Raptorsin7

Working with thoughts and emotions. I want to use my feelings to think better. I want to get better league in the optimal way. I want to get better the fastest, while also feeling amazing while doing it. I am improving at league of legends in the optimal way. My way is the fastest and feels the best.

I do not feel good. How do i feel better? Thoughts and emotion. I am relaxed I feel bliss through my body, i do not feel bliss through my body I am challenger in league of legends I run a website that makes 1 million dollars per year I am happy I love league of legends I am improving rapidly I enjoy playing the game I want to feel good What does it mean to feel good? I want energy I have energy I want my third eye to open I have my third eye opened I want my crown charka opened I have my chakra All the chakras are open I am jelous of everyone ahead of me on the path. This is fucking bull shit. WHy the fucl are these fking guys allowed to be enlightened. Fucking idiots aren't better than me why the fuck are they enlightened and i'm not. What the fuck. FUCKING IDIOTS i can't believe these fking fools are better than me at league. I am so fucking jelous of their fucking skill, how the fuck are they better than me. I am fucking better than them this fucking bull shit. I am better than everyone wtf. Fuck everyone. Fucking idiots, people are so fking stupid. If everyone had their fking shit together we would livein a better place and i'd already be enlightened Fucking fools everywhere don't know what fuck they are doing. Fuck them and efuck ereoone. I'll fking fix this shit, fucking fools. Fuck, mother fucker, fuck, idiots, cu**, fuck, bitch fuck.. lkdjfklajfkldajlfkdjlkfjdaklfjdklajflkadjflkdajfadjflkdajflkdjlkfjalfjdaklfjdaklj I am fucking pissed. I am fucking angry. I'm going to fucking kill someone, I'm going to fucking rip someone's thorat out . Mother fuckers everywhere, everyone pisses me the fuck off. Fucking fools eerywhere walking around, man i wish we were in the med evil times i'd be fucking killing people all the time, moter fuckers everywhere. I want to express anger and rage so I can move up the emotional scale. I HATE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS. ALL MY FUCKING IDIOTS TEAMATES THEY FUCKING PISS ME OFF. FUCKING TRASH CANS ALWAYS MAKE FUCKING MISTAKES FUCKING IDIOTS, I'M SO FUCKIGN ANGRY. FUCK ALL MY IDIOT FUCKING TEAMMATES, AND FUCK ME FOR GETTING BAD. I'M A FUCKING FOOL, WHAT THE FUCK AM I DONG. WHY DO I LET MYSELF GET MAD WTF IS THIS FUCKING BULL SHIT. I'M FUCKING PISSED. WHAT THE FUCK. HOW HFAOFHODHFDIAHFOIDFAIOHFIOADIHFDOIHFAIODHFDIFDIOHOI FUCK I WANT TO FUCKING DESTORY SOMETHING FUCK. I WILL FUCKING SHOW EVERYONE. EVERY FUCKING IDIOT WHO DOUBTED ME I WILL FUCKING SHOW THEM. I LOVE THE HATERS. BRING ON THE FUCING HATERS LETS FUCKING GO. ALL YOU FUCKING FOOLS WHO DOUBT ME I WILL FUCKING SHOW YOU FUCKING IDIOTS WHATS UP. JUST FUCKING WAIT. ALL THESE FUCKING IDIOT LEAGUE PROS WITH HUGE EGOS, OH FUCKING BABY I CANNOT WAIT TO FUCKING RIP THEM APART. I'M GOING TO FUCKING BREAK THEM ALL MENTALLY. I'M ITO FUCKING DOMINATE ALL THESE FUCKING CLOWNS, FUCKING RETARD IDIOTS I'M GOING TO SMASH THEM ALL FUCK. FUCK THEM AND FUCK ME. I'M GOING TO FUCKING MURDER ALL THE FUCKING LEAGUE PROS CUZ THEY ARE FKING IDIOTS. FUCKING VERMON. DOES THIS SELF ACTUALIZATION EVEN STUFF EVEN FUCKING WORK, LIKE WTF. I WANT FUCKING BLISS. I WANT FUCKING LOVE. WHERE'S MY FUCKING LOVE. WHO DO I HAVE TO KILL HERE TO GET SOME FUCKING LOVE. WTF IS THIS FUCKING BULL SHIT. IDIOT GOD, WHY WOULD YOU CREATE THE WORLD LIK E THIS. WHAT A FUCKING IDIOT GOD IS, GOD DAMM WHAT A FUCKING RETARD. WHAT THE FUCK WAS THIS IDIOT THINKING WHEN HE MADE THE WORLD. WHY DO IT LIKE THIS, WHAT A FUCKING JOKE. FUCK YOU GOD YOU FKING IDIOT. MAN ALL THESE FKING IDIOTS LIMIT. ME IDIOT FUCKING PARENTS, BUT THE BIGGEST FKING IDIOT IS GOD. GOD U FKING FOOL, WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME YOU FKING CLOWN. I FKING BLAME GOD FOR EVERYTHING CUZ HE'S FKING RESPONSIBLE, HE'S FKING GOD. WHAT THE FUCK GOD, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING. FUCKING IDIOT. FUCKING FIX THESE PROBLEMS FOR ME, YOU FKING FOOL. FKING IDIOT GOD NOT HELPING ME OR ANYONE WHAT A FKING IDIOT THIS FKING GOD GUY IS. WHAT A FKING JOKE OF A GOD. FKING FOOL. WHY DIDN'T YOU MAKE ME BETTER, YOU FKING IDIOT. WHY NOT FKING HELP ME WITH LEAGUE YOU FKING FOOL, I BLAME YOU FOR ME BEING FKING TRASH WHAT A FKING JOKE. FKING IDIOT GOD HELP ME GET INTO FLOW STATES. I WANT FKING FLOW WHEN I PLAY BUT YOU WON'T HELP ME BECAUSE YOU ARE A FKING IDIOT. FUCKING RETARDED GOD DOESN'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO HELP ME, FKING ALL POWERFUL BULL SHIT MOTHER FKER GOD DOESN'T FKING KNOW SHIT ABOUT ANYTHING WHAT A FKING FOOL GOD IS. I AM REALLY WORREID THAT GOD WON'T FKING HELP ME. I AM REALLY WORRIED THAT THIS SHIT DOESN'T WORK. I JUST WANT IT TO FKING WORK. I JUST WANT TO FEEL AMAZING THAT'S WHAT I FKING WANT. I WANT TO FEEL LIKE HEAVEN ON EARTH. I WANT HEAVEN. I WANT HAVEN, BUT WHERE IS IT. WILL I GET HEAVEN TODAY? WHERE IS HEAVEN? I AM WORRIED THAT I WILL NOT FIND HEAVEN TODAY, BUT NOW IS ALL THERE EVER IS SO IF IT'S NOT HERE THEN WHERE IS IT. WHERE IS FKING HEAVEN GOD? I'M FKING HERE WAITING, WHERE IS FKING HEAVEN YOU FKING IDIOT. I AM WORRIED THAT I WILL NOT FIND HEAVEN, WHERE THE FUCK IS HEAVEN YOU FKING IDIOT GOD. I AM FKING DISSAPOINTED WITH WHAT I'M SEEING HERE. I AM FKING DISSAPOINTED IN MY FKING EXISTENCE YOU FKING IDIOT GOD. WTF IS THIS BULL SHIT. I AM NOT CHALLENGER YET IN LEAGUE, I'M NOT DIMINATING EVERY GAME I'M NOT IN THE FKING ZONE WHEN I PLAY. WHAT THE FUCK, I'M SO DISSAPOINTED IN WHAT I'M SEE. I AM DISSAPOINTED INMYSELF. MYSELF NEEDS TO STEP IT UP, I'M SO FUCKING DISSAPOINTED WITH MYSELF LIKE WTF. ALL THIS FKING BULL SHIT IS OVERWHELMING. I WANT TO FEEL AMAZING. FKING IDIOT GOD HELP ME FEEL AMAZING. BUT YOU DON'T DO SHIT. I LOVE MYSELF. I HAVE COMPASSION FOR MYSELF. I APPRECIATE MYSELF. THANK YOU FOR THIS LIFE. THANK YOU FOR THE OPPORTUNITY TO PLAY THE GAME I LOVE. JUST SITTING HERE WANTING TO FEEL AMAZING SO I CAN PLAY LEAGUE. I DON'T NEED TO FEEL AMAZING BEFORE I PLAY, BUT I WANT TO FEEL AMAZING. FEELING AMAZING IS FEELING AMAZING, WHO WOULDN'T WANT IT.

@DrewNows How do you deal with ignorant people? This guy is binding himself in his own ignorance, you give him the truth. And then he attacks you

@VeganAwake Those guys make me uncomfortable. Are you enlightened @VeganAwake ?

@electroBeam Congrats on transitioning man i'm happy for you. Highly recommend working 1-1 with a teacher, if you aren't already. I think psychs and life coaching/working 1-1 are the two most valuable things on the path, so if you don't have pyshcs then i highly recommend finding a teacher.

@wk197 What do you want out of life, if you could have everything you wanted? No limits. You ask for it you get it. What what would you want? Also, have you checked out @Nahm's thread on using a dream board. That thread changed my life, it sparked my awakening. Buy a big dry erase board on amazon, if you can't afford one then pm me. Then read his thread and learn how to use it.

@DrewNows Thanks for sharing that man. I have this complex with video games and basketball in particular, but i bet it's everywhere in my life tbh. What did you do to drop the specialishness and just enjoy doing whatever you were doing. I really just want to have fun and enjoy, and paradoxically that will allow me to do my best too. Win, win,win. Any other tips?

@pluto Thank you. Do you have any self referntial thoughts left? Or is the "I" gone completely ?

God dwells in you, as you, and you don't have to 'do' anything to be God-realized or Self-realized, it is already your true and natural state. Just drop all seeking, turn your attention inward, and sacrifice your ego mind to the One Self radiating in the Heart of your very being. For this to be your own presently lived experience, Self-Inquiry Meditation is a direct and immediate way. Sri Ramana Maharshi

@pluto Why does he take on a persona to relay the information? Do you think his personality is always like that, or does he only act like that when "channeling"?

I am looking for good feeling. Where is good feeling? Right here. Right now. It's YOU. Feeling is here. What do I feel right now? I feel irritable. Took a deep breathe Took a deep breathe I carry myself like i'm the greatest ADC in the world Who do you want to be TJ I want to feel satisfied. I want to feel so good that I can just be This creates a sense of lack. Wanting creates a sense of lack. Honesty is hard Feeling good is hard Feeling good is easy Honesty is easy I am strategically honest I connect to the present moment effortlessly Life will never be the same I play free I play my best Whenever I play I try my best I always try my best This was meant to be. There is purpose to life. Life makes rational sense. I understand how reality works. I am wise I am humble I am quiet I am a hard worker I rise to the moment I am different I am world class I am happy with how my life is going How's that feel? Not much feeling I have so much fun when I play league. It's inredible, i love the game so much. It's so amazing. I can be creative. I can try new things. I can express myself while playing - That felt better. The amount of Joy i get out of league of legends is incredible. The game is amazing. I am unbreakable I am consistent I am real I am honest I am a leader I am a commander I am loving I am kind I am compassionate I am driven I am helpful I am helping the world I am trying my best to help the world I sacrifice myself to be at the service of others -That felt better, and it made my third eye crack a lot. Boom i think had a break through. @Nahm what do you think

You can't solve it with your mind. It will make sense after you get it, not before. Just be. And notice how much resistance there is to just being. You will sit and feel. And you may get anxious and start thinking. Then you will go seeking again, because how can it be so simple, how can it be so simple where you just sit and be. Try it. Just sit and be. Bet the mind will drag you away from yourself.

Wow. Thank you.

@ZenBlue You.

@mandyjw Very interesting. Thank's for that perspective i never really thought of self referential thinking without I, but it's true you can have thoughts that directly assume there is an I behind the thoughts. Just like what i wrote above, and what i'm writing now lol.

@mandyjw What are you trying to do here? Are you trying to bring yourself back to YOURSELF when you're lost in thinking, or not feeling good based on the story you're telling yourself?

@ElenaO I've had reiki twice and I think it's legit. I can tell the efficacy of different practices based on how much my third eye is stimulated. Psychidelics is number 1, but Reiki is up there with meditation, yoga, and float tanks. I also had a reiki session about a week before my awakening, so I think it was directly related.

@Nahm Okay. That makes a lot of sense thanks.

@Red-White-Light I wonder which one of you is really being deceived?

@zeroISinfinity Okay. What's the difference? @Nahm made this point to me a while ago, but i still don't fully get LoA

What do I want: I want to be happy. What does it mean to be happy, what does a happy life look like? I am feeling really good I have incredible energy levels I have clarity of mind I am relaxed and calm, and I am in a peaceful and yet happy state. I am free of worry, insecurity, guilty, shame, fear I do think hopeful, happy, positive thoughts I am a challenger adc I am one of the best adc's in the world I do to try my best in every league game I do feel the same whether i win or lose in every game I am completely unattached to the outcomes of life. Win or lose I am happy I do not judging others I do not judging myself I am not harsh towards myself and others I view others and myself with compassion, love and understanding. I am done seeking a better state, i just feel better first so i don't have to seek My third eye is open completely My head dissolved into bliss. I feel free I feel unlimited I feel amazing I feel connected I am that which is prior to all experience I am myself, whoever or whatever I am I see reality as it is. I am the truth I am love I am feeling my best I am my best I am honest I express myself honestly I am just being I am the third eye opened I am the truth

@Nahm Good. Luck. ➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿➿ I don't understand this at all.

The best quote i've come across in relation to the law of attraction, and how to change your reality. "The Mirror Will Never Smile First"- @pluto

@Nahm Is the answer always just be YOURSELF. When i'm not myself, and i'm just thinking, like right "im just thinking" is just more thought. I am not being myself because this is thinking, a misuse of thinking? Whereas if I just be, i won't have to deal with paradox becasue thinking will not be used in a way that produces paradox?

@Javfly33 Yeah you're on the right track. Now, go from this insight about THIS which is being processed in thinking/thoughts. Now just feel THIS. Don't think about THIS. Just feel it, and accept it. Just be THIS.