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  1. @Preetom I disagree . People underestimate the power of no fap. Refraining from ejaculation ALONE builds character and creates idenity level changes if done for a long time. Noone can just stop refraining from ejaculation and remain the same. You are forced to build new coping mechanisms. You are forced to change or go back to your old chimp ways. Spiritual growth can be also a byproduct of No fap. I get your point though.
  2. @noselfnofun Noone can become a Buddha while commited to an intimate relationship. You will get attached no matter what. It is no surprise that the most developed people were celibates. Buddha, Tesla, Christ, Newton etc.
  3. @Preetom How is not jerking off your pennis hollow? Nofap = Celibacy for me.
  4. I get ridiculous from most people here. If you don't have a serious answer and all you do is waste your sexual energy please don't waste my time with ridiculous answers. Go fk women and masturbate all you want. I am on a different path. Respect that .
  5. @UDT Are you serious? I dont wanna fuck women nor do i care about being an alpha male chimp.
  6. At 8 minutes and 30 seconds of this video, Leo talks about existing as every single possible decision point of his life simultaneously. Leo is this still valid? Or not? Do i exist as every single possibility of my life? This is EPIC if it is the case and implies Parallel Universes i guess.
  7. @ajasatya Thanks ,i will have to contemplate that one. Anyways most people are screwed mentally. If someone finds my physical appearance funny i can't change that. I just want to not care about idiots like that.
  8. So i have been hearing from Leo how people have a self-image. Even a Spiritual self-image. And i get the sense like this has some sort of negative connotation from the way Leo talks about it. Is it wrong to have a self-image? What self-image "Should' we have? I'm confused... Can anyone give an explanation? - Thanks .
  9. @Leo Gura Thanks for your time. I am willing to surrender to be honest. I am tired already of my egoic problems. So much delusion, pain and suffering.
  10. @Preetom Why is it a fallacy? Why can't i as God create whatever i want? That fantasy of mine lets say. I also watch Rupert Spira. But i am tired of theory already. Can't understand these things with theory. Need some more awakening experiences. Gotta buy shrooms again i guess.
  11. @Leo Gura So much goddamn work Leo. If i was God (i don't say that i am not) i would first & firemost know that i am God and then create whatever i want for myself. Total Paradise. I would be in a beach alone with 100.000 beautiful women, whatever food & luxury i wanted & that's it. Why God is such a masochist? That fantasy of mine could be theoretically accomplished by a God who has Infinite power at his disposal. It sucks being God but not feeling like you are one lol. It sucks dreaming realities without knowing that you are doing so. So much suffering for nothing.
  12. @Leo Gura What self-image do you have Leo? Is it even possible to Not have a self-image?
  13. @Serotoninluv It was the latter. I knew it conceptually BUT still i couldn't disidentify with my thoughts & emotions. Mind started getting anxious & thinking things like "what if there is something wrong w/ me etc.". Very annoying. I just wanted to get revenge on this guy so maybe i can get rid of the awful feelings. Very irrational i know. I don't like getting doubtful about myself because of others.
  14. @Shin Nice. What's the main difference between loving kindness meditation & the long meditation? Also what technique do you use in general? I just observe the breath .
  15. How much do you meditate per day?
  16. @Shin Thanks for the support man!! Life is hard for everybody.
  17. @Shin First time i started to do Nofap was close to an year ago. At my first attempts i failed after the 2-week mark. Then my best streak was 51 days.I was on top of the world! Then i had a massive ego backlash that lasted for at least a couple of months . 2 steps forward and 3-4 steps backwards it was really lol.
  18. Days 25-26: Terrible, extremely bad anxiety and a lot of energy wasted on stupid compulsions. Almost masturbated. I am on the brink of quitting tbh...
  19. Some redpill people & others say that low self esteem is irreparable after a certain threshold but i can't find the reason Why? What's your opinion about that? Is it true? Personally i dislike these kind of absolute statements & it caused me anxiety.
  20. Today i didn't manage to be compulsion-free & started reading some articles/studies regarding OCD (i wish i didn't do that ). I stumbled across terrible news for my ego. Basically what i found is that OCD sufferers have impairments in learning ,memory & attention. That came as a complete shock & huge dissapointment to me because i always believed that i had increased concentration compared to others... Anyways now i am dealing with terrible anxiety & "negative" thoughts regarding these scientific findings. I haven't been diagnosed by a doctor yet to be OCD but i definetely believe that i am OCD, although my compulsions are generally mild. Any advice would be highly appreciated. It seems the more i know the worst for my ego. Does any of you who struggle with OCD have difficulty learning & remembering things? Personally i don't believe to have this issue but maybe im just deluded according to science... I don't know what to believe anymore....
  21. @Shin Thank you for the advice. Yes i meditate 30 mins a day. Will defininetely increase it as time passes on.
  22. Day 20: I had a dry dream in the morning having sex with a beautiful blonde. Didn't ejaculate. Days 21-23: Increased Memory & also i am studying 2 hours more. Day 24:Today was a very bad day for my psychologically. Strong ego backlash came into being. Wanted badly to masturbate so i can cope with my issues. The thought that i will deepy regret it afterwards, and the profounds benefits i gain, prevented me from doing it. .
  23. @oMarcos My main purpose is to become the best version of myself, to reach a peak. Also i want to achieve something that most men have never achieved. I don't know anyone close to me who has remained abstinent from sex & masturbation alltogether not even for 2 months. I wanna challenge myself and see what happens to me as time passes one. It's also an experiment for me. If i am able to conquer the sexual desire (at least for a year) then i can conquer anything else!!
  24. @Good-boy One year is enough for me and what i am trying to accomplish. For self mastery is not enough, yes i agree.