Hellspeed

To not get in a mess, stop following the thoughts until you have a clear inner feeling about what are your intuition thoughts, drama thoughts, people's thoughts etc.

Ground yourself, start using Orange into Red, not into Blue (talking about glands/chakras).

Weak pointers on nonduality.

Perception is the capacity of yourself, your body, to be like a superconductor or a blocked system with an end road (this is the dormant mind side of perception). Thoughts are not important.

It will blow your mind if you go with the energy in your legs. The whole point of awakening is releasing that energy and harmonize the whole body system. Get in touch with your body's glands, is what we call chakras.

Welcome to the dark side.

I Started years ago with the concept of "self-consciousness".

For me Kundalini and Breath and when I wish I can eat whatever, with 10x times more faster digestion, similar as a kid growing up. But yeah, not many went on to discover the personal energy, people usually rely only on food or exercise or whatever substances, in the end, is all about the fine inner management.

No sense of loneliness after you embrace the humanity in you.

Ground the energy from the plexus into the right leg.

Red, Grounding.

Energy is released from Muladhara.

We are in a deep bondage with the family and conflict can arise. So if you attract very much the attention on the street simply means that you are focussed too much in the head.

The conquest of Pain.

I get signs from Satan.

Maybe you have a very strong inner attraction, and many, mostly men can get irritated.

I don't know

More natural, more conflict with the outside dormant people. They will see you as a troll or even they will feel irritated around one. So, in the end, there is no solution, you lift them up but is a danger (you can get stuck in the process), or you do your life alone at your own pace. ?

Grounding.

Why Not? And if not... Are you an omnivore or a vegetarian? ®Self-Inquiry

I was around your age when I quit my dreams. Took me around 5 years to have a glimpse of what is what and another 2-3 years to settle. Now, here you have plenty of nice info to start with, which I didn't. Be grateful that you are alive and still breathing, in the end, is all you need to start.