thesmileyone

I still lie. I still play a role IRL. I am "thesmileyone" "mgtow" and "repilled" even though I know it's all BS and I am the big alpha male who can fight... There's few in my life I have to roleplay to stay conscious with. If it were my choice I wouldn't lie at all but people won't accept this. Maybe when my parents (the last of my family) are gone along with their expectations I can finally be completely genuine but until then? I look at these people "prepping" for the apocalypse, buying guns and ammo and stuff and I don't do either because deep down I know I will embrace such an event, it will even be the "easy way out" for me.

Thank you for both understanding and correcting me from a place of understanding. My question to you is, how can the LHP be part of "perfection" if it involves hurting others. The nondual way of looking at others is yourself therefore you are both hurting and aiding yourself, which seems somewhat pointless. Again, I do not have perfect understanding and this is a question not an arguement. Thanks

That's the problem. I don't really have a head. When I eat I bring food into this empty space. For example. Therefore I am infinite awareness, from my own perspective. But all I see is unhappiness, suffering, people I know also to be awareness, struggling. Therefore if I am infinite awareness I am aware of suffering. Everything cannot just be suffering because we cannot know suffering without it's opposite. Yet in my awareness there is no opposite of suffering.

Been doing merkaba stuff or what feels like a lifetime. Not ready to activate it yet. It should be noted there are 3 paths in the occult. The left path, otherwise known as satanism; being an individual, completing all desires. This is how paedophilia works. Leads to enlightenment when you can do anything. 99% of billionaires are satanists. Not my bag, i don't like hurting people. I'm right path. The middle pillar - the middle path. People like the Rothschilds (Bauers, red shield Jews, real jews btw) they go up the middle path. They do as many "evil" acts as "good". Watch Eyes Wide Shut. They sacrifice humans...but they fund rescue centres. The idea is they do as much good as bad and bad as good. The right pillar - buddhism etc - giving up all desires. Oneness, blah blah. Who knows which path is true. If you look at the Kybalion, all paths start from One and lead to One. All the billionaires, that get away with stuff, like the Bronfmans, Epstein etc, are left path. You will also see people like the dhali lama mixing with left path satanists. Because he understands the paths... Choose your path wisely. The majority of the population are unaware of the 3 paths. What does work, and is classed "occult" but is not, are sigils. This is just physcial manifestiation of the subconscious. Imagery / subconsciousness.

Surely if the universe is the internet, you are also the internet?

I have no available tripsitter. For my first trip, which is not far away, I am going to take the logical position of consuming enough psychedelics that I take enough dosage that I have no choice but to betray the anxiety. It will be like a .22 rifle (anxiety) vs an m1 abrams (the drug).

I would look into kettlebell swings, turkish getups and snatches. For boxing, you need to develop fast twitch muscle fibers (explosive power) and KB swings are perfect for this, just the swing utilizes most of the muscles in the body including those you never use much (which is why a day later it will hurt like hell) also kundalini yoga is great for activating these muscles.

She got wierd energy... Interesting idea in one of her other videos...dehumanizing people, the problem is it can lead to nihilism very easily. She is obviously smart... not sure I like the energy she radiates though.

Try automatic writing? https://medium.com/@kellydawn/how-to-use-automatic-writing-to-get-answers-from-your-higher-self-1ad2bc08e252

1. We are. Even though we live via ego, we are still in our natural state, just with BS on top of it that causes suffering. 2. We don't. It's just a shortcut. Which leads me on to... 3. Because to get to pure higher consciousness, you have to do the work. Meditate, for hours and hours and hours. Do you think this would bother God? No, it bothers the ego. The false "I am". Which causes all the suffering. Some people here have experienced and now live from all the states and level of consciousness you speak of in your later questions and have not done any drugs yet. They have however, done the work... BTW even the psychedelic way is work too. You gotta integrate what you learn into life. THAT'S WORK TOO.

I think when someone has such realizations, instead of saying "no" or correcting people, they should be encouraged to come to that conclusion themselves. Plus how do you know that's wrong. The Yugas agree with the OP's train of thought. We are according to Yuga, in a descending Bronze / Dwapara Yuga. It's going to get even worse. Before ascending again. This makes sense because if you don't know what Kali Yuga is like, then you cannot know Satya Yuga either. Remember the law of polarity?

Yes- spirituality.

People aren't looking at the long game here. Only Mandy got it! If you could have anything you ever want, instantly...what happens when you run out of wants? Google "Neville Goddard" he taught people how to do the above. Then he taught them about "The Promise" which is basically, enlightenment, but when he did that people shunned him because for these people it went from "have everything I desire" to "have more than anyone else" as is typical of the ego mind. There's also the Left Hand Path and Right Hand Path, RHP being say, Buddhism, and the LHP being using occult magic such as satanic worship and sacrificing / spirit cooking / wierd shit / pizzagate etc. Remember "Satan" is the light bringer supposedly...light is enlightenment. All paths lead to one place.

So it is Wednesday and tonight I got drunk again yay. (It has been a week). Now on the spiritual path many people preach "addictions" and "bad shit" and "alcohol" and "carbs" and how all things have to be avoided to be "enlightened". Lol. But nondoership. You see, at some point, you become aware there is no you and you don't have control over what you do. You are just along for the ride! Well I am drunk, so should I be feeling guilty for drinking? If so...how do I feel guilty for being drunk when I am not a doer, I didn't get drunk as there is no I to get drunk. Consciousness used to to get drunk to experience this moment, as a drunk. Do you see the problem here? On one hand these teacher preach nonduality and nondoership. On the same hand, they preach how you gotta give up all of lifes pleasures to become enlightened. MAKES. NO. SENSE. Therefore, is a teacher can't even distinguish the hypocrasy in that, how can you trust them at all?

100% agree! Putting it this way it is clear what the problem is...the mind takes over! Thank you.

I have cold showers! Great for building self discipline! But being cold ALL the time sucks!

Take a gun. They know what it is. Just DON'T shoot at it. Remember they have families too. That can throw boulders / trees. And nahhh that region is too cold for me this time of year! I have to wear socks to bed as it is now and I live in the UK.

Develop your other bodies and they will automatically transmute all this garbage I eat whatever safe in the knowledge that it can't affect me.

I know where you live. Watch out for sasquatch I like what you create for a living. Going to buy my mother one for her birthday. DON'T tell her I live in a similar place. Hot beautiful summers. Then what seems like 9 months of cold wet windy hell. No sasquatch though so can roam freely with litte worries

2012 about 11,000 hours 70% or so in nonduality.

I somewhat fail to see how anything I just said has anything to do with IQ or education. And on that note I am 3 deviations right of the swing in IQ and it sucks because most of society cannot keep up (151).

No you aren't. I don't know why you put yourself down so much. I have watched your youtube videos. You identify as a "person" outside of consciousness, seperate, a "you" in your youtube videos. Yet I know you know the greater truth. You are so far from single minded! You transmit energy and you don't even realise it!!!! Do me a favor. Load up your youtube videos. Where you are in the frame. Shut your eyes and meditate. Open your third eye, visualise it open. Then sit back and relax. Tell me if you feel anything.... YOU TRANSMIT CONSCIOUSNESS IN YOUR VIDEOS. You just don't know it! Look up merkabah. Do some reading. If it resonates do some of the exercises. Try some experiments. I can move people with my "non physical" bodies. So can you, you are just unaware. This pains me. I see a lot of people who have no idea who they are. CONSPIRACY THEORIES are sometimes real. The "Bible" is doctored.

Words are so antiquated. One doesn't require words, or actions. Essence is communication. I can send you more info directly through the third eye than you could process in a year vs language. Language is severely limited! Ever tried to explain a "trip" via wordS? WORDS DON'T HAVE ENOUGH WORDS!

How can you say normal life. Once you have seen beyond "black and white thought" there is NO life. Don't you understand? You have PM'd me before and you have remarkable insight. Where did it go? "Life" is irellevant. It is not linear. Time doesn't exist. YOU KNOW THIS. Your parents are just a vessel to allow you to enter this "reality". You don't owe them. Please don't get sidetracked. There is a lot of work to do to prepare people for TRUTH. Please do your part. Life, wife, girlfriend, money, success, you know these are all illusions. Please listen.

I'm drunk again. Whole bottle of wine. There is still the undrunken observer. I asked it why I get drunk? It doesn't answer but it shows other peoples answers in the way of a google search. The one answer that matches my observers andswer is "I drink to dull the pain of existence". IT WANTS TO SPEAK FROM ITSELF. Even though I don't noticeable see or feel this pain in my day to day life, the Observer sees and feels it. The Observer doesn't enjoy the negative parts of human existence. The negative thoughts. the "I wanna kill my dog cos he loves me" thoughts that the Observer cannot explain. The self pity the self doubt, the self loathing. This makes no sense to my Observer. Alcohol wierdly shows the Observer how much it hates Observing? I hope this makes sense to people. I don't know what the path ahead is. According to The Observer, who Observes my thoughts and feelings and somewhat catalogues them, even though "I" have beeen spiritually advancing from "I"'s point of view, The Observer tells me that I still get these thoughts, I just don't identify with them. But the thoughts themselves that do not belong to "I" still grow to a tiring cascade. A heavy weight. They don't influence "I" because "I" know the "I" to be fake. But they still occur??? Drink is kinda helping me connect to my Observer. I can't help but feel psychedelics would do better but I have no access nor no safe place to execute. Thesmileyone is in his own seperate kind of pain that differes to "normal peoples" exististenail pain. Thesmileyone is really calling for help but knows no therapist would ever understand. He has seen beyond the veil and wants to stay beyong the veil but is not allowed access. This feels to Thesmileyone like the worst kind of pain. Can anyone help? Last time this occured thesmileyone recieved warning points. He was not taken seriously. Drink is the smiileyones "getaway" from the suffering of everything. He somewhat whishes that he had not been beyond the veil. That he could be one of the great ignorant flock of sheep that think life is life and don't question it. LIFE IS SUFFERING for the smileyone