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thank you! that's exactly what I was looking for.

To be fair once i saw a policeman talk to the student after he approached a girl. I don't remember his exact words but he was like " no means no " The coach told me the had done bootcamps all over the world for years and this was a first. Barcelona is known to be thicc in feminism thought. Weird city. For you to overcome the fear that you shared, try vividly imagining the worst case scenario and completely embrace it.

@Gabith Allow yourself to get carried away. Everything is valid as long as its how you really feel.

“Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.” This right here is an extremely powerful DIY exercise to alleviate resentment. Think of one person in your life who has aggrieved you. ( Both my Mother and Father in my case , buy you may pick anyone ) Take a blank page and write that person a letter saying anything and everything you wish you had ever told them. Really get into this—you have nothing to lose. Make sure you write it out by hand. When you’ve gotten absolutely everything off your mind and onto paper, put the letter aside Take a fresh sheet and write their response just the way you wish they would respond. You might have them taking responsibility for their actions, acknowledging and apologizing for everything they’ve ever done that hurt you. You don’t need to find any justification for their actions, just an acknowledgment and an apology. It’s your imagination, so you get to decide exactly what you’d like to hear. I consider myself a 7.5 / 10 at inner work and I thought I have worked through pretty much everything but MAN this exercise had me sobbing QUICK, Enjoy! EDIT : You may not feel an immediate internal shift. However, over the next few days you may be amazed to feel this “new reality” gradually taking hold. To accelerate the process, simply reread the apology letter nightly for a few days. You’ll appreciate the results.

Stay at your dose until you have at least three symptom free rounds on and off round before upping your dose by no more than 50%!

The purpose of this exercise is to add a new tool to your toolkit, to deal with (and master) your inner world - your thoughts, beliefs, emotions, self-talk. It's not about changing the other person ( but better managing your inner world will certainly have many ramifications in real life and how you interact with others, and therefore, how they interact with you) Remember, “Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.” So the " forgiveness " and " acceptance " is not for him but for you. It definitely does no good to you walking around bitter and resentful. Don't mistake " forgiveness" with "idiot compassion". Women are specially prone to this. Use your intuition to determine if the relationship is salvagable. Otherwise, learn to move on helping yourself with these techniques and more. I don't know if you mean that you don't talk anymore or that you're together but are being cold and emotionally unavailable. But for the purpose of this exercise and Inner work / shadow work overall, you don't need anyone besides yourself, your mind and your contemplation skills. Relationship counselling and relationship advice would be something else. It helps to get very clear , specific and tanglible about what " my feelings " are , and how " as I am " is ( for yourself ). Also the topic of " the need for love and aprooval from others " is deeper than this exercise. For this, I recommend you read Byron Katie's book " Loving what IS " . Here is a short PDF on the gist of it from her website . Also some of her videos from YT Lastly, understand that human beings are hard-wired to crave love , attention and aprooval from others, but women are exceptionally hard-wired for this, so I understand that It may be hard, but the key solution for all of this is learning DEEP self-love that emanates from inside out. One thing about " truth" in interpersonal relationships. Truth is perspective dependant. So you have your POV, and he has HIS pov. But not only that. Depending of how YOU or HE looks at the situation you can derive different "truths". All perspectives are partial, but also have a kernel of truth. So yeah, you could say that you are " creating an alternative reallity". But remember it's just as fake ( or as real) as your current one. The only difference is that the first one was created unconsciously, and for the second one you were aware of the mechanisms of your mind and chose to explore it deliberately. [...] “Hurt feelings or discomfort of any kind cannot be caused by another person. No one outside me can hurt me. That's not a possibility. It's only when I believe a stressful thought that I get hurt. And I'm the one who's hurting me by BELIEVING what I think. This is very good news, because it means that I don't have to get someone else to stop hurting me. I'm the one who can stop hurting me. It's within my power." - Byron Katie.

One of the reasons that I belive to be heavy metal toxic is years of ingesting tap water ( and life long love for sea food ). In school, at home and more recently as I've started working in a restaurant and eating there EVERY SINGLE day I learned that they use tap water to cook the rice and pasta. No wonder my mental sharpness and short term memory has been declining ever since. ITS BEEN 4 YEARS OF DAILY FOOD FROM THERE. I'll mosty likely do a hair test but I just had the genious idea to bottle up some tap water and make a heavy test analisis, and perhaps also for some other toxic stuff. I'd like to know the info for sure but I don't know about the costs and so on.

F*ck. I may end up taking a hair test to have a little more info. One study found that people who smoke have four or five times higher cadmium concentrations in their blood than people who don't smoke. I've been a life long second hand smoker ( aka passive smoker ) . IDK if how severe it is relating to cadmium toxicity. Cadmium chelates with DMSA and possibly ALA. The key to chelating cadmium safely, in addition to the usual chelation precautions, is to ensure the urine is alkalinized to a pH of 7 or greater (preferably closer to 7). This is because cadmium is insoluble in acid urine; we alkalinize it so that the cadmium does not deposit in the kidney. Urine pH is measured with pH test strips and small quantities of baking soda in water/capsules taken on round to raise the pH. Yeah IDK about swallowing baking soda. What is Urine pH? pH is a measure of how acidic or alkaline (basic) a fluid is. A pH of 7 is considered neutral. Below 7 fluids are acidic, while above 7 they are alkaline. How to test at home? Urine PH test strips The kidneys help keep the blood pH from going too low or too high by filtering acids or alkaline compounds (bicarbonate) from the blood and releasing them in the urine. That’s why the urine has a wider pH range compared to both blood and saliva. The normal range of urine pH is between 4.5 and 8 Diet, certain drugs, infections, and poor kidney function can all affect the pH of urine. Meat, fish, dairy, and grains all increase the number of acids that the kidney has to filter into the urine. Most vegetables and fruits (especially citrus) generate alkaline compounds, reducing the number of acids the kidneys must filter Note for self : ( although they recommend small quantities of baking soda in water/capsules taken on round to raise the pH. ) Acidic foods that I consistently eat : Organic grass fed grass finished ground beef ( 300g / day ) ,white rice, Onions. eggs. Shredded organic tomato sauce. Alkaline foods that I already eat : cooked organic red and green bell peppers, Lentils, pinto kidney beans. Alcaline foods that I may add that I know I tolerate well : Steamed cauliflower, steamed brocolli, MORE BEANS, SWEET potato ( not average potato ), Citrus Fruits - yup citrus fruits are alkaline , not acidic .

"Mopping up" refers only to combo rounds, where each chelator (ALA + a D) is taken for at least the minimum of 63 hours. After the minimum time, the ALA round is ended, but people continue to take the D chelator for an extra dose or two to “mop up” mercury in the extracellular spaces to help reduce redistribution. Selenium can help passivate mercury for a time by preventing it from binding in the body. Eventually it will disassociate and need to be chelated out. ( dosage : 50 - 300 mcg - how often ? IDK ) I purchased this selenomethionine Supplement ( yes, from America )

On " half-life " The half life is the time it takes to reduce the chemical by half.ç In a very oversimplified illustration, if you took just one dose of 100mg of ALA now, in 3 hours there’d be about 50mg of ALA left. Another 3 hours would have 25mg of ALA remaining. 9 hours after the dose, there’d be 12.5mg, etc. So it takes 8 half lives (about 24 hours) to get down to about .39 mg.

" A trial of chelation is the best test of toxicity ( as long as you're 100% amalgam free ) . Any response to the chelators, POSITIVE or NEGATIVE , ON ROUND or OFF ROUND - confirms toxicity. Start with one chelator at a time, so you know how you react to it . If side effects are too much then stop the round and trial half of that dose in the next round . If there are no side effects AT ALL ( Including off-round ), then the next round you can double the dose. If you have minimal side effects on or off round, stay at that dosage for at least 3 rounds before increasing, as side effects tend to to acummulate over time. If you are taking an appropriate dosage of chelators, redistribution symptoms should be fading on day 2 and gone by day 3. If it persists into day 3, you are on too high of a chelator dose.

@decentralized Then you can try again from a few different angles. This could mean that either you havent digged deep enough on what or how you would like them to respond. Perhaps you're going to need to engage your imagination way more and go beyond words. Imagine specific scenarios that would have to happen for you to forgive them and be able to move on and let go. Look for plausible justifications for their actions. This one is very good to trigger compassion for them in you. Resentment, anger, sadness, withdrawal - all stem from feeling HURT by something somehow. Find out exactly how do you feel you've been hurt and release it from the core. If any of you struggle with some of this, feel free to post any specific scenarios on here or through PM.

I like to imagine this is how Andy Cutler got Hesvy metal poisoning LOL https://youtu.be/0aICulCpRks Its funny cause he looks so much like him Its a joke - rest in peace and thanks for all your amazing contribution. Im kind of tempted of posting this on the ACC forum LOL I worry I may get kicked out ?

“I decide to interpret everything favorably toward myself. It’s not just that I’m optimistic, I’m actually conveniently deluded.” - Some dude on the internet. What's up. I stumbled upon this cool concept (that I didn't know had this name) and I wanted to share it with y'all. Most likely you personal development veterans have heard this one many times, but it's still good to go over the basics from time to time, This one is very practical and a good few solid bricks for your emotional mastery journey. CBT Article

now that I think again, heavy metals in your hair samples and non - provoked urine tests is a sign of your body detoxifying heavy metals. This is most likely extremely slow though and it would you take hundreds of years to do it naturally . I don't know the math right now .

It seems that Adrenal glands are extremely important for feeling energetic. I could get them tested but it costs another 130 bucks. [...] Blood tests are often not very informative, as they usually only test once in the morning. A 4x salivary cortisol test is recommended. Canaryclub.org often has the best pricing, and ships internationally. https://www.canaryclub.org/home-diagnostic-tests/stress-tests-hormone-adrenal/cortisol-4x-stress-profile I've purchased the adrenal cortex supplement that supposedly has 0 possible side effects so i'll just be taking that for now, just in case.

I understand your confusion. The reason is because you simply haven't experienced a different STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS. @Ethan Marnewick a.k.a EGO - is a STATE of consciousness. Your dreams at night is another state of consciousness, per se. What happens If you meditate or do Kriya yoga or other spiritual practices you may stumble upon DIFFERENT, HIGHER states of concisouness, where the boundries of your identity - EGO - EXPAND and you ( depending on what state of consciousness you stumble upon) BECOME EVERYTHING, or NOTHING , or you merge with your visual field aka - samadhi experience . And once this happens, you will have enough reference experience to understand that all this time you've been a fish in water taking for granted the EGO state as the one and only state of consciousness. Obviously from your current state of consciousness you are not a coffee table. It's not true in that state. In your dream it's true that you can fly. Once you wake up it's not any more . That's just a certain depth of it. There are infinite more degrees that I dont know yet. If you want anwsers, learn the spiritual theory and then take some psychedelics, to have some ground when you are mid- trip. But that's only if you really want anwsers. Do not go on this path if you don't want to see behind the curtains.

@levani Glutathione is depleted in trying to remove metals like mercury and Lead. the body is not up to the task since its doesnt have an infinite supply of glutathione. Fasting promotes autophagy. The first cells to die during autophagy are the sickest ones and our sickest cells are the ones full of heavy metals. So when the proteins and cell parts are recycled the metals escape the cell and have to go somewhere... so new cells that were before healthy cells recieve the toxic metals and new cells get sick and burdened with the metals. So yeah, fasting not the best idea.

@levani Methyl mercury, the kind found in fish, is fat soluble and very easy to absorb. Once it is in you, your body takes the methyl group off and transforms it into the more dangerous, water soluble inorganic mercury. It gets past your cell membranes to start in its methylated form, but then it is demethylated and not fat soluble anymore. It gets stuck in whichever cell or organ it wound up in.

@levani In mammals inorganic mercury cannot be remethylated and excreted. Mammals don’t have the enzyme that allows this to happen. No matter how many methylating supplements you take, you cannot remethylate that mercury. It is Stuck inside you behind lipid barriers and it will never come out on its own. You don’t have the right enzyme to methylate mercury. Fish do. They can remethylate mercury and move it out of their brain and other organs. This is why fish can have such high mercury levels and remain healthy. The fish stay healthy, but the people and other mammals that eat these fish become horribly toxic. To sum things up: in mammals and birds, methylation has nothing to do with detoxifyng mercury. In fish, methylation keeps the mercury in them safe. Nothing you can do about methylation will help your detoxification pathways clear out mercury. You don’t have the right enzyme. You can’t remethylate mercury. Only fish can remethylate mercury. So if you want to actually detox, you need to follow the ACC protocol.

wow, God is such a Selfless Narcissist

You don't know what you don't know.

If there’s one thing that’s certain, it’s that uncertainty isn’t going away. - The Charisma Myth - Olivia Fox Cabane

Looks like 80%+ of my personal questions have been anwsered. All the info is so widely avaliable that It's basically just taken me a week. Some conclusions and anwsers for myself : It seems to be safe to go into the chelation protocol without testing. No urine test or hair test. I don't mind not knowing the before chelation numbers and after chelation numbers. I don't feel like taking the risk of reacting negatively to a high dose of DMSA for the provoked urine test. Nor I want to spend 120€ on a hair test to tell me that in fact I need to chelate ( I belive I do need to do it anyways ) Going by feel is how I will navigate. If I take chelators and feel bad = I'm toxic, I need to lower dose and keep chelating for a long time ( I expect to do a year of rounds ). If I don't feel anything for like two months ( positive or negative ) while chelating it means I'm actually clean and heavy metals are not my issue, and I have to go back to researching other possible causes of my mental decline . 3 days is a minimum round of chelation. I can go longer If I can take the side effects but not shorter. Increase the rounds by one day each time. Longer rounds are better to avoid redistribution as blood levels of chelators drop and the heavy metals are dropped around in our body. Supplements : vitamin C, Magnesium. Vitamin E. Zinc. AKA core 4. I'll also will be taking adrenal support and liver support supplements ( posted before ) and most likely also some Iodine for thyroid support and I'll experiment with l-tyrosine. I still need to adjust the brands to see If I tolerate all of them properly. Also omega 3 fish oil and Vitamin A since my personal diet lacks these. They're relatively safe and the book recommends them. Viamin A = under 25.000 UI a day. Fish oil I don't remember but feel free to ask me and I'll look it up for ya again. Both of these brands are high quality and recommended by Leo. Dosage for chelators : For initial rounds start slow and ramp things up : 12'5 MG is a very conservative ammount but I'm okay with starting slow. If all goes well next round will be 25MG, 50MG and so on. ( going by feel and when I find the right dose - aka when side effects are just bearable, not too strong ) I'll stay there for two months before progressing to higher doses. I'll only start with DMSA for like 5 to 10 rounds of increasingly higher doses. After that I'll start taking ala by the same method : slowly ramping up the dosages. 12,5 will be my initial dose. Ala is the most important chelator because It's the only chelator that removes heavy metals from your cells, organs and brain . At this point I'm just waiting for my order to arrive so I can start walking the walk and not just rambling. But there is more to be read on the ACC FB forum protocol. You don't know what you don't know, right ?