Zigzag Idiot

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  1. Aaron Abke Makes to the point explanations about what the ego actually is. I put it here because he references ACIM.
  2. Poem by Red Hawk The Teaching It is as old as the stones. It came with Humans to the Earth and it offers them a way out of the web of sorrows but at a price: we must observe ourselves, our behavior, our inner and outer responses, objectively. This means without taking a personal interest or doing anything about the horror which self observation uncovers: like a bad boy with a stick overturning a stone and finding mass of crawling things beneath, but he refrains from stomping on them. (Red Hawk, THE WAY OF POWER, 67)
  3. Okay ? I gotcha. Thanks
  4. I appreciate your message here. Subscribed to your channel.
  5. Bump for Fellow students of Astrology Using this as a perceptual filter off and on throughout the year. Doing this I can learn somethings about the framework of Astrology while looking for validity in its application. In my own birth chart, I have Earth, fire, and water represented but no air representation. 5 planets piled up on Virgo and two on Scorpio, a Capricorn asendent, moon in Leo and a yod (finger of God) pointing between my sun and mercury in Virgo which is ruled by Mercury. Im trying to learn so if I state something incorrectly someone please correct me. Her monotone voice grates on my nerves but I intuit that her overall understanding/knowledge of Astrology is well beyond my own.
  6. Is the "Omega Point” , a term coined by Pierre Teilhard de Chardin to describe the evolution of our universe the same thing as Terence Mckenna's Transcendental object at the end of time. Could this also be what's spoken of in ACIM as the "Sonship".
  7. John Lennon was so impressed with Alejandro Jodorowski's film - El Topo - that he bought a theater in New York in 1970 just to have the movie played every night. Thus began the phenomena of 'Midnight movies'.
  8. I love Keyserling/Losey's Chance and Choice. About holons and self similarity over scales and getting into the flow state through the strange attractor. " To animal man we seem like Strange attractors indeed. On the surface, and in the moment, our actions may appear haphazard and foolhardy, but over time the wisdom and beauty of the Human Man will be apparent to all." - from chapter 3 - Cosmology which follows; Microcosm and macrocosm are not causes, but parameters of evolution. The world of Man between the macrocosm and microcosm is called the mesocosm. Here living consciousness evolves into progressively higher levels of complex Self Organization. It proceeds from the mineral world, to plant, animal, Man, up to the Great Singularity, the subject of the Universe, God. These are stages of expanding integration of consciousness into individual being. The stages parallel the involution of energy according to the dimensions. The ability to organize comes from within the conscious being itself, and is not imposed on the being from outside forces. For this reason scientists call this the Self Organizing principal or Auto Poiesis. Although the inherent ability to self organize is not predetermined, or governed by outside forces, at each level its evolution follows the patterns of one of the four chaotic attractors. Point like Attractor - Crystal. Circuit/Cycle Attractor - Plant. Torus Attractor - Animal. Strange Attractor - Man. The four attractors create cosmos out of chaos. God is both their origin and aim. The quantum after reaching the molecular stage is a parcel of God. Thereafter it incarnates as a separate self organized entity on the Mesocosmic level. Self organized consciousness evolves upward on the mesocosm. It starts in the crystal form with viruses and the genetic code. Then it ascends to greater degrees of conscious integration. Entities organize themselves into ever more complicated and ornate systems. Life forms evolve, adapt, and bring coherence to larger systems in new ways. Thus the Universe continues to evolve and change. With each stage of the evolutionary ladder of self organization one direction of symmetry is lost and freedom gained. (4) - The crystal in the fourth dimension has complete symmetry. The Point Attractors allow the energy in inorganic molecules to self organize as organic molecules. In this way they cross the bridge from the microcosm of lifeless molecules and energy, to the mesocosm of living crystals. With crystals, both organic and inorganic, everything is attracted to a single point, all line up in perfect order. All three axes, up and down, right and left, front and behind are the same. The molecules are in perfect symmetric order. The microcosmical geometric structure is balanced by the Moon, the weather it produces, and the four states of matter: solid, fluid, gaseous or fire. At the crystalline level the essential code controlling all further life formation is created, the DNA/RNA life structure. Life then uses these crystalline forms of amino acids to grow in size by cellular division, by scaling and multiplication. (3) - The plant looses one symmetry: the vertical, up/down symmetry. The cycle attractors allow the simplest crystalline life forms to self organize to a higher form of consciousness where greater freedom is possible. The top of the plants, the crown, differs from the roots, and the two are connected by the stem. Now, only the left and right and front and back axes of a plant remain symmetrical. This is called radial or cylindrical symmetry: two axes of symmetry. Trees alternate between seed and gestalt, with the axis of all plant life pointing to the earth, and its energy received directly from the Sun through photosynthesis. There is also a vertical flow back and forth, from the leaves to the roots and visa versa, according to the cycle attractor. (2) - Under the influence of the Torus attractors the next stage in the evolutionary ladder was reached: the animal. The animal has again freed itself of another symmetry, the front/back symmetry, with front as nourishment and back as excrements. The front and rear of animals are different, as are the top and bottom, but the right and left of animals remains symmetrical. This is bilateral symmetry with one axis of symmetry. The animals feed on plants and each other, and are directed by the four drives: nourishment, fear, aggression and reproduction in the double frame of survival and species instinct. Animals follow the Torus attractor, they engage in complex behaviors and are dependent upon each other and the environment in multileveled ecological systems. (1) - Around 11,000 years ago the first Neolithic Man evolved from Paleolithic animal Man. From that time on we have had the potential to shed the last right-left symmetry by taming the Strange attractors. (2) Since the human life stage is so relatively new, we are still born with the animals right-left axis of symmetry and must strive to attain true Humanity. Although there are some differences in the symmetry of the human face, overall we are as left-right symmetrical as the other animals. But with our neocortex abilities, our capacities of language and number, we can self organize out of this last constraint. One of the keys to self organization is the coherent application of chance to ride the strange attractors. In this way we can use both the brains we are born with, the left and right hemispheres of the neocortex. The left hemisphere, turned to the cosmos and structure is digital, linear. The right hemisphere, turned towards chaos and chance has its origin in the nine numerals, the archetypes of fractal scaling. Each should be allowed to develop fully, to be different and totally asymmetrical. When the right brain is as strong as the left, a higher identity is created. The higher self follows the Strange attractors, epitomized by Mandelbrot set, z z¾ + c, and also corresponding to the musical octave and the Tao symbol. Most of us are still right left symmetrical because our left brain so totally dominates the right. We have to shift our emphasis from cosmos to chaos, from left brain dominance, to right brain balance. Then the right is not just an imitation of the left, it is different, unique. The last symmetry is gone and now the two asymmetrical sides can cohere in a new singularity. The ego, subject of the left hemisphere, becomes the organ of the Self in the right hemisphere. It attains this by establishing true contact with the Other. Right brain coherence comes through receptivity to the workings of the Strange attractors, to constrained chance. In the moments when this is realized, when we are in a coherent flow with the unpredictable turbulence of the World, we have attained the birthright of Man. We have realized the potential to self organize to a higher stage of evolution. As a whole being, in touch with both sides of ourself and others, we transcend the left-right animal symmetry. With two fully developed, yet distinctly different brains, we are autonomous, asymmetrical, truly free from outside manipulation. We have attained a higher inner coherence, a self organization in the midst of chaos. To animal man we seem like Strange attractors indeed. On the surface, and in the moment, our actions may appear haphazard and foolhardy, but over time the wisdom and beauty of the Human Man will be apparent to all. (0) - The highest stage, beyond even the higher Man, is merger with God, the great singularity beyond name and form, as the real subject of Being, through synchronicity, love, and illumination: reaching the eternal moment. The five stages correspond to the dimensions and mind layers: Zero dimension Awareness makes possible integration of the four dimensions and the four states of consciousness. It allows Man to enter the fourth dimension and gives him access to the fractal forces of the Strange attractors. By moving from the left to the right brain in regression you can relive past lives, past evolution, back to the origin of the Universe in the Great Singularity, and the exploding force of the primal Fire-Quanta. This regression back to the original primal Quanta puts you in touch with the source of Self-Organization, the Power of CHI. This opens you to the energy and force needed to maintain coherence in the fractal chaos of the fourth dimension. Now let us look at all of the energies together which can be understood as an energy field of Cosmic Mind. The following correspondences appear in Cosmic Mind today to make up the basic Myth of Science. Myth is not used in a derogatory sense, as just a myth, but in the sense of a true belief system which gives meaning to life. Science has largely replaced the old religious myths which were in tune with the feudal and ideological structures of the past. The following chart summarizes the overall cosmology of the myth of science and shows the relation of the five layers and the seven constituent parts. The radiation of the photons is awareness through seeing and sensing. The electromagnetic energy of the electron allows awareness through smelling and thinking; the thermodynamics of the atom through tasting and feeling. The fission of the Galaxy becomes conscious by the power of speech, of the spirit creating new entities out of entropy. The fusion of the sun is the basis of the synergy of the soul, interpretation and reading, the creation of meaning. The gravitational energy of the earth is accessible through the sense of touch. The mathematics of the molecular forces represents the basic structure of the Will. With living forms Will is the capacity for growth and reproduction through the genetic code. The subject self organizes and grows based on the strange attractor. New beings arise through fractal scaling according to the overall structure of the Cosmic Mind using the energies and mathematics of sound, the molecular vibrations or movement of matter, soul and spirit. With Man this process of the growth of being using free will was described by Buddhists as the creation of the immortal Diamond Body or the Golden Flower. By using free will in tune with the Strange Attractor and the energies of sound, our associative consciousness can change into Cosmic Awareness. The subject moves like a fractal in scales from the lower self imprisoned in deep molecular sleep, to the transcendent light of zero synchronistic awareness. This is the final aim of evolution, making sense of life and becoming co-creators of the manifoldness of the Universe. From: http://www.chanceandchoice.com/
  9. That's the worst song I've posted, probably. The one just above.
  10. I was thinking that in the last week, we've gone through a major stress point of some kind astrologically. I enjoyed Emerald's latest today. Enjoyed this older one on self deception also. So true. Great stuff! It's still an ongoing issue with me. Watched this one while I was at it. ??‍??‍♂️ I still try to read everyone's journal. I usually have my I phone playing everyone's songs and videos that they've posted while I read text with my I Pad. Got good quality sound through a Visio sound bar. Tried some toad venom today for the first time.
  11. I wasn't aware of this thread until just a moment ago. Seeing @Amandine 's post of Lynn Anderson's song brought to mind a couple of other country songs from the past.
  12. The overall process for me in regards to Actualization has been one of waking up and then learning to stay awake. Continuity of Consciousness. It's one thing that's so valuable in the practice of not expressing negative emotions,,,,, In catching myself 'asleep' or reactive. Complaining is sleep as well as being self congratulatory. One of my defense mechanisms at times has been grandiosity. Putting on a big front,,, out of fear. Counterphobic grandiosity. Its ongoing. Work in progress,,,, Some biographies I've enjoyed and some are just biographical stories,,
  13. @seeking_brilliance I appreciate the amount of detail you brought back. At one point in reading it, I thought " yeah, this is about right for someone who's worked at Disney world. ? Pretty deep stuff though,,, like with the pineal gland,,, I tried a dream mask a few years ago that detected r.e.m. states. It was bulky and uncomfortable and so I really didn't give it a fair chance despite paying out some decent cash for it. I haven't looked but I bet there are a lot better models nowadays.
  14. ? I'm happy for you. Good luck with more lucid dreaming.
  15. Some of Terrences words have become quite prophetic.
  16. I haven't found it yet. Is Mercy not the highest law? C-2.9. Your questions have no answer, being made to still God's Voice, which asks of everyone one question only: "Are you ready yet to help Me save the world?" 2 Ask this instead of what the ego is, and you will see a sudden brightness cover up the world the ego made. 3 No miracle is now withheld from anyone. 4 The world is saved from what you thought it was. 5 And what it is, is wholly uncondemned and wholly pure. C-2.10. The miracle forgives; the ego damns. 2 Neither need be defined except by this. 3 Yet could a definition be more sure, or more in line with what salvation is? 4 Problem and answer lie together here, and having met at last the choice is clear. 5 Who chooses hell when it is recognized? 6 And who would not go on a little while when it is given him to understand the way is short and Heaven is his goal? from: https://acourseinmiraclesnow.com/course-miracles-clarification-terms-ego-miracle/
  17. In ACIM, it says somewhere that any attitude other than either peace or joy is egoic. Im going to try to find this place and see how wrong I just paraphrased it.
  18. I should have added that The Psychological shadow is what is gone after first in Scientology Auditing. Everything in an auditing session is written down. Somewhere there is a file in Scientology that contains the shadow material of 'you know who and ole what's her name'. So that's what a prospective Scientologist is facing,,,, if there are any out there who are reading this or if you know anyone,,, Naturally they get big results in processing out shadow material.
  19. Dianetics and Scientology produces results in people processing out their endogen engrams. The e- meter is basicly a lie detector. Engram An Engram is the hypothesized physical memory trace, either biophysical or biochemical, that that is produced when information is stored in the brain. Although the actual existence of memory "engrams" is still unproven, some theories exist using the engram hypothesis that seem to explain how memories are stored in the brain and persist. The exact means, mechanism and location of this type of memory storage continues to be a subject of study and controversy. When I was in Scientology i wasn't allowed to be audited because I had taken lsd a couple of times as a teenager. I got felt results though just using the book Self Analysis everytime I did it a few days in a row. Its really simple. You just rotate this wheel across the statements given a situation given in the book. In the recall or picturing of the situation, you focus on whatever the wheel indicates. This book had a place in my escape from a severe depression in my early twenties. They're Was at one time, a lot of people, mostly in California, who left Scientology and formed unofficial/heretic groups out away from the Cult. They would get together with their old emeters which cost over $1000 if I remember right and audit one another.
  20. I can't remember which talk it was but in one of his talks, Almaas, who was several minutes into it said. - "Now I would like to invite you all to leave yourselves alone." That statement shifted my awareness to where I was able to suddenly let go all of my internal dialogue and taste a deeper, new level of inner quiet and peace. It didn't last. Very rare is the individual who does this in one fell swoop. Actually, I can think of no one. In some way, we each get a crucifixtion of emotions in being pulled back and forth over the threshold of Heaven and Hell. Thinking then being and then back into neurotic thinking and then waking up into being, again. On and on,,,
  21. Face palm ? I overlooked your mention here of Grof's - The Way of the Psychonaut. Got the 2 volume set in the mail last week. Looks really rich,,,