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@SBB4746 Lol that is funny Meth turns you into a devil.

@Wilhelm44 Actually the last months, thats what i've been doing. I stop caffeine for weeks or even a month, then i get back to it. And this whole cycle basically. The good thing is that if i don't drink coffee i don't experience any withdrawls. My body is not dependent on it which is a good thing. The thing that makes me go back to coffee is usually when i had a bad night of sleep and i need something to keep me going. But once i drink coffee then i love the buzz it gives me. And i keep chasing that buzz the next days. Until i stop again. Basically i am drinking coffee now just because i am an addict and i love getting high lol. But i will take a pause again. I want to use this drug as a tool. And i really don't need it for energy. I have tons of energy without it. If coffee didn't have all these health benefits people talk about i would probably never drink again to be honest....It has made my life more difficult in some ways, especially when quitting it. The good thing is that i can keep my dosage under control. But it is still an attachment. It creates suffering if i don't have it the first few days. A lot of suffering in my neck area which is really annoying. I can't make it go away. And is torturing me so that i give in to the craving. lol. In general caffeine is easy to quit. Once you get through 2-3 days, you realize that you don't even need it. Because you have tons of energy without it (in my case). Last thing is that its best to drink coffee after 90 mins since you wake up. Because when you wake up you have tons of cortisol. Its best to wait your cortisol drops, then raise it back again with coffee.

@SBB4746 I will never try meth in this incarnation. Even though i would like to know what it's all about and its the drug that has intrigued me the most besides 5-meo. I just know it will ruin my life for good if i try it. lol. And i am scared of consequences. I have already done a LOT of stupid sh*t....

@EntheogenTruthSeeker Yes i think acceptance is the final stage we reach after lots of suffering. My mindset is that i will be trying to do the best i can , even though i don't have any control. Lol. Nobody can tell you how to live when you have no free will. It's a tricky issue. You can pretend you have control and that may be very useful. Or you can have another attitude towards life. The truth of no freel will does not tell you how you should live your life. We have to figure ourselves. Generally i do my best to stay optimistic and not feeling like a victim of determistic mechanistic laws. But it's difficult at times.

@EntheogenTruthSeeker It's really sad that if i were to remove your prefrontal cortex you would no longer be able to control your impulses. This is really scary (Phineas Gage example). The disturbing thing is that you can know that X is a poor decision, yet you don't have the machinery to control yourself from doing X.

@Wilhelm44 I can relate with caffeine addiciton. My sleep has suffered the last days and i was feeling my head like it was eroding. This made me scared and i stopped caffeine so i can get deeper sleep. I think caffeine is more like an attachment rather than an addiction. A true addiction you can't stop it so easily. I just wish caffeine didn't have that long of a half-life.

@SBB4746 Yes i tend to agree. People who haven't tried these type of drugs can't really comprehend the level and type of extreme euphoria we are talking about. I can comprehend because mdma is similar to meth i heard. I took once a bunch of pills (i think it was ritalin) and then began masturbating. It was better than if i was to have sex with 10 super models. Lol. I totally agree with the sex part. All the documentaries i've watched basically say the same thing ''Sex on meth is beyond this world.''.

This guy Patrick has been extremely lucky and benefited from the system. He is a winner in the system therefore he is ok with it. He wouldn't say the same thing if he was at the bottom.

@PepperBlossoms Ahahaha ours brains work the same.

@vizual That's a good explanation.

@ZenSwift That's solid advice. I agree.

@Max8 You don't take it that serious because if you would, it would not be that good for you. If you take 2 tabs of LSD it is no longer a hypothesis and your notion of proof will completely fly out of the window. It won't even cross your mind. You don't need proof for knowing that you exist, right?

@0bserver I disagree. Avoiding the truth of a matter doesn't improve anything in the long-term. I prefer to face it. It really terrifies me but with time i noticed that i am less terrified.

@Mason Riggle My biggest pleasure was when i was high on mdma. Damn i still miss it. The high was just incredible. I have never felt anything come even close to that. It was too good to be true. I didn't expect this level of happiness, not even in my wildest dreams. I know sober that i will never experience that level of euphoria again. But still i enjoy the mundane feelings. I don't put them below or above anything else.

@Leo Gura Ahahahahaha i like this

@The0Self Yes i agree with you on that. People are quick to throw out the baby with the bathwater. Meditation really works but it takes time. I've watched a documentary on Netflix where it basically showed that master meditators get the most benefit out of meditation. It just takes few years to get out of that noobie stage. To me i don't care if i get enlightned while meditating. I just enjoy the peace of mind it brings. One meditator was like 42 and he had the brain of a 33 year old man. That's impressive. And the level of compassion he could generate was astronomically high. Those who are really wise will stick to a meditative practice. And then the psychedelics will be the cherry on top. Psychedelics are a temporary tool. You need a daily tool also if you really want to change your state. It was nice when Leo was promoting meditation more 4 years ago.

@Max8 Observing the breath. But right now i am basically doing nothing in particular. It's more like a being/happening rathert than something i am doing. Thats why i enjoy it now so much. In the beginning it was much a doing and not that fun.

@Nahm Meditation can change many things. Why are you saying that? It even changes the brain. What are the alternatives that will promote change then?

2 years is nothing in the big picture. The benefits of meditation are seen many years ahead. If it doesn't work for you then ok. But for me , it clicks. I am doing it more because i enjoy it and less because of utilitarian purposes. Find something you enjoy doing.

I wish you were somewhere near where i live

@PurpleTree Adderall doesn't get you from 0 to 1000 in seconds like meth. The route of adminstration with meth is super addictive. It will blast you into seconds. Also you would have to take many tables of adderall to reach a good high. And you can't inject or smoke adderall from what i know. I've seen people take meth on documentaries and it's unreal the high they feel from it. Especially if you were to inject it. For a moment you can't see, you can't hear, the pleasure they feel its unreal. This stuff is the devil. I can comprehend the high they get because i have taken ecstasy. If you are someone who hasn't experience a mdma high or some other party drug then you can't comprehend the level of extreme euphoria.

@Rilles If you try a drug just once. You won't get addicted. Thats what the science basically says. And also my experience. But the problem is if you do it 2nd and 3rd time. Then you can be fked. Event though 80% of people don't become addicts. But having said that, i believe you should never try certain drugs unless you are willing to risk you entire life. Because once that barrier is demolished, its so easy to do a drug a 2nd time. Your mind will say ''oh cmon we've already done it''.

@Mason Riggle I was offered to smoke meth once but declined. Here in Greece it is called sisa I know the high will be too good. And i can't risk that. My mind basically gets stuck into experiences are too good. Then it keeps bothering me to repeat the experience. This creates epic suffering. I've watched countless documentaries on meth. The feeling you get on meth must be the best experience ever. That's whats so dangerous about it. You really like the experience. And after that point nothing comes close to comparison. I understand why people give up their lives over this drug. I really want to try this drug and see what its all about. But not in this incarnation lol.

@Leo Gura I haven't tried 5-meo (nor meth) but i can't imagine it being a better feeling than mdma or meth. Not even close. But i am open-minded. Also there are different types of pleasure. Meth is mostly dopamine high while mdma is more serotonin. The pleasure you get on mdma is not too pleasurable to the point it becomes uncomfortable. It's like you won 10 billion dollars Χ 1000. You are not meant to feel so much pleasure. And you don't want it to end. My opinion is that drugs which produce the most pleasure are the most toxic also. It's like Jack LaLanne said ''if it tastes too good, spit it out''. If a food is too pleasurable , its probably also toxic. Since 5meo doesn't appear to be that toxic, i assume the high you get on it, is not comparable to addictive drugs like meth.

Leo said in his last video that life is a simulator. And the point of the simulator is to show us that if we are selfish then we are gonna suffer for it. This seems like a design from God to turn us into more loving and conscious creatures. My question is that if God is unbiased then why does he punish selfishness? What i mean by punish is that we get terrible consequences by being selfish.. Also isn't a will towards Love a bias? I am not sure.