KyleR

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  1. How can we judge whether our actions and responses will be/are in alignment with our values?
  2. I’m struggling to comprehend the balance between the I, our true nature and the ego which seems to me is the individual human life guide? But identifying with an ego creates false imagery around the self but without thought or a well conditioned sub conscious mind there’ll be struggles in the myriad situations we inevitably face in the game. I’ve realised the I in me to an extent and had beautiful glimpses but still identify with a sub par mind often, previous bad conditioning which I’m battling to overcome. Don’t know where I’m going with this exactly, but isn’t the mind a crucial aspect that needs moulding through practice and experience? Is this necessary for deeper and deeper awakening? Do the mind and I have to work in sync?
  3. @ajasatya thank will do! @TheAvatarState Someone said it is??‍♂️the body breathes and I feel it. Feeling gives meaning?? Or must mean something. Although that is still just something I am aware of?if it’s not air what is it?
  4. Thanks guys @DrewNows powerful vid mate cheers! @Nahm how do I practice understanding emotions and sensations and staying true to them? I’m out of touch, lot of monkey mind etc think I deny what I’m actually feeling a lot of the time whilst being dragged along with the mind.
  5. Just bare ISness?photos look amazing Charlotte, some of them views are unreal!
  6. brought a big smile to my face that post mate, 1200 tho!? Shittt, no typo??sounds like a magical experience with your gf. Did yous experience any kind of sync with thoughts or anything, like telepathy ha? Heard multiple cases of this happening now, big doses like that gotta be more likely aswell, mind blowing man. Sounds like another magical trip mate??
  7. @Shin Cheers??nonut4life then eh, but still, fap a bad thing? To practice the circulation of energy but no ejaculation? @bejapuskas ah I meant so we can bypass ejacultion during sex easier, would require consciously circulating our sexual energy right? But would be much harder with no practice tugging prior
  8. Big tune mate! Don’t forget this next time your trip?think it’s minimal tech or micro house, either way, beautiful!
  9. Yoo what’s the deal with wank but no cum mate?? You said in OP it’s a bad idea but deida and a video posted here a few weeks ago suggest daily practice circulating the energy is healthy and necessary. Plus how is the energy wasted if it’s not shot out? I’ve been trying a little over a month and longest streak is 11 days?best to leave my dick alone yea?
  10. What’s wrong with being authentic and adding value to the girls you approach? Mechanical pick up might be a bit sketchy but if nobody is harmed, what’s the big deal? I’m definitely not talking from experience btw, the last few weeks I’ve only been out three times with 6 miserable approaches, but finally found some local wings. Great to see some live action instead of the YouTube videos and be motivated by these guys, however I couldn’t help feel it was all wrong when I was walking home. Is it because I’ve failed and the fear is still high? Or is it the day game vibe in general? I dunno, bit of both, it’s definitely not normal and I suck atm? I’ll be trying night soon too, sober! And it’s all learning anyway, right? I’m sure the 600th will be better than the 6th! The initial goals are to build confidence, overcome approach anxiety and express better communication whilst being authentic. Overall, I don’t think it’s a bad idea, but the rewards are massive growth from what I gather which transfers to many aspects of your life not just with girls.
  11. My mate said when he felt forced, his creativity lacked and burnt out quicker, but with no routine his workload dwindled, I guess it’s about finding the right balance and remaining excited to go at it! I’ve actually not started yet, but the interest has always been there from very early on. I just play poker atm, but learning other things. Poker is a gruelling journey which requires a lot of work like anything, but aiming to branch out soon. Yea tbh I’ve not religiously followed it but was mentored for 2 years by guys following this structure and it makes things clearer when I work at fixing something alone now. I’ll notice in game too that I’ll play really well early on, but as my session fizzles out I’m making mistakes without much realisation until after, which forces me to compare my play between the two stages and work towards fixing my biggest leaks. Reminds me though, I’ve not actually worked on new concepts for a few month! Emotion plays a big part too, the following chapter in the book I referred to is actually titled ‘emotion’ and says the brain is organised in a hierarchy: the first level being heart rate, breathing etc and is also where unconscious competence is; the second is the emotional system and the third the mental level, responsible for thinking, planning, awareness, emotional control etc. “When the emotional system becomes overactive, it shuts down higher brain functions” - so high emotion leads to poor decision making. This is when you can see which skills are in unconscious competence because you can’t think straight to access the other knowledge. Imo a good idea is to record what’s going right when you’re flowing and on form, but also record what’s gone right and wrong compared to when you’re performing poorly. Why weren’t you at your best? Is it possible some emotion shut you off? How can you prevent that next time? What can you still do well in that state? This should give you a clearer picture of what skills land where and should make it easier to formulate a plan around them. Yea I think when you first learn something you’ll be stuck around level 2 for a while and can feel great when you first learn, but when you’ve had a long day it can easily be forgotten, same for level 3 if you’re really depleted or in a fog. Learning too much will leave your curve flat, on a good day you’ll be fantastic but a bad day you simply have too much information to recall and I imagine it’ll be overwhelming and can be disheartening if you’ve not trained much to level 4. I think focusing on certain areas at a time with good structure, not worrying about what you don’t know yet until you’re ready, but focus on improving your biggest weaknesses and strengthening your strengths to level 4. Thinking about my own progress, it’s possible to learn too many things to level 3 because at level 3 we’re competent now and can maintain this for quite some time during practice, but really drilling it in requires more effort before introducing more stuff to level 1/2. I’m clearly no expert but have experience consciously moving through the stages and it’ll be very similar I reckon. I suggest identifying two areas from 2-3 and working on them individually. When 3 becomes 4 and 2 becomes 3, you could now introduce another level 1 to 2 and repeat the process. This seems logical but not sure it’s that straight forward and I’m sure level 4 will always need some focus too. It’ll also mean knowing what is already level 4 and what quite isn’t yet, along with something you’ve recently learnt but not practiced much. Forget about learning something new until you’ve worked on this a bit imo. Let me know how it goes if you do! Getting me pumped to focus more in depth aswell! Mate that would be sick! I will start learning soon, my mate sent me the software to download etc but not begun yet. I can put you in contact with him in the meantime tho if you wish and hopefully get something sorted in the future. We dropped acid together not long ago and said exactly the same, how sick it’d be bouncing about a studio on acid creating naughty vibes and record labels??❤️ Trip sounded sick mate! Would be awesome to hear your mates insights, I thought I was sat with the gods for a while being prepared for a new life?
  12. @Wisebaxter No worries mate, think it’s a solid approach to learning. Would love to hear some of your stuff as you progress enjoying chatting with you aswell pal!
  13. @Charlotte Thanks will do one thing I have noticed is I’ll look to past and future like “ah this is what triggers it” or “this what I’m like when this happens” so when a similar occurrence is approaching I’ll freeze up or something, like anticipating it which definitely makes it worse, but am definitely catching it better. Not this, not this
  14. ?yes Baxter you mad man, from micro dosing to 250ug, how was it? Will check Leo’s book list out?? I’m sure you would’ve learnt a lot from all the YouTube stuff tho, but so important to practice aswell init, you in a good rhythm now? Are you self taught then? I think it’s pretty impressive my mate is self taught but keep stressing to him the importance of mentors, they can share insights that you might not even be aware of not knowing. Yea exactly mate! Gotta be diligent and keep taking steps forward. The war of art is a great book btw, love how you can just skip to any page and get fired up to work. I learnt a cool approach from a poker mindset book which illustrates effective learning, I’ll do my best to explain but bit hazy so forgive me? He outlines the 4 natural stages of any learning process ‘The adult learning model’ (ALM): 1. Unconscious incompetence - you’re not even aware of what you don’t know, you don’t know what skills you lack. I’ll try use music production as an example - all those components you listed I wasn’t even aware of half of them so I was blind to what’s necessary 2. Conscious incompetence - you’re now aware of what you don’t know, doesn’t mean you’re skilled yet, but now you have the knowledge of what skills are needed to learn.. now I’ve been made aware of the components I can start to take practical steps towards learning them 3. Conscious competence - here you’ve done some work and repetition to become somewhat skilled, however you still need to think about what you’ve learned or else you fall back to incompetence... Now I have an understanding and start making tracks sound decent, playing about with different sounds etc but have to be thinking about what goes where. I guess a better example would’ve been with the decks aswell as I suppose they’re used to perform more 4. Unconscious competence - you’ve learnt it so well it becomes totally automatic and requires no thinking... I can put a track together with ease, I know how it should be structured and what goes where without having to think. Or I can play a set on the decks in full flow without much thought My examples poor as I’m between level 1 and 2 atm with music but I think you get the jist, think of the stages of driving for example when you was a kid barely knew what a car was all the way to passing your test where you can now do it whilst checking Instagram and toking a bong, although not advised? So thinking what you know now compared to when you first started and what parts have become automatic and what mistakes you’re still making, you’ll be able to categorise which level you’re at. Also when you’re tired or having a bad day you won’t perform or create as effective and just run off what is at unconscious competence. It’s important to think about with the approach to improving. You can only focus on one thing at a time so knowing what part of the ALM you’re in is critical, if you no longer need to think to be good, it frees up space to learn new concepts or focus on improving other weaknesses. If you catch yourself falling back into old habits at any point, it’s clear there’s still work to be done regardless of how you rated yourself. If you’re just learning new concept after new concept for example, you might get to the level of conscious competence and on a good day absolutely smash it but then another day when your brain isn’t functioning as good, a lot of that will fall back to incompetence and could make you feel like a total noob again making mistakes everywhere, so it’s important to be aware and make sure you’re actively working on weaknesses while strengthening other skills towards unconscious competence and introducing new ideas. In the book he described it as ‘the inch worm’ aka a bell curve? a good way to think about this is how good are you on a good day and how bad are you on a bad day? With the idea being the gap in between shouldn’t be too big. The right side represents all your best decision making, which includes what is learnt to the level of conscious competence as on a good day you can recall and use all this information, while the left side represents all your poor decisions and mistakes you know you shouldn’t be making but still do. The inchworm moves in the shape of a bell curve and when the front end moves forward so does the back end. I.e when you learn something new, the front end of your ability just took a step forward which also means the range between your best and worst has just widened, so the best way to move forward again is now focusing on your back end and improve one of your biggest weaknesses. When you’ve eliminated one of the worst parts of your ‘game’ it makes it easier to take another step forward from the front. So improvement is happening from both sides and gives you the potential to perform better on a good day and not as bad on a bad day. Hope I’m making sense?it’s easy to ignore weaknesses and just stay hungry to keep learning new things but if you take all this into consideration the greatest improvement happens when you give all your weaknesses the attention they need in order to excel and create more room for the new shit. I’m still guilty of ignoring weaknesses but I’ll get there?? Thanks for the vid mate will get on it?? That poem is mint mate! First time I heard about muses was from that book??you write poetry often?
  15. Thanks for sharing Charlotte “checking and reassurance” I’ve noticed myself in these patterns way too often and mental commentary about how it’s all good or labelling a certain event as a trigger and this is just that bla bla. Guess it’s about being present enough to notice then changing the thought process? Easier said than done in a lot of cases tho
  16. Not sure if it’s a serious emotional problem but it definitely feels like it in the moment. I’ve recently been struggling with strong feelings/sensations of social anxiety, putting it like this so I’m not fully identifying with it which keeps me in the loop. Once I’m in it’s really hard to come out and has become a heavy burden especially in situations where I’ll be for long periods. I realise it’s all mind made and am trying to fix it daily but somethings clearly not working or maybe I’m doing something that’s keeping me in these mind patterns. I’ve always been too caring of what others think throughout my life which I think is still conditioned within me now despite how much I tell myself and even believe I don’t care. How can I break these thought processes and rewire for good? Booked in to see a doctor which can only help me in the right direction but always good to hear other perspectives. Have any of you experienced similar phases, if so how did you overcome them or what are you currently doing in and out the moment of its occurrence? I’ve always been inspired by success stories so would love to hear some cheers
  17. @DrewNows cheers what helps you remain aware? Is there anything you do to recentre yourself in the moment when it starts to arise? Feel like I’m getting better with that but can spiral out of control pretty quick.
  18. Mega read mate! You explain so well. You describe many aspects of what I experienced tbh beyond the bad parts, that I couldn’t really convey in as much detail??ultimately love and play tho and believe it’s why pursuing passion is key to a fulfilling life whilst being there for others with no judgements, we all have love and seek love but are twisted in our own little egos of how the world should be, but it’s all just a game! Easy to forget day to day and a lot to integrate and change for me, I’ll be referring to this report for reminders, thanks for sharing Have you read peak? A fantastic book on what it takes to achieve mastery. Cheers, will look into the kriya books. Yea you’re right, I didn’t think too much about it, I thought like “one tab is ok, let’s see what two tabs does” going from one to two doesn’t seem as big as 125 to 250 tho?will try 200 next time. I’ve had truffles but they remind me of a small acid dose maybe even less, would love to do shrooms. ?init, some service that! Get out in the Peruvian jungles Yea me n my mate have this discussion often, started as a hobby because he enjoyed it but of course there’s gonna be many days/weeks where it feels like nothings moving, along with low motivation etc but finding that sense of joy will keep the spark alive and creative juices flowing and eventually it will fall into place with persistence and right practice, learning from every phase. Will do mate, like I say he’s still relatively early in himself but he’s creating some good shit now imo.. how long you been doing it now? Should be 2 tracks here: https://m.soundcloud.com/user-416965397/sets/ideas/s-kzxCQ
  19. @Gabriel Antonio cheers mate will watch
  20. That’s mega mate! Need to get on Kriya yoga hearing so much about it. You think there’ll come a point you’re done with weed for good? The paranoia can go deeep but having it sporadically I find can still be blissful, just gotta be on alert for monkey mind?although you’ve had it wayy more than me, effects likely more intense. Ah look forward to reading it mate! Will check more of the audio out aswell??all just❤️?I’ve done 100-125ug 4/5 times prior, all beautiful experiences with some lessons learnt, felt it was time to go deeper but got out of hand pretty quick and just took me?deeper lessons that I will work towards integrating! What previous experiences you had? Mad the difference between the smaller dose, can’t even imagine what the mega doses are like, might need a shaman or some shit for that lol. I’ll do em again for sure, think I’ll be more aware next time, took me by surprise, way more intense than half the dose but had a lot of shit going on mentally too and asked beforehand about facing it all, oh did it show me? Nice mate, good mate of mine producing tech house atm in his earlyish stages but has great potential imo you see it as a long term thing? Not atm myself, wanna learn how to produce tho
  21. How are you with the weed lately mate? How was your latest trip? I did 250ug couple month ago and went super unconscious into a bad trip but lot of lessons realised after that I need to work towards integrating. What type of music do you produce btw?