Wisebaxter

Oh yeah, sounds like you're doing just find without using substances. Very excited for you man

What a lovely idea. I sure hope so. It would help me deal with the nightmares too as they'd be easier to explain. I also woke up the other day not knowing where the hell I was or who I was and had this sense that I was experiencing non-duality or some form of awakening/altered state. It felt very scary and disorienting. Slowly I came back into a normal state of mind. I may have just been half asleep and my mind was screwing with me though lol. What the hell I'll tell myself I was awakening life energies though and it will inspire me to continue

@Salvijus lol, walk naked in a blizzard? That sounds strangely arousing. I'm doubling my efforts now. Is Sadhguru not referring to a situation where all of your kundalini activates at once? Or is anyone talking about awakening their kundalini energies confused? I mean there are whole books written on the subject of Kundalini awakenings. Sadhguru's a very reliable source though of course

@Tony 845 @Tony 845 @Tony 845ah845 ah sds means strong determination sit. I wandered about that. I did my first 2 hour one the other day and I ached all over. I'll try and do more of those then. It's interesting because I've had trouble sleeping over the past month and have had really weird dreams along with some anxiety. It's coincided with starting meditating and sometimes whilst doing it I feel a warmth in my body. But then again I have given up a major weed habit recently so all these symptoms are in line with that also. The positives of your experience sound really worthwhile, although I hope the dizziness and the issues with sleep subside soon. It's like Leo said on another thread though, spirituality isn't for pussies lol, in his usual eloquent way of putting things. When the kundalini comes knocking, you just have to let that shit do its thing and not start panicking like a bitch hehe. Glad I know that now. Dude it definately sounds like your conscousness level has been raised, so yeah maybe you're not enlightened but this is a big step you've taken and now you've got tangible proof that this stuff is legit. It's funny, up until recently I was still skeptical that all this chakra stuff was real as I come from the scientific paradigm a bit like Dr Strange lol, but after hearing all this stuff, first hand accounts of energy pouring out of people's heads, I'm like woah, this stuff is REAL. Now I'm gonna go balls to the wall hippie mode, reiki, aromatherapy, tarot. I honestly do feel like Dr Strange when he first goes on that trippy voyage though parallel universes, and I've only just started! Do you take psychedelics at all?

@Tony 845 if you'd have known about Kundalini energy do you think you could have prepared for it more? Leo has a book on his booklist which he says can help you to be safe. I'm probably going to get it. Another question is, what exactly were you asking or investigating during self enquiry when your crown chakra got blasted open? I know it's not like like I'm gonna emulate it and get the same result, but I'm still curious. Have you felt much different in general? Aside from the physical sensations? Do you feel more awakened, or conscious or whatever? Your advice has been invaluable as now I know to just surrender if it happens. I listen to a lot of Adyashanti's stuff. I've heard him mention these intense energy flows but quiet sparingly. I'll have to delve deeper. Leo also has a book about the dangers of meditation but it's like £20 on Amazon or something crazy. if my kundalini energy starts gushing forth you'll be the first person I come to for counselling lol. Please keep me posted on any further developments

@Tony 845 That's really helpful stuff Tony, thank you. Congratulations on experiencing this awakening and hats off to you for keeping calm and having faith that the energy knows what to do. I guess it all comes down to the spiritual idea of surrender again, which seems pivotal to progress and a fundamental part of what spirituality is about. It must be challenging though when you already suffer from anxiety. I get bad anxiety too so I think I'll have a similar experience. With your sage advice I will plough ahead though and get more serious about self enquiry too as right now I'm just focusing on meditation. Bring on the coiled serpent!

@Rachityczny If you meet a girl who isn't as conventionally attractive as you like but fits the bill in every other way might you sabotage this as you're looking for this stunning pin up girl? Something to be aware of. It might be worth pinning up some 6s, 7s and 8s, that way you won't feel so self conscious and you'll have more options, win win. You can just tell your family they're comedians you like or something. The truth is also that when you love a chicks personality she'll appear like a 10 to you anyway. I'm assuming your pinning up stunning hotties though, you may not be. Also I'm not saying it's impossible to find one that's perfect for you, but it's better to have wider options, just my two cents

@Serotoninluv Reminds me of this fantastic talk on how to be creative by Sir John Cleese. I'm pretty sure at one point he advises to combine random ideas to come up with comedic, original concepts.

@kieranperez Thanks for the advice man, I'll heed it and hold off from the 5-MEO for a while. I'll do what you're planning and ease my way in with some microdosing maybe. Yeah not a good idea to take 5-MEO whilst living at home. Imagine getting called down for tea and you just stay in your room because you don't identify with your name anymore Not that you get called for tea - that's a cliche, but still funny... Be really interested to hear your experiences with microdosing. I'm really exciting about this idea and about how it can connect ideas together and lead to major insights. I read an article about a Silicon Valley top exec who doses in the morning before work. She says in the article 'I don't do coffee, I do acid,' lol

Oh absolutely. I've actually given up creative ventures as carrying them out became way too stressful. This is compounded by the ego trying to hijack the venture and use it for it's own gain. To even start thinking about creating again I've had to let it all go and just become happy with sitting in a room doing nothing. I'm seriously considering using LSD to help me on my way starting up a new creative habit, but I'm little worried as I've only just kicked a daily weed smoking habit and I was using that for years to be creative, up to the point where I didn't want to be creative without it. I'm worried this could happen with microdosing, What happens if I stop doing it and my creativity dries up? By the way I've only tripped once in my life so I'm a total newbie. Also, I seem to have an addictive, pleasure seeking personality, hence the pot habit. @kieranperez How certain are you that you're gonna do a nice big hit and see where it takes you? I'm totally in the same place as you, I feel like I really need to expand my mind a bit. What psychedelic will you go with first? Part of me is tempted to jump in the deep end with some 5-MEO but probably a bad idea given my level of experience. Great thread

@Joseph Maynor Thanks Joseph. Do you mean just making sure you're residing as awareness when you meditate? Being in the moment? Could you elaborate a little a bit?

Can this happen? And if so is it a bad thing? I started a meditation habit a month ago, 1hr a day and I'm loving it. It's even helped me kick a pot addiction. But now 1hr doesn't feel like enough and I keep wanting to get back into that place. Today I did 1hr 20mins and I feel like I could do more. I'm getting an urge to go and do it again even though I've done my hour today and it feels like an addiction as it's almost a craving. I just want to reside in that blissful state of no-self

Oh I certainly will, thanks. I'll let you know how it goes

Ah this is exactly the advice I was looking for myself. I've recently been rocking some 'being cognition' and finally started learning how to let go of control and resistance, which has been very blissful as the control I've been exerting for years has brought me nothing but toil and shit results. But I too have a life purpose and when I get distracted from it, bringing my attention back to it feels like a manipulation. Part of me feels like I should just get out of the driver's seat and wait for awareness to naturally move back. But really it's God manipulating himself, right? The idea of 'I' getting out of the driver's seat is an illusion. So I need to learn this skill of shifting focus in an unattached way, without resistance. There are two forms consciousness can take, resistance and no resistance, attachment and non attachment. The paradox of directing focus in an unattached way...this will be interesting to work on I'm sure that achieving deeper levels of non-dual awareness will help with this as well. At the moment my illusory self is still quite prominent and I need to shift from understanding the truth of Non-self to an actual realisation. My new meditation habit has been helping with this

@Mikael89 I'm inclined to agree

@TheBeachBionic Why do you think guys might not want to sleep with you?

Beautiful words, love it. Your ego has obviously been sidelined quite effectively as I can sense the universe speaking through you

Yes, this is a great point. My issue is of course making assumptions and not contemplating the words I'm using properly. I think my fear also came from having a craving for something as I've just quit a major drug addiction and any cravings worry me now. I get the fear that something is going to get control of me again, distract me and take over, you know? Obviously this is all fear based stuff I need to work on and perhaps differentiate between higher and low consciousness urges. Sweet man, love that. That blew my mind and kicked my fear straight in the nuts This is some deep shit. I think I'm getting what you're saying - namely that the very act of separating the I from the process of meditation (non self) is an illusory boundary. You're saying that the urge to meditate could be an escape from the I, which is itself an illusion? I'm now thinking that all there is is awareness and consciousness and this is the case whether meditation is happening or not...otherwise, as you say, this separation could actually embolden the separate self even more. I'm going to contemplate these passage you posted, thanks Hmm, this isn't quite what I got from what faceless posted, but then again I'm rocking my own relative domain To me it seemed like he was providing a warning against separating the illusory self from the process of meditation by potentially having it as an escape from that Ahh I sense some pain occurring in you here dude. Could it be that you've developed a set of assumptions about faceless and they're charging your perception of what he's saying? Remember that there is no Faceless really and that he's you after all, so I think it would be cool if you could accept him as he is and love him unconditionally as you love yourself. If you don't agree with him that's something else, but I sense you may have created an ideology out of disagreeing with him and now you're judging him based on that. This is one of the worst things we can do to someone, pigeonhole them into an identity and not allow them to just be. But of course, I'm making assumptions here too so I would hate to be a hypocrite and judge you as I don't know all the facts (if indeed that's possible). Maybe some of my words will mean something positive to you, I hope so. Maybe not. It might be worth watching Leo's episode on Moralising as the more conscious you are the less you'll take offence. I still get offended myself so I'm not saying I'm perfect. We all have triggers. Have a look into why Faceless triggers you and work on that as I would imagine there's some fear there somewhere or an aspect of your survival that's being threatened. I think examining it would really benefit you. Much love to you brother

@DustyWhy When you discover the truth it goes beyond trust. If you have to trust in something then you really haven't discovered anything. Most of us were brought up believing that all you can hope for is trust and faith when it comes to any kind of spiritual pursuits, but there are things you can actually discover for yourself within the domain of metaphysics, things you can actually experience. Sure faith can be helpful to keep you going until you dig into some gold. If it's useful at all the book that got me my first actual experience of what actualized.org is about (although it goes a lot deeper) was the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle, so that might be a good place to start to build up some inspiration and get a taste of truth rather than chasing it's tail.

@Outer Beast! Thanks man This is what I was hoping to hear. I'll jump in head first then

@Nahm Thank you To handle the 'thinking' side of the coin I've generally just been allowing it to happen and not identifying with it, which the meditation and the idea of 'letting go' has allowed me to do. I wouldn't say there's bliss involved there yet as with the meditation, but there's definitely more calmness. You raise a really goof point about paying attention to my experience of being when I'm 'off the pillow' as it were. Focused stomach breathing...interesting. I'll give that a go. Thanks for the link too, what a great list! So far I've been sticking with 'do nothing' meditation as I love the way it just allows you to flow with the moment and not resist it through any kind of doing. I know the focused meditation has some uses and I will get into that at some point, but at the moment it seems to involve effort, which I'm trying to move away from. Looking at that list...sky gazing meditation...hmm, sounds awesome. How many have you tried from the list? @PsiloPutty Ah, its so nice to hear enthusiasm from others about my new habit. It's been such a major, life changing thing for me and you guys obviously know where I'm coming from. I wonder how long a strong determination sit would be. At least 3 hours do you think? I'll have to watch Leo's video again. I reckon I could handle two hours at the moment. Have you done any? I do remember Shinzen Young saying these sits are the fastest way to enlightenment. But what if you need the loo? lol. Do I wear a diaper? Yeah I'm doing a bit of contemplation and self enquiry too, although isn't the answer just 'there is no I?' I've had that given to me as a spoiler by various sources. I literally can't find myself and I've realised the self is an illusion so I'm wondering what is it about repeatedly acknowledging this that leads to enlightenment. Maybe I'll ask on another post.

@universe Hell yeah man, that Needy vs non Non Needy perception video changed my shit up big time. I was literally going around labelling everything and now I'm in a state of acceptance and I'm just seeing everything for how it is, not how I want it to be. It has shifted my consciousness. I supplemented it with some Adyashanti videos on letting go and also with a solid practice of 'do nothing' meditation (which helps release control) and I'm loving life right now.

@Your place at Heart Very interesting dude. I've had this fear for years so I think I'll follow your advice and start contemplating it. I've even avoided watching that video of Leos due to fear. Hearing you talk so passionately about your results has inspired me

Indulge me here. I'm just watching Leo's recent episode entitled 'Life is a Maze' and immediately I'm reminded of one of my favourite films growing up, Labyrinth. If you've seen it you'll know what I mean straight away. Here are some of the similarities I noted Sarah begrudgingly accepts her hero's journey for enlightenment, which is personified by her baby brother, stolen from her by David Bowie, who I see as standing for deception, in fact he's a master of deception. So he steals enlightenment (the baby) from her and she must travel through the maze to find it. She meets Hoggle, her guide who agrees to guide her through the Labyrinth Straight away she realises that The Labyrinth is incredibly counter intuitive and the rules she was taught about reality don't apply at all. The first path she finds herself on seems to go on forever, until she accepts the wise words of a little worm guru who tells her that the truth is right in front of her and that there are doorways everywhere, so she progresses When she gets one of her first challenges wrong, by a couple of creatures that give her a paradoxical riddle, she is cast down into a dungeon to be forgotten about, which could easily be seen as a metaphor for depression. Luckily Hoggle knows a way out though! She finally learns how to solve paradox when she completes a riddle given to her by a couple of talking door knockers, and she progresses. the rules of the maze often change on her, for example there are some little imps that keep moving arrow signs around to confuse her, and she loudly exclaims that 'this place is so unfair!' Another strange guru creature then arrives to tell her 'the way forward is sometimes the way back' and also 'sometimes it seems like we're not getting anywhere, when in fact, we are.' All of the companions she meets have a simplicity about them but their defining characteristic is braveness. Bowie appears to offer her shiny objects and casts her into a materialistic fantasy. Some little goblin hoarder arrives and starts offering her loads of crap that she once found meaningful, stuff like makeup and objects relating to her identity. She exclaims 'this is all junk!' and starts smashing it up (this bit really blew me away). She basically realises that it will distract her from her quest for enlightenment. At one point she has to escape a bunch of weird creatures who can swap heads with each other, a perfect metaphor for the nature of identity and how transient and illusory identity is. Near the end they're being attacked by Bowie's goblin minions (who could embody the deceived masses) and she has to call on nature itself to help her defeat them. Her final challenge is the hardest and trippiest of all, wherein Bowie leads her into a very counter-inutivie 'strange-loop' type of maze, exactly like the one created by Escher. Bowie is pulling out all the materialist stops at this point, offering her everything she's ever dreamed of. She can only escape once she exclaims 'You have no power over me!' and then wakes up enlightened (with her baby brother back at home).

@B_Naz Yeah I understand you completely. When you realise that all thoughts/concepts are illusory it can leave you feeling quite disoriented. This is something I've been grappling with recently, trying to figure out what direction to take, what's 'right' as you say..and I finally feel like I'm making some progress. Leo and Peter Ralston, two gurus I follow, are always talking about the truth of direct experience...what this means is..what's true in your experience? If you experienced it, then it's true for you, even if on further investigation, in turns out to be a manipulation. I'll use an example. I'm angry with my wife as she said she wants to leave me. Thats the truth as I'm experiencing it right now. Right now I am authentically angry. But what else is there, in my experience? What's behind the anger? What is the anger protecting? Fear that she no longer loves me. I just had a tangible sense of that..so the anger is a way of masking that vulnerability. So there's another truth. What I'm getting at is, anything I experience is true, even a concept, even a manipulation. If I worry that I'm manipulating, then it's true that I'm worried I'm manipulating, so I investigate for further truths, for effects that are leading to effects. The effect of her saying she's leaving makes me scared, the effect of being scared makes me vulnerable. When I'm vulnerable I get angry to restore control and power. In my maze, everything I experience is true, from one experience to the next. A manipulation is still a truth, see? But it in and of itself is making another truth. So we peel back the layers. For a life goal example..I want to be a music producer. I have a feeling its because I want to connect people through music...so that feeling is the truth. I also have a fear that I'm just doing it for attention...so that fear is the truth, not the thing it points to (me doing it for attention...but the fear itself). Why is this fear there? What's behind that? Maybe I'm afraid that my ego is hijacking me - why am I afraid of that? Because then I won't be able to muster up the passion to actually do it...another fear. So what direction do I go in? I've discovered all of these fears but still I'm not sure what action to take. I'll take this back to letting go of control again. Once we do that our true intentions will start to become clear over time. The universe will speak through us and as long as we remove manipulations that are there through control (manipulations are always there to force control and are a tool of the ego/survival) then I can learn to trust myself again. This is all a question of trust, right? Let go of control and your heart will speak, the true universal self. Are you referring to discovering a manipulation has taken place? If so this should be a sign that you're doing something right. You're allowing things to be and then discovering that there was more at play than you first assumed. Don't get demoralised by these 'failures,' as they're actually great successes. You're being an explorer and not a crazed gold miner. There is a truth here that discovering manipulations make you feel like shit? Why is that a truth for you? What is behind this feeling of disappointment? A fear of having wasted time? A fear of helplessness? Hone in on that feeling and discover further truths. You sound pretty switched on so I'm sure you'll figure this all out. From reading your other posts a lot of this has probably been teaching you to suck eggs somewhat. As long as you're on the path and you're contemplating you'll get to the truth. I'm still learning myself so I can't be sure all of this is accurate, but one thing I know is, it's true that I just experienced it all See how much I had to write though to try and get some truth on this? And I'm not even sure it wasn't all bullshit hahaha - there's a truth. I re-iterate - the quickest way to truth is so let it all go and then see what surfaces from a neutral space. If you're still in doubt, read Peter Ralston's 'The Book of not Knowing.' Get the advice from an enlightened master on this exact topic.