Schahin

I ate the seeds plenty of times, honestly the nausea passes and if not just an orange or honey to calm down your gut. If you start low with 2 seeds most things are fine and amazing. Exaggerating is the bad thing here. Just chewing on a single seed instantly makes me laugh ans realize being and perceive the devilish things I do. I find complex extraction methods highly weird and not good because it goes against the traditional and natural way these things are meant to be consumed. Seeds are to be eaten and not to be raped by different kind of chemicals. That is why DMT is also so weird, in that it acts way too fast and has no guidance whatsoever.

We talk alot about how free will does not exist, and cannot grasp it remaining in the ape/monkey mind. But over time we have glimpses of god and realize that its all god and we dont exist and that ll our suffering was also due to the will of god. But how extreme is suicide? What does it imply in terms of gods will? Is it god wanting to experience such an extreme state of darkness and desperation that he ultimately kill himself? So why do all religions judge suicide then? It seems paradox under these premises, what could suicide significantly show in terms of gods will, in terms of human free will (where ultimately the human doesnt exist and god does) ?

Sure but how would you answer the question then? Do you agree that it is confusing, of course I am god but havent the insights told us that an individual human will nevertheless does not exist and it is all gods will? Thats what I have learned so far, which doesnt mean I am not god (allthough you might think I am still confused). But it means that I as a human only am performing whatever my highest conscious self wants to and that I will never figure out how consciously it unfolds step by step I just perform according to thoughts, Impulses, conditioning. .. And so on. If I am conscious enough through lots of training I manage to supress thoughts and mostly be and witness and remain in bliss. Then there are people that are highly unconscious but still perform according to their/my/our highest self who still makes the decisions with utmost intelligence, do you agree? So how does suicide fit into that highest conscious intelligent decision performing? Its a really old curiosity which could be interesting to dissolve, because it seems paradoxical that we have no individual free will but still when it comes to suicide suddenly we have it.

This was your first psychedelic and you started with 8 seeds damn. I know a few psychedelics and first time I did baby woodrose I used three and it was amazing and difficult as well. Two to three seeds already are great I prefer two also. Baby woodrose is damb nice once yiu are aquainted with it. It is actually smooth but the nausea increases the more seeds you take and the nausea is quite a confusing state

Hey people of the good, Can sb supoort me and telling me advices on how to do self inquiry? I have tried it these ways so far: Asking "Who am I" , and then just remain silent and wait for something to happen. Asking "where does my next thought come from" (from the book quantum healing) and then observe the silence in between the thoughts And asking "who is aware of these thoughts" (that I an thinking right now) and then also observing the silence that comes afterwards. So far i keep trying but I imagine that these methods all lead to awakening, in the search of the dreamer of this dream, and probably awakening is like really waking up. Do you have more and better advices?

Thank you Ill view it now

Wow interesting. What do you exactly mean by random destiny? If makes a real good title for a book, but how would you summarize the book?

Lets talk about destiny. Who is talking about destiny? Well it is your imagination so be kind to yourself and see what you think about it yourself for yourself To what point is the life of one person ruled by destiny, certain experiences god wanted to undergo beforr incarnating? Would the lack of destiny imply randomness in life?

Reality and this story unfold day by day in a magical way and it is all imagined by me, but that makes it so difficult to accept I am god. I imagine it from where? If it is from here and now how can I not manipulate it in any way? I am God deluding myself thinking that I am not God, so would that mean my imagination is the law of attraction delusion factor that unfolds reality? Or is my big and higher self imagining it without itself ever being deluded but being like a father who knows and creates with utmost intelligence? Being god but not having control and not being able to manipulate reality (for the good of course, eradicating illnesses, corruption, inequality) makes it sometimes difficult to accept myself as god. It makes me realize always the trinity which Christianity mentions, that god is the father the son and the holy spirit. So you are the son but there is still the father (that is you too), but the father is in no way deluding itself ever. It is always the pure god awareness which creates without the sons consent. And the son is deluding itself, ultimately all are one, but one is deluded the other isnt. I cant wrap my head around how that works. But who said that god can be explaines? If god could be explained it wouldnt be god Let me give an example to clarify it further: Ill see a very bad shaped sad homless person having reached the bottom of existencd on the street. I look at him and think, okay he is god but he has no clue yet and thats why he is in that shape, or rather he is the son of god and his father (his higher self) wants him to experience this state of homelessness, abandonment and lostness, and no matter how much the homeless man tries, as long as the intelligent father prevents him from elevating he wont be able to elevate, which somehow sounds like destiny. What would be true here? Can the guy ever get out of his state by his personal will?

Are you sure we will never know? How can you be sure? You are intimately god so maybe there is a slight possibility to realize something

I corrected the title, it wasnt meant to say good, but god. Yes indeed my mind is immersed in content but I thought forums are for that hehe. I could sit here still and contemplate a long time also, still it would take a while to respond to fundamental existential questions, maybe I wouldnt even get there. Even with psychedelics I cant seemto figure out these fundamental questions about the nature of why and how. This forum is a good hub to clarify a few things and then relieve the mind that way from more unnecessary questions. Like that thing with the homeless I asked. Obviously when you realize oneness and become spiritual, people at the bottom of society do care you infinitely more and it would be interesting to find out why they are in the state they are, that wont change there state but it is important to backgroundly know why and how.

Lets reveal it here guys. Not keeping it a secret. Its time that people all wake up and we live in a totally dreamy world all together in peace. We can start it through the community here. I am sure not all the psychedelics are known to man and some here on The forum might keep it as a secret, but open you hearts and reveal it. This community should start giving the first shot out there to make earth a beautiful place for every living being. 5 Meo is not necessarily gentle not long lasting Id suppose and DPT is research chemical, how is there not a natural alternative? We should somewhere start to live in an earth without corruption, wars and illnesses and hopefully transform from being an animal into pure light while still living in duality

Ramana Maharshi says every single movement in life is predetermined, However as read many posts here on the forum, some dont agree with this notion. I had an LSA esperience yesterday where I had an insight that it was planned to go through all the struggles in life up to this point of accepting god as the ultimate doer of everything and only this point of life would change turn things around (I had a rough life and am recovering finally which is only due to acceptance of god) That did confuse me though, as I felt that there was no other way to reach this point of turn in life (which is to accept god finally and leave the past struggles behind as lessons to grow personally) There is no free will, everything happens in the now but still there is no predetermination (which Ramana Maharshi states otherwise). I know there is no intellectual way to figure this out but the insights that other people had may help to answer this question. So what actually in life IS preplanned? Like some destined lifestruggles (losing your wife/husband/or any member of the family to death), losing your house and all your life in a hurricane. I mean did consciousness plan on letting some special strugglepoints in life happen in certain phases of your life? Still god is the ultimate intelligent actor and some nasty games that happen to people do seem unexplainable if god did not want it to happen (which is gid experiencing it itself) , what else could describe life? Otherwise it would seem that there indeed is free will and you are totally responsible for whatever happens and need to get by the best you can, that could be anything, from being imprisoned for years innocently, becoming mentally severely ill and braindamaged and thus becoming socially completely isolated, losing dear people to death, homelessness, drug addiction and so on and so forth. There are infinite struggles that one could endure that are only in order for god to experience such a state of being, but my insight told me that it was planned to be so and not arbitrarily.

Maybe its not only due to cause and effect, but god is playing out some special story, and it would be interesting to know the mechanism at least somehow. Surrender to whatever happens and be witness is gold but up until to the point of surrender, did everything happen according to a preplanned decision before birth of each one? If I become homeless or mentally ill in 2020 and am still stuck in ego separatism and have not realized the nature of god yet. Was that occuring already part of the destinyplan before birth? Destiny means some certain turning points happen at certain phases in life. Determinism would mean that everything was preplanned but thats not my question. The absence of free will and the absence of determinism is the confusing part, because how do things unfold then? There seems to be that missing something in between no free will and no determinism, which I would guess is that certain turning points where already decided before birth and god wantes to experience mental illness or homelessness in that particular human character of his. Replace mental illness with whatever life-changing experience. Also how can we dismiss the opinion of the great Ramana Maharshi who said that indeed every single movement in our life was predetermined already, was he totally wrong? Why do the insights counter each other so much?

Yes indeed. Still isn't the entirety of all human thoughts and all animal thoughts that what ultimately creates and makes reality unfold by the imagination of all together? When we sum up that 0. 000000...1 percentage for everybody and everything wouldn't it somewhen reach 100%? Or is it the contrary that the one big you is imagining even our thoughts and we remain out of grasp for that imagination until we awaken and integrate the awakening?

But it is imagined in a way that the human self cannot grasp ever true? An awakening is needed. Or is it the imagination that occurs constantly according to the law of attraction of each human self and is actually decided through our thoughts?

As I have observed so far, the most common way is to ask who is aware of the thoughts and desires coming up and finally you find out that noone and nothing is aware and therefore there is no doer and no free will. Is it like this though? Also what else can be done to come the conclusion that we dont act on a free will but are merely experiencing being in a magical and mysterious way that god and this nothingness is directing for everybody and everythibg

What the link to the video?

What are practical ways of opening your third eye? It is probably a beautiful step in advancing ones own spirituality and being connected to the spirit world.

I think its like this, when you talk to another human, you actually talk to someone, even it is you but he has messages for you (so you have messages for yourself) He/you can tell and teach you like everybody is a teacher all here for you to evolve as a human. Mediums talking to spirits is probably the same just that they dont communicate with other humans but with spirits that are intelligent somewhere in an ascended reality there in order to help humans on earth evolve.

Absolute infinity is really big to comprehend. Would it mean that right now there are parallel stories happening that are most similar to our but with small varying details? That instead of me schahin writing on this forum, in another parallel reality id be going to the bakery now or even I write this here but with different texts, but still where I live and the human I pretend to be. Does this make sense? Is the story we are going through rather unique or is it an inifitesimal part of inifinite similar stories with the the smilar human beings in their respective cities and houses we live in just that in every infinitesimal part the little details keep varying until infinity. Like now here I decide to search for a job, but in another parallel exactly similar story I dont, and instead go traveling, or I decide to shave my beard now and in a parallel exactly similar story I don't and let it grow. Or maybe in a parallel reality our mathematics are different and so forth there are all kinds of varied mathematics in exactly a copied version of human life on earth in 2019 I hope you get what I mean. Is our story unique right now and not happening similarly elsewhere in infinite consciousness, or does absolute really mean all and completely all possibilities are happening right now to the infinity without a tiny exception in its details

@Serotoninluv Hmm I actually found it very complex what you just wrote there and think I need to reread it in order to understand what you meant. With right now I mean the absolute now the eternal now. We know that being is pure consciousness always in the eternal now. So that would basically mean that everything and all possibilities are "dreamt" up by god in this exact moment. We in this "flesh" just can perceive certain happenings/dreamings from certain perspectives. That "our" dream right here is has no happenings occuring at random was already discussed in a few other threads posts and including in Leos infinite intelligence communication post. But that still is weird, because if nothing happens at random it seems like we as god are dreaming up something quite "special" within infinite consciousness in this absolute now. But absolute at the same time means that every possibility even my "avatar" writing a slightly different text (in a parallel reality in this absolute now which we cannot receive) or let it be that I dont even write a text but go for a swim in that parallel reality or let it be infinitely other things. Therefore the non randomness is not valid anymore because absolutely every possibility is being dreamt up by god exactly now as it is infinite consciousness being conscious of absolutely everything and our "special" dream stops being special and indeed becomes just an infinitesimal random part of the whole. I am confused with this idea. Dont know what it means that it is a duality idea, it is something that actually must have an answer do you agree?

Let's say the same thing without other. I was just insinuating to world we cannot perceive as from the point of view of our flesh, when you wake up in the morning you see the same world you have been seeing for years, so other possibility means are there similar stories, worlds harrowing with sight variations. But yes let's omit the "other " in the title. Anyway I am thinking if there are all infinite possibilities happening right now at this moment which very slightly from the story we are able to perceive daily, then there must also be the freedon of will, because it wouldnt make any sense otherwise, as every possibility will happen anyway

That doesn't seem so valid though, because then it reality could be totally random and chaotic. It seems there is more system to it though of dreaming up specific stories

I have had a few LSA trip so far and once saw the holy spirit, which is the I amness everywhere and nowhere. Once had the godfeeling as the son of god. And a few glimpses of the father which always was like subtle messages going throughout me and giving me the truth. It has been amazing. What do you think about it? For the record LSA gives you the god feeling without ego transcendence at least in The lower dosages I took so far. Sometimes it also transmits the Christ spirit into you