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@Vincent S That's not true. There are levels to this. There are levels to pain. It gets pretty gnarly. I don't think a plant suffers that much. Or at all.

@Scholar I just don't like excruciating pain. I am caught in a bind. I know about other animals suffering a lot but its usually not that prolonged. In the hands of a human you can suffer more than Christ. An animal doesn't enjoy causing pain and is not that intelligent. Whether I want or not I am made to have this aversion to pain. Even if you gave me 10 billion dollars right now I would not accept to go through what Kiki Kamarena went through. So yes I am very much human. But human is part of God.

@roopepa It's just the only possibility. The only way anything could ever exist. It makes absolutely perfect sense. When you experience it you have no doubts left any more. Materialism is seen as pure stupidity. It's infinite because it goes on forever. It contains finite parts like me and you. But you are never gonna end. You have an infinite number of lives still left. There is no contradiction there. Oneness means you are everything. Therefore you find yourself getting tortured or typing this comment. You have infinite experiences ahead of you.

@Windappreciator What do you mean?

@roopepa No. This is not a philosophy. I have become Infinite. That's what God is. It's the only possibility. It's the only thing that makes sense when you experience it. God is everything. Everything is infinity. When you experience it, it's hard to even believe it but Its undeniable. You can switch from being a human to being absolute everything at once. After that experience you are never the same again. If I hadn't personally experienced this I would never believe Leo. Not even in 10000 years You can't imagine stuff like that. It's the ultimate experience of my life. Nothing can compare. That was the most total awakening of my life.

@roopepa Just the mere fact that i will experience these sorts of things one day is enough to make me super interested and curious. Also it's my biggest fear ever. I don't care about death. I actually embrace it. What i am absolutely petrified by is excruciating levels of pain. Pain that is unimaginable. That's what I really fear. After watching Leo's video about the consequences of Oneness I got really really shook. But I got shook way before that. When I took 2 tabs of LSD 4 years ago and I became everything.. Then it hit me.. 'oh shit I am also all the car accidents, all the murders, etc'. That caused me a deep existential terror that I've never felt before. Up until then I was super naive and thought of God only as all the positives. Money, fame, sex, success etc. Lol. That's not the full picture though. I can't say 'oh one day I will get tortured. Now let me return to playing video games and acting like nothing happened'. No!! I can't do that. My mind doesn't work like that. I am really attention to detail focused and kinda ocd. If I am gonna get butchered my mind wants to have an idea how it will feel. I want to come to terms with it. I don't obsess over this anymore. But it's always in the back of my mind. I have this curiosity how bad would it actually be. I don't understand how other people have not paid attention to this and keep living like they're in denial about all of this horrific stuff. I am glad I have faced this. Now it doesn't bother me as much. Still though it is something truly terrifying... Basically my mind is trying to come to terms with it. I feel that this fear is holding me from fully becoming God every time I trip deep. If I conquer this fear then I am no longer a human.

@Windappreciator Maybe with AI, genetic engineering and other technologies this can change. So yes it might not last forever.

@Windappreciator That's impossible to happen. People will always consume drugs, no matter what. That's human nature. Drugs and prostitution should be legalised because they are here to stay forever. We are all drug addicts in a certain sense. When you are in love, you are acting like a drug addict. It's all about chasing certain chemicals if you think about it. Every time I watch a new video, dopamine drips into my brain. This is why Tik tok has exploded. And why youtube has short videos now.

@happyhappy I was careful to provide a link which doesn't show graphic content . Only commentary. Besides not wanting to get banned, I am respectful not to harm anyone by showing them something they are not ready for. The war on drugs will stop soon I believe. If everyone tomorrow was to take 5meo dmt that would change some things I believe. In 100 years I think America will find a a solution to the drug problem. I have faith in future generations. No way they will allow this madness to go on for long. Just wait till we hit stage green. We are getting there in developed countries.

@Knowledge Hoarder There are some Mexican vigilante civilians who have captured and beaten badly drug cartel members. You can look it on VICE. If the people overthrew the government that wouldn't do much I believe. Many politicians in Mexico have tried to fight the cartels but its not working. Its just too much money to be made. You can't easily stop it. Only solution I see is if America was to legalise all drugs tomorrow then that would make the cartels go out of business. Because the main biggest buyer of drugs is America after all. Without America as a client there would be no billions to be made. Imagine if the drug addicts were able to buy crystal meth or fentanyl from the pharmacy instead of shady criminals. Basically American drug addicts fuel the whole gnarly predicament in Mexico.. As far as the motivation for Truth is my love for Truth. My appreciation of what is. Sometimes happiness and Truth conflict. But I also believe they converge after a certain point. The more aligned with Truth the better your life becomes.

@happyhappy We are talking about a very serious societal issue here that affects thousands of lives every single year. No graphic content has been uploaded here. The title was pretty self explanatory from the beginning. Yes it's disgusting. But even more disgusting is acting like it doesn't even exist. That just perpetuates the problem. If we are only here to discuss sugary things then I am very disappointed. This thread ties in nicely with Leo's most emotionally difficult video: The radical consequences of oneness. That video is potentially a lot scarier and more mentally harmful than this thread. Truth has nothing to do with you being happy all the time.

@Knowledge Hoarder I get excited by these things. From a young age I have been fascinated by serial killers too. Everyone is different and likes to watch different stuff. Whether you should or shouldn't watch these true events that's up to you. You can definitely ignore them and live in willful ignorance. It might be even better for your mental health. Personally I like to know what is going on in the world. I value Truth a lot. I am very curious too. Nothing will affect you like watching a gore video. It's too real. It's too brutal. This is serious stuff. You are watching something that will make a deep imprint on your mind for the rest of your life. One of the most brutal things I have watched is people getting thrown off by rooftops by an opposing religious group. I will remember that for lifetime. My point is not that you should watch every single act of torture. But if you really value Truth it's good to get at least a taste of what is happening around the world . It's very different to hear it than watching it. When you watch it, you feel all the agony of that person. You understand things otherwise you would never understand. It can make you question your reality and all the notions you've had. In our society we are protected by these things. We act like they don't even exist because its too gruesome to watch. If people really knew what is going on they would have a serious mental breakdown. Maybe if the news showed us every day these type of videos then we would wake up and do something about it.

@Opo I used to watch them in my early 20s when I was an atheist. They left me some pretty good mental scars. But back then they couldn't affect me a lot bc the guys I saw getting butchered weren't me. Or so I thought in my blissful ignorance. Many times the story affects you more than the actual graphic video. Nowadays I avoid watching the actual video and prefer to watch some commentary of the video instead. I believe there is value to watching these videos few times in your life. Otherwise it seems to me you are avoiding the Truth. Now I want to watch the funky town video which is considered the worst gore video ever. But I don't do it because I know how it will affect me.. It will completely destroy my notions of humanity. These videos don't give me mental illness. But they make me go downwards into a spiral of nihilism. I always have in the back of mind that one day I will be the one in the gore video.. As the time passes I feel more and more comfortable with these tragic aspects of God. For some reason I have a love hate relationship with these types of of videos. I always return back to them. Maybe it's morbid curiosity. It also makes me feel like what I am going through now is a walk in the park compared to what I could go through. Especially when I feel bad, I revert back to these videos. I don't fully understand it.

@K Ghoul Lol I hope you are still OK psychologically. These gore videos really do affect you like nothing else. Be aware. Good question you've asked. The reason is because they want to cause fear in their opponents and eliminate the competition. Mind you they are competing for Tons of money. Not mere millions. But billions. Their message with these brutal videos is: ''Look what will happen to you if you get in our way. Stay away or you will die in the most horrific way possible''. Would you mess with someone if you knew that he would kill you in the worst possible way?? You would really think twice about it. Getting shot is peanuts compared to begging to be killed because you can't take any more torture. Getting abducted and tortured by a Mexican drug cartel is really my worst nightmare ever. Just imagining it, it gives me shivers. Once I tripped so deep that it felt I was given the chance to be tortured. I really freaked out. Lol. I was confronted with what I hate most about God. Of course I resisted it and began crying like a baby. I couldn't accept it. It was too much. This is really a tough pill to shallow for those deep into non duality. It affects us way more than atheists or Christians. Can't imagine anything worse. The fact that you know it's coming but can't do anything makes it even scarier. Many people surrender though and don't resist much. Those that surrender to the torture seem to suffer less.

@Hardkill That is a good thing :-) It means you are a healthy human being.

@Preety_India I like this. To add further on what you said: yes in Mexico things are rough. Very little opportunities. Little education. Most people are very poor and underdeveloped . It's definitely a systemic issue. When you have the option between being a poor farmer or making tons of money selling drugs to America then.. The outcome is pretty understandable.

@Apparition of Jack They produce the majority of gore videos in the world right now. They are the most prolific. Isis doesn't even comes close. Most gore sites would go out of business without all the content they get from Mexico. Go to any gore site and you'll see what I mean. It's not insensitive. It's just is what it is. We can't deny this. Mexico has this bad reputation and its a good thing. Because maybe this will change things.

@Windappreciator With so many Billions of dollars to be made there is a LOT of corruption in Mexico. Funny fact is that the Mexican army captured El Chapos son and then had to let him leave. Lol. This would never happen in America. Imagine the army capturing Al Capone and then letting him leave because of some threats. That's how much power they have.

@Windappreciator The situation in Mexico is tragic to say the least. Only solution I see is legalisation of all drugs. And let these scums out of business. If drugs were legal this shit would not be happening. Well done idiots who promote the war on drugs. You are making the most ruthless criminals billionaires and causing untold pain and suffering to hundreds of thousands of people. Future generations will laugh at us and think of us as mentally retarded.

@Derek White No. Are you sure you wanna know? This stuff can really damage your psychological well being but hey.. It's part of reality. Check the link. It only has audio. Don't search for the actual video if you are mentally unstable.

@Mada_ It's on the low side but not too low. It depends on how fast you wanna lose the weight. I was taking 1500 calories at one point and I was a lot heavier than you. Counting calories is not silly because it can teach how many calories each food has. I was shocked when I discovered how many calories are found in fats for example. But it's not sustainable to be counting calories forever. It is only worth it for couple of months until you get a good sense how many calories are in each meal. After that you should understand when you are over eating or not.

You are an inspiration man. Keep it up. I am jealous now.

@Nahm I disagree. In actuality there is time. I define time as the movement of the universe. Time is not just a thought. Also many thoughts represent actual things.

Will i ever live this particular life again?? Or is it just once? Or is it an infinite number of times?? I have heard that everything exists simultaneously. Past,present and future. But this is not my experience. My experience is that times flows only in one direction. Only forward. Shunyamurti has said that the reason we get dejavu is because we have lived the same life an infinite number of times.

I remember Leo saying years ago that every person has actually Zero worth or something along those lines. It's pretty evident that we are not all the same. But do these differences make a person superior to other? The ego can justify whatever atrocities by using this superiority rationalisation. You see inhuman behavior being done to people who are considered less intelligent and etc. It's this twisted logic that because i am superior and way more intelligent or whatever else then i should be able to do whatever I want to you because you are beneath me. I would like if Leo elaborated more on this topic in the future.