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  1. It has a giant half-life so take it as early as possible. Preferably as soon as you wake up Reduce caffeine intake if you consume any Some people prefer it with or without food. There's no official recommendation. Test for yourself. Dosage: 25-200mg. Start with 50mg and then go up or down. I don't recommend redosing. I just fucking can't sleep before midnight when I take it after noon. Assume your sleep won't be good the night you take it so you can rest more afterward. Modafinil can make you very motivated and spend more energy, so take that into consideration. Try putting it under your tongue. Crush it and use it as a sublingual powder/pill. Some people swear it works better. Test for yourself. Watch out for allergic reactions. It gave me a severe feeling of sickness and I had to cease taking it. Steven Johnson's syndrome. Search about it. It'll probably give you paranoia. Take that into consideration and try to reduce anxiety in your behavior with meditation/calming techniques.
  2. In my workplace, men within my family and male friends, I feel like most of the males try to prove themselves as males. I reached this conclusion from this behavior: Their own capability of attracting women, with subsequent: Trying to beat one another in who scored more women; Dick measurements(who has the biggest dick); Rejecting anything that may be recognized as gay or feminine habits as in: Dancing; Some types of music; Art; Socializing quirks; Showing emotions; Crying; Areas of knowledge (humanities); Sharing porn / sexual images of women; (from my pov)Being needlessly rude, aggressive with other males, or ruthless; On the other hand, being such sweethearts with women. Their behavior instantly changes if a female comes around; And some others I don't remember right now Why do they do this? I haven't been able to answer this myself. Coincidentally or not, I cannot accuse my SD Green friends of doing this. Not a single one.
  3. @Parththakkar12 that's some sneaky shit I like all your replies. Keep them coming
  4. You got me here lol. I noticed I was trying to prove myself as more evolved by pointing out others flaws but posted it anyway because I'm curious Why won't people let me be a zen devil in peace...
  5. Seems like paranoia/hypervigilance coupled with grandiose delusions for me. They often go hand-in-hand. Do you ever consume stimulants? If I take too much coffee i feel the same way. Like I'm a God but everyone is waiting to just attack me or something
  6. try these and find where you can stay comfortable porn->images->toy->imagination->nothing->nofap
  7. This is useful even for men who dont want to do pickup. Halo effect is a hell of a thing.
  8. I scroll mindlessly when bored ?
  9. I recommend you read the book "Caffeine Blues"
  10. ok no cigarretes I've never smoked so I thought it would be cool
  11. MDMA binge Or heroin binge, maybe cocaine? Also smoke as much cigarettes I can
  12. I don't have any book recommendation but... I used to be addicted to video games but not on that level. I would play as much as I could though. Some day I decided to do a 90 days no videogames challenge and from then on I never got addicted again. I can play with moderation very easily. TBH games got a little bit boring after I saw them in a new light after 3 months. It may work for you, it may not. It could be a good start I think
  13. Lots of golden nuggets here
  14. Maybe his modafinil shipment is late
  15. Transition from orange-green: What happened over the years is that I have put less emphasis on becoming a super efficient human robot and being rich billionaire materialist badass to working on a purposeful goal. I mean, purposeful life? I then realigned my goals to reflect my values and likes and I am working on it. The difference is that I will work towards not being a faceless cog in the machine of capitalism and focusing my work on raising overall consciousness. If I need to earn money to achieve my goals, and I'll need to of course, I'll try do it in the most conscious way I am able to. I have developed discipline and work ethic during the years, lost it due to some depressive spells and I'm rebuilding it. That said, I'm still young and I don't have any material success that I can show off. Does this mean I don't have the capacity to do it? Hell no! I do have the achiever mentality developed. The mindset is the thing that matters the most. If your house is on fire and someone stoles all your money and possessions, do you go back to stage blue? The idea that money isn't needed is naive. Until we become a socialist world, it'll be needed. How do you plan to help people? Or how do you plan to go to that meditation retreat in tibet? Also, achieving, discipline and goals also exist in spirituality, it's just not as obvious. If you don't develop those you will be hard-pressed to succeed in anything, even in spirituality.
  16. Content quality His content is so much better than everything I've found I have little counter answers to what he says
  17. You undecided folks would benefit from learning about different types of attraction. Romantic, sexual, aesthetic... And maybe uncommon sexualities.If you have the need to fit yourself into a label then at least learn about all the ones that exist: pansexuality, bisexuality, asexuality (aego)... No need to fit into the mainstream hetero/gay paradigm There's also Sex-favorableness and sex positivity but i don't know much about it
  18. @Scholar I read through your comment and it was worth it. Reconsidering my eating habits again...
  19. Religion of tomorrow for self-development Book of not knowing for spirituality I haven't read many books though
  20. I was going to start job-hunting today but I was dizzy for the whole day. Almost felt like I was going to faint. So, postponed.
  21. Male, 20 So, I've been thinking of doing several things for some time now. I planned out what I want to accomplish in my life according to my passions and well-thought future predictions. This year I am biting the bullet. I'm gonna do it no matter what happens. It'll probably be hard to go out and do socializing anyway so I may as well use this time to accomplish my lone tasks. Goals for 2021 in order of importance Enter psychology major (no progress. Still need to decide whether I'll need to study or not) I've been studying Mechanical Engineering for 1.5 years and I absolutely can't imagine myself being happy working as an Engineer. TBH I went in to be a professor, like a Physics or Math professor. I want to join psychology so I can help advance the research on psychedelics over the world. I also have a backup plan if this gets too out of hand that also involves psychedelics. Nonetheless, I prefer to focus on this project first. If I am not able to get a transference I'll need to study. Exercise 3x/week (currently 0%) This is the most procrastinated goal ever. I really dislike aerobic exercise but I would really benefit from it. Running in my cool shoes around the astonishing shore I have next to my house. What a great view! Clean up my diet (80% clean currently: 40%) I have struggled with diet all my life. Always eating shitty food. I think this is due to a dopamine problem as I have a tendency of being ADHD and I want a high of some sort. I already went to a dietitian and I'm focusing on following the plan accordingly. Read 20 books (currently on my first one) I struggled with brain fog for the whole of 2020. Now I'm recovering due to diet and a med that I started taking. If I don't get the transference to psychology, then I'll start working a part-time job so I can get money to get a drivers' license. Any other ideas cross my mind I'll add them here. When compelled to, I'll update my progress.