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@Haumea2018 Thanks a lot. What are your plans now that you're in post integration stage? Wtf do you do then?

@pluto Do we have to suffer hard before we got that level of consciousness? I want to be like that. But I fear the hell I must walk through to get where you're at. But I also think this no pain no gain attitude was passed to me from my parents, so maybe it's like all heaven and goodness on the path to that state, but idk.

@Haumea2018 How close would you say I am to getting where you're at.

@Haumea2018 How do I go from where I'm at now, which is seeking and stuck in duality/mind, to where you're at which is feeling amazing and accepting what is without a need to reach higher? Enlightenment me good sir.

@Haumea2018@Haumea2018 So your "self medication" is to just accept everything as it is, and through that you will find the god state of consciousness? That's just not true. I've felt myself as god, and that was a higher state then where i'm at now. I agree the perpetual seeking of the state may be self defeating, but you are over simplifying the transition back into this state. Do you feel yourself as god all day 24/7? How do you just feel bad? I know when I try to just feel and be I get sucked back into thinking and seeking, Psychs and cold showers are the two of the only practices that have actually popped my third eye open and got me to the god tier state.

@Haumea2018 What is the solution for the person who is reaching for those higher states of consciousness? Wouldn't the solution to their problem be finding an alternative state of consciousness that doesn't require the incessant seeking? Anything you would recommend to that person in spite of psychs would be an alternative form of "self medicating". Unless you're awakened and stabilized, everyone is self medicating to one degree or another.

@LfcCharlie4 In. Cold showers are amazing, they put so much pressure on my third eye I'm hoping they crack it wide open like the lsd did. I'll keep doing it and report back if I have a break through

@Emerald Find a teacher you trust it will make integration easier and smoother. Seeking the god state is a trap that I have fallen into/am still in. But there is nothing better than god. They say god is the greatest for a reason. Living as god is better than living as a person with a memory of being god, right? Now the question is how to embody and integrate. Coaching and psychedelics are the two best imo. Also, try not to fall into the trap of discarding all practices because you're god and god doesn't need practices lol. Find practices that feel good(god). I'm pretty confident this is the way after the god realization.

@universe No. My near term goal is to become a writer and just express my thoughts about the path, games, different subjects that interest me etc. Video games are just the vehicle through which I will gain readers and spread my content.

@Leo Gura Agreed about the psychs, I will never be the same since taking them, and thank god for that lol. Good luck with integration and embodiment.

@Bazooka Jesus How's your embodiment of that realization off the drugs? What do you think your issue is then with respect to life purpose? Have you seen Nahms thread on dream boarding. I wrote I have life purpose on the board, before I actually found my LP

@Leo Gura What's your plan for permanent or prolonged embodiment of god consciousnesses? Do you think it's possible without psychs? When I had the realization my first instinct was how the fuck do people do this without psychedelics?

@pluto Thank you

@pluto How does one surrender to source downloads? I've only had the download experience with bliss once on lsd. Not sure how to get there without psychs yet

Good luck

@Anna1 It is!

@pluto Why force the cycle on ourselves? If consciousness has the ability to reach those peaks, why go back into the suffering? Why the hell do we do this to ourselves?

First night back at my parents house, just went for a long walk. Feel pretty amazing lol. This is great, it's like a peaceful happiness. @Nahm what you think? Is it the time spent confronting my parents after my traumatic childhood? The past 2 months I was alone in my apartment at school, but first night back I feel way better.

@Anna1 It's a great movie, highly recommend it.

Back home in Vancouver. Feels good to be home. I am learning to be happy with my parents, and the key for me is to just be myself and be honest. I'm not hiding who I am, and if they aren't happy with it then so be it. I was always a spoiled brat anyway and my parents dealt with me. Now i'm a spoiled brat, but all I want is happiness and enlightenment lol. Lot's of panic over the virus, my grandma is in her 70s and I bet she is scared. Shes a bit psycho so maybe she can cope well, but this is god's will so we will see what happens. Self acceptance. Acceptance of who and what I am, no matter what or who I am is the next step on the path. Murdering and raping, I accept you. Spoiled brat who has everything handed to him and still finds a way to be unhappy, I still accept you. However I am, whoever I am, whatever I am, is completely and totally okay. Full acceptance. The suffering of trying to BE something other than what is, is a huge problem. But the problem is created by resistance to what IS. What is, is. And that is pure bliss and love.

@Inliytened1 For me it's higher dose pyshcs haha true. But you never know, maybe if I lick my lips 10 times and spin around 10 times that might produce bliss too haha. I'm open to anything, i'm at the "just give me bliss and absolute happiness already" stage of the path,

@supremeyingyang This is very true man. Thanks for the insight. I've been focusing hard on playing the game over the past month or so, but maybe I should switch focus to writing. There's a lot to write about, and the spreading conscious information about the virus could be important. I'll think about your suggestion. I have exams in the next few weeks so after exams i'll reassess how I want to approach my work over the summer.

@Leo Gura Let's go. Can't wait.