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    If the relationship is of genuine substance and connection, I would communicate about my insecurity. But not in an insecure way, but an open and honest exchange. Be real, talk to him and find out where he's at with it. If the attraction is based more on physical and sex, I might wait it out. If it is you.. truly you that he is attracted to, then it will be worth finding out. If he's is really about you he will work with you. Respect to you my brother. I'm packin on the petite side myself. Society is brutal about dick size.

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    I just posted this in @Leo Gura's Pentagon UFO thread, before I saw this one.

     I hesitate to share this, but here goes... A year ago I was on a solo meditation retreat in secluded country. On my fourth night I had a first hand experience with a UFO. It was close, maybe 75-100 yards away. I couldn't see and actual ship, but the light purplish and white lights in a triangular shape to start with. It moved SLOW, lowering to just above the tree line. I thought it was going to land! My heart was beating a million miles an hour. I felt a sensation in my face, like a light pressure under my skin. It stayed for maybe 10-15 seconds, but it's hard to say because it felt like time stretched out. The lights changed arrangement, came together and became linear, then it was gone. It didn't take off, it just disappeared. I was left aghast. I had been meditating naked for days and didn't have my phone to record. This is the first time I have openly spoken about the experience except to my wife and kids. If I share the experience its just a story to other people.

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    I hesitate to share this, but here goes... A year ago I was on a solo meditation retreat in secluded country. On my fourth night I had a first hand experience with a UFO. It was close, maybe 75-100 yards away. I couldn't see and actual ship, but the light purplish and white lights in a triangular shape to start with. It moved SLOW, lowering to just above the tree line. I thought it was going to land! My heart was beating a million miles an hour. I felt a sensation in my face, like a light pressure under my skin. It stayed for maybe 10-15 seconds, but it's hard to say because it felt like time stretched out. The lights changed arrangement, came together and became linear, then it was gone. It didn't take off, it just disappeared. I was left aghast. I had been meditating naked for days and didn't have my phone to record. This is the first time I have openly spoken about the experience except to my wife and kids. If I share the experience its just a story to other people.

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    I don't know anything about stocks, but I get the sense that psychedelics might be worth looking into. Its early in the game, but psychedelic research, funding, and attention is picking up some serious momentum.  Compass Pathways  is the only one on nasdaq.  Others on OTC;  Mindmed,  Numinus Wellness,  Cybin,  

    I completely ignorant with the stock market. Thoughts?

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    There was once upon a time when I couldn't imagine myself not stoned (and high on other stuff). I was poly substance addicted, but weed was my bread and butter.  I stayed stoned through my late teens, 20's, into early 30's. The whole time I was never happy with my addiction, never accepted it, was always at conflict with it. I sounded something like you. I wanted to be able to enjoy it without needing it. Have my cake and eat it to.

    The thing is, once I got my shit together enough to not need it, I no longer wanted it. The enjoyment went away. As a matter of fact, whenever I would take a toke after I hadn't smoked in awhile, I realized how much I disliked the experience; how in your head makes you, how it amplifies insecurities, robs ambition, removes the clarity and sensitivity that true enjoyment arises from. It made me numb and apathetic to my deeper discomfort. I used it to cover up the shit that needed to be addressed.

    The appeal just kind of organically dissolved for me as I worked out my shit, and gave it some time clean.

  20. Posted · Edited by neovox

    Quality LSD at reasonable doses (150-500iu), the stimulation gives me insomnia for the next 12 hours after the trip. Nothing heavy or negative otherwise.

    mushrooms (3-6g) leave me feeling super tired. 6-10g give me a kind of hang over for the next 12 hours

    I don't get any negative come down from DMT.

    I know the effects and comedowns vary widely. I would try lower doses. You don't need nearly as much as your ego wants for a quality spiritual experiences. I've had incredible experiences off 50iu LSD and 1-2g shrooms. In a way it is easier to integrate the experience when the doses are lower.