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Nice to see your post! Didn't read everything, but I can relate with your passions. A big passion of mine is healing and experiencing deeper states of consciousness, but also really love music. Now after reading and contemplating my perspective on music changed, and I can see how music (or just sounds) are related to how you feel and just how life works. When my perspective on music change, I felt really excited about using music, composing my music in such a way to elevate one's consciousness or to touch places in people's consciousness to trigger healing. It's nice that when you follow your passions and then in retrospect you look back and see how things can magically seem to come together in a pleasantly unexpected and exciting way. Much luck to you, and would like to see some of your work if you'll get busy on it :-)

Just follow the trail of what feels good for you to do in your now moments buddy, that's what I do anyway

@ivankiss Just felt like sharing it: I've more often been reading your replies in a thread, and as far as I've seen, they are pretty much always intelligent, thoughtful and friendly replies to another. I really dig that.

Sure I can relate, I was a little surprised that that only just clicked for you. I often felt, especially when growing up, being 'inferior' or 'not a real man' or whatever. Because I was softer, quieter and perhaps more shy than many people my age, and lots of people were much louder and more boastful. Someone who is more sensitive just might up feeling inferior in a world that has just a bigger ego. Because in their minds/games, you aren't quite 'up with them', but their games are just not really resonating with you. I also never really listen to words, even in a song, I often have no idea what someone is singing about, I just am hanging in the energy or emotion of the music. That was sure hard in school for me lol, when the teacher would be just trying to run to all her material non-stop, I would be pretty much always zoned out, or just sorta staring at the teacher. Looking at his movements or whatever. Lately I'm owning my nature more, even if it is contrary to what is normal or expected. It feels much better, more ease, flowing, comfort.

Personally I would just take the one that attracts you more

Every location has a specific unique frequency. From what I understand they just sort of blast their ship with the frequency of any particular location and then their ship appears there

I feel excitement for writing this post. I've already talked numerous times about acting on your excitement, which is a principle I heard more often, but only took on when hearing it explained by Bashar. I've recommended this to numerous people. However, I know that I often misunderstood what this meant, and thought at times that acting out of anxiety was excitement, and highly suspect a lot of people who hear the suggestion will too. I'll therefore give my own still rather fresh insights about it, and also use Abraham Hicks' suggestion of the path of least resistance, which according to her is the same as the path of most allowance (excitement). Excitement here can be used synonymous with feelings as bliss, joy, love. You could subsitute it for things such as passion or attraction too, but excitement/joy seems to be a higher frequency, which is preferable when available. I'll sometimes use the word bliss instead of excitement, in order to lower the chance that you might mistake the tendency of acting out of anxiety to be coming from excitement. In acting out of anxiety, what you want feels 'out there' and it's like you're trying to get it. You'll feel an unrest and perhaps have a feeling or thought of 'I'm going to get this/work to it/grab it'. It could even feel like some sorta fear is there, something like 'oh please let me have it, give it to me'. There will be dense sensations in your body, like your chest and perhaps it feels like your belly is sort of clenched inwards. What you want is out there, and you are trying to get it from the place of feeling not having it. Likewise, trying to fill up a hole inside yourself is basically the same, like looking for a partner/pizza/whatever to complete you/make you happy/fill you up with love or some other feeling. That's not what I'm suggesting in this post. You can watch TV because you're really excited about a movie, which is great, but you can also do it to try to fill you up with some feeling, which isn't the same. In acting out of bliss/excitement, it's like you're coming from your bliss, acting quite literally out of your bliss and excitement. The excitement doesn't feel thrown outside, it's right here and you're acting from that place, you're in that space, coming from that energy and perhaps feel almost a bit magnetized to do something. It's like you'll feel 'light footed' to do something. It can feel like you really want to do something, because you'll be in the bliss of the acting itself. If you remember being a kid going on holiday, you might have felt excited and just sorta happy like you're already enjoying the thing of it. You can also have this for example in meditation when you're in that passion of that meditative state, in that energy. Or, sometimes I can play guitar, just for the feeling of bliss that it gives. Excitement according to Bashar can also for example be a peaceful knowing. Why choosing to act from your excitement and not anxiety? As I understand it, you get what you chose. If you chose to go with acting from for anxiety, you'll choose a life in which what you want is outside of you, and you have to struggle to get it. Life will support you in this and give you more things to act out of from anxiety. If you act out of your bliss, you'll choose that reality and life will be supporting of that. You'll be getting more blissful/exciting things for you to act on. In anxiety what you want is away, in bliss it's like you're in it, in the presence of it, in the bliss of it. In this way, life will thus support you in your bliss, and thus support (such as finances if required) will come to you in order for you to keep acting on your bliss. As Bashar suggest, your higher mind guides you with your excitement. If you don't look of what you're going to do from the lens of anxiety (like what can I get) but from the lens of what would be exciting/blissful/joyous/etc to do, you might find things that resonate in various degrees, like a sort of magnetism, this sense of bliss or excitement. The thing with the highest excitement is like a communication from your higher mind 'do this, this is the fastest path, here it is' and in this way your bliss will guide you. It might not seem like it's the straightest path to your mind, but this doesn't matter, as the physical mind doesn't know, nor needs to know how things will work out, that's the higher mind's job. The higher mind according to Bashar could be said to sorta layout the fastest route for you, that's avoiding all the obstacles that you would encounter when acting on lower frequencies (like anxiety), it will give you a way that navigates around your limiting beliefs. In many spiritual practices or teachings, people will say their way is the shortest, straightest path. But when you do it, you find it a lot of struggle and eventually might stop it. This is because the teaching or practice isn't in alignment with you and therefore actually not the fastest path, your excitement, the higher mind's route however, is. So act on the most blissful/exciting/joyful/attractive option and if you've acted on it and can't act on it no more, look at the next option that is most blissful, and of you go. Alternatively, the route of least resistance might be easier to understand for some people. It is actually the same thing, just look at the option that feels best, that makes you feel best. If you're in a down state, maybe you don't see much exciting options to act on, but you do find an option that feels 'ok', and then that would be the best thing to do. According to Abraham, you attract to your own energies, or at least things that are in the vicinity of that. So when you feel something is now 'ok' instead of 'dreadful', you'll and be in a higher state in which it might be easier to see even higher options, but will also get more things back from life that feel more 'ok' for you to act on. Therefore, you'll have less resistance and will then rise in energy, and therefore, more higher options present themselves to you. And up you go the emotional ladder and thereby attracting all the things you want and make you feel blissful, such as the partner that perfectly matches your own highest state. Nothing to get, but only to get yourself to feel better and letting all that thus makes you feel good, come to you, money, career options, partner, etc.

I love this video, and have shared it multiple times. It hooks in exactly on your dilemma in approximately the first two minutes.

About perhaps one to two years ago I came across a website (omna.org) that had an attractive quality for me. On this website Natalie channels various advanced beings. These beings in many messages offer their services, which you can ask for daily. I've been doing this for some time and I think it's great. For example, I like to flow Christ Consciousness or love through me daily, it can make for quite a pleasant and nice experience if you do this for even various minutes. You can also do it while walking. I sometimes even do it when people are talking to me, they think I'm listening, but I'm actually listening very little and more so staying in my own space where I am flowing the light through me. There are many lights and assistance you can invoke or call open, and you can find them on the website. I'll just list a few underneath. Also, in meditation I got an idea to make transmission videos of these lights, which held some excitement for me, so I might start uploading those in the coming one or two weeks. Some examples which I like in which you can invoke lights or energies and where you can ask for assistance: Anchoring Christ Consciousness: https://omna.org/lord-maitreya-in-the-spiritual-hierarchy/ Anchoring Love: https://omna.org/archangel-christine-anchoring-love-in-your-being/ Anchoring the light of the Arcturians: https://omna.org/message-from-the-arcturians/ More on: https://omna.org/all-channeled-messages-in-date/ Would be happy to see reactions of those who decide to try.

@Forestluv But Bashar doesn't say that if you have something like 'okay let me now try to get to this state which I got in when I took 500ug LSD' you will be able to do so. He says if you KNOW that you were cause of the effect, you were the permission slip all along, you did it already all this time yourself, than you can. He talks about knowing you can do it. Knowing is a very different matter than having a weak ass sorta hope or belief that you can do it.

IIRC Bashar mentioned that if you have an excitement to share/sell/whatever something, there are always people that are interested in it, that's the only way it can be

No it's not. TV, youtube, fried food, pizza, etc are ways of trying to fill up a hole in yourself, that's very different than finding ways that make you feel good and whole. In the first you're trying to get to the answer, in the second you're being the answer

I have a thought that maybe you think you aren't improving, but actually are. I immediately thought of a musician named Ralph Mctell who I recently heard say that he has lots of people learning guitar that tell him they ain't improving. He then asks them to turn their guitar around and play with the other hand. Then they realize how much they actually have learned. If it is your thought that you aren't getting better, perhaps listen to a song you made some time ago, and see if you actually haven't improved? If you are getting better, it also takes a better quality of your production for you to get satisfied. So you not getting satisfied perhaps also can be seen as you developing in your music. I don't see it possible for you not improving. And if it's your passion, then I think you're doing the exact right thing you should be doing. And obviously if something is your passion, it is an expression of who you are, and of course if something is an expression of what you are, it must come naturally to you, so how couldn't you be good/talented at it?

It's not too radical. From how I understand it, if you don't feel like doing it, it's not for you to do (now). Maybe you feel like doing it at a later time or maybe it's just not representative of who you are. You only have to ask yourself ever 'What would I like/love doing most now?' and do that and live like that. However, if you've been doing different in the past, and are because of that now having for example a job you don't like, and believe that if you quit it you will become homeless, then keep doing it for some time until you feel safe to only act on your passion/enthusiasm. https://bashar.org/handouts/TheFormula.pdf

That's good to hear:)

A suggestion I got from Conversations with God when someone judges you (I thought might apply to your case too): "if someone judges you, see if their judgement is something you are having about yourself or if there is something in you that could use that friction". Wanted to share, as I found it a little gem:)

I liked a piece in the book Conversations with God on that. It said something like: "a lot of people don't trust their experience. Isn't it great though if you have lots of money, doesn't that feel great? Why don't you stick to your experience"

Well perhaps when Abraham talks about vibration she talks about the zero dimensional thing that is in form/vibrating. Maybe Rupert would say, what is it that is vibrating? It's the zero dimensional thing. So then, Rupert talks about the vibration when it's not vibrating and calls that the zero dimensional thing, while Abraham talks about it when it's vibrating, and is then form. Just what I think when seeing your question

How about doing 75 days of just doing what attracts/excites you most every moment of the day? 75 days of only saying yes to things that make you feel good. I think you might find that A LOT more valuable, and I just compare that from judging by the title of the '75 hard days' challenge.

Well I would start with perhaps 20-30 minutes, and made the sessions longer and longer. Ended up with doing it often around an hour, sometimes up to an hour and a half. Then it got into really high states. That's why I think music with headphones can be nice, it might allow you to get into a trance more easily which keeps you going. Years ago I made a video of myself doing it, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38CthsJDqUE check out 36 minutes lol, and that session definitely wasn't the one most intense or exorcism like

I wanted to mention https://breathworkonline.com/about-michael-stone/. I don't know if it's common but he uses music too. You can always pay for one session, record the audio, and use the audio from that point on. The music really added something in my experience and could make it more powerful. Not sure about the vibrations. Perhaps they are the results of big amounts of oxygen that reawakening/'aliving' your cells or something. So perhaps you feel these sensations more on places where you used to be more numb or have stuck emotion/tension. When I did breathwork, at times if people would have seen it would have said that I looked like an exorcism, because I could start shaking with my head, arms and legs and my face could make even angry faces, while experientially I would be in a very blissful state. That's how the body released tension

And what if you love and be gentle with the you that feels doomed and hopeless? Love the one that wants a partner to fill up a void because he grew in a society that is very confused? And what if you be gentle with and love the you that feels unworthy, ugly, weak and vulnerable which is kinda a result of growing up in a world as ours? Would you then become the answer to all these problems that so many in this world are struggling with? Then you would be a true walking gift in this world. Does that thought feel good to you?

Loving yourself and being gentle with yourself when you feel bad goes a long way too:-) Take care buddy

Of course, I'm not an expert either, but I would highly expect you to go back to what you consider normal again automatically. Sometimes some part of you wants more than another part, and then it makes sense to me you can get really exhausted afterwards. Perhaps a shower/bath and some relaxing will help?:) Take care buddy

Oh I feel you. In my country my size is only very slightly about the size that is considered normal and I still felt uncomfortable about it. My biggest problem is that I could come very fast, probably partly because I didn't have much experience. I felt very embarrassed for that. I was starting to get intimate with a girl and if she would touch me, I would take her hand off after a while because I didn't want to cum that fast. She was like 'huh, why are you doing that?', and I would later put her hand back on. I did it with a smile and it actually made the situation some sort of funny/interesting between us. I did these things during sex too, and over whatsapp she asked me after a couple times sex why I sometimes stopped her. I told her I can cum quite fast and that I also felt some discomfort about it and that by stopping for a sec and doing something else it would take longer. She told me it was no problem, that she thought it was kinda cute and that we could find ways to make it work. That made me feel much better. Sometimes you're afraid someone will judge or ridicule you, but when you tell them they might respond very sweet. Perhaps you find relief if you tell him about your discomfort with it, if you feel there's a good time for sharing that. Just wanted to share with the thought you might find some comfort in that <3