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I've gone down this road of "repression" due to peer pressure. Then did some LSD and mushroom trips digging deep into my past and present without fear... Found nothing, really. It's genuine. Testosterone levels are sky high. I'd say just don't worry about it.

Caffeine helps with your pain and you "automatically" consume it. Have you considered that it could also be causing it? Messing with your sleep and preventing it from being deep, restful and restorative? The high-seeking behavior could be due to the stress it's causing you. Of all the substance addictions, it's the sneakiest. Almost everyone will look over it when searching for problems. Doctors included.

I can relate a lot. The desire to have a girlfriend or sex appears sparingly for me. It's not enough to motivate me to do something. When I see how much work people put into getting laid I'm astonished. I also never understood why people put so much emphasis in being in a relationship/getting laid in everyday life. As an addendum: when I took a supplement that increased libido, doing pickup felt 100% worth it ? Maybe just do something similar for a while to see what happens.

I suffered from the same thing. Take a look at my earlier posts on this forum. I eventually recovered my libido and started feeling emotions again! It's possible. If I can say anything it's that it takes time to heal. If you don't give up it'll eventually improve.

Someone deconstructed my libertarian/anarcho-capitalist ideals so well I reevaluated all my worldview. Then found act.org and started reading more spiritual books, caring more about people and relationships... Weed... You know the rest

@WaveInTheOcean I took MDMA one time and it made me smile more. I felt love for everyone in a much stronger intensity but it didn't change my behaviour too much. Does this mean I'm maxed out?

If you actually explained what you mean with some evidence so we could understand it better, you would get better responses. Instead, what we find here is one-liners with generic criticism.

This boy here be asking the real questions

It makes sense. thanks

Explain pls?

It has a giant half-life so take it as early as possible. Preferably as soon as you wake up Reduce caffeine intake if you consume any Some people prefer it with or without food. There's no official recommendation. Test for yourself. Dosage: 25-200mg. Start with 50mg and then go up or down. I don't recommend redosing. I just fucking can't sleep before midnight when I take it after noon. Assume your sleep won't be good the night you take it so you can rest more afterward. Modafinil can make you very motivated and spend more energy, so take that into consideration. Try putting it under your tongue. Crush it and use it as a sublingual powder/pill. Some people swear it works better. Test for yourself. Watch out for allergic reactions. It gave me a severe feeling of sickness and I had to cease taking it. Steven Johnson's syndrome. Search about it. It'll probably give you paranoia. Take that into consideration and try to reduce anxiety in your behavior with meditation/calming techniques.

In my workplace, men within my family and male friends, I feel like most of the males try to prove themselves as males. I reached this conclusion from this behavior: Their own capability of attracting women, with subsequent: Trying to beat one another in who scored more women; Dick measurements(who has the biggest dick); Rejecting anything that may be recognized as gay or feminine habits as in: Dancing; Some types of music; Art; Socializing quirks; Showing emotions; Crying; Areas of knowledge (humanities); Sharing porn / sexual images of women; (from my pov)Being needlessly rude, aggressive with other males, or ruthless; On the other hand, being such sweethearts with women. Their behavior instantly changes if a female comes around; And some others I don't remember right now Why do they do this? I haven't been able to answer this myself. Coincidentally or not, I cannot accuse my SD Green friends of doing this. Not a single one.

@Parththakkar12 that's some sneaky shit I like all your replies. Keep them coming

You got me here lol. I noticed I was trying to prove myself as more evolved by pointing out others flaws but posted it anyway because I'm curious Why won't people let me be a zen devil in peace...

Seems like paranoia/hypervigilance coupled with grandiose delusions for me. They often go hand-in-hand. Do you ever consume stimulants? If I take too much coffee i feel the same way. Like I'm a God but everyone is waiting to just attack me or something

try these and find where you can stay comfortable porn->images->toy->imagination->nothing->nofap

This is useful even for men who dont want to do pickup. Halo effect is a hell of a thing.

Idk what to feel about this image

I scroll mindlessly when bored ?

I recommend you read the book "Caffeine Blues"

ok no cigarretes I've never smoked so I thought it would be cool

MDMA binge Or heroin binge, maybe cocaine? Also smoke as much cigarettes I can

I don't have any book recommendation but... I used to be addicted to video games but not on that level. I would play as much as I could though. Some day I decided to do a 90 days no videogames challenge and from then on I never got addicted again. I can play with moderation very easily. TBH games got a little bit boring after I saw them in a new light after 3 months. It may work for you, it may not. It could be a good start I think

Lots of golden nuggets here