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@FrgttnDeer @FrgttnDeer I get what you are saying as well. Samueling does not want to be still though! Perhaps it's a defense mechanism ?

@Serotoninluv thanks! Too bad the name wasn't something odd like "simulate". Then i could go around shouting "I'm simulating! I'm simulating!" Ok,that was corny, even for Samueling... Oh wait, I used it as a noun. I was just Samueling, that's all.

Thank you, that was very direct exactly where I needed it. I am still green with self inquiry and being still, but as I said to@FrgttnDeer I need to be still and see what is. Of course "seeing" in a visual context would be obsolete at that point. I absolutely need to have that deep realization. It will come. I will do the work. Thank you. At this point in my search, I don't disagree with you. One day perhaps, I'll look back and laugh at saying that. But I actually treasure and adore indiviuallity! I think it is one of the best miracles to come out of all of "this". This Sam doesn't exist, yet he does. I believe the idea that has been named Sam has become self aware. And is asking questions. Now, the body is typing these questions and ideas on the keyboard, so that they end up on this forum for discussion. But as of right now, I don't know if it's this self aware Sam (self aware idea) who decided to do this, or if it only influences "my" thoughts. And if I am not Sam, then who am I? That's what I will be searching for in inquiry. At the same time, I love the hell out of Sam, and thank him for being such a miracle. So perhaps saying that I'm addicted to self expression is not the right way to put it. It's more of an attachment, I guess. But they say all attachments must be let go.

Placebo, or physical exertion, or whatever.... As long as it works or helps is all that matters. Yes it should increase effect with practice. Not that I have any experience with it, but that's just how these things work, ha. Placebo or not.

I needed to hear that, thanks. Yep!

Yes there must be something there, right? But it's not Sam because Sam is an idea. I am still seeking what is there without Sam. If I find it I will share what I can. ? My addiction is not to being (or is it?). It is to expressing myself. As Sam... Not as Sam.... Doesn't matter. As long as there is self-expression, I exist. But I want to see if there is anything between expressions. I need to be still and see what is.

Yes I agree. I need to sit and strip away Sam and see what's left. There's no point to ask others to explain it. I've heard of this technique before but haven't tried it. I will look more into it. Thank you ?

That sounds nice to the ear, but I don't know what to make of it. What is the best way to see through this devil's influence? Ultimately he doesn't exist, like Sam. Knowing this should be enough to see through that Idea's ideas, but I often fall for its antics. Or is that Sam falling for it and "I" still identify as Sam? What is there without Sam? Anything that qualifies as an "I"?

Can't stop the winter from coming, and can't beg it back in the scorching heat of summer.