BlessedLion

Very interesting read…

Don’t you guys see your just arguing about the same thing. If Consilence find it’s through meditation and Leo finds it through psychedelics, who gives a fug. For me personally, the two are merging. My psychedelic experiences have merged into my daily meditation practices to where the whole of existence feels like one big trip. I also live in a spiritual community and on an energetic portal of the earth so it’s a bit more trippy than you’re average place. But I can go for a walk on the beach and merge into the whole thing like I’m tripping

Lame

The GOAT. The way he breaks down and connects language is simply Godlike

I met a beautiful Argentinian woman about 6 months ago (then she left, we never hooked up) and we have been talking on what’s app, kinda flirty for about 1-2 months. Recently she moved back to the town I live in and met her in. We have been hanging out and having sex, and the sex is amazing but I’m worried that I’m doing it for the wrong reasons. Personally I don’t see myself starting a relationship and I’m kinda feeling more like something casual, but she told me that she is finally allowing herself to open her heart and that she wants to go deep. So I’m kinda worried that I’m going to end up hurting her and I’m so sick of guys fucking women over just so they can get some sex. I told her some of this, in an honest way, and she said she wants me to feel free and to do whatever I want. But that she isn’t going to hold back her emotions and be distant and is opening up to love. Im in a bind because I love the sex and I do like her, but sometimes she feels too intense and I also don’t see myself getting into something long term there. I want to be free sexually. But then again there’s times when we have a great connection and it feels good. But to start dating I know I would be doing that out of alignment. Kinda lost

All good ?

When reading my post above your mind is going one of two places, ”wow. That’s so crazy I’m imagining this guy who is trying to convince he’s having a real experience and that I’m not God. Wow! I can’t believe I’m imagining that!” or ”hey maybe this is actually a person with an experience and consciousness on the other end…let me just get my head out of my ass real quick and consider that….” go with the latter

Solopsism is bullshit do you all really think I don’t exist? There is no experience happening over here!? Helllooooo. Or am I just your imagination right now? Then stop imagining me! Let’s do an experiment. Wipe me out! Couldn’t do it? Huh, weird. Cuz you’re all like God or something. What a self indulgent, ego boosting convenience. Only YOU are real and everyone else is just YOUR imagination. YOU created them all, they only exist because of YOU! This is so lame and deluded. You have to be seriously insecure and wanting to be special to fall into this trap of Solopsism. Listen to the greats, the highest teaching is alleviating all beings from suffering. You think those guys were just fucking around saying that to be cute? To not spoil the little game of Solopsism? Its a fucking delusion

Sure but there is still competition to hook up with the tantric psychedelic women

@Tyler Robinson you are reading into my message totally wrong First part “ This ??? don’t hate the player hate the game “ Im agreeing with what you said and I’m saying that to the others who were complaining about it, I’m agreeing with your comment on “not to take it out on women but to just get better with understanding them” The douche thing was in relation to what Leo said about him seeing girls going with the douche guys. In no way was I insulting you or putting you down!

The rejections can be the biggest growth to your sense of self possible. Use it to dismantle and let go of your ego. Who is hurt? Why is it hurt? Then keep going Personally I love getting rejected because it loosens me up and helps me take it less seriously. Kinda like the worst has already happened

This ??? don’t hate the player hate the game But also, there’s no need to be a fucking douche like I’m sure the kinds Leo sees in Las Vegas are above and beyond. But that’s a highly competitive, club environment. I’m not surprised he’s lost respect for the women in that scene. I prefer spiritual girls that I meet at yoga, ecstatic dance, parks, beaches. They see right through the douche bag act

This is false. Women are attracted to vibe and internal power. It just so happens when a man has material resources and power he acts in a manner consistent with this. But it’s not needed. Especially if he knows he is God

It is a shame, but there is such a strong pull to act like this. I find myself doing it in subtle ways, but also, let’s be fucking real for a second. It is a competition in a way because someone is getting laid at the end of the night and many are not. I do think the “fighter” approach is pretty stupid and it looks so lame and insecure. You can easily make that guy look like a dumbass by just being detached and let him dig his own grave. But you’re still competing and you still want to sleep with the girl and not share her. Theres no need to throw other guys under the bus, but you do have to stand out above them in subtle ways if you want to get the hottie

Sorry brother. That’s a low blow. I’m just curious was he saying it in a sarcastic degrading way or was he seriously interested and just kinda socially stupid? I’ve had people say to me for example “aw you’re living it up man I’d love to just sell all my shit and be a hippie on the beach” but they don’t say it in a disrespectful way. So I don’t take it personally. My next point is that he has no understanding of your situation and is just projecting. Don’t let his insecurity pull you down

@Dazgwny This helps. Thank you @Leo Gura I admit I lack understanding. At this point in time all I can do is surrender and trust that is really is Goodness and Love.

Leo in your latest blog post you write about a skeleton hand wanting to show you all the horrors of reality as if God is happy and proud of this. I find this quite sickening. All the deep anguish in reality, the torture, the pain, the serious addictions… What kind of loving God would be joyful in this? I mean in a sense you’re not wrong because it exists and if it exists that means God is allowing it and therefore loves it. But how can we find joy in this? Or be proud of a God that loves child slavery? I mean imagine a child who had no choice and was just a slave tortured for 50 years then died. REALLY contemplate this. Not just some image in your head but really contemplate that life. Why? What kind of sick thing would allow this? My only reasoning is that I don’t think God actually wants this to be happening, it just set up reality and is watching it unfold. Either that or it’s just so far out of my understanding that the only thing I can do is trust this God is actually loving and surrender my doubts and questions

Thanks again guys. If anyone is interested I have an update; I took y’all’s advice and saw her last night. When started hooking up I stopped her and said I was feeling a bit inward, then I explained everything that was going on with me. Mainly that I didn’t feel like I was in the space to go into any kind of relationship and that I feeling more blocked from her. I was pretty honest. She was very understanding and kind about the whole thing. And she said her side of things and that she was really enjoying it with me (as was I) and we were both learning a lot. After I saw how understanding she was I felt a huge weight off my chest, I started talking with her about being open and loving ourselves and not feeling bad for how we feel and what we experience. This got us into talking about Universal Love and God and I was sitting there looking at her and I just saw so much beauty. I just let go of all my monkey mind thoughts and I told her “I know I’m confusing right now but you look so fucking amazing” I felt like I was on a dose of mushrooms. Everything became open and psychedelic. We went deeper into our fears, our spirituality, everything. Then we made love, for hours, and It was some of the best sex I’ve ever had in my life. Totally innocent, expressive and free. It was truly heart opening. We went from sex to talking to laughing to massages to cuddles to eye gazing, all night. So to be honest guys, I have no idea what this means or where I’m at. Even after the sex she was saying “well I’m going to miss you” so it’s clear she knew it was kinda ending Part of me wants to keep going and part of me is resistant. I wish I could just make a decision and follow it but I’m torn. Not sure there’s much advice for this, I think I’m just going to feel it out and let it unfold day by day. thanks anyway guys

I want to do a heavy metal detox but have these fucking fillings

Totally depends on their vibe and body language when they said that

Quit jerking off , especially if you’re watching porn, man that’s likely your biggest problem that’s keeping all this. When I quit porn, my anxiety, social anxiety, depression, and anger/sexual problems all lifted pretty much magically. Quick Google search on porn effects of the Brain, Ted talks about porn, I totally disagree with Leo’s take on this. Porn corrupts you spiritually and mentally. Read about semen retention Go talk to girls. Find some community, people who are into personal development. Search for Mens groups, this will help you see others who are embodying this stuff. Go travel, switch things up. Take a trip. Backpack in Bali. if you really are thinking to kill yourself if it doesn’t get better in a year then stop fucking around and take your life seriously. Take action. Drink Ayahuasca in the jungle, get a mentor, stop eating shit food and jerking off. Or don’t, and ya know, stay depressed. Visualize yourself if you go another year like this, then visualize what it could be like if you turned it around and starting crushing it My last recommendation, drop the self help books. The wisdom is within. Go into nature and spend 3-4 hours a day sitting there in absolute silence. I guarantee if you do this daily for 2 weeks you’ll be healed significantly

Wow. Thank you all for the heartfelt advice here. I really appreciate all your input. @Loba & @Tyler Robinson the thing is I’m not sure if it’s a 100% no for me. I can honestly say I’m not 100% in it, but there’s something in me that keeps wanting to see her, I find myself daydreaming about us meditating and hanging out together but another part of me knows I’m not likely in it for the long haul. I think I’ll talk to her about what she wants and if she wants monogamy or something more casual. I’m open to all the emotions and love and going deep but that just isn’t coming up for me. I kinda wish it was but it’s just not happening. @Tyler Robinson Yeah I try not to cut people out abruptly unless they start attacking me, that’s my one exception. I probably drove one girl off the wall by blocking her when we were in love but she fucked my friend so it’s kinda like, “yeah you’re on your own there” actually her doing that drove me insane for about 3 weeks. I could barely talk eat sleep. So ya I won’t do anything like that to this angel, but maybe Loba is right about just stepping away. Im also going on a 10 day silent retreat in a week so that will be a great place to reflect and such.

I forgot to mention that when I confessed how I felt about everything, she understood, then we still had sex after. She said that I was a man about what was going on internally and that I didn’t act like a horny little boy about it. Then she jumped my bones. So idk maybe I’ll just go with it, but I just have this intuition that it’s going to end up painfully.

That sounds rough man… do you watch porn? If so, cut that out. Also look into Semen Retention. This will help readjust your natural sexuality in a healthy way. Look up Tantric excercises for Men. Also I highly suggest you just get a sex therapist. You sound like you have a lot of blocks and beliefs around sexuality and a trained professional will likely help you. This is def a problem worth fixing.

Fuck no. I wish the videos were even longer.