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That's good to hear:)

A suggestion I got from Conversations with God when someone judges you (I thought might apply to your case too): "if someone judges you, see if their judgement is something you are having about yourself or if there is something in you that could use that friction". Wanted to share, as I found it a little gem:)

I liked a piece in the book Conversations with God on that. It said something like: "a lot of people don't trust their experience. Isn't it great though if you have lots of money, doesn't that feel great? Why don't you stick to your experience"

Well perhaps when Abraham talks about vibration she talks about the zero dimensional thing that is in form/vibrating. Maybe Rupert would say, what is it that is vibrating? It's the zero dimensional thing. So then, Rupert talks about the vibration when it's not vibrating and calls that the zero dimensional thing, while Abraham talks about it when it's vibrating, and is then form. Just what I think when seeing your question

How about doing 75 days of just doing what attracts/excites you most every moment of the day? 75 days of only saying yes to things that make you feel good. I think you might find that A LOT more valuable, and I just compare that from judging by the title of the '75 hard days' challenge.

Well I would start with perhaps 20-30 minutes, and made the sessions longer and longer. Ended up with doing it often around an hour, sometimes up to an hour and a half. Then it got into really high states. That's why I think music with headphones can be nice, it might allow you to get into a trance more easily which keeps you going. Years ago I made a video of myself doing it, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38CthsJDqUE check out 36 minutes lol, and that session definitely wasn't the one most intense or exorcism like

I wanted to mention https://breathworkonline.com/about-michael-stone/. I don't know if it's common but he uses music too. You can always pay for one session, record the audio, and use the audio from that point on. The music really added something in my experience and could make it more powerful. Not sure about the vibrations. Perhaps they are the results of big amounts of oxygen that reawakening/'aliving' your cells or something. So perhaps you feel these sensations more on places where you used to be more numb or have stuck emotion/tension. When I did breathwork, at times if people would have seen it would have said that I looked like an exorcism, because I could start shaking with my head, arms and legs and my face could make even angry faces, while experientially I would be in a very blissful state. That's how the body released tension

And what if you love and be gentle with the you that feels doomed and hopeless? Love the one that wants a partner to fill up a void because he grew in a society that is very confused? And what if you be gentle with and love the you that feels unworthy, ugly, weak and vulnerable which is kinda a result of growing up in a world as ours? Would you then become the answer to all these problems that so many in this world are struggling with? Then you would be a true walking gift in this world. Does that thought feel good to you?

Loving yourself and being gentle with yourself when you feel bad goes a long way too:-) Take care buddy

Of course, I'm not an expert either, but I would highly expect you to go back to what you consider normal again automatically. Sometimes some part of you wants more than another part, and then it makes sense to me you can get really exhausted afterwards. Perhaps a shower/bath and some relaxing will help?:) Take care buddy

Oh I feel you. In my country my size is only very slightly about the size that is considered normal and I still felt uncomfortable about it. My biggest problem is that I could come very fast, probably partly because I didn't have much experience. I felt very embarrassed for that. I was starting to get intimate with a girl and if she would touch me, I would take her hand off after a while because I didn't want to cum that fast. She was like 'huh, why are you doing that?', and I would later put her hand back on. I did it with a smile and it actually made the situation some sort of funny/interesting between us. I did these things during sex too, and over whatsapp she asked me after a couple times sex why I sometimes stopped her. I told her I can cum quite fast and that I also felt some discomfort about it and that by stopping for a sec and doing something else it would take longer. She told me it was no problem, that she thought it was kinda cute and that we could find ways to make it work. That made me feel much better. Sometimes you're afraid someone will judge or ridicule you, but when you tell them they might respond very sweet. Perhaps you find relief if you tell him about your discomfort with it, if you feel there's a good time for sharing that. Just wanted to share with the thought you might find some comfort in that <3

That's not up to you and none of your business. Letting go and relaxing is, and letting life take care of you, is

Touched me too, thank you buddy <3

I would say you don't have to do anything you don't want to, but just needing to do what makes you feel good. Let go and let life bring you what you want/need, just do things that feel good so you're in an allowing state for it to be able to come.

your life purpose is being fulfilled when you follow your attraction/joy

It's fine, just chose to do what attracts you instead in the moment. Don't act out of anxiety, that's a common motivation. Just think what the thing is right now that you feel most attracted to doing and do that, and live like that. Could be taking a walk, calling someone, reading something, playing a song, making a song, blahblah.

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Perhaps you feel inferior because you want to be more like others but aren't. For example, if you're more of a quite person and you're at a party and lots of extrovert and loud people make a lot of fuss, you could look at that and be like 'Oh, I'm not like that, I can't do that', whatever. I would just follow what attracts you, follow what feels most like you in every moment, and I think you might just end up in the place you would wish to be most

My thoughts on it: If you want to align with your soul, stop acting on what you think you should do, like working on yourself, discipline, etc. Stop all of that, ditch all your thoughts and ideas and just look to what you feel most like doing now. It may sound lazy to lots of people, but it's the way to go. Maybe you just feel most like just sitting, having a drink, taking a walk. Be easy, relaxed. Let go of anxious drives of figuring things out and how you lost 'the flow'. Do what feels best, what attracts you

I myself don't do discipline in the way you describe and think you might be much better off by taking your how you feel as your guidance system. If you don't feel like doing something, don't do it and see what is it that you could do that attracts you most/makes you feel best. That's what I do, based on the suggestions of Bashar and Abraham Hicks, and don't want it another way. What a relief I felt when I started doing is: 'wow, I can do what attracts me and this approach will get me to the place I need to be?'.

Just follow your attraction/joy and ditch all your thoughts about what you think you should do

Yea, I understand. Years ago I was much more tryhard, trying to read and understand all sort of things. Even if I didn't feel like doing that so much in the moment, sometimes I would push myself to do something in order to get something. A lot of that, needless to say, wasn't really coming from a relaxed or joyous place. If you do something with for example anxiety, like a restless energy, what energy are you anchoring within yourself there? Of course more of that restless, tryhard, anxious energy. That's not a very advanced feeling/state. How I see it, whatever you are choosing is what you'll be getting more and more of. If an anxious drive is what you chose, you become more of that and you'll live more in that world. If you look at all you can do now, and choose what option contains most joy, bliss, peace, curiosity, etc, then the more you make that your world. And aren't these feelings of relaxation, well-being, joy, excitement, etc, higher "stage" energies? So I would say that if you want to become the most advanced version of yourself, then especially you would act on the option with the best feeling in it. That can in some moments just be calling up a friend, taking a walk, etc. I would say that if you chose the path that makes you feel best in every moment, you'll end up in the best feeling state. I would relax more, act less from your head and more from what feels best.

My best feeling thought on how to navigate these things: just do what attracts/excites you most

Well, if you look for the ego, you won't find it (as a thing). I think I read in Conversations with God something like "the ego are the ideas you have of yourself", which sounds about right to me

Thank you for your feedback, and you're very welcome:-) Couldn't resist sneaking in a comment on this reply. How I see it, is that I doubt you have a problem with concentration, because how is your concentration when you're doing your passion? I suspect you just didn't give a damn about what they tried to teach you, which I think is very fine.