Schahin

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What happens when you wake up from the dream, will you be able to change the course of your destiny or is enlightenment merely a form of understanding who you are?

I am searching tor myself as god the all. Sometimes I have a few glimpses but it always somehow fades away and when the glimpse comes back it is si fascinating that I am god. This brings me to the question. I am god, but I am obviously asleep and trying to "find" myself, find myself means to discover that I am god. But.. Am I really asleep? If I am asleep how do I create? How do I create constantly all of this beauty? How do I create Coronavirus, nature, the constellation of the planets, birdlife, languages etc? Am I eventually asleep or am I not asleep? It seems that I am asleep because I am obviously not knowing that I am god and searching for myself, but also I am creating somehow in the background of my mind all that is happening. How can I be asleep then?

But how am i actually creating then? Either is not me creating, or i should create everything distorted due to my not awake state and not create absolute perfection and beauty. So sure I am not awake as i am searching for the god mode constantly but simultaneously I theoretically and through some psychedelic glimpses know that I am creating all my surroundings in a perfect way, so how is that possible if I'm not awake, some part of me must be in awake mode

So it's one of those infinite paradoxes. That I am not awake and awake at the same time?

That sounds logic. But how do you answer me being an actige creatoe of reality then? If I am actively creating everything that is happening around me and us, how is it that Im not awake then? How can I be asleep and create everything in a non random perfection?

Sonthe questions is. I am imaging reality in order to have an experience. The experience is about experiencinh something, discovering my infinite consciousness and simply living a life in order to be. But how do I create and imagine reality if I an actually deluded and dont ever reach the conclusion that i am imagining it? Is it a paradox? If yes how can thid paradox be? If god (me) is/am imaging life, then I shouldnt in anyway be deluded because reality is beauty perfection, and intelligence, and this cannot come out of delusion but out of total understanding and complete consciousness

Well said. What do you mean with Black hole remembering part infinite love first

I heard several times that the absolute God consciousness lies in the 12th dimension, which I did not grasp in the beginning nor now really. Basically I imagine everything but am totally unaware of this, so My actual absolute awareness that is aware of it is beyond the 3 dimensions and goes up to the 12th from where I create everything and everybody. Is that how I can grasp the idea to some extent?

So God always is and was pure Perfection, infinite intelligence and absoluteness. But why and how can existence and God actually be and not not be?? Can this question be actually answered or discovered? There is no one there to even answer it, except that it always is. But what about the Buddhism Nirvana and the entering into non-existence and thus a definite stop of being?

I am God. I created myself, with all the little perfect details, and not only that, but I am doing it right now, constantly. Nothing is real, I am just imagining all of this beauty right now in perfection, like the greatest artist of all time. Why is it so hard to accept and understand this? If I am imagining this perfect perfection right now, how am I absolutely not conscious of it. Something is wrong in this equation.

Is it like a the holy trinity Father/son relationship? Where Father and son are actually both one both me. But still I can only experience it as the deluded son, while the father god, whom is me too, consciously imagines everything totally awake and from the standpoint of truth? And I therefore, not knowing how, obtain the position of the son of God? You know what I mean? Basically it's all me imagining it, but as I don't understand how, therefore reality obtains the form of the holy trinity.

I am interested to talk about the various effects of various psychedelics. Excluding 5 Meo Dmt because that is simply too strong to be interesting for myself right now. The most amazing trips I had on HBWR, where many concepts that are being talked here on the forum were revealed to me. For example that I am everywhere, that I am in my own consciousness, ghat I am hod and all that with no ego dissolution. I'd be happy to know which other psychedelic reveals to you this intimate sense of everybody being just you imagining them and being you, I had one mushroom, one LSD, and two Ayahuasca experiences before and strangely, none of them made me realise this. Another explanation would also be the massive theoretical foundation received in this forum which opened the experiences to understand and be conscious of oneness and the subsequent use of HBWR, never tried anything else ever since.

Id be glad to hear some opinions about this. I am wanting to work more on psychedelics and reach for transformation and transcendencd. I remember my first psychedelic was ayahuasca and it was beautiful and extremely scary at once. Also it has a dreamy nature to it, of course with an intense amoubt of visuals and jungle vibration accompanied. Thats why I wonder if it can actually delude someone even more into ego games, due to its playable nature it possesses and cause it works on the third eye. On my one and only Bufo Allvarius ride I had a terrible experience and did not breakthrough but nonetheless I felt much more purer afterwards and rid of unnecessary thoughts. Ayahusca actually made me dream more and I remember the trip is always accompanied by the feeling of not understanding anything. As I am not ready for another Bufo session, here Id like to find opinions on the benefits of ayahuasca and another psychedelics for example Peyote or San Pedro. What are the benefits and maybe even disadvantages of Ayahuasca and Peyote regarding, transcendence, transformation and understanding/enlightenment.

Wow ok, had you experiences with other psychedelics. How can you relate it difference and effect wise? Does it bring you closer to truth/enlightenment? I find it funny how ayahuasqueiros have different opinions on reincarnation and all and 5 Meo experienced people dont believe in reincarnation at all.

This question needs to be answered for mr once and for all. The reason being that I regularly visit psychiatric institutions due to a family member and I see the most disgusting things being done to human beings there. Being locked in a small white room for several days and being completely ignored or bound to a chair for weeks with no end. These institutions are also mostly worse than prisons in that they are totally small, tight and sometimes not even with a garden to go outside and breathe so that the ill remain days or weeks without breathing fresh air and moving up and down a corridor. I know from theoretical pick up here and some personal experience that our mind is an illusion, there is only one, and that one is highly intelligent. But seeing these scenarios and cruelties its difficult to accept that god is in control of absolutely everything, in some things it just seems that god is truely sleeping and suffering (of course he is, what I mean here is, that some scenarios resemble that there is not the highest of intelligence at work nit rather an asleep forgotten intelligence). What opinions do you have regarding infinite intelligence always working with the highest of intelligence?

I have reported it so many times already. It is totally useless as society is to afraid of the mentally ill and the doctors mostly too cold hearted already. it is the one place where human rights can be abused freely and I mean really it depends all on the doctor, some like to chain up constantly and ignore and mistreat the patients and just very few have a good heart. In these places it is absolutely tragic what happens to the people, it is total violence and ignorance sometimes, I have seen it for my own eyes for 15 years now. That is why God's (or my doing and will) is so difficult for me to understand and transcendence has happened only slowly. Its just that last time I realized that those people that regularly torture the mentally ill are actually me, and I couldnt and didnt want to accept it, it was a total shock and It didnt turn out a beautiful trip. Thats why I keep asking these questions here on the forum because tripping has been very difficult to me with too much in my mind. But Id be happy to receive beautiful insights in order to be able to accept more of what I regularlt witness and cant do anything about. Probably most of us here have experienced a bad trip and panick attacks and imagine being chained to a chair or thrown into an empty white room for days for this mental confusion, or sometimes the doctors just do it jist out of intuition when somebody refuses to take medications also as a form of forcing the person to obey. I have seen the most horrible things. Then I always say to myself that Gods plan is incomprehensible to my human butterfly thinking. But then I remember that I am god and I become shocked at how and why I imagine that kind of retarded unnecessary unimaginable suffering, that is why I come here to ask and find an answer for acceptance

Because you are me and if you tell me that you had the insight we create from a non dual awaken point of view and with highest intelligence, Id be relieved to know that those porr people there dont suffer because they are asleep but actually because thats what they want. I hope that makes sense

Indeed, subject and object does not have to dissolve in order for you to realize that you are everywhere. I simply had this realization that I am everything and everywhere without reality collapsing into non duality. You just become conscious that you are everything but you still are in your particular body point of view. Nonetheless how is your Opinion to what I wrote before that god (I) actually am not asleep at all and always awaken and create with the highest intelligence every single moment

I had god realizations and I am everywhere realizations but not non duality in itself where subject and object merge. So if non duality is the only real reality then that would mean that God isn't ever asleep actually and that God (l) is indeed in control of everything from a totally awaken point of view. What's your opinion? I don't overthink it really but some things just make me think deeply of it is indeed the highest of intelligence meaning those poor people Go through so much incredible terrible things, a simple truth answer would help greatly to simply accept everything as gods intelligent doing, which is oddly my own intelligent doing, which bugs cause if I create that suffering Id really like to awaken and try help my brothers or myselves there

Id still like to have a definitive answer on the original questions. Basically I am god I know that still I cannot grasp how I possibly am imagining such atrocities, help me out on this. Only answer would be that the non dual god that I am isnt asleep at all and is creating with greatest consciousness and intelligence including all kinds of atrocities observable by its/my individual characters which reside in the illusion of duality. I am aware that I am God, but creation must Happen from a non dual point of view and here is where I'd like to know if that is constantly in highly intelligent control or is god certainly a sleep and not always creating consciously and therefore such extreme miseries happen?

I know there is no external God and at the same time I can't grasp how I am producing these scenarios. Obviously the God I think I am either oroduces it unconsciously or with high intelligence

I dont know, I assure you trillion percent I dont do it on purpose.mostly I feel like a human but I already know that I imagine all of reality but how, if I feel like I am only a human? It can only be that this "I" is not asleep at all but awake at all times working from a non dual position. What do you say?

That is still somehow a huge pradoxical question though. It is me imagining all of this entire incredible reality but at the same time it isnt cause I am not immensely conscious yet to have such willpower. How can I imagine it but not be absoluteky sure of how I imagine it. Is it that the non dual god me is working consciously somewhere in the background?

I once asked an experienced 5 Meo DMT facilitator if everything happens for a reason and the individual has no free will for anything and he (M. BALLS) Said that tge opposite is true that nothing happens for a reason and there is free will. What are some of the opinions here? I had some experiences which showed me slightly the state of no-self and the union under god, so it made me realize that there isnt anything I could ever decide. Still after a while I somehow discard that notion because if God is asleep then how can my actions be highly intelligent and highly conscious and therefore nothing happens fot a reason, only if I as god was totally awake then ever could everything happen for a reason. I tried to convince myself that indeed I have the total power to change whatever I want, especially having realized that I AM the only "thing" that actually exists here therefore I even more have the responsibility and power to change anything and the responsibility to awaken in order to act more consciously and lovingly. But dors the decision of awakening even lie ib my hands if I am a nonexisting avatar? What about that statement of M. Balls and the general belief of mankind tht god passed on free will to the humans. Is a transformative experience and a god realization even the choice of myself? When I realize I am god that is supposedy an accidental step where I took a psychedelic and woke up, but saying it is divine intelligence that planned it for me wouldnt that make divine intelligence (me) having always been awoke and not ever asleep because a sleepy god cant plan with utmost intelligence? How did I plan this for myself then when I am still asleep?