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@Angelite There are no slaves if all is done willingly. Alignment is all there is. Everything is perfectly aligned. Not recognizing that is what causes suffering. I, as an individual, still have much to learn, heal and improve. Yes, I found God.

Maybe this helps, maybe not; But I see this like just a newly developed, spiritual ego ranting against and demonizing the old, "ordinary" ego. It's not actually transcended, just slightly altered. And it's all happening within one being. Within you. Just my opinion. Take it as you will. It is not about "integrating the illusion", as you put it. When the ego is fully recognized and acknowledged it is allowed to serve its purpose. Its existence is validated, thus it becomes barely noticeable. Transparent. It merges with the light of Divinity and is seen as an inseparable extension of God. It does not get in the way or contradict anything, rather assists. It has its role and experience and is in alignment and harmony with All That Is. This is how you're both the father and the son. Simultaneously.

@Surfingthewave Because it can. Sometimes it's just supposed to. It's a part of the journey. No matter how enlightened one is. As a matter of fact; the more enlightened one is the more ok it is to feel any which way. There is no resistance and neither is there denial. Life can do its thing. There is acknowledgment, appreciation and willingness to go through it all, experiencing everything at full capacity. Even suckyness. Right now, I'm having a pretty sucky night. But somehow I'm also loving it.

@VeganAwake In my opinion, spreading a message which encourages one to "kill" and get rid of their ego is far more dangerous. I've seen many loose touch with themselves, reality, and most importantly their hearts - due to misinterpretations of such guidelines. I was one of them, as well. And I went to the extremes. To the point where I dissolved the five human senses completely. There was constant dying, only. Actual, physical dying. It was not merely a conceptual death, or ego death. I experienced pain and terror unimaginable to a human being. My breath was taken away, body torn apart. And then there was nothing. And no notion of it. How I managed to reincarnate, materialize and ground myself back into physical form is a mystery. Magic. I've never felt more grateful, ever. Grateful for the chance to be, to exist. To be conscious. To sense. To breathe. Grateful that there is anything, at all. Spend time trying to kill no more than you are ready to experience death and agony. Spend no time doing that, at all, if you seek liberation while still walking, talking and breathing. Something tells me "coming back" as you is not guaranteed. I feel lucky, really. I could've reincarnated as a turtle. Or an ant. Perhaps another human being. Not knowing a thing about what happened. Having no awareness of the transition, or any memory of my life as Ivan. God is not to be messed with. The real danger in doing this work is not being rooted in heart through each and every moment of the journey. When heart-centered consciousness acts as a guide, a mentor and a compassionate companion towards the ego, there is no reason for any outbursts, destructive behaviours and harmful tendencies. The ego is acknowledged and so it accepts its role as a carrier of light, a vehicle for Divinity and a fateful servant. There is no more conflict between duality and non-duality. Both interplay. God is realized. Infinity is. I am not trying to say that there is no possibility for this path, this approach, to lead one to confusion and leave them with a misunderstanding. That can surely happen. But I am certain it leaves much less room for any actual, life-threatening dangers. No one should be left traumatized or be paralyzed in pain in an attempt to realize their true nature. And the heart will always make sure that never happens. Much love, friend.

This is heart-centered consciousness speaking. Not the ego. The ego is fully submitted, surrendered and dedicated to service to the Divine. Notice your judgment and resistance towards the mind. Which is you, really. No matter how hard you try to deny it and declare the transcendence of it. There are no enemies. There are only allies in disguise. Not recognizing them and how they are here to assist you is what causes suffering. There is nothing wrong with the mind. It cannot be abandoned. Pure, loving consciousness will always commit to life. I appreciate your effort, but your perspective seems rather limiting to me. It is one of exclusion, rather than inclusion. Which is not the path I'm walking. Though I certainly remember going through that phase. Thank you, much love.

So often we find ourselves at the crossroads of life, unsure of which turn to take. How to make that next step. Where to shine our light. Seeing the vast ocean of endless possibilities can be overwhelming at times; instead of liberating. If you happen to feel this way, I want to let you know; it's fine. You're not alone. It's only natural. All big picture thinkers go through this phase. The ocean can make you feel like a tiniest little dot; drifting at the mercy of winds. That is why you must learn how to navigate yourself through. How to read your inner compass. You are the captain of this ship. You are the one who decides where it goes. Choose the most exciting direction. That's right; excitement is the heart of your navigation system. It let's you know where your next biggest adventure is. Your highest joy and bliss. Your greatest opportunity for growth and expansion. It just so happened that I felt excited about creating this thread. I followed that nudge and now my eyes are already smiling. I was facing indecisiveness and uncertainty many times throughout this journey. It is not a pleasant spot to be in. No one likes that sense of being stuck. Precisely because things are meant to flow. Naturally and effortlessly. Yet no matter how much I'd try to hide and deny it; somewhere deep inside I was feeling unworthy. And that sense of unworthiness was responsible for my insecurity. It was the reason why I could not stand my own ground and be confident and certain about my decisions. I did not know myself truly. I did not recognize my own value. One could argue bad parenting is the main reason behind it all; but I'm not here to play the blaming game. Pointing fingers will not help one heal their wounds. Instead; one must find a way to recognize their own light. To show the love to themselves that they were not shown to by their parents or others. And that can be a process. But it is the biggest gift one can give to themselves. It is worth it. You are worth it. No matter how many times you were led to feel otherwise. No matter how many times you were not heard, seen or understood. No matter how many overlooked your spark. Your gift. Your light. No matter how insignificant you were made to feel. You are absolutely worthy of it all. Of everything you feel your heart is pulling you towards. You are worthy of creating your own paradise. Your own piece of the divine. Your dream life. Your kingdom. Only you can declare your own worth. Only you can recognize your own value. Only you can acknowledge the beauty of your gifts that are meant to be shared with the whole universe. Do it for yourself. Do it for your past, do it for your future. Do it for us all. Do it now. Be certain. May your fire burn unlike ever before. No one will dare to dim your light again, I promise. You will simply notice no shadow. You will be too busy admiring the perfection of your every step. The beauty of your every move. The art you create by simply daring to be who and what you are; doing what you're best at. Following your heart. You will shift from feeling unworthy to being priceless. So that the next time you find yourself at one of those crossroads; you will dare to choose the path that feels the most exciting; knowing you are worthy of making your own choice. Worthy of choosing your own path. Your own life. You are the cure.

My parents split when I was 3. They were never married, it was a high school romance. My mother had me at barely 18. Since, I saw my father a handful of times. Not more than 10. He established a new family. Never bothered to reach out. Never called, not even on my birthday. Been living with my mother, well, at least kind of. Since I was 6 she was working abroad and would be absent for months at a time. Meanwhile I'd stay with various caretakers, who did not give much crap about me, really. We moved frequently. Never had a sense of home. At age 15, mother decided to move me to the country where she worked. New territory, new language, new people... And I was hitting puberty hard. It sucked. She wanted us to be close after all those years, I guess. But that didn't work out well, since I got way too used to being by myself. Having nobody around. She also lacked emotional intelligence, big time. And the wounds were already too deep. Still healing to this day. Thank God; I discovered my bigest love and passion at a very young age - music! It was my parent, my friend, my everything. I doubt I'd be alive without it. It guided me, protected me, nurtured me. I was all about music. Nothing mattered besides my guitar for a very long time. It's still what I breathe for. I would not wish my childhood on anybody. No child should be abandoned and neglected. However, I also came to see beauty in my story. I found strenght in solitude. Burning passion and self-love. I can relay on myself, truly. I learned how to be there for myself. How to believe in myself. Take care of myself. Listen to myself. It surely planted the seeds for a fast, deep and intense awakening. I look at it as both a blessing and a curse. Today; I am happy with where my life's headed. It's an epic adventure. I moved to the other side of the world, far away from anyone or anything I knew. Everyday I come to know and love myself a bit deeper. I am also slowly developing a healthy connection with my mother - from a distance. Things are good. Living the dream I dreamed of as a kid. Writing my story. All thanks to music and its miraculous power.

Others can hurt you and you can still realize the feelings you feel are being cultivated within your being, out of your energy, by you. Emotional mastery is not about control. It is about understanding how to transform energy in motion using the power of our loving hearts.

@Inliytened1 Who's saying that? An overwhelmed, dishonored and disrespected ego. Its just a tendency that can be easily developed if one gets too excited about "becoming God". Many view ego as some sort of an anomaly; an error, that needs to be deleted. And that couldn't be further from truth.

The ego is to be integrated, not denied or abandoned. Guided into the light lovingly, with compassion and understanding. It's quite ridiculous to think God would create ego in order to kill it mercilessly. That's nonsense. Cowardly. Ego is the soul in its most dormant phase of evolution. It is a sleeping God. It is important to identify the distinction, in order to be the guide we came here to be. This way the ego can surrender to divine guidance and everything can serve its purpose. That's true, divinely orchestrated perfection and harmony.

@Matt8800 I noticed you've been recommending those frequently. Can feel some resonance. Will do, thanks!

So, last night I projected my consciousness spontaneously into the astral realm, for the very first time. I have no evidence or proof, of course. All I have is the undeniable inner knowing. It was present during the whole experience and it came back with me as I woke up. Something in me just knows. The experience itself was pure magic. I have never experienced bliss and freedom to this degree. There is nothing like it. I struggle to recreate the experience within my imagination as I'm typing. It was just so otherworldly. Unimaginable from where I am right now. A long while ago, I was quite interested in astral projection. And although I had a strong intention, combined with numerous techniques - I could never actually do it. So after a while I just stopped trying. Since then I had a handful of lucid dreaming experiences, which occurred spontaneously as well - without any effort or intention. However, those experiences weren't exactly pleasant, for whatever reason. Not nearly as magical and heavenly. Much denser and "ordinary" in nature. What I experienced last night was totally different. On a whole new level. It was not merely about me being aware of the fact that I'm dreaming. This was a completely different realm, instead of the "usual" dream realm. I really struggle to describe it. But if I tried to point towards something; I'd say the main difference was in the overall frequency/vibration of the realm. Everything, including myself, was pure light. Transparent, even. Incredibly vivid, colourful and alive. It felt more real than waking life, I kid you not. I perceived everything in great detail. My senses were razor sharp. Extremely sensitive. For the majority of the experience I had a human-like body. But there were also instances where I had no body whatsoever. Just pure awareness/light. I remember flying above the mountains. Feeling the pleasant breeze blow against me. Completely carefree, joyful and playful. I had ultimate freedom. I was able to speed up time and fast forward - shifting through countless frozen frames at the speed of light. This way I was able to jump from one experience to another. From one timeline to another - I suppose. I was even able to "pause" a particular frame and mold it as I pleased. Then, as if I was to hit "play" again - the experience continued. It was beyond any fiction or fantasy. And I was doing all that consciously, intentionally and on purpose - if you will. At one point I even experienced myself as the entire ocean! Shapeshifting? How crazy is that?! Hah! It just cannot be put into words. Pure heaven. I also interacted with other beings, quite a lot. Even had some erotic action going on, lol! It was beyond my wildest dreams. I woke up and I instantly knew what was going on. There is no doubt in my mind, even now as the memory is getting more and more foggy. I just know. As much as I'd love to recreate similar experiences, I guess it will not be an every night thing. I feel like the more I'd try to force or chase it, the further away it would get. But I also recognize the experience as an invitation of some sort. As well as a reminder of just how limitless, free and unbound my soul is. In our everyday lives, it can often seem as if there's nothing outside of this realm. But there is so so so much more. Infinitely more. I am so greatful to be reminded of that in this magical way. If anyone had any similar experiences I'd really like to connect on the topic with you. I'm completely new to this world. And I'm super excited about it! God bless ya all!

@flume Seeking truth is a never-ending cycle. The one who seeks will never find it. The truth cannot be told, either. Especially not "straight forward" so that it makes perfect logical sense. The truth is already within us. It is us. And we are it. The truth is love. All else is interpretations of it. Love is creative. It is mysterious. It's not a pattern. So it can hardly be analysed. That is why the analytical approach fails in conveying it with accuracy. Leading is only possible through example. And the examples we present should be rooted in love. Especially if we consciously choose to help others. Only this way can love be recognized within them. I think Leo's work is fun and exciting. I look at it as a more scientific approach. And that's fine. The passion is obvious. But do I think it could be more rooted in love and compassion? Yes, I do. Definitely. It could also be simplified. But again; this is not about ranting against Leo's work. Rather my overall view on what's going on in today's spiritual movement. And that's no surprise, really. We live in an era where masculinity and analytical thinking are dominant. If you ask me, all of this is just about us awakening and embracing the suppressed feminine energy within us. Which has nothing to do with gender, of course. What's the goal? To be here and now, and to absolutely love it! And we can't do that before we heal.

@Leo Gura I agree on spreading awareness about it. However if the child was severely wounded and/or mentally disturbed you'd probably focus on healing them first. Africa and kangaroos could wait. Most of humanity at this time is deeply wounded and conditioned, aware of it or not. Denying it or not. Using a spiritual insight to hover above life is certainly not what this is all about. Many, however, fall into that trap after one or two mystical experiences. A child needs love. That's all. You would not chase a child (ego) out of town just so you could get where you want to be faster, would you? You would slowly guide it towards the light, while holding it's hand. Through loving and healing our hearts the puzzle would put itself together much more naturally. Rather than chasing a certain realization or state which can be misused and misinterpreted very easily if we're not quite ready for it. The caterpillar cannot fly before turning into a butterfly. It all comes down to approach and there are many, I suppose. I just simply don't resonate with the "everything is illusion, I am God" one, anymore. I guess that's the masculine way to go about it. The masculine is all about transcending. The feminine is about inviting in. Including. Holding space. Nurturing. Perhaps there is a lack of balance between the two. Not trying to criticize your work or approach, either; don't get me wrong. Obviously many are attracted and that's great. Just expressing my view and opinion on what would be most beneficial and helpful to all.

Everything comes and goes. The Breath stays. Become one with it. Breathe consciously. Uninterrupted. No thing is more important. No thought, no sensation. Breath comes first. Before you think - breathe. Before you act - breathe. Before you speak - breathe. Before you listen - breathe. Hear the words and remain unchanged. No rush to react or to respond. Breath is primary. Create your space and your time. - Breathe in, breathe out. Prioritize breath over all.

It sucks so we can grow and transform. Ourselves and everything around us. The nightmare is only one side of the spectrum. Love is the answer. It's what sets us free. What to do about life? Live it. Love it.

Awakening is forever. Everything we wake up to is what we eventually wake out of. Only love stays. That's what we never wake up from.

It's contradictory. First you must let go of the need to let go. What you are actually doing is resisting those thoughts and sensations by trying hard to let them go. This way they're amplified. Realize it's all here and now. Include it all instead of trying to exclude anything. Do nothing and observe. Everything will unravel on it's own. Focus on the breath.

All of reality is already here and now. Regardless of your current experience. You are merely shifting from one complete configuration to another.

I don't think Buddha was walking around telling everybody how he's God. Neither did Jesus. If one was to truly recognize "God" being all loud about it is the last thing they would do. I am no fan of SD either, but I understand what you mean. I guess it all comes down to wearing the shoes that fit. I prefer humble teachings of Love. If any.

It is not true for the one who does not recognize it as their truth. Claiming you're God is useless in any way, if you ask me. God has no need to claim anything. It's the Devil that loves making a spectacle out of everything. I just see it all as more harmful than helpful. "God" is such a strong word and many view and understand it in various ways. They have their own ideas and beliefs attached to it. Most of which will be shattered, sooner or later. As will the concept of God. It's just too limiting. Anyway...This is certainly not my battle. Not planning on becoming a guru. Just sharing an opinion.

My objection is; This whole "I am God / You are God" movement that's popular in modern day spirituality is incredibly distracting and misleading. In my opinion it causes more confusion than it helps anyone navigate their awakening. Which btw, if authentic, is happening rather naturally. If one is meant to get there; they will. No need for spoiling. I see people losing their minds over this. Becoming completely disconnected from reality and super delusional. It is inevitable for one's ego who's going through the early stages of awakening to "abuse" information like that and cause madness within and around them. It's just the nature of ego. So the outcome is more often than not just another Devil claiming to be God. And that's dangerous.

@Mu_ Beautiful. Simple and grounded. Thank you!

Why do I sense such a strong urge to explain it? Why does it seem like by doing so I would solve something big? Is this simply the human nature? Or is it more personal? Am I seeking some sort of validation? Acknowledgement? It is pretty clear to me; it cannot be explained. Simply because every explanation is it. It explains nothing. "The tongue cannot taste itself." I want to let the knowing be. I do not see myself as a preacher or a guru. I desire simplicity. Full dedication to my life purpose. It is not my job to explain anything. Especially not the unexplainable. How to fully let the knowing go, without losing awareness of it?

@Serotoninluv Sharing is nice, yes. And I am all for it. Expression, as well. It was more about the internal process though. I kept explaining to myself my every step, my every move. To the point where I could not blink without investigating the reason why. Like some kind of a mad scientist At times it was very mentally draining. And there was no more joy and passion involved. I was doing it automatically. I kinda want to just enjoy the sunset now, without calculating how exactly is it occurring - if you know what I mean