. It is difficult for me to have sympathy for him. Just some examples: Also a while back I watched his debate with Peter Joseph and he was extremely rude towards him. Since then I stopped following him. Just peaked at his channel once in a while to see him ebegging or bullying or edging on racism.

Thanks to Joe Dispenza I'm going to have a date with a girl. Something that was very difficult for me although I'm OK looking dude. Seriously, last few weeks I had some many opportunities to get a girl because of my good energy but I just didn't man up and approach, even when the signs were so obvious. Today, this girl just asked me. Girl almost literally going to fall on my lap. I hope this will be my first fruit of surrendering, being present and mindful. Anyway, this date is planned but it yet has to happen. In other regards my life is going better too but it is not where I want it to be. In the last few months having no female companion was really a thorn in my back. I hope I will raise my consciousness and spend my time on myself. I didn't go on this road for a piece of ass. I want to develop my consciousness, self discipline and character.

Websites like skill share have good seminars on the topic.

I'm at the same stage. My advice is to plan your trips carefully. Take preparation, meditation and integration serious.

I have a hard time recognizing certain emotions or sensations. A lot is going under the radar. Any recommendations on literature and action steps?

@Galyna "this book", which book?

@dimitri thanks. I will look into it. I actually had the first one on my book list but I will prioritize.

I'm doing daily meditations. The thing is that I can feel it but I can't identify it. It is like a cocktail of different kind poison. Probably it is a mix of two or more emotions. I want to label these so I can recognize them during the day. Otherwise they just go under the radar and fuck me up.

Most people are strange but they hide it to blend in. Being totally authentic and showing your uniqueness can be good but there is a point when it becomes irrelevant and weird. There is a balance between being authentic and socially blending in.

Leo said you can give yourself what you want from others but is this really true? Last year I have been acting introvert and it had its good effects and bad effects. I found this base inner joy but it is nowhere near the joy I get when I share with other people. I feel like isolating yourself has bad effects for your health too. I'm not sure about my premise though. I have a lot of negative karma / negative energy stored up. The intention for seeking social interaction with family and friends is important too. Really enjoy those when I'm in the present and have good vibes and energy flowing through me. I do sense a lot of neediness for attention and approval though. I'm in the process of healing this with various meditation techniques. I don't know how to progress. I don't want to be stuck in this healing process forever. I see other people who don't have this need for attention and approval from others and I'm not there. Is it just hardwired or can one really let go of it?

I had a similar experience the first time I went to a nightclub.

@hamedsf I thought dreams equaled REM sleep. I’m not sure about it. Perhaps it is not the meditation but something else.

Getting into deep meditation. Almost trance like states. Always doin them at night and it doesn't matter if I do it just before sleep time or not, it always messes up my night sleep. I fall into sleep very easily and I even get dreams, which is an indicator of deep sleep but I'm not rested anymore. My brain feels so pressurized that I'm forced to take mini naps. It is a solution but it messes up my schedule. Any advice?

If I lay down I fall asleep guaranteed. I sit down.

@hamedsf when I meditate right before sleep I fall asleep very quickly. I don't have problems with falling asleep. The problem is the quality of sleep.

@Spiral Wizard Breaking the Habit of being Yourself: what is your favorite spirituality book?

With Joe Dispenza's stuff I reached high trance states. Almost felt like I felt asleep but I was awake and when I ended the meditation it took 20 minutes to become sober again.

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I started doing meditations by Joe Dispenza. Wow! Just wow! It brought my meditations to a whole new level. The previous meditations I was thought here and elsewhere can't even be called meditations. Reached trans like states couple of times. Almost psychedelic in nature. Dispenza couples meditations with science and he knows what he is teaching about. I read his book the placebo effect a while back and it wasn't really practical. This book I read from him made a heavy impact and I just started and haven't fully developed his program. I'm just in week 1 of his 4 week program.