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@Galyna Yeah. It's your obligation to take care of 'em and support' em financially. Here older people are very respected. So as lets say you get wife and kids. As man you have to work for them all+support parents. Lot of pressure for you as man. You can't be pussy. You really have to ba a man not a joke. I will explain him how is to have business here lot different then in US and it is so much harder.

@Raptorsin7ask your fatger to give you 20 $ and try to survive with that whole month.Now you can see how difficult it was. I had to start to go to 1st grade and my mother cried because she couldn:t buy me clothes at all. Shortage of Everything including most dimple stuff. Even if she finds has no money for it. Fatger couldn't drive me at school. You could buy gasoline in 2 l plastic bottles on street. Because there wasn't any on gas stations. No import. Can you imagine that chaos

Old Yugoslavia didn't belonged to eastern block. Split happened 1948. After 1953 US influence become predominant even if it was Communistic country(but with different type of socialism then USSR and China). It was neutral country same as Austria. But backed by US. Imagine that wierdness. So economy was much better then any Country of Eastern block byfar but poorer then western Europe. Richer then greece, portugal and such countries for sure. So people had good salaries and thanks to communism they got apartments from companies they worked in (similar to western corporations almost no difference just owned by state). So good living standard also well educated etc. Yes same thing happened here. People. Lost all. Savings in their banks. Got robbed by state. State got ruled by mafia literally. Yes exactly. Not just you but everyone. Yes mafia. Well everyone is starving + on top of that civil war. Country closed can't import can't export complete collapse of economy. Yes long line.and what you can buy was limited too. One bread, liter of oil, 1kg of suger, 1kg of flour. Just God damn outmost basic stuff for just bare survivak. Shortage of almost everything else. Yes exactly. Yes even to this day that's the case for most people. Yes I am. I agree. Well he has many options just has to grab some balls nothing else. It's super easy for him. But he can't see that. Because la la land is all he knows and it's just normal for him.

Thanks. Yes vacation, get it. It's just nostalgy for life and maybe desire for new one nothing else. I over do stuff. Well what can I do passionate about thing I love. Can't change that. But problem is I let go of Everything so bit off a struggle. That fine balance. So @Nahmcan't avoid Heaven in relative despite not actually being interested in this work and Truth for that reason. That's why it strikes me and I reject whole thing so hard because of it.

Just tired. I really am. I sound like nutcase, nobody understands what I am talking about, nonsensical and what not. Also having difficult times when I ever think about this too unlike most people who have "social anxiety" and whatever. Not same category of pressure and what mind can use against you in some sense.

We can go that route. There’s no "avatar" and I agree. When everything becomes ONE (unified Infinite Love). What's left is just my word. That makes this to be like this and not be black thing. Why bother really when it's the same.

@Nahm Also about feeling great. At the end of spiritual work you will find yourself at 0,alone with no distinctions and boundaries btw you and anything else. You will have none of conditions you holds towards anything. No dualistic notions, no in some sense illusion of life. Yeah sure you regain absolute power. You become God in sober but even that you will let go off. So. There is real "danger" of mahasamadhi. Seems very natural to you.

That perfection doesn't really motivate me to dream at all. Yeah sure I know what it means for this dream but there is also no need for it. Life ss much as delusional it is atleast has something to it. But you will realize eventually you lived your whole life for nothing. I meant not as "self" but I want to be oblivion. Not even love. Not Concious. I will be ok with that. So to be no self pretty darn easy for this guy. But also I can't wait this body to die and this dream to finally evaporate. Ok. Whatever it has such bittersweet taste to it. Atleast when you don't know it's so much easier. LoA, Vibrations blah blah so. Much easier.

Well my greatest desire is complete annihilation. Doesn't go hand in hand. I honestly don't want to exist at all. I suffer so much.

@Galyna Please do.

About your family members working hard but not suffering from "depression" etc well as @Galynasaid they have no time for it. Same thing was true for me in life too. No time for philosophising, spirituality, feeling good, psychology and all that BS. Let me tell you a story it was 1993 year that my gf was born. I remember that years was civil war in bosnia and croatia, my country under sanctions and embargo. Shortages of Everything. Poverty level Tanzania inflation through roof. from semi rich country in 1990. My father had salary in 1990 1500 $ in 1993, 3$.Read that again. Salary 3$. We had literally as whole family nothing to eat at all for days. Sometimes we survived on single piece if bread for days. February 1993 in hospital my gf was there was no meds and oxygen. If she was born with weak health like my brother for example Nothing would save her. She would die as baby. So grow the fuck respect what you have. It's a bonus not to dwell in that.

Yeah I guess. Thanks for reminder. WTF I am doing here lol. So work on develooment and maturity first. Thinking toughts that feel good in a sense put your mind on overdrive does it. Instead of your focus being on actuality once again focus changed on thinking and being lost in your head. As much as it is good lesson also harms you in a way. Once again maturity and you will gain actual wisdom to see traps on your own. I do agree on psychedelics. But once you stop using them you are on square 1 and pretty much you end up same with no actual growth. Meditation bit more natural yeah it slower but lets say it's long run thing. ? Vs hare thing. You also need that. To learn to work hard. I am so sorry about that. But you will see why and you will see "workings of your mind" "creating emotions" etc when your survival, self image, protection cloud etc is removed. Well speak With him. Well if you ask. Me I will do everything in my power to avoid any kind of Meds. Meds as last resort not 1st thing to go to. Meditation, gym working on your life. Whatever.

Well there is problem with that. Why would you continue dream then? In full truth there is no need for dreaming or life. Why I bother then I mean could be black thing?! If we are still here then it means we care don't we? No duality btw this and black thing but. I really wish anyone dwells as one and be afraid to go to sleep being worried will he die in sleep. So fun and so great. So instead of questioning it will take lesson from my dog. She doesn't care about this stuff she just lives. # Diogenes

Ok willmake it, it's 16:00 now. Worked night shift yesterday just woke up. Before she comes here. She will not take my kitchen from me. Going on my nerves a lot with that. Fir the record never made this. So hope it will turn well.

If I was wise guy would never show interest in spirituality in first place. But damage has been done. Dog is much wiser. Instead of answering silly question looks to eat and get bitches. (not insult don't know other word for female dog)

Don't know if dog came to zen master or zen master came to a dog. #Diogenes You got it all backwards. Dog shows clarity to zen master and asks zen master profound questions.

Why would you talk about it?

Well with tomato soup maybe it could work but can't put any salt or peper in it. With chicken soup? Well I am adventurous you know but not that adventurous.

What. That's something new. Indian food not so popular here at all.Could do my research and maybe make something. Fun thread I love it. Always new ideas.

Quantum. Mechanics also points to God. Everything in the end will reveal Truth because everything is Truth. My take. 2 cents from nonsensical guy. All roads lead back to Rome and all roads come from Rome.

Well you destroy your ego you become GOD. That's True. "Sober state" pretty much same. You=Self so yes pretty much self evolution too in some sense. Peeps beleive enlightenment is game or.some spiritual talk it's very actual stuff with actual aftermath.

Absolutist is back! Oh boyo lets mindfuck ourselves who cares really anymore. It's game over for eternity. ? This thing how you teach or talk about this stuff and not snap. Paradox, you are Absolutelly free yet you have no option.

Yeah whichn country it was. Dimitri, you are also of slavic origin aren't you. This enlightenment stuff is bittersweet. There is honeymoon period with it. Love, Love, Love but you are concious of some stuff too. It really is as @Nahm said as marriage. Ya know honeymoon comes to an end and man kid will be ok with it but for bittersweet taste of marriage he really has to be adult. Just want to confront him with that and reason why coaching with @Nahm didn't work and why he doesn't understand what he is teaching. He just lacks development. Nothing else. There is Absolutelly nothing wrong with him. It looks like I am hating poor fellow but I love him.

It's tomato soup served cold is that right. Here all of soups are served hot. Traditional soup is chicken soup.