Azrael

It's a pleasure to share this with you guys. Thanks for the appreciation. I'm living alone in Berlin. So I do it here in my apartment if I do it for spiritual exploration and integration work. In the summer I sometimes drop acid outside with friends to enjoy nature or be at a music festival and have fun. It's tremendously satisfying to do something like acid with good friends. You'll really grow together with these trips because they are so intimate and deep.

Yes, I think so indeed. Probably it will be unnecessary in a few more trips. Also the dosage I will have to take to reach infinity will probably go down. Because as more resistance gets released, it's easier to get there. Nope, I'm not telling you this. Read more closely.

Hey, I take 2 grams of the powder, mix it with a little bit of water and then just drink it. Then I wait 10-15 minutes and do the MeO. I elaborated in my second post a little bit on what it does. Basically it brings your attention in your body, makes a smile on your face and motivates you. So it brings up good feelings and makes it easier to surrender. For me, it does the trick. When I do MeO with Kola Nut I have a completely nice trip. No existential terror, just surrendering and pure bliss.

@Martin123 I meditate now for 1.5 years. You'll go through most of the strange things at some point in your practice.

You'll come across many very strange things in meditation, just go with it. Just to mention a few things that I came across so far: Intense hallucinations, seeing literally objects appearing and disappearing in front of my eyes, dream states, out of body states, Kundalini-like experiences, no-self/enlightenment experiences, being moved by something that is not in ones own control, hearing strange voices / bumming sounds, getting bored / sleepy ...

I see no reason why I should do it in a dark room. If you are infinite it doesn't matter anyways. Doing it in a pool just provokes that if you get unconscious you'll drown. So no, see that MeO is not like doing shrooms or something similar.

@cetus56 Sounds great

Look up Taoism and Zen. I'm following their way now for some time and it's been extraordinary. Maaan, beautifully worded. That's one of the most crazy realizations I had so far. To see it in the moment just blows everything away. Even when you come back to an egoic state.. one picture of this infinite state brings you to tears.

If you see infinity and get back to your normal ego state it's natural that your head will try to conceptualize it and make sense out of it. And every time you do this you create a new religion. That's I guess how every religion started. Someone saw the infinite and tried to get others to understand it, too. And then the whole chain started

Technically suicide will solve all of your humanely problems.

@Meta Morphoses Instead of taking two mirrors, take two lines of gold, sniff 'em into your nostrils and wait for about 15 minutes. Then you know that your mirror thing wasn't quite infinite.

Get your ass up. Don't use a gun to cure a headache. Weed will be a waste of time. Start with low dosages of shrooms.

Exactly, I felt like a needy bitch having to write about it. I actually had to wait for quite some time to be able to. But eventually I got it down and I think it helps.

Oh, I will definitely come back on this one. I will definitely visit the States in the next 5 years.

Yeah, be careful. Do the research. Before I tried MeO I did one year in which I experimented with all sorts of other psychedelics in varied dosages. Also, I'm meditating and integrating it a lot. I think very carefully how much, when and in what context I do these things. That's why it needed 3 posts and lots of trial and error until I adjusted it in such away that I now know how much I need to breakthrough and don't damage myself. I also investigated how the last dosages changed me. But what I can tell is that it basically cleans you up (at least in my case). It's just pure awareness that's pumped in your head. But that is the plan now for a few years. MeO just motivated me even harder to do it that way. I plan pretty strategically and long term. I started planning moving to Berlin when I was 11 years old.

Thanks, 20 years old. I started actualizing when I was 13. I don't know, I'm a little different in that respect then most people. I had my first online business with 14, did pickup from 15-19, read a lot about psychology, marketing, NLP, hypnosis all that stuff in that time span and then for the last 1.5 years I'm mainly focusing on enlightenment and my life purpose. I always loved that stuff.

One thing that surprised me is how much understanding I had for the ego. I wasn't mad at it at all that it holds me back or is afraid. It's the very nature of this construction to act in such a way. And also I've lost any doubt that I will not reach the highest levels of consciousness in this life. I have the means to do it and the will to go beyond. The way will reveal itself naturally. It's funny how much we learned not to trust ourselves and resist what is. That's all a far out game you play with yourself. Just drop it. I guess my ideal lifestyle will be that when I move to Vancouver, Canada - after finishing my studies - that I buy a house in the periphery, do some programming projects, meditate in hyperspace for most time and share my experiences in books so that more people get to know about it. Nothing else really makes sense. Of course you can still leave some of the normal life in place to keep you grounded and in contact with the other folks, but 98% of it is a far out game to punish yourself and fuck you up for no particular reason. And I found more interesting things to do with my time. It's by far the most exciting thing I can think of. Way more exciting then any earthly life purpose you could have. I mean your life purpose has its place in life and that's good and important, but being in hyperspace is killing the character and being infinite. Nothing earthly compares. *hi-five*, brother! I probably thanked you for this enough times personally but I cannot put in words how grateful I am to know about this stuff. I'm very thankful for that, Leo. Thanks for the information and guidance. You know I make good use of what you're saying. I do have discovered true religion. I found out what I wanted to find out in this life. If I die today, I die as a happy man and I die in peace and surrender. But this is just the beginning. I tell you man, 5 years from now we will sit down in meditation, close our eyes and go beyond any experience that we even had with 5-MeO. Just think about it. Think about 10 years from now, or 20. We'll have an exciting time to say the least. And nothing is required then yourself sitting down and being relaxed.

@all, I would just encourage you to really do some research, if you wanna get involved in it. This can be quite fun because you learn some new skills on how to live in the 21th century in which everything seems possible. Of course if you wanna restrict yourself and take normal routes of administration, you'll probably not find it very soon. 5-MeO-DMT is something very exotic and not well-distributed. If you read my posts on it I give a lot of very direct pointers in which direction to look. Be thankful for that information and act on it if you want. But of course you gotta do some good research. And don't contact me on this issue. I sometimes get several people asking me PER DAY on how to get 5-MeO. And I won't help you simply because you should really contemplate whether you are ready for this. And if you are, you will have the will to do the research and find it. And that in my opinion is needed, so that the newbies just don't get hold of it and fuck their brains out. If 5-MeO can be used to permanently enlighten you and change your body/mind it surely can fuck you up if you don't use it correctly. Be aware of this. This is not some acid or shrooms that'll give you some fun experience but this will permanently alter your awareness.

When I'm at work I write software to plan and organize public transport. That's quite interesting. When I do projects on my own I'm very fascinated with problems like "How can you retrieve big units of data from the web and build relations with that data to generate knowledge out of it?", "How should you design software architecture for big data with a lot of changing content and structure?", "How can you parse exact information out of a source that is easily understood by a human but not by a machine?" etc. Basically I'm planning to make my bachelor in the field of information retrieval and then my master in big data / artificial intelligence. I love these fields. @Richard Alpert Of course you don't need all that information and practice to get enlightened. You could just take a walk and get enlightened from the grace of God. Probably happened to some people. But most I guess mistake that enlightenment is NOT one event you have to work or surrender to and then for the rest of your life everything is great, you can stop meditating, stop thinking about it and just be happy. For most people it won't be that way. Even a Eckhart Tolle deepened his enlightenment for several years. Listen to someone like Shinzen Young and he'll tell you that your first enlightenment will be like the invitation, the starting of "Now you see" and from then on you can delve into the really deep shit (for the next few decades). It's not a on/off thing but a development. Also, keep in mind that (and this happened to me) you can have deep awakenings and still be emotionally so fucked in the head that a lot of shit will come to the surface you have to deal with. For me this happened and still happens here and there probably for another 5 years until it is really all gone. If that happens to you, you'll need the techniques and frameworks simply not to break together and go to a mental hospital. Most people don't realize how frightened it can be for the ego when it merges with the subconscious. When you lose control, when thousands of uncontrolled thoughts come up, when feelings fuck you up and so on. So be wise here and don't burn too much of the good stuff and use it properly.

You can always give interesting patterns of nature interesting names. Doesn't change a thing.

The "Do Nothing"-technique is supposed to bring you in contact with the force that makes and shapes every moment without any effort at all. In my experience (I'm now doing the technique for more then a year) it's very successful in doing so. It needs time though to manifest. I thought after one month of doing this that I figured out what the technique is up to. After another month I thought this again.. and again and again. And to this day it shows me new facets of the self. It's amazing. But you also gotta see that I love this "Zen"-"Tao"-"Do Nothing" and just give in approach. There are lots of other great paths. Look what suits you and then run with that for a while to really get into it. Then you'll make some adjustments, try out new stuff but in my experience you'll find a certain way that just really corresponds with you. If you've found it, master it for the rest of your life.

If you are able to link C++-libraries and include headers in your programs, you will be able to achieve this. I'm a programmer myself (it's also part of my life purpose + my deepest passion next to meditation. I can program for 8 hours straight and it'll feel more awesome to me then sex because I love it so much.) In the beginning it is a lot of research and getting involved with different fields of the journey and so on. And it'll take time to get on your path and get it going. But you have the rest of your life to do this, so no worries here. The one and most important thing is whether you really wanna find this out for yourself or not. When I watched @Leo Gura's first enlightenment video I never raised the question whether I have time for this or whether I have to change my priorities. My whole life (I now know) I had this burning desire to find out what reality is all about. It is just that I gave up at some point because I thought I could never get at it with my intellect because I'm always projecting something on to it that it is not. When I watched the video, I instantly and intuitively knew that this is what I always looked for. And this also is my deep trust that I will get to the deepest levels of understanding with time, because nothing else makes sense. I just go the way and it'll present itself on its own. It is similar with your life purpose / calling. You don't have to convince yourself to do something that is the most interesting to you. It comes natural.

Having nice meditative experiences is cool and HoloSync will definitely give you that but it'll change and synchronize the whole structure of your brain (as meditation does as well but it's just faster). If you're interested, look at the studies and the information. There is a lot of that out there.

Although the people who say that there are different paths for different people are right in my opinion and one will see this for oneself on the path, here is the most direct way I know of and practice: Daily "Strong Determination Sits" with "Do Nothing" / "Self-Inquiry" (I mostly do "Do Nothing" with SDS because it trains you in being "choicelessly aware" which in my case led and leads regularly to no-self experiences; however self-inquiry also is good (try 'em out) Daily Big Mind process (from Genpo Roshi, this is incredible - look it up) Daily HoloSync (either with your normal meditation I stated above or as an extra practice) - it's meditation steroids Bi-weekly or monthly use of a breakthrough dosage of 5-MeO-DMT - fuck legality you live in in the 21th century + you are a programmer, onions may help you, be creative it's not that hard - I'm experimenting with this right now and I have the strong assumption that it will lead you to enlightenment quite fast (probably 6-12 months) if you do it at least once a month I'd say - but we'll see That's my power pack. But all of this won't help you if you have no burning desire of learning about the Truth. And be aware that it's really not about getting work done here but more about relaxing the body to a state in which he naturally sees the truth. I think most people don't get this. Also, this is not the ideal path. It's one with very direct methods that from my personal experience will lead you to the mot horrific existential crises - purging all of your shit - and the most beautiful enlightenment experiences. Be careful, it's powerful. There are way more very good techniques and good frameworks you should look at and learn about, especially certain frameworks to get good pointers where to look. Cheers

Oh, they tried dude ...