thesmileyone

Mooji profits off the weak / unstable / lost / just awakened people. Trace the money... He has made millions off lost peoples misery.

I really miss the city I moved from. OK I lived 30 miles from it which is a big deal and something I wouldn't do by choice again. But for some reason I loved this city. It is friday so I unashamedly this time (thanks peoples) consumed a whole bottle of yummy wine. I am drunk AF (and still able to type, I laugh at people who pretend they cannot) and I REALLY miss the city I now live 400 miles away from. I don't know why. I had no friends there, well I did but in the past. I have no friends here, so there's no difference. Where I live now, there's lots of drug dealers / other criminals, and lots of poor and rich people (literally council house - billionaires within a mile of each other) whereas the old city nearly everyone was poor, a few billionaires FROM there but moved away. Should I take this as a sign to move back? Maybe I will be unhappy everywhere I live? Hmm

My feedback is simple...who is the you that this can happen to?

I think people don't really understand the implication of being immortal. And you are correct about time!

I agree OP. If you don't claim ownership of your experiences, then the ego can't take ownership of your experiences. You have to claim ownership to express the experience. Otherwise who did the experience occur to therefore did the experience happen if there was no one for it to happen to? However I find it works in cycles. I will have a few weeks of hard internal work then a few weeks "off" and in that downtime I find talking about the experiences on a place like this helps to organize them and settle the mind.

You can choose to say no. To close off. To end up with no friends at all. Then a few years later, the idea of making any, because you are not used to any, gives you panic attacks. I did this. Would I do it again? (It's been a decade). Yes and no. Yes because it makes you make friends with yourself. No because...it means you have no friends. Are friends important? Do you require friends to live? NOPE. But would I recommend it? NOPE either.

This. Most members are stuck in the I AM so...how can you take advice from them?

Paypal. Stripe (but when people refund, they no longer give you your fees back, Stripe got greedy).

Thanks! It does make me happy at the moment. It's like a disassociative should be. My ego takes a plunge off a cliff whilst drunk. Then comes back when i sober up. I do stuff for people, donate monies I wouldn't usually, express my love without fear of looking bad, when drunk, that my ego won't allow when in control. I try telling people this and they say that's dillusion because their experience says otherwise. but for me, it's the ultimate ego death. Furthermore, lately, it's been rough to live. headaches, anxiety, old trauma being cleared out. Not the only person to experience this over the last 4 days. It's nice to step away from all that for a few hours.

I hungout with real buddhists for some time. They kept telling me that my experiences, my siddhis, my intuition and my methods (selfenquiry) were all either moot or pointless...because I was not in my 60's or 70's like they were.

How do you know "thoughts" appear from the brain? This is what science tells us. Science has been wrong in the past and they just "change it" to suit new discoveries. If you look at the cells in the body, they look the same when zoomed in as the brain does; just like they look extremely similar to atoms in the Universe. Therefore what makes you think thoughts come from or get interpreted by the brain? According to some buddhist "religions" they come from the spiritual heart, which is on the right in the chest. Mine is on the left. At a point of spiritual advancement, a channel will lead to this spiritual heart...amrita nadi. This is supposedly where thoughts come from. But does it really matter? When you do something and you feel pleasure does it really matter how this pleasure occurs? Or should you, as an individual but linked form of consciousness, not just enjoy this pleasure fully?

No. I should, and have given it some thought, but who wants to look at some fat white male in todays world when white males are shamed and told we should kill ourselves? I am however in the midst of dropping almost 1/3 of my bodyweight, before / after pics, then writing a book about how I leverage spirtual / nondual knowledge/experience to lose weight easily. Then I might start the blog, do a udemy course, basically leverage viewers into income. Or just do it for free if my current business matures in the meantime. Life is too short to be obese and miserable, I want everyone else to feel the same. I also have a few transmission videos where I transmit my state... it works, but...my state changes / advances constantly and it doesn't feel genuine for someone to watch old videos.

More likely that you grounded all the energy in your body into your crown chakra. I prefer watching a hot girl do yoga tbh https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCAA_MvsnLRD94yAiZkiMbyQ/videos

The next time you are in the shower and an amazing idea comes to you. Instead of thinking it through, fucking do it. You might fail, so you just keep doing this. Eventually one of the ideas will make you your million. Why stop there? Following on from a topic in Meditation subforum, all your thoughts aren't private anyway. No one owns an idea, and that idea wasn't thought up by them. Ergo there is no difference between you and Elon Musk or Bill Gates if you assume both of them came up with their own ideas...

Life is chaos. Think of a serene scene of beauty. Like this How placid, gentle, beautiful, right? But go down to a cellular level. Everything you see in that image is actually frantic...chaos. Now what did that famous guy in that famous tv show say? "Chaos is a ladda!" It is a ladder. A ladder to enlightenment. Chaos is a good thing. A tool. You find choas inside via meditation. And you progress slowly up the ladder of Self. Edit: Is time a ladder? Is it not true that you start out enlightened, then people pile conditioning on you over and over, an EGO develops and you get lost in it...then you start meditating or you take a psychedelic and slowly but surely, you dig your way out... until you reach that which you already were, and are, but were living from, in the start? We see time as a calm serene journey from point young to point old. This is incorrect. This is what time really is. Chaotic CHAOS IS A LADDER!

Who is enlightened? The man who chops wood and carries water or the man who pays a man to chop wood and carry water for him?

Thank you, and I appreciate you trying

Well I say humanity as a word to sum up the majority of humans, who live from the ego state.

Yup. I got sucked in deep, and when I left properly it fucked me up for a few months. Actually really fucked up. I had no idea who "I" was, which thoughts / beliefs were mine and not an extension of his/theirs, and I was subsequently lost for months. I even tried to hang myself Luckily for me, that failed. In the end I had to forget everything I had either learned or believed and start back at step 1, which was funnily enough "Who am I?" and here we are. I am however eternally grateful to Rali for making me see I can understand/ do (I have some siddhis) things that can't be explained by the Christianity I was conditioned in as a kid / Science I was conditioned to growing up in education. If I hadn't joined and stayed there I would still be, well, as he calls it "basic"

(I)dentification IS the person. Good realization OP.

I have infinite love for my dog. He is "naughty" sometimes ie barks and shit, still love him. He is supposedly a dog with a bad heart, supposedly only to live until 6...he is 6 now so I make my life about making his life as nice as possible...cuddles, walks etc. That's infinite love to me. Also he is supposedly LOC 800+ according to RASA LOC checkers, so I have helped his soul in ways I cannot express! Lemme find an old pic

I would do it if I could find it, at a reliable source. And if I could vape it preferably. I no longer have a vape system but I am sure I could precure something. But there's problems, some of the UK darkweb sellers are compromised and it's just not worth risking jail time to me. Especially given all my time of natural work on the path, all I am really doing is speeding up the process. Almost every night in my laying meditations before bed I am having "ego deaths" now which are so powerful they scare me.

I think by the time you get to day 6, you will naturally be in a learning state of difference, and psychedelics will complicate it, in a way that you won't find it easy to integrate afterwards. Just 5 days of darkness retreat is enough to trigger mass dmt release in the brain, as is 7 days of vipassana. It's up to you what you do but the problem is that when trying to integrate you won't know which realizations were caused by the external drug vs internally. All vispassana really is, is a method of taking you out of normality into the unknown.

True. But this place is NOT a cult. I have been in one, sadly for myself and others who are still lost. I totally understand your point, but on the flipside there should be a happy middle where you aren't afraid to question the "leader" but you don't make statements like "how deluded Leo is?" on his forum... I'm drunk af right now and the great thing about this is all my conditioning is dropped (conditioning caused by the "Leo is an idiot" conditioning inside the cult I was in) and I can see shit for what it really is. Leo might be "out there" with his expression of Consciousness but importantly...he MEANS well. Calling him deluded is not helpful.

Teal gives me the creeps. I can't shake it... was the same a few years ago when recommended and the same now. Her energy is...wierd AF