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Get the shot and tell the the truth if they must know. You have a whole fuck ton more to worry about with them than just this vaccine. Might as well start breaking them off some truth.

Honesty, fuck what people like. Be you, be unique, love it and don't apologize for shit. Smile at em and keep doing you.

@Blackhawk Suffering feels negative from a certain perspective. It doesn't make it so. See the value in it. Recall in your own experience when you suffered acutely but the broader result was positive.

lift weights and quit porn

But what about when you have to cause immediate suffering for a greater good? Sometimes I work in a pediatric emergency room. Protocol for a baby with a fever is lumbar puncture. I'm a grunt, so my job is to hold down the baby while the doctor sticks a needle in its spine for fluid. Many times the meningitis results negative. Turns out to be a cold or flu. So what of the suffering the baby endured? The parents? I don't exactly enjoy the experience, nor the doctor. Can we presume to map suffering? The answer is its ALL right. The wrong exists only in perspective. The wrong is judgment itself.

Agreed! To be of a mind to even attempt this is pretentious and absurd.

This past week I've felt "normal" for the first time in about five months, and goddamn it feels good! I'm almost afraid to declare it because I don't want it sneaking back up on me, but for the moment I have my life back. It has been a rough winter. Everyday was a struggle just to maintain going through the motions of life. Performing at work took everything in me. I was so tired, nauseous, and feverish feeling (tho I had no fever). Everyone always asking me, "are you okay?" It was obvious how bad I felt. This past week the weather has warmed up, and I've been waking up feeling like my old self. The air outside feels sweet, the sun feels amazing on my face, I smile and greet neighbors and strangers, and it feels so good to be back to life. I appreciate so much more that I took for granted. Just having the energy to wake up and not want to lay there in misery. Turning on music and cooking a nice meal, cleaning,, cutting up with the family, to have my sense of humor back, and even starting back on my fitness routine.

I've been enduring so many health issues for such a long time, I just feel a deep weariness. Not that I want to die, but feeling tired of being in this body. I try to make the most of it and maintain positive and spiritual perspective but I have a difficult time feeling it. I try to let go, surrender, and put my attention inward, but my surrender isn't total and I feel suffering rather than Divine Love. When I'm healthy and well my spirituality flows. I feel divinity everywhere. I feel God in the people I interact with. When I'm feeling shitty like now, there is no depth to my experience. I feel contracted in my ego. My whole vibration and experience is like night and day. I just want it to be well again. I look back and understand that all of my biggest growth gains came from difficult times. But it doesn't feel good as its happening, I'm not able to achieve total surrender despite my efforts. I want to surrender, I want to be at peace. I can close my eyes and be completely present and feel peace for a few seconds or a minute, but my mind and concerns quickly creep in, take over, and I'm right back in my sense of self and suffering. I know that full acceptance offers the greatest growth, but still I lean away, try to distract myself, and want it to end. I resist. I'm trying to figure out how. How do I experience such difficulty with genuine acceptance? Is it because I still identify with my physical form too much? Is it because I'm still so attached to my health and life? Is it lack of discipline? or my conscious development just lacks the capacity? I'm not actually fishing for any answers or validation from the outside. I've not been keeping up with my usual spiritual practices, but I have had an intuitive urge to write and share on this forum, which is new for me. So here I am.

Unless you have a specific condition to consider like an allergy, I have a hard time understanding why you wouldn't get vaccinated. All of the struggle that has been endured... We have a solution but it requires herd immunity.. Now people don't want the vaccine!? I work in front line health care and received the Moderna vaccine. I felt ROUGH the day after the 2nd shot, but then its over. I recommend clearing your schedule a day or two after your second shot.

suffering+ responsibility= progression suffering- responsibility = regression

Spira should try listening to that Bach and Beethoven on psychedelics then report back. Psychedelics are an extremely effective consciousness technology. This is how I hope society will one day understand them to be. Responsible employment of the tech to not be stigmatized or frowned upon. Its preference.

The sense of "free will" is essential in the conscious experience. You experience dualistically in order to "choose" and become fully conscious of your experience/ choice. You are free to experience whatever you "choose", but with a constant gravity towards Absolute/ Love. The experience of free will is what internalizes Love. It has to be earned so to speak to be fully appreciated and made conscious. Your body feels real because your experience is oriented from identification with it. This is the point from which you perceive. When consciousness and identification expands beyond body and form, perception is no longer "my body, thoughts, emotions, free will". God is willing, you are a point of experience.

I experience feeling/ being lazy, and I experience discipline to overcome laziness. Don't judge others, what more is there to contemplate?

Could it be that both are true..? There is free will, but only in relation to our perspective and experience. In Absolute sense it is all already there. In an Absolute since the "free will" that we experience from an individual perspective is connected to every other thought, action, vibration, appearance of separation that has ever existed and ever will exist that we're not conscious of. The "time" that we experience "free will" within only exist within our POV. So, yes there is free will in our experience, but no there is no free will in the timeless Absolute.

Agreed! At some point they become a hindrance. Subtract from depth of experience. Depends on where you're at.

A genuine smile is a powerful thing... For you and those with whom you interact. Wield it well

I'm just sharing, not looking for answers. In 2017 I started feeling extreme fatigue and mild nausea. Lymph nodes on my groin, pelvis, armpits, chest, and neck became inflamed (lymphadenopathy) which caused a systemic lymphatic fluid congestion, which in itself feels pretty awful. The build up of lymph fluid caused aggressive cystic acne break outs which wasn't a huge deal, but didn't look to pretty. Forcing activity was helpful in getting the lymphatic fluid moving which made me feel better temporarily. After a couple of months of these symptom are started to feel tingling in my fingers and numbness in my right leg and foot. The other symptoms maintained the same but the numbness progressed to the point of a limp. I saw specialist after specialist. Ran test after test. All the major auto immune disorders were the first rule out. Then they looked for something neurological, found nothing. This went on for about 5 months and gradually passed. In 2019 it returned, but a milder episode without the neuro symptoms. November 2020 another flare up. I've had a rough time these last few months. So fatigued all the time. Feels like systemic inflammation. Like when you feel bad from a fever, but I have no fever. The nausea is from the processing volume of lymphatic fluid. My vision has become really blurry since yesterday. I am having to strain to see what I'm typing. The blurry vision is a new symptom and happened fast. I'll go back to the doc tomorrow, but my expectations are modest. I'm exhausted of trying to figure it out. I'm just trying accept, work with it, and heal..; which will happen. I am determined to make it so. These health challenges have contributed to my spiritual growth. It seems every time i get sick and suffer it squeezes a little ego out and increases maturity, compassion, and peace.

It like a child asking Einstein "why not 3=mc2 rather. than E=mc2?" because it doesn't work! Zoom out as much as possible. See things in an Absolute sense. Nothing exist in isolation. Everything is intimately connected to everything else. Its all One thing. There is no other way for it to be. There is no "other" infinity. There is only One Infinity which encompasses everything. Its design is Infinitely Intelligent, Infinitely complex, PERFECT. To wonder why something is other than it is, is to miss the wonder of it IS.

experience

You'll just have to try it... Yes, the holds do seem longer, but idk for certain. I never time them. Let each round build on the last. Once you get it rolling it gets insanely pleasurable. Its all about the bottom holds for me.

Wim Hof breathwork while tripping is RIDICULOUS! The holds on the the bottom are freaking incredible. The stillness... So good!

Just by being aware of it. This forum is a good place to catch it in the act... or perhaps after the fact... but better late than never

I feel you struggle, brother. You're probably right about all of the lofty spiritual stuff from where you're currently standing. A practical approach is would yield benefits. All of this shit is just concepts that will just have you chasing your tail at this point. Get out and engage the world. Do something physically challenging every day. Develop a healthy diet. Practice shopping and cooking well. Work in the service industry for awhile. Have some relationships come and go. All the while reflecting, and with a sensitivity to what makes you feel heavy (the way you currently describe), and what makes you feel light and joyful. Really develop that sensitivity within yourself. Journal, meditate, spend quality time with yourself. You will have to arrive through your own conscious choice. THAT is the point. THAT is why you struggle. There is massive reward on the other side. But you have to arrive. You have to take total responsibility. You have to grind out emotional labor willingly. From that position you will discover that you are indeed the creator of your reality. All this time you thought you were reacting to your environment... You've been creating it.

Psychedelic or any "peak" experiences are insufficient alone. They're like the icing on the cake. How you get the hard earned experience idk... The real life, everyday experiences of self created "hell" and suffering can really give you some wisdom and context. A couple decades of self created hell messily hacked through and properly reflected on, add some healthy lifestyle choices, meditation, study wise resources, then sprinkle a few mystical experiences. Try that recipe.