Raptorsin7

Im getting coaching from Nahm. i trust him i think he knows what hes talking about.

@Nickyy i'm going to start working with a life coach i think thats where ill have to iron this stuff out. I don't feel comfortable sharing this stuff fully with anyone in my life.

@Nickyy My family doesn't understand this stuff. If i told them i wanted to drop out of school and pursue financial freedom they would think im nuts and resist it. This is the place i go to pursue this kind of work. I think its a good plan. Idk if other people's opinions should matter

@Nickyy Yes, when i find what i'm looking for i will use what you said to guide my life purpose. My plan right now is as follows: 1. Find some stable happiness from enlightenment work, where i'm no longer seeking and can honestly say i enjoy my life. 2. Exercise extreme discipline to start an online business and achieve an income that will allow me to be financially free, and then I can decide if i want to drop out of law school or just stick it out like my family wants me to. 3. Enjoy my new found financial freedom a little bit. Go on vacations, go on meditation retreats, just enjoy materialistic pleasures. 4. Help people on actualized.org like people here have helped me. Maybe do some free coaching for people who are seeking hard like i am now. 5. Go after life purpose no matter how scary it is.

@Nickyy Even when i stop seeking for a moment, i just get lost in the story of my life over and over again. There is no stable peace. Moments, maybe but even then any moment of peace is just lost to the next moment over and over again.

@Serotoninluv The deep all encompassing happiness is what i'm after. Not necessarily the peak experience of joy, bliss etc. I think of it like if you could go meta and observe your life from somewhere else, is the totality of your experience happiness. Are you living a good life? Of course if you are mid yoga and your body is throbbing you may not be "happy", but this all part of your happy life. I don't like going into theory too much because i feel like the truth i'm seeking is the opposite of theory, i guess i'm just hoping someone will say something that clicks and produces a change in me. But i just gotta keep going.

@Nickyy So you are done seeking?

@Nickyy I can only really get to the highest states after yoga, weed, and meditation. Otherwise thinking is more deluded, and i don't really feel present. How often in your day are you in this state of just being compared, to wanted, desiring, suffering etc?

@Serotoninluv Can you access that state any time or does it come and go now?

@Serotoninluv I have no idea. I just know it can't be anywhere other than direct experience because that's all that ever exists. I've been happier in my life before but it's all been based on external events. I've never just sat and been happy for no reason. That's what i'm going for now.

@Tanz If you were billionaire how would you solve america's problems?

@Nickyy I'll think about it and get back to you. Right now nothing comes to mind.

@Nickyy I don't know what i could do today that would make me happy if i died. There's an entire range of experiences i haven't even sampled yet, i'm not enlightened. Happiness isn't anywhere but right here, i just need to access it consistently.

@Angelite What are you careful about speaking up on?

@Nickyy I honestly don't really know. I'm more concerned about my own happiness and satisfaction right now. I want to find happiness and stop seeking, then I will decide on a life purpose once i'm free.

@Nickyy I would do a bunch of DMT and LSD and get to the highest truth.

@eputkonen @LfcCharlie4 This insight just came to me during my last self inquiry session. I'm sure most advanced practitioners get this point, but for me I was doing self inquiry for months and totally missed this subtle point. When we are suffering if we turn our attention to the one who suffers there is at least a moment of an end of the suffering as the mind realizes there is no one actually suffering and the sensation/experience of suffering starts to reside. Is the suffering we experience because of the combination of thought and unpleasant sensation? Why does the suffering seem to cease when attention gets turned on what is supposedly producing the suffering in direct experience and asking who is experiencing it? It seems like there's a part of my direct experience that is discontent or unsatisfied, in addition to all other sensations. If attention gets turned on that part of experience that isn't loving life it will dissolve i think, but then it always keeps coming back if you're not paying attention and constantly reapplying it.

How about a crowd funding service that centers around funding people's personal development that are seeking financial support to pursue interesting goals. For example, if someone wants to attend a meditation seminar or join a yoga studio they can make a positing and request funding from more financially successful self actualizers. The business could revolve around interviewing people who wish to sign up to ensure quality individuals are appealing for funding rather than frauds trying to lie and steal money. It's basically go fund me but for people's spiritual and self actualization journey.

@Raphael Thanks for the shout out! Keep it up, do what feels right. If you have questions about how to grow your practice ask people here they are a great resource.

@Arcangelo No problem man. Sorry for coming down on you, even though i'm not a mod lol so i can't do shit. It's not about the people we offend or don't offend, it is about us. I do judge people in similar ways sometimes and ultimately the person getting hurt by the behavior is me.

@Nickyy I'm not saying he should be banned. But he should just be made aware of how his behavior affects others, and how we have to do better as a forum community. I like arc this goes for me too. There are times where i just shit post because i'm procrastinating and if someone called me out it wouldn't be the worst.

@Nickyy Certain behaviors aren't tolerated it's all about where the bar is. If some stage blue guy came to the forum and just constantly went off about white people are superior to black people it wouldn't be tolerated. Sure if we were all stage yellow we could just let him to do his thing and give him guidance and hope he figures it out himself. I much prefer cutting the nonsense so we can spend most of our time focusing on our own development.

@Nickyy There was a thread that got locked for objectifying woman

@Nickyy I'm not saying don't judge anything ever. But judging woman based on their physical appearance and then going off about it in a thread is different than judging someone's content for their level of spiritual development.

@Nickyy Judging woman based on their physical features is a bad thing. It hurts your own growth, and it can be bad for people's self esteem if they are less developed. It's one thing if random people are doing it in society. But this forum has higher standards for our conduct.