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I think there might be more to this twin flame business than merely fulfilling each others needs well. I personaly have no experience with it, but was talking to a women yesterday with a quite intense experience. she explained how she met this guy who totally blew her away from the moment they met. Everything was clicking, as if they knew eachother for decades. They had the exact same favorite songs, ideas, styles, all that. More than that she also had intens energetic experiences whilst being around him. She could start shaking like crazy and other things like that. They separated after a few months because it was too intens. They worked on themselves for a year or so, and now he appeared back into her life.

Time for another update, I've made some good progress over the last few weeks: - I have finished the massage course! Got the certificate and everything - I took an additional lesson from a Chinese massage therapist. It was quite useful and we are staying in touch. He was really kind and said he would be happy to provide further instructions for free, which I might follow him up on in the upcoming weeks. - I signed the sub-renting contract! From August on I will have a completely furnished room for a Sunday the full day and Monday in the evening. - I had a photoshoot last week. We spend the whole day taking pictures of both me giving massages and just me in different poses and contexts. I will receive all the pictures in the upcoming days. For so far I saw, they are very professional and great. This will be perfect for my website, social media, and flyers. - I completed the business side. I have registered myself as a business under the name Satoris. - I have layed the foundation for the website. Satoris.com is my domain name. Together with the friend that is helping me, we choose a template for the website. - I also spread the word a bit more. Talked about it with friends and relatives. Got more comfortable with the idea. I also talked to the owner of my local gym, she was excited about my business and would help spread the word and see if she can hook me up with contacts. - I bought some materials I need; towls, massage oil, etherial oils, candles. Overall, I am very satisfied with the progress I made. However, there is still a lot to be done before my business will be operational: - An important step I need to make soon is to make a logo. I need it for everything; the website, flyers, social media, etc. I had a contact who makes logo's, but her pricing starts from 450 euro's for complete process, but would digitalize a completed sketch for 150 euros. My budget is actually max. 100 euro's... Does anyone have a good idea for how to quickly make a logo in a cheap way? - Next weekend I am meeting with my friend to work further on the website. My plan was to finish it.. but I am not sure that will work out. Next few days I should get the pictures from the photoshoot. Together with the info and ideas I have we should come a long way. However, it will be hard to get the logo in time.. - As soon as I have the pictures and logo I will make flyers and start spreading them. - Pretty much what I need is to get the logo, website, social media and flyers in place. As soon as I have this I can start the marketing process, which will be very important. If I have this I can go to local stores and places I know to spread the flyers. I can start contacting hotels and other places to offer my services. I can start boosting my google visability and reviews, etc. - From August on I will have the room. To get comfortable I will use the first few weeks mainly massaging friends and family for free/low price. I have already planned a few, but will continue to plan more in the upcoming weeks. So yeah, It's a matter of tying all the 'hard' stuff together in the upcoming weeks so I can start marketing in time. Because I will use the first few weeks for friends and family, it won't be a big deal it I won't have many customers yet in the beginning of August. However, I definitely want to start marketing when August starts.

@Leo Gura I’m watching the new episode on authorithy, but am confused on the science part. the religion, as you said, is easy to see hoe it becomes a vicious cycle after a few question. Also, like you say, science is to a large extend based on authorithy in, to me, quite obvious way in the sense that you have all these labels we give people, journals, etc. But, If you would strip that away. If you would only look at empicical data. Just observe something and take notes, like science at least preaches it should be done, than still it would be a game of authority? would you not come to at least relative truths? Or do you than run into deeper problems in the sense that you are giving logic, symbols, objects, etc autority? is there anything to this notion of ‘relative truth’?

Hmm so the kind of ‘core’ of science, the direct experience and observation part that is preached is valuable, but highly corrupted by devilry? Kind of like the ideas of god in religion are reversed 180 degrees?

I’m just sitting here thinking, if we wouldnt have the ignorance we have all around us, in our society, the people around us, and ourselves, this whole game would be over wouldnt it? the whole sharade would just seize from being.

To be is to be ignorant?

Are you sure?

Would it?

Thank you all for the replies. This post made me realize the answer to a question that has been lying under the surface for me for quite some time. I've made a post before discussing my doubt between going deeper into consciousness work or focussing on 'my life'. I believe I framed it as 'realizing life is a dream' and 'mastering the dream'. I am choosing my priority for the next couple of years will be on mastering my life. I am at a critical point in my life, where the decisions and effort I put in will have a huge impact on what trajectory I will be headed in. I made a calculation, with the combination of business, master, teaching, habits, etc. I have scheduled from September onwards I will make a jump of like 20% in 'productivity' (I have a system with which I track my progress). In addition to that, I am also dating a cute girl . So if I want to succeed in all of my endeavors I won't have time for a lot of spirituality. Also, I feel that with the consciousness work, meditation, theory, psychedelics, yoga, etc., of the last two years, I went through an upsurge that kind of made my life fall apart in a sense. Now it has crystallized at a new level. Quite stable relationships, cognitive functioning, states, etc. Of course this distinction/duality can't be made as simplistic as I just put it here. Also, it doesn't mean there won't be any energy going towards it. It just means that for now it won't be my priority. I think it's good to clarify this for myself, otherwise, I might find myself torn between the two, not being able to formalize a clear vision. I'm only just in my twenties, so I will FOR SURE be back to it. The things I have realized, the way my reality has changed, there is no way spirituality won't be back as the nr. 1 priority.

Hmm, yeah, I agree. This part has been proven to be quite challenging to me. I’ve noticed myself accepting these parts of girls at the surface level, but actually deny deep down deny my own feelings. like ‘its totally ok’, because thats what I felt I should be doing, but actually feel disgust, or reject ?

Approaching girls like they are your sister might be good advise for some guys with particular issues. However, a lot of guys are afraid of showing their sexuality and creating sexual tension with a girl. Not smart to approach girls as if they are your sister than. unless you want to fuck your sister ??‍♂️?

☝?☝?☝? Also, genuine interest in girls, acknowledging their beauty. Pretty much, stage green and upwards teachers are pretty rare.

Thank you all for the replies, I’ve been shaking and screaming a lot, and it feels really good ???

So, I’m going through this ego backlashy experience atm. I just want to distract myself with whatever, and find it hard to get myself to do anything. I have this urge to shake my body and scream. I wonder wether I should go with this urge, or try to relax my body and just let it flow through me.

Just had this idea after you posted you won't be shooting a video this week because you are integrating an awakening. This term "integrating" is thrown around quite a lot in personal development. "It's important to integrate your psychedelic/mystical experiences" But I don't hear a lot about what that actually means. Does it mean you should for example take notes during trips and then make specific concrete action lits of what to do? Or is it more loosy goosy, meditate well, don't fall back a sleep kind of thing? How do you integrate psychedelic/mystical experiences in an effective manner?

Nice to watch, you know ??

A friend of mine asked me what it’s like when I’m in a mystical type state. I said it’s like you are in a dream where you took XTC ?

@Hellspeed Doesn't the ego create all notions of evil? Because you are identified with a part of reality and trying to sustain it, you create notions of good and bad. To survive you must see the things that destroy you as evil. And then I suppose when you realize you are god, this whole evil thing becomes part of infinite love. All conceptualization here btw, I might just start calling you evil if you don't agree with me soon

@Spiritual_Seeker Thank you, that means a lot to me I'm simultaneously working on a workshop to help students to create a vision for their life. Decided to apply some of the principles I'm putting together to the massage business. This is what I came up with: I want to have a massage business by the beginning of September that is up and running. A fully functioning business with everything in place that is necessary for it to run smoothly. A nice website, a nice room with towels and oils and music, social media, well-rounded packages with pricing and everything. A growing client base with happy customers that promote me through word of mouth. Nice flyers I can hand out at any time I want. Contacts with other businesses that refer clients to me and help me to promote and grow. I also want to feel comfortable and confident in the business. Handling clients with ease. Talking about my business to others without any resistance, do it proudly. Feeling like I am really contributing to the health and mind state of my customers. Being pleased through the fact that they are pleased.

Oke sick, I guess you have a better idea what you are getting yourself into than me ?

@GreenWoods daym, a 1 year meditation retreat... Do you have any experience with shorter retreats? Do you have solid daily practices in place?

I promised to post some progression, so here it is: I have talked with a woman who also gives massage’s in my city a few times. She doesn’t use her room full time. We have a verbal agreement on me sub-renting her room and using her massage table for 1 full day and one evening in the week. Next week we will sign the contract. This is a big and crucial step. I have taken more massage lessons. I have read more about massage and watched some video’s online. I have talked to people about my plans. Pretty much everyone around me knows my plan. I think this is also an important step, because part of what was holding me back is fears about what others would think, my image and stuff. That is no longer an obstacle. Also, it helps to push me forward, because people are asking questions about it, giving me information and tips, etc. I have made a schedule for everything I have to do and when I will do it: 10- 16 June: - Keep taking the massage lessons from my course - Keep practicing on people, read more about it, get comfortable with it, keep spreading the word, etc. - Decide on what I want on my website: First look at other similar websites and the components they have on there. Then think about what I want to have on mine; what kind vibe do I want to give off? What do I want to tell about my background? What specific massages and pricing will be displayed? Etc. Also, contact my friend at the end of the week, when I have some more concrete idea’s, for putting it all together. - Get in touch with the KvK to start my own business. I will call them tomorrow to get advice on the best structure etc. (I have some other stuff that makes it more complicated than just this business). 17-23 June: - Keep taking the massage lessons from my course - Keep practicing on people, read more about it, get comfortable with it, keep spreading the word, etc. - Sign the contract for the sub-renting - Continue with the website and make it more concrete. Make pictures I need, specific texts, all this. Depending on the contact with my friend, build the site. - Hopefully make the business side complete during this week. 24-30 June: - Keep taking the massage lessons from my course, this week are the final lessons. - Keep practicing on people, read more about it, get comfortable with it, keep spreading the word, etc. - Talk to the other massage therapist at the beginning of the week and plan in the extra lessons with him (most likely already for the 29th and 30th of June). - Hopefully finish the website this week. At this point I am done with the massage course and should have a solid idea of how I am going to market myself, what my pricing will be etc. The month of July will be focussed on marketing and getting clients. I won’t make a specific week-to-week planning just yet, as it things are getting to uncertain at this point. However, what I definitely want to do: - Make a lot of flyers at the beginning of the month. Start handing them out. Not just to people on the street, but also going door-to-door. - Call up nearby hotels and other potential businesses with which I can collaborate. - Set up an Instagram and facebook page (will be easy after I have the content for my website). - Look at potentially getting involved with deal sites where I will provide a cheaper deal on for the first month for example or something like that. - Talk to a friend who does google search optimization; maybe he can help me to become more visible. - Make appointments with friends for massages for the start of August so I can practice with them, get comfortable with it etc. Do this for free and ask them to post reviews.

Had this idea whilst tripping yesterday. So the idea is that the masculine and feminine overlap. So if you deny the feminine as a male you are denying part of yourself, because a part of you is when you are together with the feminine. So as a male not having a relationship with females you are missing part of yourself. Like in this picture on the right from the cover of Earthgang feat. Arin Ray's song "Stuck". Two people being stuck together, melted together.

@Zigzag Idiot Hahaha nice, love the way god is being adressed here. Especially this rant ?

@Nahm I’m sorry, I didnt understand a word of that.