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That perfection doesn't really motivate me to dream at all. Yeah sure I know what it means for this dream but there is also no need for it. Life ss much as delusional it is atleast has something to it. But you will realize eventually you lived your whole life for nothing. I meant not as "self" but I want to be oblivion. Not even love. Not Concious. I will be ok with that. So to be no self pretty darn easy for this guy. But also I can't wait this body to die and this dream to finally evaporate. Ok. Whatever it has such bittersweet taste to it. Atleast when you don't know it's so much easier. LoA, Vibrations blah blah so. Much easier.

Well my greatest desire is complete annihilation. Doesn't go hand in hand. I honestly don't want to exist at all. I suffer so much.

@Galyna Please do.

About your family members working hard but not suffering from "depression" etc well as @Galynasaid they have no time for it. Same thing was true for me in life too. No time for philosophising, spirituality, feeling good, psychology and all that BS. Let me tell you a story it was 1993 year that my gf was born. I remember that years was civil war in bosnia and croatia, my country under sanctions and embargo. Shortages of Everything. Poverty level Tanzania inflation through roof. from semi rich country in 1990. My father had salary in 1990 1500 $ in 1993, 3$.Read that again. Salary 3$. We had literally as whole family nothing to eat at all for days. Sometimes we survived on single piece if bread for days. February 1993 in hospital my gf was there was no meds and oxygen. If she was born with weak health like my brother for example Nothing would save her. She would die as baby. So grow the fuck respect what you have. It's a bonus not to dwell in that.

Yeah I guess. Thanks for reminder. WTF I am doing here lol. So work on develooment and maturity first. Thinking toughts that feel good in a sense put your mind on overdrive does it. Instead of your focus being on actuality once again focus changed on thinking and being lost in your head. As much as it is good lesson also harms you in a way. Once again maturity and you will gain actual wisdom to see traps on your own. I do agree on psychedelics. But once you stop using them you are on square 1 and pretty much you end up same with no actual growth. Meditation bit more natural yeah it slower but lets say it's long run thing. ? Vs hare thing. You also need that. To learn to work hard. I am so sorry about that. But you will see why and you will see "workings of your mind" "creating emotions" etc when your survival, self image, protection cloud etc is removed. Well speak With him. Well if you ask. Me I will do everything in my power to avoid any kind of Meds. Meds as last resort not 1st thing to go to. Meditation, gym working on your life. Whatever.

Well there is problem with that. Why would you continue dream then? In full truth there is no need for dreaming or life. Why I bother then I mean could be black thing?! If we are still here then it means we care don't we? No duality btw this and black thing but. I really wish anyone dwells as one and be afraid to go to sleep being worried will he die in sleep. So fun and so great. So instead of questioning it will take lesson from my dog. She doesn't care about this stuff she just lives. # Diogenes

Ok willmake it, it's 16:00 now. Worked night shift yesterday just woke up. Before she comes here. She will not take my kitchen from me. Going on my nerves a lot with that. Fir the record never made this. So hope it will turn well.

If I was wise guy would never show interest in spirituality in first place. But damage has been done. Dog is much wiser. Instead of answering silly question looks to eat and get bitches. (not insult don't know other word for female dog)

Don't know if dog came to zen master or zen master came to a dog. #Diogenes You got it all backwards. Dog shows clarity to zen master and asks zen master profound questions.

Why would you talk about it?

Well with tomato soup maybe it could work but can't put any salt or peper in it. With chicken soup? Well I am adventurous you know but not that adventurous.

What. That's something new. Indian food not so popular here at all.Could do my research and maybe make something. Fun thread I love it. Always new ideas.

Quantum. Mechanics also points to God. Everything in the end will reveal Truth because everything is Truth. My take. 2 cents from nonsensical guy. All roads lead back to Rome and all roads come from Rome.

Well you destroy your ego you become GOD. That's True. "Sober state" pretty much same. You=Self so yes pretty much self evolution too in some sense. Peeps beleive enlightenment is game or.some spiritual talk it's very actual stuff with actual aftermath.

Absolutist is back! Oh boyo lets mindfuck ourselves who cares really anymore. It's game over for eternity. ? This thing how you teach or talk about this stuff and not snap. Paradox, you are Absolutelly free yet you have no option.

Yeah whichn country it was. Dimitri, you are also of slavic origin aren't you. This enlightenment stuff is bittersweet. There is honeymoon period with it. Love, Love, Love but you are concious of some stuff too. It really is as @Nahm said as marriage. Ya know honeymoon comes to an end and man kid will be ok with it but for bittersweet taste of marriage he really has to be adult. Just want to confront him with that and reason why coaching with @Nahm didn't work and why he doesn't understand what he is teaching. He just lacks development. Nothing else. There is Absolutelly nothing wrong with him. It looks like I am hating poor fellow but I love him.

It's tomato soup served cold is that right. Here all of soups are served hot. Traditional soup is chicken soup.

You are pisces now her "sandwich" makes perfect sense. ? Just joking. Ok will make something tomz. Just lost imspiration "drama queen" got activated.

Well now I have full fridge filled with veggies. She has overtaken my kitchen. ? Sacred desperate housewife space lost. ? Won battle but not war. Atleast I hope so. Will come up With something. But have to be Quick. Lost control over my own kitchen literally freaking out.

Never. You haven't tried deer meat.

Yeah, True. We also kinda like mindfucking ourselves here.

Yeah @DrewNowshave some Recipe for Me? Like despite everything I love to cook and make food.

@Raptorsin7 Stay in God damn Canada(unless you dream of visiting and living in some other country, like honestly. Radical honesty now) you know you gain independance build cool new habits heal from co-dependency become strong and robust actually (ya'll need it trust me) work with @Nahm at same timr What your dream actually is and be happiest mofo there is. Apologize to him. You will need him unlike psychologist who is there just for money he "knows you" fully and has actual uncoditional love for you.