Druid420

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  1. A meditation
    God 'Spoke' to Me
    @Druid420
    You could do this too. Notice the people you’re talking about, are not your experience. You experience seeing, and hearing. You do not experience any individual or separate things.  You can only honestly claim to know the seeing & hearing itself.  Observe a person, then experience, or be aware of,  yourself. Notice how completely different the two experiences are. Notice you have never known anything about another person’s experience, only your seeing & hearing. If you’re being honest, you can’t claim to know that anyone is thinking at all. Also in all honesty, you have never been understood by anyone, you can only assume they are hearing your sounds or reading your words and making an interpretation similar to your intention. But you will never know in any case. Likewise, every sound or writing from another never conveys any meaning or understanding, that is your own interpretation of your sight & sound & thinking. The more you contemplate this, the more your mind realizes how much overthinking is present, and the futility of it.  Then trace thought that remains to it’s root relative to you as a separate thing. You’ll notice that in the same manor none of them are true.    Identify any thoughts grounded in the past or future, and realize they too are abstraction repeating because you believe in time. Then root out any thoughts with regards to location. You are where you are, the thought about “there” is not there, it’s a thought. Same for time. You are not ‘somewhere’ in ‘time’. 
    Without thoughts about other people, your thoughts about other people’s thoughts about you, the ramifications of separate things, time, and location, you should be good to go. The messages are very subtle, when not influenced by trauma or psychedelics. Listen in no mind and you will be pleasantly surprised. But, don’t believe anyone who tells you this. 
     
     
     

  2. How I got into Personal Development
    Tell Us How You Got Into Personal Development
    Name: Druid420
    Age: 27
    Gender: Male
    Location: Norn Iron
    Occupation: Theoretical Physicist 
    Marital Status: Dating
    Kids: No
    Hobbies: Appreciating/experiencing nature, mind alteration, socialising, understanding, skiing, football, everything adrenaline, enjoying the experience.
    I have led something of a confused existence, at least in my early years. I was born into a war torn country where racism was rife without any need for a differing skin tone. I was born into a rich family from a poor society and as such as was persecuted by my peers. I hated myself and my entire existence.
    I ended up running from my lands and exploring the world but my mind had become corrupted and everything tasted bitter. I became addicted to heroin and lived on the streets for a while. My only concern was to anaesthetise life for my existence was nothing but pain. 
    My family began signing me into rehab facilities which followed very christian 12 step methods thats main objective seems to be trying to break you into such small pieces that maybe they can rebuild you. The glue of which I am made is much too strong for this and as such I did not break but only hated myself more and more and ever more desperately tried to numb my existence. 
    I attempted suicide many times but found myself always waking up. Might I add that these were all very serious attempts performed with the upmost conviction. It was always even more depressing to find myself unsuccessful in my endeavours and cursing the world before I'd inevitably get sectioned for a few weeks. 
    Nothing seemed to be going anywhere - it reached the point where I'd load a 0.8 gram hit into a syringe and I would hardly even notice the relief. I never stole or came by money dishonestly for the drugs, so I suffered countless cold turkey withdrawals - in hind site I reckon this time of constant withdrawal served to fortify my resolve in general. I feel very strong these days simply by knowing my conviction could tackle something so seductive.
     > Some side story - from my childhood I have experienced very strong ASMR and dream walking, in my early teen years I began to suffer depression and insomnia - in an effort to defeat the insomnia I took to meditation - very ad lib might I add, but very valuable. 
    12 months ago we went on a family holiday to Thailand. Things where okay - I was quite depressed and had also got a bad dose of travellers bug while in Dubai for one week before travelling onwards (my big sister is quite epileptic so we need to let her body clock adjust which is why we stopped there).
    I almost cancelled my onward travels to return home, I was feeling that bad. But my father convinced me to come to Thailand with everyone and if I was really feeling bad I could fly home from there, so I agreed.
    There was some family conflict regarding myself while we were in Thailand and I got EXTREMELY depressed and suicidal. 
    I ventured out on a moped around the Island of Kooh Samui, where I found my teacher, Ajarn Panthep. 
    He taught me about meditation which I grasped very quickly due to my unguided practices from my youth. He gave me a Sak Yant tattoo and told me some rules of which I should try to live (No alcohol and some things like that - basically be good to keep the blessing). This was my first awakening - I felt so good, like I could be anyone or do anything. I felt powerful. I kept to these for maybe 9 months - being Irish, not drinking over the Christmas period is just a big no no! haha
    Anyway to wrap things up - I continued my buddhist meditative practices and with in a form of 'self inquiry' - the way Ajarn put it to me was just to fully explore 'Who am I? What am I?' (Etc. I cut off my hand, I am still here and aware, Therefore I am not my hand.) 
    Then when I got my hands on some DMT for the first time a couple of weeks ago everything got focused to a degree I could not even have possibly fathomed before. The whole truth to my self and the self was revealed. I died and was reborn several times. I have been a snake, a pigeon and a rock thus far. The experiences DMT have allowed me to realise are without ANY SHADOW of a doubt the most profound awareness I have ever experienced. 
    I am now on a quest, for my own and my children's sake, along with anyone else who cares to listen, to fully understand these mysteries and integrate this knowledge with my life. 
    I have considered myself strongly as atheist for a long long time, so there's a little internal conflict going on but I really see now that there is something valuable to be had from religions - however most these days have dressed the truth in their own agenda. It is my plan to document my experience as honestly and unbiased as possible for others who want to try and uncover and understand for themselves. 
    Personal challenges I've overcome:
    Terribly depressed with a disgusting perception of body image
    Can get very excitable over things that seemed to make socialising difficult when I was younger . I still get over excited about many things (which is a great thing in itself) but I now more actively process these thoughts into digestible and more comprehensible lines so that others can grasp my angle.
    Was an IV user of heroin, taking 3.5g per day and sleeping in shop windows.
    Left school when I was 16. Now in university studying Theoretical Physics MSci.
     
    What I'm working on now:
    Working on enlightenment and implementation
    Working on digesting awoken thoughts into an easily comprehensible form for seekers.
    Working on improving my health & diet
    Working on graduating from University and pursuing a PhD. 

  3. Perks
    A question for Leo on his recent duality video.
    Because without a self, nothing is bad.
    When you realize you are immortal and infinite (the Absolute), you will be in literal heaven, where nothing bad exists. Heaven is an Absolute!
    Once your perspective of life becomes absolutely holistic, you will literally not be able to see bad any more. You will realize that "bad" is a fictitious concept. You will realize there was only absolute Good.
    It's a life-transforming realization. This is how you transcend suffering.

  4. Good beliefs
    My spiritual beliefs
    My spiritual beliefs are 
    there is a "god"  
    that god is nothingness 
    there is in reality no such (non-existance) as morals and ethics 
    I am god, i am not human or i am awareness
    the best thing to do in life is to be able to be happy doing nothing 
    happiness is not in materialism 
    yoga, meditation etc is how one should live their lives 
    other people's perspectives are 100% wrong and the spiritual perspective is the only right one 
    other people's lives are just concepts on concepts and beliefs on beliefs 
    other people should behave in a more spriritual way because its closer related to the truth 
    I have direct experiences of truth and therefore i am right 
    the spritual path is more important than the practical side of life and i should throw all my eggs in one basket 
    the spiritual path is the most important thing in the world 
    my direct experiences are truths yet they may also be beliefs 
     
    By understanding the middle way, and the fact it is not this and it is not that... i never realised that i had never questioned my spiritual belief instead of my normal mundane beliefs, even if these are true, the ultimate truth is still not this and therefore they are spiritual beliefs, anything that is claimed about it would just fall into a domain of taking position, until you have had ultimate realisation to detach, ofcourse you can align yourself closer with truths however, they may just end up becoming spritiual beliefs. 
    it is these spiritual beliefs that make it difficult to function in normal life practically for me, and therefore i am going to build a nest of normal beliefs as opposed to building up spiritual beliefs, they are more practical to my survival. spiritual beliefs are more dangerous and do not reflect normal everyday life in their fantastical reflection. 
    its ironic it always come down to the red and blue pill, matrix scenario- but this surrendering myself completely before god is too difficult, too many unknowns to certain situations and therefore i notice my spiritual beliefs are dangerous, more dangerous than believing alot of other things. 
    what are a list of spiritual beliefs you have? 

  5. Awakening
    I am enlightened. Sincere seekers: ask me anything
    Yes. Ramana Maharshi's self-inquiry is without a doubt the most efficient way, but the real issue for 99% of the people is various psychological obstacles that have to be overcome first. People have to be honest with themselves about what they really want, and pursue it, whether or not it is enlightenment. That is the path. If someone tells themselves that they are interested in enlightenment but they are not, they will get nowhere. Self-honesty is itself a process, however. Psychodynamic or psychoanalytic psychotherapy can be helpful in this regard.
    Consciousness has many definitions. One of them is: that which knows.
    Even the idea that ego is an illusion is not strictly correct; it is not even that. Even the illusion doesn't exist.
    We are not our bodies, so we do not die. Consciousness never ends.
    Kids do have consciousness of themselves, only that consciousness reflects objects that are rudimentary and undeveloped.