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@Nahm My peak beyond conceptual occured long ago. I am an artist Nahm. A deeply passionate one. The thing that people call "the peak", or "the flow state" is something I was engaged in since I can remember, pretty much. I litterally had nothing but music. Since I know myself as Ivan. No real family, no real friends, no real anything really. Only music. Only melodies. Only flow. Only passion. That is how I am here where I am. I did not choose to be involved in any movement or group. I just live my passion. With my every breath. There is no movement I make without consciously aiming for passion. I did this while I was asleep as well, automatically. Since I became aware of it now, I can keep doing what I was doing since forever; with even more passion and love; consciously. Also; I'd say I gained some solid wisdom during the journey so far. It was not my intention tho. I was never a way too "knowledge-oriented" person. Yet it happened, naturally. I seem to see through a lot of things and understend them. Without much effort or trying. It just came along. I do not fear attachment; I do not fear detachment. And I also have no need to present any evidence. I proved to myself what I doubted. I do not require confirmations. Spirituality helped me understand a lot of stuff. Helped me see my own steps more clearly. Helped me heal wounds. Helped me see myself. But all of it occured within stillness. Within the nothingness. I know myself as a creator. As both nothing and everything. I do not care if it is true or not. I cannot be anything else but the creator; the artist. I consciously choose that. Am I attached to that label? Do I identify with it? Yes. And totally not. Love.

To me, this is deja vu: Out of nowhere I get a sudden feeling of remembering this exact moment happening to me before. There is no real remembering tho. And no before. I was just fully aware of the moment in "real time". As I created it. Right now. When the mind tries to grasp this in retrospect, it labels it as "deja vu".

Hello @Giulio Bevilacqua Take a deep breath. You have planty of time to decide. 8 months is long period. No need for rush. You might wanna let some air in that mind; create some space. The answear to all your concerns is in there; but you know that already. Just calm down and let the answear come to you. Ask yourself; "what is the thing that will bring me the highest fulfillment? What will make me wake up each morning bursting with energy and willpower? What is that which will color my life, instead of drain it? What is my deepest passion and intention?" It sounds like you are on a crossroad. I know how it feels. Been there a few times myself. I had to decide between a pretty decant job and my passion...which is music. I followed the hearth and it worked out for me just fine. Again. Breathe. You got this.

@Joseph Maynor Seems like you have a lot of work going on Cool system. @Arthur How is any path not conceptual? There is nowhere to go, nothing to achieve. You and me; we cannot possibly know how enlightened the master really is. We just see an old guy in lotus position, talking about enlightenment. He is an appearance. Knowing everything about enlightenment does not equal actual enlightenment. It may be good to know to explain certain things; but it also may be completely useless. That depends on the nature of the path, I guess. Which is conceptual Don't think the tree is not enlightened just because it is unable to explain everything about it. Altough if you listen carefully; it might as well do just that

Cool guy; kinda repetitive tho. I resonate more with his good buddy Victor Oddo. Used to watch his videos often. Both do their own thing. They may be far from hardcore nondualistic teachings; but they are both great for those who are yet on the begining of their journey. Good vibes.

If you see a room only; that is the whole universe. And you are it.

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@Nahm And it's kickass I see where you're going tho. Thanks.

@Anton Rogachevski This is all just a delusion anyways

All there is has the idea of Ivan. Ivan has the idea of all there is. Ivan is all there is, yet Ivan is not at all. Now what?

@bejapuskas I do not need to transcend the idea. I created the idea

@Nahm The idea of an individual called Ivan exists within all there is.

@Nahm There might be an idea of two things. But they are one in actuality. They coexist. The conceptual is within the actual. In that way; it is it.

@Nahm I am both simultaniously. Both Ivan and all there is. Both nothing and everything. It's miraculous. Impossible. The idea of a seperate self is happening within all there is too. That is how there is no separation. An idea of a "part" may exist, but it can never separate itself from all there is. All happens now and now only.

All there is is all there is; which implies the character is a part of it as well. There is an I. It is transparent. Ever-changing. Just like all there is. No separation between anything.

All there is.

@Nahm Over here, right now; yeah. It might be different somewhere else.

Everything only appears. Whatever it is; it should be respected, not denied.

@bejapuskas Agreed @Anton Rogachevski Thanks for reading, friend. I like how you described it. I'd add to that by saying that it is about making the dream become real. Come true. And that is in itself a very beautiful experience. @Emanyalpsid You put that very nicely. I gree. My intention is not to minimize or discredit any aproach or orientation. I just see very little difference between them all at this moment. I enjoy observing all things coming together into one.

I like that. Except that you are the character as well. Spirituality leads you to the realization that you are everything including nothing. Nevertheless, after realizing this; you still have a game to play and a character to take care of, would you agree? In my experience it seems to be so. And I'm lovin' it.

Be interesting to yourself. Find yourself attractive. You may find others will start seeing you that way as well. Experiment but be careful. Embrace this period of your life. You'll figure it all out along the ride. Stay real; be where you are. Stand your own ground.

@Mikael89 It seems like nowdays there are more fake buddha quotes than real ones

In my experiance, boredom is a transition of some sort. It may be viewed as an invitation to merge witgh the present moment and simply be. Notice when you are bored, it's your mind that has the need to be entertained, stimulated. Nothing else. Focus on surrendering to what is; do not run away from the emptyness. You may also simply use your imagination to find a way to amuse yourself. It's not a sin. Be creative and passionate. It may kill the notion of boredom.

Because this fantasy is the realest thing that will ever be. It's flawless.

@bejapuskas If one trully cares about becoming their highest expression or version; the things you mentioned occur naturally. It is simply how evolution is. How transformation and growth happens. It is natural to become more compassionate, considerate and loving. Also wise, mature and well articulated. If this does not happen, there is no actual growth. Only the conceptualization of it.