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I did acid only a few times, but this song was really enjoyable: And here's the whole mix just for you (while on acid there was so much wisdom in this lyrics)

Yes, Absolute Truth is a concept. Any words which try to describe Absolute Truth are not It. They are just pointers. Absolute Truth is paradoxical. You can't really "catch" It. Imagine to describe for a fish what is water. What would be the best way to do it? The best way for the fish to understand what is water is jump out of water to the air. Any other words about water are just concepts for the fish. And when the fish returns to the water and describes what is water to other fishes is also concept. The same goes for a human. If human wants to know what is Absolute Truth the only valid way to do it is mystical experience. Anything else, like answers on this forum, are just concepts.

Quantity and quality is another duality. Both are important. Find your own balance.

Nice. Thanks for sharing.

Infinite butt. LoL

+ (plus) also concept = (equals) concept too concept is concept

Yeah, and the easiest way to make an energetic shift is...? Right, psychodelics. I would add that theory (books) is the same importance as practice (direct experience), just find your own balance. Someone would say theory and practice will collapse eventually but I am not going to say that.

I think the example with the dancer spinning shows that any truth is relative. So, it's both delusion and truth, depends on view point. Also, there is Truth with capital T. But whenever words involved to describe it toLowerCase is called.

I agree with Ibn Sina, that would be a better design.

Yeah, 25ug is not a microdose. But it's not comparable with a full dose (125ug). It's not like 5 times stronger. It's completely different. So, yeah, try 25ug but then I suggest to find a trip sitter and have a full dose. Don't forget to have a good environment (good music, clean apartment, a lot of food (specially blueberries), water) and good to go. Good luck.

@Chumbimba I suggest to find a way to go out from the home. Go to university far away from home for example. So you can see your family but really rarely. When you are far away from home start forgiving your mother and family. That's how you grow in life - by forgiving them, but also being on distance from them and having your own life. Good luck.

5-meo doesn't guarantee the awakening experience.

Half jokingly / half seriously: If you can't decide to keep the company or not - just flip a coin. Anyway, nobody on this forum can answer about you better than You. If even you can't decide on this, then just flip a coin and decide once and for all. Nothing is random in this Universe, including flipping a coin.

I had at least 2 experiences which I may call mystical. One is on 5meo. Firstly, I became a dot and went into a different dimension. Few thoughts arised: I am loosing my life, I became crazy. Then BAM! Complete peace, bliss, Love. I am Cosmic Love or unconditional Love, I am everything, for eternity and then my ego returned to the body. Another was on lsd. I became conscious that I am here the only One. I called my friend and I knew that he is me and it's me talking to me. And that my kid is me, my mother is me. I CAN'T talk to anyone, there is no point to talk to anyone since everyone is me. It was so scary that I started to talk to myself that I want to forget this experience. I don't want to know the Truth. And after some time I returned to normal. With this sad thing that I am alone was a nice thing - freedom. Freedom to do what you want. Nobody is stopping you since there is only You.

If you are physically and mentally normal, and can sit 1 hour meditating - go for it. It's amazing experience, but don't have high expectations. I had an insight related to my past behavior on my Vipassana retreat. How evilly I behaved. It helped me to fix something. But if we are talking about open-mindedness and mystical experiences, 1 tab of LSD was more beneficial to me than 10 days of Vipassana. And more challenging

Agree with @Space I would try finding a way to keep the company and have more free time.

Beautiful, Leo, thanks for sharing on Monday. Motivation went up. Reminds me of 'Conversations with God' book. Have you read this book before trip?

Any book's publishing date estimation?

I remember hearing from different sources that what you fear you attract to your life. So fear manifests into life experience which probably brings suffering. And I assume that through suffering it is easier to realise your true nature and grow spiritually. So, at the end fear helps, it's a good thing, isn't it? Or my chain of thoughts is wrong somewhere?

That was said that Formless can't know yourself, so it creared the world of duality. But why we assume so? Imagine an ant trying to understand the life of human. Maybe, it's just not possible? I mean, of course the smartest ants (say with name Leo) and many others may argue about it. Tell that it is so. Formless can't know yourself. We are all One. Look how many scriptures written about it. But isn't life paradoxical and if many people tell similar thing this is probably a bad sign and it's not true? Smartest ants may tell take a honeydew and check with your direct experience, rational mind can't grasp it. And so I did few times. But honeydew is only half of the story. Another half of the story is theoretical foundation from the smartest ants which forced me to rationalise the Experience in very specific way. What if everyone is deluded? What if Formless can know yourself via yourself and Reality works in completely different way, not like in ants' scriptures? I don't know.

@Nahm ? eventually everything will collapse.

@Nahm hard to find ?. But what I meant is I have an idea (which I think I heard from the different sources) that Formless can't know itself, so it creared Form, world of duality, to know itself through itself.

@tsuki well said. I think it clarifies something to my rational mind, thanks. But anyway, I want to be extra skeptical to any spiritual stuff since I feel you may get in trap very quickly. I want to go in my spiritual journey from the position "I don't know" until I verify through direct experience rather then believing what scriptures tell. As for now, having just a few full trips, I can't be 100% sure that Formless should become a Form in order to know itself via Form. I need more direct experience I guess

@Inliytened1 thanks for your reply That's exactly what I am talking about. We assume using our rational minds that it should "unknow" itself but what if this is just a wrong assumption of our limited mind. What if there is other way to know itself without unknowing and all this spiritual mumbo-jumbo is just as delusional as materialistic worldview. And yes, you can be It, then you "know" . But again, mind rationalize the Experience afterwards based on theoretical knowledge prior to the Experience.

The main guys for me, why I am reading this forum are @Leo Gura, @Serotoninluv and @Nahm, but they are pretty active, so I don't miss them. Lol