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@JonasVE12 This is my 3rd attempt to write a reply. First two was 6-paragraphs each, they were too long. TL;DWrite: Hash/Weed makes my head foggy. It makes me lazy. It makes me okay with sitting on the couch stoned instead of going out there doing something productive. It empties my wallet pretty quickly. I learnt to buy big amounts in the last part of my hash-journey though as it's cheaper per gram. TL;DR: If you haven't already smoked, I wouldn't reccomend it unless you're a billionare already 100 miles on track with your life purpose and you're looking for a way for instant-gratification and drifting through your life. Have a nice day. Whatever works for you bro.

@Mongu9719 I have NEVER had any mystical experience that I have noticed, however I imagine some wise dude on a mountain saying ''Who is this I?'' or something. Perhaps something along the lines of ''Your level of consciousness? Who is this you?'' I have no idea what I am talking about, but to ME, with NO experience, again, it seems you are seperating yourself. I also imagine someone saying that you cannot become conscious of everything being made from consciousness, however you can peel off the layers of person-hood and belief of stories about this someone in your head (your experience). Again, I just pulled this straight from the depths of my ass and should not be followed blindly - at all.

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@Adodd Sometimes when I meditate I lose the feelings in my body. By feelings I mean the sensations, the touch if you will. Whenever this happens my heart rate increases, I can feel my heart pounding and my mind keeps thinking about my limbs getting larger, stretching, shrinking, increasing in size etc. It's as if I am seeing with my mind's eye, but not completely mental imagery either. I have no idea how to explain it. It's as if I ''feel'' my hands are going up, down, shrinking, increasing in size, streched as a spaghetti although not ridiculously lengthy. Also, it feels as if my mind is living a life of its own, going crazy. I have no idea if I am making myself understandable here, but would appreciate feedback. I doubt that's what you are experiencing, but hey. Perhaps it is just me thinking it might be something significant even though it's not. Have a great day! Good luck to you and your S.O.

@outlandish This is what I imagine smoking crack being like... lmao, will try it out next time I trip! Thanks.

@MrDmitriiV Got all 3000 mikes from the same guy. I don't trust him. I gave him my car for the night as I was going to be tripping. Turns out he had been smoking weed in it, drifting with the handbrake and put loads of trash in it. Not only that, but he was supposed to get it for the night. Didn't get it back before the night after. Gave me silly excuses as ''I had to lend a hand to someone in an accident at the side of the road'' and such. I won't buy more acid from him. I will probably get some sent up to where I live from down south in Norway, that way I know I get what I am asking for. Perhaps I'll be a lot safer by doing 300-400µg this summer as I really want to see what one of these larger doses are all about. The safest would of course be just doing 200µg or less. Thank you all for your supportive and helpful answers. Again, it's truly appreciated.

As I read @Aaron p's thread about his 200µg LSD trip I started wondering. He mentions thought loops and I have heard of them before, but never consciously experienced one. He also writes something along the lines of ''With how confused LSD can get you...'' Some times on psychedelics, my most experienced one being LSD, I get really tripped out in my mind. Some times I am not able to speak, I might laugh extremely slowly which sounds like a ridiculous ''aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh'' and my mind might not be organized meaning that I am not able to string complete sentences together as you would be able to in a sober state. However, in the near past I have been using about 3000µg, the lowest dose being 200µg and the highest being 800µg. I've mostly been doing 600µg. The last few times I have been able to speak almost as I would have if sober. I am able to talk pretty fluently and very understandable. Does anyone know why this is? Does it depend on the trip itself, the location, the set and setting? What about meditation beforehand? I am not sure if this is a fitting question here, but I know there are a lot of experienced psychonauts here with answers. Thank you for your attention and possible answers, I surely appreciate it. Have a good day or night

@MrDmitriiV I've always tried to be aware of the method of storing it. I've always put it in aluminium foil in the fridge inside something that's light-proof. In the last case with the 3000µgs I put it inside a snus-box (Swedish Match Snus). Also, I should write in this thread that my last few trips have really been about escape with spiritual progress coming in at a distant second. I've been half-assing it. I was more centered around listening to music. For instance, the last trip I've done (Monday the 10th of February - 600µg) I laid down in bed listening to music (xxyyxx - dmt. Check it the fuck out next time you are tripping. ''Fields'' and ''About You'' I also liked very much by the same artist.) while getting an oily massage. I spaced the fuck out with my eyes closed which felt completely amazing. This last trip I also took a bong-hit at around the 5-6hr mark as I've got no tolerance to weed nowadays (had been smoking for 6 years, 3 daily) and for the first time it actually ''rocketed'' the trip as many have said it will. It felt as if I was peaking again, but with all the visuals turning green-ish for some reason. I don't know if that's because of the weed or if it's because that's how I unconsciously expected it to look. Thank you!

@Llight Driving a car might be dangerous just as taking psychedelics might be dangerous. Riding the bus might be dangerous, trying heroin might make you addicted. People do it because they have different needs. It seems you are assuming that everyone does what is 100% safe. As Leo said in one of his videos, I believe it's one of his earlier one on psychedelics - you can cut your arm off with a chainsaw, but a chainsaw is pretty damn useful for cutting trees and collecting wood. You have to weigh the risk vs. reward. Obviously the rewards of using psychedelics for many is greater than the risks. With that said you should be EXTREMELY cautious while using psychedelics. You don't drive a car without learning how to drive one, without getting your license, without wearing a seatbelt (some people do). You don't just consume an unknown amount of a psychedelic substance without learning the proper precautions, without having an experienced sitter with you, without a safe environment (some people do). Do you get the point?

@fridjonk I gotta say I was pretty certain at that point. Only in retrospect am I able to see that it was pretty stupid and impulsive idea. Before that experience, and now after these last trips to be perfectly honest I feel pretty cocky about psychedelics. I respect them, but not at the level I should. ''Oh, 200 mikes? Fuck yea I can handle that.'' I am more mindful of set and setting with that being said. @reves I will definitely wait until the summer for my next trip. If all goes well I will go hiking with a tent. I absolutely LOVE nature and always have. I have never went for a good hike on psychedelics though, so this summer will be a great opportunity to try that out. With that said, if I know me it won't be just one trip, but several. Psychedelics in general give me very sharp focus. They allow me to become more present than ever I'd rather say. The only psychedelics I have tried in order are 2c-b, mushrooms and LSD. I have no idea what dose of mushrooms I administered as they were extracts pressed into pills (cambodian). I ate 6 at the highest dose, but about 3-4 on a couple occasions before that. I also want to explore the DarkWeb more as I want to get a hold of different psychedelics. I know that there are vendors in Norway selling n,n-DMT, but I haven't seen any 5-MeO-DMT there. These are the ones I want to try the most as they sound radically eye-opening to me. Of course I am interested in a quick way to enloooytinment, but I don't believe they will be a magic pill. However I do believe they will give me a glimpse into the absolute and hopefully it will give me more motivation for me to start taking practice more seriously. As of now I am doing daily mindfulness meditations of 5-15 minutes here and there throughout the day. Again, thank you for the replies! Have a great day.

@fridjonk I wouldn't be surprised if both are true. I KNOW obviously that I have tolerance to LSD at this point. Also, I believe you helped me in one of my previous threads where I mentioned I had a bad trip as I met my grandfather. I will try to do a quick trip-report. It was a fairly hot day here in Norway. The sun was shining. I thought about doing an acid trip as I had five tabs with 150µg on them and I have never had something I would deem a mystical experience. Not anything of significance anyways. I had quickly done a meditation of about 20-30 minutes before doing the tab sublingually. I then asked myself what I wanted out of this and I wanted to experience an ego-death even though I currently thought it would be hard to achieve on such a dose. I've heard you need higher doses, but I presume it's different for each individual. When I felt the come-up I laid down on my couch in my apartment (in the same house as my grandparents live. Different entrance points though) and I closed my eyes. I tried to just observe what was going on as I am feeling this ''passive'' feeling on LSD, as if I am just there watching whatever arises. Just being would probably be a better term. After opening my eyes I quickly noticed the visuals are very intense and I am experiencing one of these ''mindfucks'', it's hard to string complete sentences together in my head and I am pretty sure I wouldn't be able to talk coherently. I get up and go for a small walk around the apartment to check out what things look like as I am EASILY distracted by the beautiful visuals one can get on acid. Fast forward: at one point I can feel this thought of something isn't right creeping in. I had noticed that my grandfather's car is parked outside and it sure wasn't when I dropped the tab. I feel as if my thoughts are trying to avoid going into this negative spiral of ''shit's going to hit the fan soon.'' Because of this I decide to go outside and perhaps take a walk. When I open the door I just look at the entrance, my porch and have a quick look behind the door. And there he fucking is. He's walking towards me in his pants only, wearing sunglasses. Pure panic is what I am experiencing. Pure PANIC! Because of this I slam the door shut, but didn't lock it as I thought that would be too suspicious. I then walk straight into the bathroom and lock the door while feeling this extremely heavy pounding on my chest. It feels as if my heart is doing 200 BPM and my breathing is extremely shallow. Luckily there never came a moment he walked through the door. I can't fully remember all the details and timeline of what occured next, but when I was able to think semi-straight I went straight to my trip-killer (seroquel, quietiapine 25mg) and crushed it up. I snorted a little bit before quickly eating the rest as I was in panic-mode. Little did I think of that I should've snorted the whole thing as I had to wait 2 hours before coming down. I remember cooking pasta bolognese during the trip. I remember my feet were twirling/vibrating during the trip. The vibrations often come whenever I do a trip, does anyone know why and what this is? I also remember running from room to room while thinking I am a ninja/kung fu warrior as it seemed I was sprinting in a perfect line relative to the walls and doors of the apartment. I remember thinking that I should be more in touch with my friends as I had pushed some of them away while doing harder drugs such as amphetamines, oxycodone, cocaine, methylphenidate. With all of this said this is the most influential trip I have ever had, but I am afraid little was truly learnt from it as I went straight to my ex a couple of hours after I had landed. I'm not sure if I made myself understandable here, but I tried my best. Thank you for making it this far if you did, thank you for your interest in helping a random dude on the internet and thank you all for being who you are on this amazing forum. For those wondering and haven't fully picked it up in my previous thread, I am now sober (except for the psychedelics) and seeing a psychologist about my drug-abuse, the main one being hash. I might have a beer here and there as I enjoy them more now. I have also implemented a daily mindfulness routine starting small, but multiple times a day. I am also reading books which is nice. I have started taking the LPC more seriously and I am done with the values assessment passes. It's all on my OneNote. Again, thank you for your attention. It's truly appreciated. Have a good day! Love.

Thank you all. I should mention all my ''mindfucks'' happened on 200µg or lower, not on the higher ones. I should also mention that I've only waited 7 days in-between trips these last times. Going to wait until the summer before I trip again. I will do 800µg I currently believe, but perhaps with all the waiting I will pussy out and do a lower dose for obvious reasons. With that said, I currently feel going lower than 600µg is a waste of acid, but that might be because of an accumulation of tolerance to the substance.

I can agree to some extent on that one after reading the thread a couple times more, however I also feel that the questions OP asked are already answered.

Props for people keeping their cool here. OP seems very troll-ish and evasive. That or I am missing the higher picture/point here. It seems as if OP is asking questions, but evading the ones asked by the ones replying to get more understanding for the main question. Again, I might be missing the bigger picture.

After yesterday's 600µg LSD drop I discovered these beauties: Artist/song xxyyxx - Dmt xxyyxx - Fields xxyyxx - About You It might be just me, but I absolutely LOVE the spaced vibe you get from listening to these. I would also encourage checking out xxyyxx's entire list of songs on Spotify. It didn't appear to be too long to have a listen. I hope you enjoy them as much as I did. Wish I could stay in that state forever, but maybe I should be careful of what I wish for.

LOL, so blunt. Thanks for making my day better.

Dope!

I firmly believe he uses notes. If you pay attention to his eyes and his pauses in his videos it should be fairly obvious. I believe he has notes to the right of the camera, to the left of the camera and under the camera. Whenever he is stroking his beard and looking down for example I do believe he is taking a look at his notes (if he uses them). Just pay attention.

@Annoynymous He already have.

I believe he already have. Sorry if I am not understanding your question, but I assume that all his posts are written while sober. I guess that's the answer.

@Shadowraix Just want to update: I did the 800µg yesterday at around 10:40 PM after work. I didn't take all the advices to heart, but I will store it in my drawer of advices I DO NOT regret. I will also buy another 4000µg that I can enjoy in the future. Now it's time for a break obviously. @Serotoninluv I can only presume that if the tabs were 400µg each, I would get the effect of 500µg as you suggested. I should also note that I did not set any intentions in a serious manner. I went straight to my ex's apartment, dropped the acid and waited while thinking of what I wanted from the trip. Set: Pretty excited, a little bit nervous about me going to shit myself and my head was pretty spread from the day's experiences. Setting: same as before. My ex, her neighbour's cat in her small apartment. When the trip came on I felt present, I was able to speak in a near sober manner. The visuals were intense relative to my previous experiences. Everything was vibrating, the room was changing colors, patterns everywhere. When my ex walked around in the room it looked as if she ''phaseshifted'' (tracers doing their thing) across the room. I spent about 3 hours cuddling with the cat. His name is Buster and he's probably the most chill cat I have ever met. He was licking my hair while I was cuddling and petting him all while listening to Sphongle and other similar music I have tripped to before. We went outside for a bit while she had a cigarette and the snow looked amazing, as did the small city I live in (about 25k people living here). Lights blinking everywhere in different colors, treetops twirling and dancing. Thank you!

I bought 1600µg of acid on tuesday and dropped 200µg the same night. On wednesday I dropped 600µg and it didn't feel a whole lot stronger than the 200µg dose did. My question: If I drop 800µg on saturday night, will the two- to three day break be enough to properly feel the 800µg dose? I know there is going to be a tolerance from the trips before, but the question is really if the two doses adds up my tolerance or will I only get the tolerance from the last dose? I know these doses are ridicolously high, but I am curious. Thanks in advance! Also, as I haven't tested the tabs I don't know for certain that it is acid, but the man I am buying it from is a trusted friend of mine that is a fairly experienced psychonaut. From the experience itself I would definitely say it is acid as I have tripped on it for about six times before. However, the 200µg dose did not give me the expected effects that I remember I have gotten from the other times I have taken 200µg of acid. The 600µg dose felt pretty close to the 200µg one on tuesday except the trip had a different vibe to it. When I say effects I mean the somewhat disorienting headspace and visuals. That's how I ''measure'' the strength of the psychedelic. I should mention that I had a bong-hit after I consumed the 200µg sublingually and a beer after I swallowed it. Mindset was pretty shaky from my last trip the 27th of August (150µg) as I had a really terrifying trip after meeting with my grandfather who is completely anti-drug, be it tobacco, LSD or hash/weed. Setting was extremely laid-back. I was hanging out in my ex-girl's apartment with her neighbour's cat who visited us. We had a really good time just playing with the cat and watching a comedy show on the TV. I was hanging out in her couch for most of the time. Could this contribute to me not experiencing the effects to the extent expected? Two questions, but what the hell Thank you so much for your time.

@fridjonk I drink probably a couple cans of coffee every day. That might be a liter and a half to two liters. I should probably clean up my diet, yes. Yep, I definitely should.

@Serotoninluv Thank you for the answer. I am confident I will wait until next weekend. I am also more confident that the tabs I have isn't really 400µg each. I will however do a full tab next time I trip. I've got some thinking to do about where to go and how I should approach the trip. I've read on the forum that one should eat healthy, meditate and set intentions a week or two beforehand. Every day for two weeks that is. I love the interest from you all, I truly appreciate it! Just want to let you all know

@fridjonk Good food for thought. I might get a tent, make a campfire and some hot cocoa or coffee. Probably both Love you!