BlessedLion

Porn has been a major issue for me, in fact, it is the only thing that really throws me off track and brings my vibration down. At 29, I have made incredible feats in my consciousness, habits, social skills, finances, and overall well-being. I want to "publicly" log my decision here to quit porn as i have struggled with it for so long and truly feel like it is the one thing that is holding me back more than anything else in my growth and happiness. In truth, i fucking love porn, i love how easy it is, how exciting it is, how hot it is and how novel it is. I can literally find anything i want and i don't have to deal with dating, emotions, people, or myself, it's a fast track to the prize. But it is extremely damaging, so many beautiful moments in my life have been ruined because my porn usage put me in a negative mood so i wasn't fully myself and able to show up for the people in my life. I lose focus, love, connection to God (even though that is always present, maybe better words could be more cloud coverage) and motivation for my life purpose. It has been a tool for my ego to easily self-sabotage especially when things are going well. I need to stop because I want my brain to function at top performance and the dopamine from porn reduces grey matter in the brain, so it's like all the work i do with meditation is just getting shit on by porn usage. Most importantly, i am truly becoming a man these days, i am almost 30, i can no longer hide behind immaturity and the cost of porn use is getting to high. I want to see what happens when i no longer have this block in my river, when i no longer have one foot on the gas and another lightly pumping the brakes. What if i was all gas? My prayer is for Gods grace and guidance in this journey, God, please allow me to make it to my 30th birthday without having looked at porn or masturbated at all. The only thing i want to allow is natural sex. That is the only way I "can" nut. Aho

@Salvijus Trust me bro, i've done a ton of spiritual purification, and this habit still sticks. It depletes my sexual essence. I have to keep trying to use willpower until I beat it, but I believe in myself. Also, if i can find a solid relationship then it will be largely out of my head.

Day 1 officially starts tomorrow hah

That's for sure. I hear you man, and appreciate the insight. In my opinion, there is a point where you just fully trust and feel God at all times. Even in the darkness. It's like a full surrender to life, not just a trip. Ture, it unfolds at a slower pace, but once there it's kinda like just watching a movie and deep down you know you are held and it's all good. Is this staying in comfort? Is this delusion? I am not sure, but it feels right. At least for now. I will certainly do psychedelics in the future, done correctly, they are pure love. But for now, this is the wave i'm on

They may take you to the top of the mountain but you always come back, true you keep a slight taste but I think the dependency they create is more harmful that than that taste of God they give. Harmful might not be the best word but maybe less efficient. How many great masters legitimately suggest this as a way to become God? Have you ever seen a great teacher propose this as a long term path? (Leo, McKenna, Carlos Castaneda...) Psychedelics have been around forever so you'd think if they were really that effective and legit you'd have at least one MAJOR name proposing them. Maybe my interest is different. It seems like what Leo teaches and is pursuing mastery in, is understanding reality, but it's not in being. My goal is to be God, to dissolve into everything completely sober and of my own Accord and consciousness. By God's Grace and hard work. Leo makes it seem like this is impossible without psychedelics but many other teachers have just the opposite view. Ralston, Adyashanti, Ram Dass, Ramana Maharshi, Hawkins, these are no joke teachers who attained some of the deepest levels of God Realization possible. And they all address this point, basically saying that psychedelics may show you Christ, but don't you want to BE Christ? You always come back down from a trip. In my own experience as I go deeper into daily practice, retreats and self inquiry, the Self slowly reveals and unravels. I'm unbelievably less reactive and much more positive loving and free. Live is an adventure and I never feel bored. In fact gratitude is my baseline emotion. Not to say i don't have any struggle, pain, self doubt and self anger still lingering. I'm not perfect. I'm just saying writing off meditation and spiritual practices as useless like he does in quite unfair and i think it's his bias. It seems like it doesn't work that well for him. Like he's mentioned before some people are wired for certain things and have natural strengths. I believe his strengths and wirings are an incredible ability to analyze, understand, and verbalize and conceptualize reality. But maybe he's not that strong suited in BEING. It seems like this is boring for him. For myself, just sitting and being is heaven. What are your guys thoughts? Is this Leo's personal bias as a teacher?

For sure, if psychedelics taught me anything it's that life is the strongest psychedelic of them all. It's a journey, it's magical and it's beautiful I don't want to discount psychedelics, I just feel that meditation can be equally as powerful

Just bought it lol I'm an hour in Some very profound insights but also a bit lower consciousness and manipulation. I'll have to be careful consuming this material and only take away positive aspects. I will not manipulate people

Are you channeling this information or something? That's spot on! Everytime I have a major psychedelic breakthrough in the past, life threw massive challenges and suffering my way when i tried to maintain that state, and i failed, fell for it, each time.

Well, that's technically true but I think you know what I mean here. I've done many trips. Around 80. They were foundational to my understanding. But I think there's a point where you drop them

Well put. I mostly agree with you. But also, you can't discount Leo's work and exceptional way of explaining these concepts and breaking through all the bullshit. One thing i appreciate about him is he gives you the answers straight up with no watering down. But as far as his ego goes and putting down all these great masters paths and practices...that's another story

I just bought Hot Seat At Home for around $300. So far it's insightful. I'm going to finish it. But as I watch a get a but of a creepy feeling. Like this is just social manipulation. Owen keeps yelling about how he can get into people's heads and do what he wants. I wanted a legit course in authentic socialalizing. Also fuck The Natural Lifestyles, those guys are the lamest scam con artists around. They pose as chill enlightened guys but are total losers, especially James

https://youtu.be/MeM5VC-Mkto

It's nice if you're alone and have space imo. When i trip it's really dramatic, dancing moving laughing crying and I don't like people looking at me while I go through that process.

Thanks for sharing your viewpoints. Don't get me wrong. I've had amazing revelations from psychs that would've been very difficult through meditation, but not impossible. How many of you have really spent 14-21 days in complete silent meditation? It does amazing things. I've never had 5 MEO so this i can't speak on. I just feel like they can cause a dependency when i feel it's much more powerful to 100% rely on yourself That said i don't discount their legitimacy but it does seem like Leo has said meditation is a waste of time, which is absolute bullshit

Yes there is a book on this. I forget the name it was about organic dying

But he's not me, he's Leo

Sounds like Leo and his whole , "what every human needs to hear I'd that their a selfish mother fucker" ideology. I watched the whole video. Thanks

@Breakingthewall get what you guys are saying but the point is that the sun (awareness) shines regardless of the state. There can be 1 cloud let's call that Bliss, sun still there , there can 100, depression, but the sun is still there. So the sun, awareness, YOU is always the case , the clouds come and go

Super obvious. But he also has some good points and insights from what psychedelics have shown him. It's just when he makes it about him that it's obnoxious

Pleasure, confidence, energy. For those who don't have it. No need for it these days.

A few things; -You wont be able to really experience the trip, your friends will be distracting you. Don't expect to contemplate much or connect with the medicine deeply - Seeing that you're out in public away from a bed. It could go bad and you could potentially have a rough time. Personally I hate tripping in public. Get way too tripped out. But having friends with you could help If you're doing it just for fun or a good time it should be fine and could be great. Just have your own space and don't take too much. Less is more

Maybe I'll do psychedelics like 3,4 times a year

Yeah, couldn't agree more. It's going to sound cliche but I feel like there is something more pure about gaining insights and wisdom and consciousness sober. Totally on your own. I've heard a teacher once say that these substances have their own consciousness and we don't fully understand them or why they show us these things. Sounds a bit paranoid but I've had experiences with plants that felt downright malicious as well as God like and beautiful. I still plan to use them. I think they can be beautiful and revel things that I'm not seeing as well as re spark love for this work. But see it as more like watching a cool movie or something. Not seriously using it or depending on it for consciousness work. These days i just say to myself life is the psychedelic and there is no reason God would make it impossible to become conscious of things sober and through hard work. My meditations these days are pure Bliss. Heaven. I'm 7 years in and have clocked in 5-6K hours. Leo is a genius though and I doubt he is wrong. He has obviously thought and contemplated extensively on this material, i try to not rule anything out. But dismissing meditation like he does is kinda lame and close minded.

But they aren't states it's just becoming more aware of what is already the case; IE; removing the clouds. It can't be a state

@Water by the River Wow. Thanks for that explanation. You clearly know your shit well. This is pretty much exactly how my teacher explains it. Except regarding the psychedelics,but it sounds like Hawkins where as you get higher on the scale of consciousness, even an increase of .001% is massive and if you are low an increase of 5% is pretty small in terms of behavior and connection to God. My question; do you think there is a point where psychedelics are actually setting you back? Throwing you off momentum? Not helping? Cheerz